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Friday, January 30, 2015

Go Back And Fix It Times Two

Tao Oracle + I Ching Book of Changes
64 Before Completion  54 Marrying Maiden

Last chances to get it right. Every day we complete tasks, pronounce it finished, and move on. But sometimes something niggles. The quilt top from the quilt mystery that starts in November is finished and hanging on my working wall. Except yesterday as I assembled the border units I realized I missed four spots ripe for some added drama. Rolled my eyes and said no way, it's good enough. But it isn't. Today I'll do some seam ripping and fix it.

What has the marrying maiden to do with us? Compromising situations where we wimp out and say "I was just doing my job".  Worst case scenario, the death camps. Compared to that we might think "this isn't so bad, who does it hurt?" This card reminds me, it hurts me and I should have said no, to a boss I respected and admired who annually had me create false documents relating to the sale of deicer. I hated doing it, but I did it. It was my job, right? In retrospect I know I wouldn't have been fired, someone else would have been assigned the job. Why didn't I just say no? So today, twenty-five years later it still bothers me. I wish I could fix it.

I Ching 64 Wei Chi/Before Completion
"The transition from chaos to order depends upon your achieving true inner calm."

I Ching 54 Kuei Mei/The Marrying Maiden
"In relationships desires lead to misfortune.Behave with discipline and balance."

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Sit Up And Gripe

Tao Oracle + I Ching Book of Changes
47 Oppression ~ 24 Turning Point

The Book of Changes suggest when life is this dark, struggle is useless. While we are waiting for the stones to roll off us, we need to be getting our mind right. It is a nice idea, but this list is like a facial scar or missing limb, these words are real, they have substance, and cheerful peaceful thinking doesn't dispel anything in that moment.
We do it because it is expected of us, so we are no trouble, so we don't make waves which effectively blocks communication. What is there to talk about, she is fine. On the other hand, a walk in the sunshine, head up rather than watching our feet is always a good idea...

The Turning Point is likened to winter solstice, that moment you know and feel the light coming back. I can believe and get behind that idea. We've picked up better than an hour of evening light in the past thirty days. Now if 'they' would destroy daylight savings time. Ridiculous in a 24/7 world. I guess if we can manage to sit up and gripe we're not too far gone. Turning point indeed.

I Ching 47 K'un/Oppression + Exhaustion
"An unavoidable time of adversity. Quiet strength insures a later success."

I Ching 24 Fu/Return
"A time of darkness comes to a close."

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Smart-Aleck

Daily Draw: Tao Oracle + I Ching Book of Changes
6  Conflict

All of the triggers on this card create conflict. We are humans, with egos, and these situations do come up. I Ching recommends instant and total disengagement.

I'm reminded by this card I can do this, sometimes all too easily, but just as often I allow myself to be caught up in someone else's ego carpola before I even think of the disconnect button. And my long term modus operandi is a smart-aleck response before I disconnect. I keep expecting to grow out of that...

I Ching 6
"The proper response to conflict, whether it lies within or without us is disengagement."

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Too Much Of Not Much

I Ching Book of Changes + Tao Oracle
55 Abundance

The Book of Changes likens this to the top of the tarot Wheel, and suggests pulling our various length life strings to us, considering them all, choosing the valuable, letting go of dross. Great thought provoking task, it doesn't take us much time to gather or do a lot of too much of not much.

The Tao suggests we are now at that spot, and to consider how in all our abundance, we can share in a manner that credits us without any showiness.  In that respect I have finally found something to do for my community, something I've been trying to come up with for months. I'm looking forward to it, perhaps I'll begin today. It is very me, my time my dime.

I Ching 55
"A moment of great influence is at hand. Prepare wisely and act accordingly."

Monday, January 26, 2015

Lollygagging

I Ching Book of Changes + Tao Oracle
63 Completion ~ 58 Joyous

The one drawback to retirement: First getting your head around the idea you have all day week month to do a job, and then taking all day week month to do a job.
What I've set for my work task today I would have done in two hours when I knew I had to leave for work at 8 AM.
What I will do, and enjoy doing is mosey along on it, interspersed with dipping into my two hour computer time, adding stitches to the quilt top almost finished, visiting with my little chickens...in other words lollygagging skygazing navel inspecting like a ten year old in the outfield playing recess baseball.
I'll get there but it is lovely to savor the joyous journey of it all. This is a different world for someone who has worked steadily since she was fifteen. As long as I don't lose track entirely, which is in fact, my base fear.
(edited to add, I completed my chosen task finally at 5:30 PM, only took me 11 hours. life is good)

I Ching 63 Chi Chi After Completion
"Good fortune unfolds for those who remain on guard against inferior influences."

