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Sunday, September 30, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ 3 of Wands

I should thumbtack this card to my forehead to remind myself about moderation. This card identifies the person that can go overboard. There are a lot of good qualities that go along with that; leadership, commitment, conscientiousness, but with that you can also get zealot, workaholic, perfectionist... if a sense of balance can be brought into this personality you can have a real winner.

As shown on this card the figure has taken the job of point-man for the wagon train. He has to be a out of the box thinker and a fixer in that position, a true leader. He is the first to take unfriendly fire, the first across the river, the first to realize this path is wrong. The personal rewards are great, but the public rewards are minimal. People only notice the point-man when things go wrong, they seldom acknowledge when things go smooth.

"Better to be a strong man with a weak point, than a weak man without a strong point. A diamond with a flaw is more valuable than a brick without a flaw." ~ William J.H. Boetcker 1873-1962

The deck this week is Tarot of the New Vision by Lo Scarabeo. An interesting concept based on what a standard deck would look like if viewed in the reverse.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ Wheel of Fortune

One of the givens of existence on this planet, like death and taxes, is the Wheel of Fortune. Sometimes we're up and sometimes we aren't. We seem to be up lately but I well recall times of hanging by our thumbs from the bottom of the wheel.

I'm also old enough to recognize that fame and/or fortune don't equal or bring happiness. Many lottery winners find themselves bankrupt and beset by lawsuits. Read between the lines of the life of the famous and you see strings of broken relationships, estrangement from family, inability to know who to trust...you couldn't give that life to me. I'm content with my own little crumb of the cosmos. Perhaps that is when the Wheel truly starts to ascend, when we learn to acknowledge our small blessings and begin to steer the wheel ourselves.

"Losing fortune, many a lucky elf has found himself." ~ Horace Horatio Smith 1779-1849

Friday, September 28, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

The wonderful terrible distractions of the modern day world. So many pleasant ways to spend waste time. I'm sitting at one of them right now. Part of my income comes from computer work, but I'd say that only covers about half of the time I spend here. Such a marvelous tool, full of information to glean, friends to visit with, places to go...What did I do with those hours pre-computer?

I know I used to get a lot more books read. I have at least 6 on my nightstand, one in my purse, 14 here on the desk, one on the kitchen counter and 3 on the dining room table, all in line to be read, referenced, or in process of being read. But I sure don't get through as many books as I used to. And that is just one way worldly distractions have impacted my life.

How about personal vehicles? My car is another source of my income, a must have, but I sure seem to spend an inordinate amount of time in it for someone who doesn't much care for driving. When I was a kid the family had one vehicle and dad drove it to work. When mom needed to do groceries and pay bills we'd all get up at 6 AM, ride the 13 miles to town together, and we'd be there until dad was finished with work. Those were great days because we got to see both grandmothers! I'll bet they were wearing on mother though. Other than those one or two days a month we'd be found at home. No television, one big floor model wooden cased radio with about 100 knobs, the on off being the only one of any use. And lots and lots of farm work. I think I let a lot of things go that my mother probably did routinely. I never bother with the outside of the windows, mother did hers every couple of months. I have a whip round with the vacuuming, mother had to move all the furniture and haul the rolled up rug outside for a good beating. I can wash and dry all our laundry in a couple of hours, mother had a wringer washer that while quite modern was also labor intensive, and then laundry was hung on lines. Outside on a good day, on lines in the kitchen on bad days. My laundry comes out of the dryer ready to wear, we used to iron and iron and iron.

We eat when we remember to do so, wherever we are working at the moment; mother served 3 meals a day, at the table, on time, and still does.

There is much good in both today and yesterday's world, but I'm reminded by this card that modern time-saving devices come with a big price. They don't save any time, they provide another way to spend it.

"My mother's menu consisted of two choices: Take it or leave it." ~ Buddy Hackett 1924-2003

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

A beautiful card for today as I am truly filled with peace and a deep sense of spirituality in my life. Drama and chaos wear me to a nub yet I have a dear friend who thrives on it. Our differences are what make us interesting and we all get something in return for our actions that feeds our spirit.

I'm reminded by this card that part of the peace I feel right now is the result of large and small life victories this year, as also noted by the Prince of Swords and the 6 of Wands this week. I welcome the respite and draw strength toward whatever coming turmoil occurs.

