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Monday, August 31, 2009

You've Got Mail

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit World ~ Knight of Cups

Do you get snail mail? Do you send snail mail letters? I used to do a lot of both, now I seldom do either. I've got two letters to my little brother to answer, one of which has been laying here for 3-4 months. The dearest of dear friends who loves and writes mail and I've probably only sent her two letters this year.

The Knight of Cups signifies a message of some kind is en route. I'm reminded by this card that the people who write letters do not place a burden on me, I place the burden upon myself.

"The best time to frame an answer to the letters of a friend, is the moment you receive them. Then the warmth of friendship, and the intelligence received, most forcibly cooperate." ~ William Shenstone 1714-1763

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Fortitude, Where Art Thou?

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit World ~ Tower

I'm reminded vividly by this card that if we can stand back up in the face of defeat and unconscionable tragedy the Tower moments of life will always turn out to have the seed of new triumphs in completely unexpected ways.

"Perfect wisdom has four parts, viz., wisdom, the principle of doing things aright; justice, the principle of doing things equally in public and private; fortitude, the principle of not flying danger, but meeting it; and temperance, the principle of subduing desires and living moderately." ~ Plato 428BC-348BC

A 2006 Lo Scarabeo production is the deck of the week, Tarot of the Spirit World, with art by Roberto De Angelis. Mostly we make an effort not to see or think about entities that may or may not be here...we don't believe, or we maybe believe but rationalize the very idea away. Too many big brothers telling too many 'bloody bones' stories when we were kids. Scared any willingness to believe right out of us.

Like many Lo Scarabeo decks, Tarot of the Spirit World goes it's own way in imagery and suit placement. Higher demons and gods cover the majors, lower lemures of fear passion and obsession are wands, benevolent spirits are chalices, judges of human affairs cover the swords, and our own ancestral ghosts represent the earth suit.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Group Effort, Common Goal

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ 3 of Shields

The book says: Work by a group of people that brings forth their highest motivations. I've never quite thought of it that way before, but all cards based on the Rider-Waite prototype have the three badges being placed on the highest part of the building = highest purpose. We are installing new flooring for my MIL this weekend; a difficult time to have the house tore up because my FIL is so near death and change in routine throws my MIL for a loop. Her idea though, the old was worn, cracked and unsafe.

I'm reminded by this card that when family works together in a common cause it is truly a wonder to behold. Because they aren't working for money but for the feeling looked for at holiday gatherings and is so seldom found. Unity of purpose, unity of feelings, unity of memory. In this case the perfect triad.

"No matter what you've done for yourself or for humanity, if you can't look back on having given love and attention to your own family, what have you really accomplished?" ~ Elbert Hubbard 1856-1915

Friday, August 28, 2009

Facing The Tiger

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ Strength

Sometimes just getting out of bed requires strength.

I'm reminded by this card that nothing is ever as bad as I can imagine and each day has terrific potential to be better than expected. Get up, put on some lipstick, and grab the tiger by the tail.

"Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths." ~ Arnold Schwarzenegger 1947-

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Heal Thyself

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ Star

This Star card speaks of healing physically, mentally, and spiritually.

I'm reminded by this card and a lifetime of observation we can only be healed if we want to be. Choosing to carry our burden like a reward, choosing martyrdom where none is needed is a choice. And so is healing.

"The greatest barrier to healing is our ongoing capacity to judge, to criticize, and to bring tremendous harm to ourselves. If we can harden our heart against ourselves and meet our most tender feelings with anger and condemnation, we simultaneously armor our heart against the possibility of gentleness, love and healing." ~ Wayne Muller 1950?-

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

When It's Time To Move On

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ 8 of Pipes

The suit of Pipes is about when. The 8 is about moving on. This week the answer to when it is time to move on, what to do, fell into my lap.

I'm reminded by this card how important it is to be open to possibility and change and just how serendipitous life can be.

"The best way to predict the future is to invent it." ~ Alan Kay 1940-

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Natural Abundance

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ Empress

We are as a whole a needy race of sentient peoples.We always seem to want more and we repeatedly look for it outside ourselves.

I'm reminded by this card to give what I have to give and remember I have everything I need myself, and more.

