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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Dead ~ 4 of Coffins

Ever look back and wish you hadn't turned down an opportunity? Sometimes life can turn on a choice, for instance a career option, or a mate. And some are just missed opportunities. Many years ago my folks invited me to go back to the Midwest with them on vacation. They were going to tour the areas where they were born and grew up. I could have gotten the time off, I could have afforded it...but I turned them down. Why? Because I smoked and they didn't and I didn't want to ride all day in a car where I couldn't smoke. I've been kicking myself for that decision for at least 25 years. The farmsteads are all gone now, most of the family and friends are gone now, my father has been gone for 18 years, mother no longer cares to travel. Dumb dumb dumb.

I'm reminded by this card to think over choices offered, to look past the surface and really see the merits and drawbacks. And once a choice is made to stop second-guessing. Done is done.

"The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." ~ Winston Churchill 1874-1965

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Boogers...computer was down for a week. Just for my edification daily draws while I was off line were:
10/25 Magician
10/26 8 of Imps/Wands
10/27 Hermit
New deck of the week; Tarot of the Dead by Monica Knighton, Llewellyn Publications
10/28 Page of Pens/Wands
10/29 10 of Pistols/Swords
10/30 Queen of Coffins/Cups

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Daily Draw: Halloween Tarot ~ The Devil

In 1976 former president Jimmy Carter did a Playboy magazine interview in which he talked about degrees of sin. He said he had no business feeling holier-than-thou because he had committed sin in his heart and mind which made him no better than someone actually doing the deed. A concept that is easy to disregard but important to keep in mind. A little sin is still a sin, they all make the Devil laugh.

I'm reminded by this card to take stock of my own actions, forget about my neighbor or the taxi driver. I'm only responsible for my own integrity and soul.

"No snowflake in an avalanche ever feels responsible." ~ Voltaire/François-Marie Arouet 1694-1778

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Daily Draw: Halloween Tarot ~ 5 of Imps

Yesterday I was invited to revisit a forum I hadn't been to in a long time. Shudder. Lecturing, sniping, bickering, one-upmanship, meta discussions galore, simpering 'peacemakers'. I still have a leftover sour feeling and I was only there about 1/2 hour. What is it about a group of women that brings out the very worst of our traits? We can be and are better than this. Are we doomed never to grow beyond 5 Imps behavior?

I'm remind by this card I'm thankful I'm no longer associated with that herd.

“Usenet is like a herd of performing elephants with diarrhea- massive, difficult to redirect, and a source of mind boggling amounts of excrement when you least expect it." ~ Gene Spafford 1956-

Monday, October 22, 2007

A mental exercise, What would the Major Arcana figures smell like?

In the older Fools I would think like locker room socks...
The Magician would smell like match sulfur
High Priestess like a bookstore or the thin paper in a bible
Empress would smell like a cat bed after kittens had been born in it
The Emperor like copier ink
Hierophant would smell like burlap and/or whale oil
The lovers like fresh cut grass
The Chariot, new car smell of course
Strength would smell like Gold's Gym
The Hermit would smell like moth balls
Wheel of Fortune like carnival cotton candy/candy floss
Justice like wooden tongue depressors
Hanged Man like hemp (rope)
Death like chicken guts left in the garbage all week
Temperance like Triple Sec
Devil like wet garbage ashes
The Tower would smell like the bowels of an ancient empty stone fortress
Star like a crisp autumn night
Moon like the Anastazi ruins
Sun would smell like sunflower seeds
Judgment would smell metallic
The World, like a barn full of fresh hay
Daily Draw: Halloween Tarot ~ 3 of Pumpkins

This craftsman is justifiably proud of his service. How many places do we do business each day where we can say the same thing? Ask a clerk where something is and you get the shoulder shrug. Tell a waitperson what you got isn't how you ordered it and you get the shoulder shrug with a mealy sorry. We've had two Sirius Radios in less than a year, both died within 2 months. We love the service, have a lifetime subscription but what the hell good is it without working equipment? We've been waiting 3 days for a call back from Dodge. It took me months to get a replacement card for one of my decks. It is ridiculous, the level of service we put up with.