"Let go of your attachment to being right, and suddenly your mind is more open. You're able to benefit from the unique viewpoints of others, without being crippled by your own judgment." ~ Ralph Marston 1963-

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ Page of Coins

I'm drawing a blank...I need a new source of income, maybe the angel riding at my shoulder will come through, and it will involve my goats...? A totally bunkum reading. But it happens. An acquaintance yesterday said she'd been to a reader who told her she was in for toil and trouble because she'd brought bad vibes with her from a past life. But for $500.00 the reader could provide a special crystal that would free her. Replace crystal with candle or potion or hen's head and you have a bunkum reading from a con artist. Never Never Never believe what one of these charlatans says, and Never Never Never return. A con is a con is a con in any business.

I'm remind by this Page of Coins that the cards never lie...but a reader can.

"The superior man understands what is right; the inferior man understands what will sell." ~ Confucius 551-479 BCE

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ Knight of Swords

St. George is working over his dragon in this scene. Myself, I've always been on the side of the dragons. Folks with a powerful agenda can seldom see but their own viewpoint, one of the biggest faults of mankind in my humble opinion. It has certainly led to the extinction of both creature and human species. A grey mood for a grey card but it speaks of misused strength and misguided passion...if I used reversals the dragon would be on top and the man/horse combo would be on their back. Go dragon, go!

I'm reminded by this card there is no need to use reversals because the querent, the reader, the question, and the spread will tell what needs to be shown at that particular time. Another day, a different querent and this could be seen as a coming victory over great odds.

"A fanatic is one who can't change his mind and won't change the subject." ~ Sir Winston Churchill 1874-1965

Monday, September 24, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ The Lovers

Hopeful or hopeless, the bulk of the questions we readers hear are from the lovelorn. Is she the one, is he cheating, should I take a chance, can I trust them; almost always questions asked in a manner which gives away the persons personal power to the cards. Yes/No queries are better asked of a Magic 8 Ball or a coin toss for all the good they do. Tarot's real power and ability to help starts with the question; the magic if you must call it that will then come from the cards drawn. Reformulate the query to begin with What can I or How can I and the answers the cards give will show the querent that changes, answers, and success lie within their own power.

So much for today's sermon on the Mount...and back to Love. When I was in high school our biology teacher said something I couldn't believe, being over-run with hormones at the time. He said the beautiful thing about married love is that it grows over time and becomes less concerned with sex and more about being true best friends. Never happen I thought to myself, but he is old (all of 30) so what can he know? But it is true and one of the greatest long-term gifts of partnership that we can receive. It is easy to jump start the sex when hormones settle down, but only time and effort can build that bridge to trust and friendship and sadly most couples won't put in the time; They never even see the bridge let alone try to cross it to something deeper and better. Their loss, their blindness.

"Marriage is more than four bare legs in a bed." ~ Hoshang N. Akhtar

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Daily Draw: Golden Tarot ~ 6 of Wands

In battle there is a start and a stop, you know who was the victor of the day. In life it is often difficult to know if you are winning or losing as one day follows the next. You might clean up the last threads of something started 2 years ago, and start something that may not be finished for in your lifetime. So buried in the mundane we forget the thrill of victory, whether it be out-of-the-blue or hard won.

I'm reminded by this card that each day brings us opportunities to acknowledge and celebrate small victories, and to bury and move on from our small losses. Keeping the slate clean helps us recognize both. Avoiding a cluttered mind and a cluttered life helps us achieve the win and recognize and amend an approaching loss.

The deck this week is the Golden Tarot by Kat Black, published by U.S. Games and is collage art based on medieval and Renaissance paintings. One of the many things that sets this deck apart from other collaged decks is that she gives credit to the artists/source used on each card. Definitely a class act.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ Page of Cups

This Page can be as one with nature, is often quiet and mediative. I don't stop and appreciate this beautiful world nearly enough. I whip through my life saying "oh what a nice day" but seldom just sit back and look at the shape of a tree, the bark, the leaf structure, the color of the sky...

I should take a page from my goat's book. They must be working, their acre and a half paddock is pretty tidy, but mostly when I look they are loafing on their gravel pile chewing their cud. Maybe I need the equivalent of a cud as a reminder to slow down, look up, appreciate and reflect on the day. After all I'll never get it back.