"As a Buddhist monk my concern extends to all members of the human family and, indeed, to all sentient beings who suffer. I believe all suffering is caused by ignorance. People inflict pain on others in the selfish pursuit of their own happiness or satisfaction." ~ Dalai Lama 1935-

Monday, August 24, 2009

Conviction

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

In this image the figures are clinging to trees and fighting with rudimentary weapons to save what is important to them.

I'm reminded by this card that standing behind my convictions when it goes against the tide is part of what makes me me. I've been called and often call myself a square peg, seldom with pleasure...but I always feel better when I go ahead and say or do what is important to the small still voice of my heart.

"Conviction is worthless unless it is converted into conduct." ~ Thomas Carlyle 1795-1881

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Companion

Daily Draw: Healing Earth Tarot ~ 2 of Wands

Two. How deeply is it ingrained in our nature to be a couple? To have a mate, a best friend, a sounding board, a traveling companion?

I'm reminded by this card of how thankful and lucky I am to have found the right man the first time. To have and had true faithful good friends. To have a unexpected and rather bizarre traveling companion in these stressful months. Life is good when it comes in twos.

"There are three schoolmasters for everybody that will employ them - the senses, intelligent companions, and books." Henry Ward Beecher 1813-1887

Healing Earth Tarot is the deck of the week.
It has 108 cards with 6 suits: Shields/Earth, Rainbows/Water, Wands/Fire, crystals/Air, Pipes/Wood, Feathers/Ether. Out of print for some years, it has recently been refreshed and reissued by the artist and author, Jyoti and David McKie.
My 1994 edition was published by Llewellyn Publications and includes a 262 page book.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Takes A Village

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 3 of Cups

I'm reminded by this card of how many people it takes to keep the elderly safe and in their own homes. Outsiders like visiting nurses, doctors and staff, Pharmacy; sons and daughters, in-laws and spouse...when the three cups are like minded miracles can occur.

"I am a member of a team, and I rely on the team, I defer to it and sacrifice for it, because the team, not the individual, is the ultimate champion." ~ Mariel Margaret Garciaparra 1972-

Friday, August 21, 2009

Blank Slate

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia ~ Fool

I've had well over 20,000 blank slates. That is a lot of chances to get it right, how weird is it that so many of them I got it wrong?

I'm reminded by this card today is yet one more, clean clear shining fresh...let's see if I can get it right.

"In the past that sort of thing would have sent me over the cliff and I would be unable to press on. Now though? It isn’t even a thing. I am not going to ever be perfect. I will screw up. I don’t have to stay down and for the first time I no longer do." ~ Kimberly, The Woman Inside

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Highest Purpose

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 10 of Pents

Have you ever wondered if you are living up to your higher purpose in life? How your heart would balance with the feather of Maat today?

Sometimes I get impatient to 'get to the good stuff' because work and family get in the way. I'm reminded by this card that family and work are such a blessing and that I might be missing the forest for the trees. I can fill a higher purpose right at home, no need to seek to fulfill needs in the outer world. Our world surrounds us each day.

"Many men go fishing all of their lives without knowing it is not fish they are after." ~ Henry David Thoreau 1817-1862

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Walking Away

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

Looks to me like we had a team going here and someone laid down their sword and walked off the job. Sometimes this can be a relief and sometimes it blows the project clear out of the water.

I'm reminded by this card of the job I simply turned in my keys and walked out of. Sometimes enough is too much. That was 20-some years ago and I'd do the same thing again today under the same circumstances. That was the last time I worked for a corporate paycheck, I've been self-employed ever since. I love this chosen path and would never walk away from it.

"It comes down to the fact that you supply the blue, and they supply the other colors and mix them with your blue, and maybe there's some blue left in the painting and maybe there isn't. Maybe there wasn't supposed to be any there in the first place. So have some fun and make a good blue and walk away." ~ Viggo Mortensen 1958-

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Oh So Needy

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 10 of Wands

Living in the modern world I am assailed daily by 'the wants' and to a lesser degree by 'the needs'. I know I have everything I need and more but I have eight items on my shopping list today. I know where I stand spiritually but daily I get up and work toward better understanding and behaviors. I think I believe 'it will all work out', 'if it's meant to be it will happen', but daily I worry about the future and how to cope. I'm living my life by other people's rules in spite of my mighty efforts to remain a square peg.

