Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Flinch? Or Not?

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 10 of Wands

Flinch? Or unflinching?

Our first mortgage kind of made our shoulders hunch and flinch. We laughed because the payoff date was 2001.  Like that was ever going to get here.

Hamilton Missouri and the Missouri Star Quilt Company yesterday. Arabia Steamboat Museum today via Al's Sweet doughnut shoppe...

Tuesday, September 27, 2016


Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 2 of Swords

Making choices without all the facts.

I'm reminded by this card, that is the norm most of the time if you stop to think about it. There is always something you didn't know before you made the decision. Might not change anything...but then it might have. At some point you just have to jump.

"You can only live in the world you ken. The rest is just wishful thinking or paranoia." ~ Irvine Welsh 1967-

Monday, September 26, 2016

Shared Experiences

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

Shared experiences. Yesterday was Wyoming, with the Teton Mountains and hard scrabble names.  Duck Creek, Wind River, Crow Heart, Eleven Mile Hill, Gun Barrel. We are in North Platte Nebraska this morning.

I'm reminded by this card, name a town west  of the Mississippi and Rob has been there and can tell you the roads that will get you there. Today's fun is he hasn't been across Nebraska since he hauled Oly Beer in the early 70s. An me? As always, the geology.

"The terrain looked like Nebraska—perpetual plains that faded into the horizon. When I asked Taukane where the forest was, he said, simply, "Gone." ~ David Grann 1967-

Sunday, September 25, 2016


Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Sun

Love, love betrayed, death, renewal, vengeance, life. Does he love me, will he love me, did he love me, will he love me again?

I'm reminded by this card, Llew Llaw Gyffes loved, was betrayed and recovered. Having been there I know it changed me in ways that echo still. Turns out he married my best friend and sent her to the hospital a dozen times before she left him. Outer and inner scars, most of us have them.

"A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with." ~ Harry Crews 1935-2012

Saturday, September 24, 2016


Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 3 of Coins

Reputation for quality, considering options. Our 1986 World's Fair room was actually a poorly maintained rooming house in its real life. The boarders, with no where to go, hung around the front steps. $110.00 per night and lucky to get it. Bed and towels were clean. The second night it caught fire, we ended up out on the street at midnight and in the end had to go home  All in all more an adventure to reminisce over.

I'm reminded by this card of me. I like clean. Our prebooked room last night rates as a horror. We didn't stay, but are still shuddering. Dirty sheets, bloody mattress, sink didn't drain, stench, uncapped wall plugs, no towels, and that was the good parts.  Another adventure to reminisce over as we cross our beautiful country.

"Be a yardstick of quality. Some people aren't used to an environment where excellence is expected." ~ Steve Jobs 1955-2011

Friday, September 23, 2016


Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Horned One/Devil

"No chains or pain, just life in its natural state"
A life well lived accepts all the consequences we bring to it.

I'm reminded by this card no one made anyone do it and no one but we can forgive it, by letting go of the idea we can still change our past actions.  A life much improved by clarity opened up when I accepted this. And my mind's Mad Monkey calmed down, always a good thing.

"Logical consequences are the scarecrows of fools and the beacons of wise men." ~ Thomas Huxley   1825-1895

Thursday, September 22, 2016


Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Nyd/Nauthiz

Time of need, feeling the pinch.
I have  a friend on the other side of the country who is caring for a seriously ill husband. I'd give a lot if I could be there for her, to give her respite care she sorely needs.

I'm reminded by this card of the zero family support Rob got through all my dramas. All I had to do was do as I was told, be where I was told, he had to carry the whole load of caring on his own. Would it have hurt any of his family to call and ask how he was?

"What is drama but life with the dull bits cut out?" ~ Alfred Hitchcock 1899-1980

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Chew Over Enlightenment

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Ken/Kenaz

Enlightenment, revelation, positive path via new knowledge. Sounds great doesn't it?

I'm reminded by this card of the 1976 national election. I made up my mind to vote for Ford early on. On the eve of the election I saw a long ad for Ford in which the final sentence shocked and angered me. So I voted for Carter. It was a mistake, he wasn't a DC insider, he had no contacts or leverage or history and he spent 4 years spinning his wheels. Of men I admire he would be at the top..but in DC? I learned a lesson to chew over enlightenment, see who or what is manning the switch.

"Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water." ~ Zen Proverb

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Harvest Of What?

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Ger/Jera

In agricultural societies, a good or bad harvest meant life or death and what you couldn't grow yourself could be expensive or difficult to get. Now we have grocery stores and EBT cards and a comparative bed of roses life.

I look at Ger and wonder what my harvest has been, of the fallow years devoted to anger and illness. Of the productive years and all we've accomplished and gained. Of a working life with few vacations but fun every day Rob was home; I'd choose that again. An overharvest of possessions, oh yes, I'd redo that in an instant. Totally differently.  And I wonder what exactly am I harvesting now. Will I look back in ten years and wonder, "what was I thinking?".

"Life is not a harvest. Just because you have an apple doesn’t mean you have an orchard. You have an apple. Put a fence around it. Once you have put a fence around everything you value, then you have the total circle of your heart." ~ Sheila Heti 1976-  How Should a Person Be?

Monday, September 19, 2016

Hug Bridge

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Mann/Mannaz

Who we are internally and externally in relationship to mankind. A big subject. We could start with race and dwell there a lifetime, never partaking of the cup of friendship across culture, our loss. We could start with faith, and spend a lifetime alienating/fighting/prothletising something that should be internal. We could start with gender and never get past agenda and suspicion.

I'm reminded by this card, in a small world that has always been safe I could say I have reached out on all planes. But it hardly counts because I've never been out in the large world. I would hope I would offer my hand, open my mind, and give and take a hug. Hugs bridge much.

"The human species is made up of seven billion subspecies each consisting of one specimen." ~ Robert Brault, author