A soul without reflection, like a house without inhabitant, to ruin runs. ~ Edward Young 1683-1765

Friday, September 21, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ King of Cups

Karen Kuykendall, the deck author, indicated this King holds the cup of knowledge and that it can represent among others, a lawyer. I know a lot of funny lawyer jokes, and in fact worked for a group of 11 attorneys for nearly a year. One of the shortest jobs I ever had, just couldn't stick it out. That said, they are just people, with an education and a shingle to hang out. A thought for the day though, how many really smart, educated people do you know that also have common sense? We had a highly educated couple living next to us for many years; we hoped they'd never move because they provided weekly entertainment in just how little common sense they had. That isn't a put down, just a fact based on long observation.

I would always recommend jumping at any opportunity to further higher education, but if I had to choose between book smarts and street smarts I'd take the street smarts any day.

"Common sense is genius dressed in it's working clothes". ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson 1803-1882

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ 3 of Swords

Have you ever been so mad at someone you stopped speaking to them? Forever? I had two great-aunts who had a falling out in their 30's and never spoke to or of each other again. I have an aunt by marriage who hasn't spoken to her son in at least 18 years. She is now literally on her deathbed and still nourishes that hard knot of anger daily. I have a shirt-tail cousin I haven't spoken to nor acknowledged his presence for at least 30 years. Were it harm to me I'd probably have gotten over it in a few weeks...but he did something unforgivable to my husband so I don't care if we live another 50 years, he is invisible to me.

Yet I've had other incidents that were probably equal or worse and no harm done. We've made our peace and gone on in a friendly manner. So is it our mood on a particular day that makes us do something this drastic, literally take a sword and cut someone out of our life? How do you measure harm and hurt? Why is something forgivable on one day and not another?

I'm reminded by this card that I'm older and wiser now, that life has given me better tools for living than I had in my 20's, and to use that accumulated knowledge for a happier ending when faced with a breach of trust that harms the heart.

"Of the Seven Deadly Sins, anger is possibly the most fun. To lick your wounds, to smack your lips over grievances long past, to roll over your tongue the prospect of bitter confrontations still to come, to savor to the last toothsome morsel both the pain you are given and the pain you are giving back -- in many ways it is a feast fit for a king. The chief drawback is that what you are wolfing down is yourself. The skeleton at the feast is you." ~ Frederick Buechner 1926-

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ 8 of Wands

Life as a juggling act. There comes a point where no matter how quickly you act you have too many obligations and some or all are going to get short shrift. Time to rethink priorities.

I'm reminded by this card not to wear a hair shirt today because I had to turn away a very lucrative client. I would not have been able to do her justice yet it took me a week to tell her no because I hoped a miracle would happen and I'd have 36 hours in my days. Uh, no, not going to happen. Sometimes no is the only right answer.

"I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure: Try to please everybody." ~ Herbert. B. Swope 1882-1958

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ Knight of Wands

The Bobcat and his Knight are nomads ranging far and wide. Knowing many places and peoples, forming roots with none. Sounds like a sad life written out like that but it is a pretty good descriptor of my adult life. We've moved for a lot of reason and are preparing to move again, but to me it's a great adventure and I'm looking forward to it. I see all my belongings with a fresh new eye because they are in different settings, I enjoy making the acquaintance with the new butcher, baker, and candlestick maker. I carry my work with me so there isn't the problem of finding a new job...all in all, yes, a new adventure is afoot.

Our coming path will often be difficult, but I'm reminded by this card of our good fortune in doing it by choice. Show me a rut, so I can be sure not to follow it.

"Something in October sets the gypsy blood astir, We must rise and follow her; When from every hill of flame, She calls each vagabond by name” ~ William Bliss Carmen 1861-1929

Monday, September 17, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ 8 of Swords

A self-made prison where the figure has even bound herself to her means of escape and gives every indication of being happy to be there. A pity-party is in progress and aren't there just a million different ways to wallow in drama and tragedy. Most everyone loves to root for and give a hand up to the underdog, but self-made victims are another story.

I'm reminded by this card to think about what ties me to and keeps me barred within the next situation that depresses or saddens me. Is it my actions that put me there? Did I allow, enable, or encourage actions that weren't for the best of all concerned? Is there a door I can walk through, mentally or physically, that will lessen or end the pain? Have I told the same sad-sack story to more than one person? If so it is a pity-party...time to find some solutions.