I'm reminded by this card that if I really had faith enough in life working out I could drop the burden and rise above it to something freer. Away from ego, that busybody that seems to drive my days. My insomnia mantra...let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go...

"Never tire yourself more than necessary, even if you have to found a culture on the fatigue of your bones." ~ Antonin Artaud 1896-1948

Monday, August 17, 2009

Reassessment Time

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot Judgement

In searching for a quotation for my original post today I found these two by Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ 1803-1882 and decided to redo my post.

Judge your natural character by what you do in your dreams.
People seem not to see their opinion of the world is also a confession of character.

#1, my dreams. I had a crazy one last night, I'd been thought dead for five years and I went to my mother's yard sale in which I found she'd put all my unfinished quilt projects up for sale. I bought them back.
#2, on reflection, my opinion of a facet of the world blazed through my first post, regardless of my effort to write it in a non-judgmental manner.

Today I'll concentrate on my own character, leave the world to fend for itself, and ponder the idea that unfinished projects hold some kind of mojo on their own, without being finished. Weird.

"Spend so much time improving yourself that you have no time left to criticize others." ~ Christian D. Larsen 1874-? (This was a famous and influential man, but I can not find a date of death anywhere...today's first interesting factoid)

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Forest For The Trees

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia ~ Page of Swords

I'm up in the middle of the night because I'm worried about my FIL. All the signs were there last night that he had the beginnings of a kidney or bladder infection. And I was blind to it. Nothing I can do about it this minute, but since I was up I figured I might as well do my blog...and of course the Page of Swords came up. Tarot can be so literal.

I'm reminded by this card how often we step over the obvious in our efforts to complicate things.

"The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak." ~ Hans Hofmann

Roots of Asia Tarot is my workhorse deck this week, published 2001 by AGM AGMuller, Amnart Klanprachar artist, Thaworn Boonyawan author.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Channeling The Empress

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ Empress

I hadn't lived and worked a farm since I was thirteen years old. We've had any number of city gardens and we now have goats but that isn't Farming. A few years ago I made a commitment to my in-laws to keep them in their home whatever it took. So we started putting things into place, and FIL trained me to do his work, his way. I started out coming up once a week, then two days a week, this past winter it was 4 days a week, and now I'm here 24/7 until whenever. What does that have to do with the Empress?

I'm reminded by this card that I was taught to do things his way, and I do, out of respect and courtesy, but within that structure, I do things my way. The cattle and chicken watering receptacles are now white and clean, as opposed to green or rusty. The chicken houses are now scrubbed and waiting for fresh paint. Their pens remind me of childhood playing house spots on the farm, cozy and tidy. The fence posts, miles of them have been painted; this year it is just me pruning the orchard. So even though I'm doing it his way, it looks like my way now because I've added my own creativity and personality to the mix. To borrow a Hillary Clinton wordism, I'm channeling the Empress to make what isn't my home my home for as long as I'm needed here. Works for me.

"Every creative genius has been a channel. Every masterwork has been created through the channeling process. Great works are not created by the personality alone. They arise from a deep inspiration on the universal level, and are then expressed and brought into form through the individual personality." ~ Shakti Gawain 1948-

Friday, August 14, 2009

The Unknown

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ 3 of Wands

This card speaks of change on our doorstep. Could be employment and financial considerations, could be health, or travel, could be emotional...that we are finally ready to dump some of the anchors we've been allowing to hold us down and back. Whatever it might be, the suit of wands is action. I'm ready for a change.

I'm reminded by this card of two distinct groups of people, those who love to travel and those that don't. One of my best friends celebrated her 60th birthday yesterday by taking a cruise to St. Petersburg Russia. I'm thrilled at the potential of finally getting a chance to take our new doggies to run on the beach soon. Both valid journeys and in their own ways equally distant from the now and norm.

"What people forget is a journey to nowhere starts with a single step, too." ~ Chuck Palahniuk 1961-

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Rocket Science

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ 3 of Pentacles

I've been an accidental apprentice many times in my multifaceted working life. Without a higher education with a career focus I learned to just jump for the chance to learn or train at something new.