I'm reminded today to consider my own level of service. Have I asked my clients if they are happy or do I just assume it because I can't be bothered to make a greater effort?

"The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field of endeavor." ~ Vince Lombardi 1913-1970

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Daily Draw: Halloween Tarot ~ Queen of Bats

Seeing the Queen of Bats observation of and kindness toward bats makes me think of Steve Irwin and what a loss to animals and ecology his death was. If he saw this bat he'd say Beauty, Beauty. Here in the back of the beyond we see the little bats come out right at deep dusk, faster than a speeding bullet, snapping up all manner of flying bugs which suits me right down to the ground. They are gentle shy creatures who do a great service to the home owner and gardener.

I'm reminded by this card to stop judging on appearance. Often the importance and specialness of man or beast are not visible to the eye. Much is missed by mentally kicking someone or something to the curb based on first sight. Like the Queen of Swords, we need to look deeper.

"One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever comes to sit by it. Passersby see only a wisp of smoke rising from the chimney and continue on their way." ~ Vincent Van Gogh 1853-1890

Deck this week is Halloween Tarot by Karin Lee, Art by Kipling West, published by U.S. Games.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ The Hermit

Again, rest is recommended, this time by the story of the Sandman. When I was supposed to be sleeping, wishing I was asleep, last night instead I watched the entire series of Dad's Army. Gentle fun, should have put me to sleep. Today I have a convention to go to and I'll really wish I'd gotten some sleep. I'll take some of that magic dust please, Mr. Sandman...

"Sleeplessness is a desert without vegetation or inhabitants." ~ Jessamyn West 1902-1984

Friday, October 19, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ The Wheel

The Wheel is represented in this deck by the story of the Flax Seed which brings home so clearly the fact that we have to change to grow. Just as the seed becomes the plant becomes the thread etc. so do we have to go through processes. The Wheel isn't all about luck, we captain our own ship and much of what we call luck comes from the seeds we plant and tend.

I'm reminded by this card to nurture my seeds, I dearly love self-made good luck!

"Chiefly the mold of a man's fortune is in his own hands". ~ Francis Bacon 1561-1626

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ 2 of Swords

Hansel and Gretel were forced to take action, to make decisions, it was that or die. We need to remember that not making a choice, not taking action is also a choice. A really dumb choice. Allowing the chips to fall where they may will seldom if ever serve our best interests.

I'm reminded by this card to face reality and make choices that serve my needs and future. Hoping for a miracle is just avoidance, I am the miracle and need to get the cracking.

" Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored." ~ Aldous Huxley 1894-1963

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ 4 of Pents

When did you last give to yourself, refill your own well? It is an easy thing to forget as many people have full lives caring about and for others. It is easy to run the well dry doing that even for people or a job you love.

I'm reminded by this card that we have to care for ourselves in order to properly care for others.

"It is not enough to be busy; so are ants. The question is: what are we busy about?" ~ Henry David Thoreau 1817-1862

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ 3 of Rods

Creating a nourishing meal for all out of stone soup represents thinking outside the box; replacing
convenience with creativity when in need can take you right out of the comfort zone to a new level. I had to make stone soup for a friend in New York this month, we'll see shortly if it nourished him or not.

I'm reminded by this card that our brain is a muscle, it needs exercised. To not sit on my brain and let others do my thinking for me.

"Estimated amount of glucose used by an adult human brain each day, expressed in M&Ms: 250." ~ Harper's Index October 1989

Monday, October 15, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ The Tower

The Tower is represented by the story of the 3 Little Pigs and the wolf who blew down their house of straw. The overwhelmed tower speaks of those times in our lives when cataclysmic events happen that are beyond our control. But in the case of walls of straw it would have to be an event that we had a hand in causing. Because sometimes we do pursue a path against all advice and common sense. Many folks today are experiencing this type of Tower event because they bought a house they couldn't afford and couldn't have gotten the loan approved through a primary lender. Now interest rates have gone up and so have the house payments and 'suddenly' we have a tower event which isn't sudden at all. They had a house of straw built on a foundation of sand.