"So how's that working for ya?" Dr. Phil McGraw

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ Queen of Wands

Flexible and diplomatic, two important character traits. Flexible because life throws us curve balls all the time and we need to accept change with grace and courage and if possible with an open heart. If we close ourselves off, refuse to accept change (as if we had a choice) we close ourselves to much of what is also good on this earth. Flexibility helps us bend without breaking under stress and change.

Diplomacy, now there is an indispensable tool! Our differences are what makes life interesting but often we have trouble communicating clearly when our differences are important to us and part and parcel of our makeup. This is when diplomacy is worth it's weight in gold. To say what we mean with intelligence and sincerity and keep the conversation on the subject and not on the participants...anyone who has been around the web communities for awhile will recognize the word flame. If we refuse to flame and stay on subject a fascinating exchange of information occurs and we all learn there is no black and white and that there is room for everyone's opinions. Opinions are not actions, just thoughts, no harm done and if we think we know everything we're doomed already. We always have room to learn, change, grow.

"What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments, but what is woven into the lives of others." ~ Pericles 495BC-429BC

Tarot of the Cat People by Karen Kuykendall, is a beautiful deck based on the four kingdoms of the Outer Regions. Published by U.S. Games

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ Ace of Wands

Great card for today, we have an enormous cleaning project staring us in the face. It is part and parcel of a new adventure and the Ace of Wands is a perfect descriptor.

I've always loved starting something new, a new quilt, a new book, a new deck of cards... the first day back to school was always a unique feeling, everything old was made new again and at least for that day full of shining opportunity. It is always a good feeling to put paid to a project too, showing I've mustered the moxie to finish what I start. So on to this shining Ace of Wands day.

"I see my path, but I don't know where it leads. Not knowing where I'm going is what inspires me to travel it." ~ Rosalia de Castro 1837-1885

Friday, September 14, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ King of Cups

Definitely a King of Cups day dedicated to my husband. If all men were like him it would be a funny old world but all the women would sure be happy. It would put traditional Tarot Readers out of business because relationship problems make up the bulk of questions we get from querents. He is dedicated, devoted, thoughtful, and the hardest worker I've ever met, yet it doesn't consume his life, he always has time for his little family.

I'm remind by this card that we get out of something what we put into it, and to always go the extra mile for my Rob, he is worth it.

"Love without reverence and enthusiasm is only friendship." ~ George Sand 1804-1876

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ 10 of Cups

A nice card for today and very apt. Oddly enough this is the first time this year I've pulled this card. There are 4 or 5 others that haven't come up, yet there are cards I've pulled 6 or 7 time each. I think a statistician would have a field day with the odds on tarot cards. Especially since I use a different deck each week and shuffle the bejabbers out of the cards.

Today and tomorrow are indeed days of completion and celebration. The funny little book that comes with this deck says 'the bar is fully stocked'. I'm not a drinker but I can appreciate and understand the analogy. I accept the gift today that we are on the up side of the wheel, not something that I take for granted or expect to last long.

"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort." ~ Herm Albright 1876-1944

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ The Fool

I have to laugh at all the bits flying out of this Fool's purse. I have a client who Always knows where everything is, who puts everything away when it isn't in use and invariably when I'm around her I misplace my keys, forget something in the car, head out the wrong way... I'm an organized efficient person, I promise! So why do I insist on making a Fool of myself with this client? I think I'd need a therapist's couch to answer that one.

I'm reminded by this card to do a better job of keeping my wits about me. Being disorganized costs money and even more importantly, time. And to remember that no one is perfect...relax, get over it.

"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers." ~ M. Scott Peck 1936-2005

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ Ace of Swords

This ace speaks of new challenges or ordeals. OK, bring it on, I'm up for it. Amazing what a few days off can do for a person. Something to keep in mind next time I'm feeling overwhelmed and set-upon. Step out of the picture for a day, refuse that 2nd helping of misery. Challenges will generally wait...

I'm reminded by this card there is a lot of ways to approach something but one thing to keep in the forefront of my mind is I am always the smallest cog. We are merely a button on the shirt of the world, not critical to its running. I I I me me me needs to keep things in perspective. If I I I me me me drops dead things will still get worked out. And sometimes the challenge is in my mind and not real at all.

We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are. ~ Anais Nin 1903-1977

Monday, September 10, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

Often shown as stop and rethink, or rest and recuperate, this deck has a fresh new take on the 4 of Swords. Rejuvenate, remake, re-energize. The 4's are often drawn when someone is spinning their wheels or have hit the wall. The cards know it is time to think outside the box and take a new tack.