I'm reminded by this card that each day brings us opportunities to expand our mind and skills, if we are agreeable to learning something new. Yesterday I learned how to put oil in my Pacifica, tomorrow I expect that will expand to something in the line of rocket science...

"The joy of learning is as indispensable in study as breathing is in running. Where it is lacking there are no real students, but only poor caricatures of apprentices who, at the end of their apprenticeship, will not even have a trade." ~ Simone Weil 1909-1943

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Reflections

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ The Star

Yesterday I said I was too busy to rest. I felt bad all day about saying that, had it come from someone else I'd have kicked (Y) and said nonsense. If we don't take care of ourselves, who will?

In this beautiful reminder we see the reflected figure fully aware of herself, nurturing and appreciative, accepting guardian hawks, allowing her roots to support but not bind. I can do this. And I can make some play time for myself also.

"I will love the sun for it warms my bones; yet I will love the rain for it cleanses my spirit. I will love the light for it shows me the way; yet I will love the darkness for it shows me the stars. I will welcome happiness as it enlarges my heart; yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due; yet I will welcome obstacles for they are my challenge." ~ Og Mandino 1923-1996

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I Am, I Am, I Am

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

I'm busy. Seems like I've always been busy. Yet my busy is mostly self-directed, there is no boss to fire me if I were to take an afternoon nap or even a day off for an artist's date. But I'm too busy...

I'm reminded by this beautiful card my best tool for resting calming strengthening is pranayama or yogic breathing. It can be done anywhere anytime in the midst of the busiest life and bring peace and serenity, calming that mad monkey mental chaos. Way better than a nap, it is a sip of rejuvenation.

I took a deep breath and listened to my heart: I am, I am, I am. ~ Sylvia Plath 1932-1963

Monday, August 10, 2009

Eat An Elephant

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ 2 of Swords

We don't know how heavy the burden will be until we are finished carrying it. That is how we are able to handle the big stuff, the soul crushers, the spirit breakers...

I'm reminded by this card that faced with the task of eating an elephant we'd laugh and say it isn't possible. But it is, one bite at a time. Don't look at the whole, look at the bite and know we can balance this too.

The soul, secure in her existence smiles at the drawn dagger and defies its point. The stars shall fade away, the sun himself grow dim with age and nature sink in years; but thou shalt flourish in immortal youth, unhurt amidst the war of elements, the wrecks of matter, and the crush of worlds. ~ Joseph Addison 1672-1719

Sunday, August 9, 2009

I See You But I Don't Know You

Daily Draw: Merryday Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

You never really know someone. How often have you heard that? Or, no one knows what goes on behind closed doors. Or, "I'm a pretty good judge of character."

I'm reminded by this card that probably every single person I know could pull up something about themselves that would surprise or confound me. There is no such thing as 'know all about someone'. In a flash of intuition we could be a seer, but mostly we are peekers, guessers, lurkers, and syllogists.

"We seek pitifully to convey to others the treasures of our heart, but they have not the power to accept them, and so we go lonely, side by side but not together, unable to know our fellows and unknown by them." ~ William Somerset Maugham 1874-1965

The deck this week is the Merryday or Merry Day Tarot, spelled both ways on the box. Art by Louisa Poole, published by Jackie & Rick McCabe/Mill House McCabe 1997, long out of print. A 157 page companion book by Louisa Poole was published in 2000, titled "Merryday tarot, Numerology, Invisible Kingdom.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Joy

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Island of Joy

I was long into adulthood when I realized the difference between happy and joy. Joy stays, happy goes.

I'm reminded by this card regardless of circumstances to recognize and appreciate the inner joy. Disregarding it is disrespectful of all my life experiences which make me what I am today. Inner joy gives me the courage to go on when I'd rather not.

"Joy is not in things; it is in us." ~ Richard Wagner 1813-1883

Friday, August 7, 2009

What Goes Around?

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Island of the Rainbow Stream

Do you believe in karma? What do you believe karma is? My understanding of the Buddhist tradition is what we do in this life affects our next or after life. I think the whiteman has messed with it to form a sort of societal control; if we do something bad or good something bad or good will happen to us eventually...tit for tat. I don't see how that computes; if a child dies in a wreck how does that punish the dad on the sidelines? Who got punished here? The kid.