I'm reminded by this card that living within my means has its own rewards. My house is humble but I don't lay awake nights worrying about losing it. There is no smugness in that statement, but gratitude; There but for the grace of God go I.

"He is a great simpleton who imagines that the chief power of wealth is to supply wants. In ninety-nine cases out of a hundred it creates more wants than it supplies." - Benjamin Franklin

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Daily Draw: Whimsical Tarot ~ Death

This deck, based on fairy tales, features Sleeping Beauty on the Death card. While she was under a spell, it is a good representation of a type of Dead Man Walking...you can look around and see many people sleepwalking through life, a sort of living death. They notice nothing, believe nothing, are not passionate about anything, they just exist until true Death takes them. What a terrible waste of the greatest gift we are given, life.

I'm reminded by this card to Wake Up! Each day is precious, each day offers the potential for joy and wonder~Do not be a Dead Man Walking.

"In a utilitarian age, of all other times, it is a matter of grave importance that fairy tales should be respected." ~ Charles Dickens 1812-1870

This week's deck is the Whimsical Tarot by Dorothy Morrison, Illustrated by Mary Hanson-Roberts, and published by U.S. Games. Something light before we go to the Halloween Tarot next week, followed by the Tarot of the Dead...be afraid, be very afraid.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ The Moon

One of many meanings of the Moon card is paranoia, not something many adults will admit to feeling. Children, who haven't had time and training to develop the tools they need for survival are often paranoid. It is one of the reasons usually cited in school shootings. It is such a primal part of our make-up I wonder sometimes how public figures stand it; the gutter press with it's horrible crapfacts feeding the gullible pubic who believe everything because 'it was in the paper'...

I'm reminded by this card that it doesn't much matter what other people think of me, that in truth they probably aren't thinking of me at all, it's just my paranoia kicking in.

"Although Scorpio aggressively strives to transform others, it strongly resists any attempts by other people to influence it. Secretive, it does not give any clues about itself; stubborn, it holds onto the most untenable position, paranoid, it attributes problems to other people." ~ Richard Strauss, author

Friday, October 12, 2007

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 9 of Swords

Would you like to stop in and borrow a cup of insomnia? You are welcome to it, what a sad sack of bother it can be. I've been plagued by it since the mid-70's and the only silver lining is I get a lot of books read in a years time.

I've read what all the experts recommend, which tells me none of those experts have never had insomnia. Their guidance generally goes like this: consistent bedtime, turn out the light, close eyes and go to sleep. Would that it were that easy. We turn out the light, close our eyes and our mind begins spinning like a bald tire in mud, round and round and round.

I'm reminded by this card I kid myself that no one ever died of insomnia but underneath I wonder...has there ever been a study of suicides and asleep-at-the-wheel auto wrecks to see if those people were also insomniacs?

"Insomnia is a gross feeder. It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking, including thinking about not thinking." ~ Clifton Fadiman 1904-1999

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 7 of Pentacles

In this country we are awaiting the harvest of fall apples and pumpkins. A tree full of red fall apples is a beautiful thing and as a kid a thing I couldn't pass by. Our neighbor (over a mile away-neighborhoods were big in the sticks) had an apple tree perfect for climbing and produced apples that were God's own ambrosia. Oddly enough she wanted all the apples for herself so I had to plan my raids carefully. I never got caught in the tree and those stolen apples were the best apples I've ever eaten. Was it the wait, the hunt, the season, or just my time of life?

What makes any form of wealth valuable to an individual? I've worked out there are three types: Haver/Doer/Maker. For my father-in-law it is the having. Elton John and Bill Gates are Doers, one a shopper, one a giver. For Warren Buffet it is the making. Me, I'm working out a plan for an apple tree down the road that involves sneakers, jeans, and a big t-shirt I can pull up in front to make a basket.