I'm reminded by this card, as by yesterday's, that many of our problems are the the direct result of doing the same dumb thing over and over yet expecting better results. Not going to happen. Each day is a fresh clean page, today I'll try something new and appreciate the improved results.

"A pat on the back is only a few vertebrae removed from a kick in the pants, but is miles ahead in results." ~ Ella Wheeler Wilcox 1850-1919

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Daily Draw: Housewives Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

Bittersweet memories. I was thinking yesterday about one of my first serious romances. How much fun we had and some of the crazy things we did brought a smile to my face. But drawing this card today reminds me that he was also already an alcoholic, and that the woman he married ended up in the hospital 6 times from beatings before she finally divorced him. We often see the past through rose-colored glasses and that's ok for simple remembering. But basing real-time decisions on those type of memories isn't such a good thing. We must drag reality into the light of day or we are destined to repeat old mistakes.

Yet the lesson of the 6 of cups is that we can turn the sourest lemons into lemonade. For instance the worst vacation we've ever taken. Through the long distance viewer you'd think it was a great adventure because time has faded the memories of discomfort and unexpected expenses and we can tell the stories with laughter. No rose-colored glasses, but time has reformed the bad into something that no longer matters at all.

"It was as if all of the happiness, all of the magic of this blissful hour had flowed together into these stirring, bittersweet tones and flowed away, becoming temporal and transitory once more." Hermann Hesse 1877-1962

The deck this week is The Housewives Tarot by Paul Kepple and Jude Buffum published by Quirk Books.

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ 3 of Wands

When I look at this card I see 3 little girls at the beach posing for a photo. Locked in time, a memory on paper. What it means for me today though is successful progress on the project we've been working on this year. Another milepost will be passed this morning on a path I never would have dreamed would have come this far. Not without a lot of tears and heart ache anyway.

What is it about human nature that persists in expecting the worst, shoulders hunched, eyes squinted against the onslaught? If we had to put numbers to it I'd guess under 5% of the things we worry about ever come to happen. And it's usually the things we hadn't considered that come and give us a great whacking wake-up call. I will say that reordering my mind into positive channels has made a world of difference. I spend a lot less time worrying about stuff that will never happen and a lot more time savoring the good. For instance I could be sitting here with my stomach tied in knots about today, but hey, I have a 3 of Wands card, so instead I'll savor that I had a free-lance piece accepted by a magazine yesterday...so perhaps good news about my manuscript submission won't be far behind. A girl can dream!

"Some see things as they are and say, "Why?" I dream of things that never were and say, "Why not?" ~ George Bernard Shaw 1856-1950

Friday, September 7, 2007

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ Queen of Swords

I've often thought of the Queen of Swords as someone who takes life very seriously, therefore becomes an easy target for having her chain yanked. They are half-way through the roof before they realize you are kidding. But having a sense of humor is not a one size fits all trait. Each persons is different and some of the most serious people can be much funnier than a stand-up comedian, maybe because we are never expecting it. A friend with a Queen of Swords side is a great friend to have when times are troubled, as she can help see past the superfluous to what the root of the matter might be.

I'm reminded by this card of how thankful and appreciative I am of a small group of women who've been together for years. We seldom let each other wear blinders for long, we can turn tragedy into something we can cope with, and we can laugh with and at each other. Their Queen of Swords side is a daily blessing.

"Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom." ~ Marcel Proust 1871-1922

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ Justice

If true justice is desired then clarity and objectivity are required. It is easy to read the paper and say so-and-so aught to be in jail. Not so easy when it is a brother or daughter in the same situation. Multiple layers of issues enter the picture and reasons and excuses can be found without end. And focus is turned on the family...who has been enabling? How many years did it take me to learn the truth of "Drunks Lie"? We enable because we don't know any better and we aren't born with tools to deal with dysfunctional family members. When we do wake up it is sometimes years too late...and Justice beyond our hands enters the picture and becomes Judgment.

"Justice consists not in being neutral between right and wrong, but in finding out the right and upholding it against the wrong." ~ Theodore Roosevelt 1858-1919

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ 10 of Pentacles

If we were rating seasons Autumn would get a 10 of Pents from me. I love my pantry being full of the seasons harvest. The specialty gladiolus are coming into bloom, the giant pumpkins are beginning to fulfill their promise, the big jobs of the year are completed, the holidays begin to beckon with their traditions of family, food, and fun. I love the smell in the air of drying leaves, particularly the cottonwoods down by the marina where I've walked so often. I even like the funny fall yard dandelions; not fat sassy and aggressive like the spring ones, but tall and spindly whose blooms last for weeks and whose little faces follow the sun and close at dusk.