I Ching 58 Tui The Joyous
"True joy is experienced by those who are strong within and gentle without."

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Collision

I Ching Book of Changes + Tao Oracle
12 Standstill ~ 53 Development

Fanned and drew a card, two came out.
If this isn't me in a nutshell...
Frozen by grief, black rage, two cancers, depression, 24/7 care of mother...
and then release.
Now it is a matter of either 'coming back' or going forward.
I'm trying to do both, maybe that collision isn't the answer.

But without the 'back' who am I?

I Ching 12 P'I Standstill (Stagnation)
"In times of stagnation attend to your attitude"

I Ching 53 Chien Development (Gradual Progress)
"Those who persevere make continuous progress."

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Remodel

Daily Draw: Ananda Tarot ~ 4 of Coins/Spheres

Maintenance and proper care for what we have creates stability. I laughed when I saw this, our house is about forty years old now and baths and kitchen are showing their age. We had the bright idea to have the upstairs bath redone after we saw a gorgeous seamless shower mock-up at a quilt show of all places. We did the tear-out, and mid-November the shower went in.

I'm reminded by this card tomorrow we will be grouting the floor tile and it will be finished. Well almost...there are still two cupboards that need doors but that shouldn't take us more than..six weeks? We will shortly be washing in the new sink and presiding on the new throne and all that will be left to do is clean the house top to bottom of all the drywall dust. Arrugh. We've been here twenty plus years, and the house is becoming a bit like George Washington's ax. Two new heads and three new handles, but it is still his ax. And we've done most of the work. 4 of Coins in action.

"Before you're going to do any remodeling, you should check out the existing market for another home and you're going to find that you can't afford to move anyway. So part of the process becomes being clear about liking where you live." ~   Paul Winans 1948-

Friday, January 23, 2015

Hardened Minds Hardened Hearts

Daily Draw: Ananda Tarot ~ Moon

Can you see the two connected figures on the Moon face? The implication being we are connected to all creatures whether we accept it or not. That we ourselves are a whole made up of both our conscious and unconscious perceptions.

I'm reminded by this card the older I get the less connection I feel to other humans. Our hardened minds and hearts have turned us into monsters who only get involved when something touches us on a personal level. Which is often a danger only imagined to begin with. Our evolutionary crab might rethink coming out of the primordial ooze. We are neither ready nor worthy of life.

"Silence is a lie that screams at the light." ~ Shannon L. Alder

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Does The Heart Think?

Daily Draw: Ananda Tarot ~ King of Cups

He both protects his heart light and guards against that which dims it. In this way he holds true his instincts for a clearly defined life.

I'm reminded by this card the fine line between a distrustful nature, and an open one. The former kills by eliminating choices the latter frees this King to explore all options without commitment.

"Mind has door. A password can open it.
That word is stored safely in your heart,
waiting for your willingness to retrieve it." ~ Toba Beta  My Ancestor Was an Ancient Astronaut

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

35,000 Years To Get It Right

Daily Draw: Ananda Tarot ~ King of Coins/Spheres

Spirit and matter combine to create the groundwork for the conditions of earthly existence. (Ananda Kurt Pilz) Isn't that nice wordsmithing? This makes me think of a new moon and the light in a refrigerator and a tree falling in the forest. Are they real if we can't see or hear them?

I'm reminded by this card, and this protector and keeper King, of the age of earth (4.5 billion years), of the earliest known humanoid (1.6 billion years), of the earliest known homo sapiens (330,000 years), of man with culture (writing, music, art) 35,000 years. That is a long time trying to get it right...and there is still a huge gap between real and ideal. Are we that poor pickers of Kings? Or are we poor followers? Both apparently.

 "A few hundred years ago every one knew the world was flat! Think what you will know tomorrow." ~ Tommy Lee Jones, Men In Black