"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience--well, that comes from poor judgment." ~ Cousin Woodman

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ The Fool

A lovely card, this fool isn't your usual moronic kid about to step off a cliff, this is a young person off on a grand adventure with his horse and dog. All are up for whatever comes. In ancient Welsh legend this is the young man who in the end became the Holy Grail's guardian.

Sometimes I think my learn-something-new each year is a fools quest. Why bother? Why make the time? Have my quests made me a better person? Who knows? Does anyone care what I'm working on? Hardly. So why do it? Because it's there to be done! New knowledge has probably always been my quest, I've just formalized one part of it in the last 10-ish years. It gives my heart, mind and soul joy and inner joy is something no one can take away, bad times or good. I highly recommend a quest, it is good for your character as my mother would say when I balked at doing something.

"People travel to wonder at the height of mountains, at the huge waves of the sea, at the long courses of rivers, at the vast compass of the ocean, at the circular motion of the stars; and they pass by themselves without wondering." ~ St. Augustine 354-430

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Daily Draw Llewellyn Tarot: The Chariot

Time flies. Here we are approaching mid-October and I don't even know where September went. I have to look at the progress on our project up north to prove there was a September. I have another marker...I'm approaching 500,000 points in my Jewel Quest Solitaire game, 2nd book, level 4-6. I've had a computer for 11 years but only discovered games recently. Good fun but Time Flies. I certainly have no one to blame but myself for that lost time.

I also note that this card, while beautiful with the great Welsh myth of Manawydan behind it, shows 2 of the 3 things that I'm irrationally frightened of. Water and horses. If a moth was in the picture I'd probably have to remove it from the deck.

"Lost, yesterday, somewhere between Sunrise and Sunset, two golden hours, each set with sixty diamond minutes. No reward is offered, for they are gone forever." ~ Horace Mann 1796-1859

Monday, October 8, 2007

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Queen of Pentacles

Queen of Pents is, among many other things, a good steward of her money; the word the companion book uses is investor. We can invest in many things but the first thought that came to my mind was the stock market. I am a self-taught investor and use ShareBuilder. This was one of my 'learn something new' projects, like Tarot and has been just as fun, interesting, and rewarding.

One of the key requirements of any kind of financial stewardship is patience. It is hard to feel like you are getting anywhere if all you can tuck away is $5.00 a week. But the beauty of savings accounts is interest. Pretty soon that money begins work for you while you sleep, play, work yourself. Pretty soon you are wondering why you didn't start saving eariler and wouldn't that $3.00 latte taste better if it was working toward your future rather than being pissed away by noon. Baby steps, never to be regretted.

"When we talk about equal pay for equal work, women in the workplace are beginning to catch up. If we keep going at this current rate, we will achieve full equality in about 475 years. I don't know about you, but I can't wait that long." ~ Lya Sorano

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Hanged Man

We see Pryderi stuck to the Golden Cauldron for seven years in this view. He knew he shouldn't go into the castle, he knew he shouldn't touch the cauldron, but he did it anyway, now he pays the price that was his choice. We all make these kind of decisions, as if our brain goes numb when it comes to thinking about consequences.

I'm reminded by this card there are always consequences to all our actions. Suffering the consequences is what grows wisdom at its best, breaks us at its worst.

"Sometimes when I consider what tremendous consequences come from little things, I am tempted to think there are no little things." ~ Bruce Barton 1896-1967

Llewellyn Tarot is the deck this week, art by Anna-Marie Ferguson. Celebrating Llewellyn Publishing's 100th year anniversary and featuring figures and mythology from beautiful Wales.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ 10 of Cups

In this reverse view we see it isn't money that buys happiness. A small bungalow on an unimproved lane in rough pasture, not the norm for 10 of Cups. Yet the children and dog are frolicking and the couple have their arms open in a joyful welcoming gesture. You see people who realize they have everything they need.