I'm reminded by this card that how we live our life and karma are one and the same in how we evolve as an individual, and has nothing to do with reward and punishment.

"As the blazing fire reduces wood to ashes, similarly, the fire of Self-knowledge reduces all Karma to ashes." ~ Bhagavad Gita

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Putting On A Face

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Island of the Revolving Beast

This creature is made of of five different animals, showing a physical and mental contortion in order to meet a situation that is beyond the creature's normal ability to handle.

Most of us do the same thing when it comes to living through, living with, and expressing grief. We put on masks of emotion and competence to get though the hours when in truth we are the willowiest stalk blown in the wind, barely able to stand. Death being part of life, we do what we have to do to get by.

"Life is not what it's supposed to be. Its what it is. The way you cope with it is what makes the difference." ~ Virginia Satir 1916-1988

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

The Sacred Ordinary

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Island of Circled Fire

A complicated card that speaks of compassion and empathy, but also probes what is keeping us from a better life here or a better place in an afterlife. For much of history a child might grow to adulthood and beyond without ever being exposed to any idea outside that of his/her personal environment. Today we are assailed with multiple streams of beliefs and ideas daily. The result is often confusion, no faith at all, and a complete lack of a moral compass.

I'm reminded by this card that it is a big world and what others choose to do and think isn't my business. What I need to concentrate on most is polishing my own heart, keeping the faith, and being thankful for daily answered prayer. The world we have is wondrous indeed, when I remember to look up from my own navel contemplation and let ego go.

"The great lesson is that the sacred is in the ordinary, that it is to be found in one's daily life, in one's neighbors, friends, and family, in one's backyard." ~ Abraham Maslow 1908-1970

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

The Gift Of Tears

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Island of Sorrow

Ike Clanton was full of lymphoma. I didn't cry when I had him put to sleep. I didn't cry when I carried his body home. I didn't cry when I buried him and built a cairn. So brave. So stoic. So closed off. So hard to show grief and never in public thank you.

Yesterday in the mail I received from the veterinary clinic that did the procedure a beautifully framed gift that says "....Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears, but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you.... Ike our Beloved Friend", with a little tuft of his beautiful fur tied in raffia. I cried.

"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." ~ Kahlil Gibran 1883-1931

Monday, August 3, 2009

Clarity

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Sea of Glass

Why is it that some people are so much smarter than others? Why is it we can see the train wreck coming in someone else's life and not the one in our own? Why is it when we have clarity on a subject we sometimes look down our noses on those that don't? Why is that when we most seek clarity we often meet a blank wall?

I'm reminded by this card that God moves in mysterious ways and I seldom seem to get the answers I think I want, but I usually get the answers I need.

"Only the curious will learn and only the resolute overcome the obstacles to learning. The quest quotient has always excited me more than the intelligence quotient." ~ Eugene S. Wilson 1900-1981

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Illumination

Daily Draw: Celtic Book of the Dead ~ Island of the Falcon

My eyes are drawn to the shafts of light coming through the big rock. Neither boat passengers nor falcon are aiming toward it, but the path is there.

I'm reminded by this card whether in full tilt denial or obsessed with the idea of death, it comes to us all and our mindset is the illumination for the journey.

"There are very few human beings who receive the truth, complete and staggering, by instant illumination. Most of them acquire it fragment by fragment, on a small scale, by successive developments, cellularly, like a laborious mosaic." ~ Anais Nin 1903-1977

Celtic Book of the Dead is the oracle I'll work with this week, 136 page soft cover book by Caitlin Matthews, deck of 42 cards illustrated by Danuta Mayer, published 2001 by Grange Books Plc. To quote the book, "this deck is to be read by or to the person, while alive, in preparation for the journey to come"; Celtic stories to guide us to the Otherworld or immrama.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Overwhelmed Empress

Daily Draw: Australian Contemporary Dreamtime Tarot ~ Yaccana

I need to be the Empress today and I don't know if I have it in me.

I'm reminded by this card of the lesson six years of business partnership with Myrna taught me...no matter how off kilter the day, no matter what goes wrong or right, time still passes and everything always works out in the end. And I will cultivate the opposite attitude to that of the following Empress.

"Whoever makes me unhappy for a day, I will make suffer a lifetime." ~ Empress Dowager Cixi 1835-1908