Friday, June 22, 2018

Leave Her There

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 7 of Wands/Nature

Tumulus. Burial mound, grave marker, barrow.

I still go too often.
I have last summers grave flowers arranged on my deck.
Maybe someday, when I can say her name, I'll leave her there.
But I doubt it.

Thursday, June 21, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 2 of Wands/Nature

"Happy Development" A child and a stone toy.
Looks like a toy bullroarer with elements of learning involved.
Scraping my brain around into different mounds, trying to remember some childhood toys.

There was the red board. Supposed to mimic a woodpecker because one end was pointed. It has yellow legs pinioned into two spaces and became a walking woodpecker for as long as you wanted to bend over and lift it up and down so the legs swung.

There was the ever evolving round Quaker Oats box. We'd get a new one about once a month.

And the song Beep Beep The Little Nash Rambler makes me laugh still, and wonder how many miles my big brother and I crept and then ran full out around the house downstairs while it played.

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Haves And Have-Nots

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~9 of Cups/Soul

"Necessity of ritual sacrifice"
Being impaled, while bound. Many nations have used this action through history. As capital punishment, like hanging, electrocuting, beheading, impaling supposedly deters miscreants.  And is the opposite spectrum from the standard card, a chubby man chortling over his nine cups.

Life is ever made up from the haves and the have-nots. If I were a desperate have not, there isn't much that would deter me from survival.
Odd old deck isn't it?

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Talent + Practice

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 3 of Coins/Jewels

"Abundant production" A craftsman offering a mask. I could happily go around the world just watching the production journey from a single person or original to finish giant manufacturing plant.

Yesterday our tree man came in and fell a telephone pole in the field next door. Came down exactally where he said it would, as have the trees we've had him fall. Talent + Practice. + thoughtfulness. He sawed it into eight foot sections for our corner and pull-to fence posts.

Monday, June 18, 2018

Blend And Drain

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Force/Temperance 

If we set aside the brain, which may or  may not be of any use, I wonder how much innate instinct we have compared to a rabbit or elk or dog. Not much, in primordial times, but enough.

Many readers say they read by their instincts rather than basic tarot structure. I wonder what they mean by that. I wonder if it could be said that I do too

As we blend, separate, reabsorb, and drain again, what we might of thought of as instinctive behavior ten or twenty years ago has probably reformed into new thoughts and responses. Each day we get, we remake ourselves from what we had, what we have, what we take what we are given. A good thing I think, giving us the path to better rather than stunted and misshapen.

Sunday, June 17, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Moon

The feminine. That which pulls us and pushes us. The strength we find when our strength fails.

I'm reminded by this card I started a project this week which common sense about my eyes says is doomed to fail. Bull.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

Who Pays

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Justice/Adjustment

What about when things go amiss even when many eyes double check? This beautiful deck and the little book have a number of errors. Which should have been caught by the artist, author, and publisher.

How will Justice be meted? Thousands of decks to the landfill? Say it isn't so! Will the current purchasers get corrected cards and little book, or will new decks be shipped to them? Who will foot the expense?

I think there were two of this card, the other with oxen. The drivers goad and the yoke standing in for sword and scale. I want it. Adjustment indeed.

Friday, June 15, 2018

Below and Above

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Temperance

A gender equal deck, he blends action + reaction, male + female, the truth and the vision, id + ego. Above and then below, below and then above.

I'm reminded by this card of a peasant farmer in a hard scrabble country vs. everyday life in a G6 nation. They have limited access to most things modern, we have exciting input around us 24/7. Both ends of the spectrum need Temperance to find the balance I feel makes my life worth living.

Thursday, June 14, 2018

My Mind Refuses To Mind

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Don't lose the big picture by being caught up in the small stuff.
Perhaps this is where the light has been leaking from my days.

Small things which even by short term history are immaterial.
Animals die, houses burn, storms kill. There is no way to stop time or history to save anyone before or after the fact. Rather than the mad monkey mind which jumps from subject to subject, this mind lingers dwells drifts where it shouldn't, allowing even silken ribbons to drag us down.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Make It Stop

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

A creature of compassion: Sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.
Creature of empathy: The ability to understand and share the feelings of another.
Creature of coping:  Dealing with responsibilities, problems, or difficulties in a calm and adequate manner.

I would attribute all these qualities to this Queen. To do it she also needs a stone heart and steel backbone. Because where does it stop, all this caring? The light at the edge of my wellness is wavering. And I know the second it started.