I'm reminded by this card that when I get the 'wants' to look behind me at what I already have and don't properly appreciate. New doesn't equal better and a shopping bag full of crapola from the dollar store or Nordstrom isn't going to make life any better either.

“This is my ultimate fantasy: watching QVC with a credit card". ~ Yasmine Bleeth 1968-

Friday, October 5, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ 5 of Swords

The reverse side of war, particularly modern day war. There can be no winners or losers if there ever was such a thing in war. And when the soldiers return to find there is also no home or family left what can remain? The probability is hate. Hate that simmers and mutates and feeds the next generations. And so the Wheel goes.

I'm reminded by this card there are always two sides in conflict, to use both eyes and ears and be very slow to judge.

"Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired signifies in the final sense, a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who are cold and are not clothed. This world in arms is not spending money alone. It is spending the sweat of its laborers, the genius of its scientists, the hopes of its children. This is not a way of life at all in any true sense. Under the clouds of war, it is humanity hanging on a cross of iron." ~ Dwight D. Eisenhower 1890-1969

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ Queen of Wands

In this reverse image we see the back of the throne and the hands and shoulders of the Queen we normally see. Below the throne we see a woman smoothing the hair of a young girl. I look at this image and what leaps to mind is how the mother has become the child for women my age, and the child has become mother to their mother. Our internal vision will always be of the mother figure as superwoman, yet our external vision sees the truth. Weakness, confusion, fear, timidness...

I'm reminded by this card to let kindness and honor guide my thoughts and actions in being a mother to our mothers. This is our opportunity to repay their love and rise above any perceived shortfalls.

"You may have tangible wealth untold: Caskets of jewels and coffers of gold. Richer than I you can never be, I had a Mother who read to me." ~ Strickland Gillilan 1869-1954

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ 8 of Wands

There are changes coming, Tower sort of changes. This card is reminding me that even forced changes can be molded to our favor if we stop clinging to the old and accept or work with the new. This reinforces the messages of the 3 and Knight of Wands this week.

Change can be slow like water on a rock or instant in something like a bad auto wreck. Either type, we can take the news by going along to get along, or by seizing what has been dealt and making choices accordingly.

"There is a certain relief in change, even though it be from bad to worse; as I have found in traveling in a stagecoach, that it is often a comfort to shift one's position and be bruised in a new place." ~ Washington Irving 1783-1859

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

"I'll sleep on it", "Why don't you sleep on it", or "It will come to me in the night". Often when you really try to remember something you can't until you quit thinking about it, or you do wake up in the night with the answer. "Eureka!" we shout without giving thought to the real magic...giving our brain a chance to rest, recoup, and do it's work.

This card reminds me to slow down a bit. In a hundred years no one will know or care if I get the corn picked today, no one will die if I don't work on a manuscript or get that box of butter pats sorted or get that electrical permit work sorted out. Slow down a bit, re-prioritize, let the truly important rise to the top and the chaff sift to the bottom.

Breathe in "I am not all things"
Breathe out "I am enough" ~ Comfort Queen 11/7/2000

Monday, October 1, 2007

Daily Draw: New Vision Tarot ~ Knight of Wands

A perfect card to combine with yesterday's 3 of Wands, this Knight often needs to act on instinct in unique situations, and then literally build the situation as he goes, based on common sense. A diplomat. Comfortable in a room full of strangers, keeps his cool in a war-room in face to face deliberations with people who hate his guts. Someone who can recognize and admit a mistake and then turn it to an advantage.

These are difficult traits to grow, human nature seems to prefer the rut of routine, to be attached at the hip to spouse or friend. I wonder in a group of 1000 people just how few Knights of Wands there are?

I'm reminded by this card that we all have the ability to nurture our Knight of Wands traits, to the great benefit of our future.

"Vision is perhaps our greatest strength, it has kept us alive to the power and continuity of thought through the centuries, it makes us peer into the future and lends shape to the unknown." Li Ka Shing 1928