A 10 of Pents reminds me today of all the blessings of nature that I'm surrounded with each day, the fall promise of rest and relaxation after a summer of hard work, the crisp mornings followed by clear blue skies...

"Autumn asks that we prepare for the future—that we be wise in the ways of garnering and keeping. But it also asks that we learn to let go—to acknowledge the beauty of sparseness." ~ Bonaro W. Overstreet 1902-1985

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ Hanged Man

To paraphrase an old saying, Hanged if you do, Hanged if you don't. There are some situations in life that put you in this position of hanged by choice. Trying to please an unpleasable spouse, parent, boss, or child comes to mind. Maybe at times I am the unpleasable, something to think about. We make the effort however, because we are compelled to on principle. To do less would be unworthy of us.

When we make the supreme effort, do all we can do in good faith and it is rejected, we become the hanged man. It is peaceful there, events and emotional reactions are out of our hands, we've done what we can. Let the chips fall where they may. This card reminds me when I meet the point of diminishing returns it is time to stop making the effort.

"I appreciate people who are civil, whether they mean it or not. I think: Be civil. Do not cherish your opinion over my feelings. There's a vanity to candor that isn't really worth it. Be kind." ~ Richard Greenberg 1958-

Monday, September 3, 2007

Self-Imposed Prisons

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

We often create self-imposed prisons. Negative thought patterns were my worst prison as an adult; as a child speaking without thinking used to get me sent to my room. In the 50's this was no playground of toys and technology, it was a small room with a bed and a chest of drawers. Financial problems are often self-imposed prisons, as is too many commitments in too little time. I know people who continue to live within these prisons because they think it is too much effort or would take too long to free themselves. Short sighted thinking, that. In five years we will still be five years older...why not start today to be freer in five years?

I think this summer has been a time of freeing myself. Some of the things I thought were so important to my future have inadvertently changed. I could have fought that change and I did a bit in the beginning, but the world is so full of new opportunities, why should I limit myself to only what I know now?

I lived in a prison of pain for 18 years, yet when a Dr. gave me a new diagnosis last December, I fought it because I didn't want to be identified with 'those people'. Ha. I still don't tell anyone what I do indeed have, I don't want to be identified with 'those people' who seem to do nothing but bellyache about what they can't do, but I'm here to tell you, the medication has made a huge change in my life for the better and what I now can do has increased exponentially.

"It all depends on how we look at things, and not on how things are in themselves. The least of things with a meaning is worth more in life than the greatest of things without it." ~ Carl Gustav Jung 1865-1961

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Daily Draw: Renaissance Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

The Ace of Cups is the wellhead for our emotional fertility and creative inspiration, a lovely card to draw for this first day in September. We are in the process of enlarging on and forging a new style of family relationships, and this weekend we are completing our last big must-do project. Like Mr. Humphries in Are You Being Served, I'm very close to being able to say "I'm Free".

A while back I indicated I was sorting and gathering UFOs. Unfinished Objects of the creative sort, in my case quilts. Turns out, I'm embarrassed to say, there were fourteen. 3 or 4 of them were even very nearly finished. So that is the thrust of my creative side this Autumn and winter, finishing the old, while we work on the newly forming family relationships. Sounds like a peaceful and exciting match to me.

I'm reminded by this card there is more than one facet to everything, layers of feelings, layers of knowledge, layers of viewpoints. This keeps life rich and entertaining. I raise my Ace of Cups to what comes.

"Ideas not coupled with action never become bigger than the brain cells they occupy" ~ Arnold H. Glasgow

The deck this week is The Renaissance Tarot, illustrated by Helen Jones, book by Jane Lyle.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Daily Draw: Russian Tarot of St. Petersburg ~ 4 of Swords

Oh do I ever welcome this promise of R&R, all work and no play this year has made me a dull person indeed. I believe by Monday night all our big 2007 jobs will be complete and we've penciled in some play time for next weekend. I can feel the tension going out of my shoulders already!

"There's never enough time to do all the nothing you want." ~ Bill Watterson 1958-