Sunday, February 28, 2010
Rather than the public faces we assume for others, this card represents the face we show ourselves. We paint for joy, we paint for occasions, we paint who our authentic real true self is...the us no one else will ever truly know.
I'm reminded by this card to give thanks I'm not a mind reader. To give thanks for the options I have. To give thanks for the life I live...both the innie and the outie me.
"Perhaps the most central characteristic of authentic leadership is the relinquishing of the impulse to dominate others." ~ David Cooper
The deck this week is a small one, the 44 card Sacred Path Cards with art by Linda Childers-Amber Fawn and 325 page book by Jamie Sams. There is also a work book, all published by Harper Collins 1990
Saturday, February 27, 2010
4 of Coins and Page of Swords
I thought I'd draw two cards today to celebrate our 40th anniversary, expecting to get the Lovers and the Sun or something along those lines. No, I got a reflection of our current problems. Gotta Love Tarot for it's honesty.
I'm reminded by this card my MIL who has been unfailingly frugal all her life is now becoming consumed by it, and how to make her daughters understand the the dementia that is eating their father away is now visiting their mother. There is bad news and then there is bad news and how to tell or show it is a matter of grave import which requires thoughtful preparation.
"Go miser go, for money sell your soul.
Trade wares for wares and trudge from pole to pole,
So others may say when you are dead and gone
See what a vast estate she left his son." ~ John Dryden 1631-1700
Friday, February 26, 2010
Our 40th anniversary is tomorrow and we still have our romantic giggle moments. When I met Rob he was living with a couple that had just celebrated their 13th anniversary and I thought they were old as dirt.
I'm reminded by this card the older I get the more the truth of age comes home to me. We are as old as we feel in our mind and our heart. Which quite often isn't old at all.
"We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing." ~ George Bernard Shaw 1856-1950
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Sometimes overwhelming anxiety keeps us from a 10 of Swords position far longer than is healthy. Because when it's over it's over, and as this figure shows us, we can get up and head off to the rest of our life.
I'm reminded by this card of dental work. We put if off, get the trembles sitting in the waiting room, come time for the shot we scrunch up our bum till we're about 6" above the chair...and it's just a little prick. Three seconds and it's done, and it barely registers on our pain meter. It is the anticipation of the dentist that makes us crazy, not the actual visit. That pretty much holds true for the rest of life's difficult moves. Just do it.
"Every tomorrow has two handles. We can take hold of it with the handle of anxiety or the handle of faith." ~ Henry Ward Beecher 1813-1887
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
My goal is growth and self knowledge. I'm pondering the word victim which lept off the page and into my brain this week. Considering I am independent to a fault, victim mentality aren't normal words in my vocabulary. But I do have a 50 year old sore spot that I've not been able to erase.
I'm reminded by this card if I have an issue that refuses to move, perhaps I've been looking at it upside down. And continued efforts in overcoming ego are a form of life apprenticeship.
"When I can no longer bear to think of the victims of broken homes, I begin to think of the victims of intact ones." ~ Peter De Vries 1910-1993
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
I was reading MadeByMark yesterday and his fascination with Chat Roulette. Which made me think about all the things people do when they feel anonymous.
I'm reminded by this card there is nothing I'd do anonymously that friends and family don't already know about, and tarot is about as bizarre as I get. Am I missing a shadow side, or just boring...
"My dark side, my shadow, my lower companion is now in the back room blowing up balloons for kids' parties." ~ Gary Busey 1944-
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Something that stuck to my brain years ago was said by Suze Orman, "If your money in your wallet is organized, your finances probably are too". I seldom have $20.00 in cash on me, just never have carried much money, but when I got my wallet out to look at it I could see what she meant. Since that day my wallet dollars and coins have been neat and in harmony and somehow that has certainly been translated into well ordered finances.
When I opened my cell phone this morning to call a client thirty-five cents fell out. When I picked up my jeans thirty-seven cents fell out of the pocket. I found a penny in the parking lot at Safeway yesterday. All reminders to keep one eye on the financial future and a better eye on my wallet. Found money is careless money...
"Don't tell me where your priorities are. Show me where you spend your money and I'll tell you what they are." ~ James W. Frick
Anna.K Tarot by Anna Klaffinger of Austria. Self-published 2008, first edition sold out, second edition now being printed.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
I wonder if Granny was a armchair traveler, or what is called an Army Brat, pillared to posted a lot? She choses travel as a keyword for many of her cards. I see the 8 of Cups as leaving something behind and the 6 of Cups as traveling to something.
I'm reminded by this card the older I get the less I want to travel anywhere. An artist's date of aimless wandering for the day or a trip to the beach and I've had enough. Yet I wouldn't call myself a homebody either. I dream of going to Egypt, via Belize, Australia, England, and Canada...maybe this card simply shows I'm human, changeable like the weather.
"If the unexamined life is not worth living, the unexamined past is not worth possessing; it bears fruit only by being held continuously up to the light, and is as changeable and as full of surprises, pleasant and unpleasant, as the future." ~ Brendan Gill 1914-1997
Friday, February 19, 2010
I've had my final move planned a long time, perhaps even since my teens. Cremation, no service, chucked in the box with my husband. Rob wasn't crazy about the idea, actively opposed it for many years, his best friend in 'Nam was burned to death before his eyes and that was the image he'd see every time I brought it up. For a few years to placate him I said I could stand a coffin if I were buried wrapped in my best quilt, sewing machine bobbined and threaded at my feet, and a needle and thread in my hand.
I'm reminded by this card though, the very idea of having my veins stuffed with chemicals, people staring at me when I'm no longer there, the claustrophobic idea of a closed coffin, the image of mouldering in the grave, and the sheer waste of good land cemeteries occupy have me back in the cremation category. I hope Rob's pain has subsided enough that he can accommodate my wishes. Because the dead have no say in the end.
"I was thinking about how people seem to read the Bible a whole lot more as they get older; then it dawned on me . . they're cramming for their final exam." ~ George Carlin 1927-2008
Thursday, February 18, 2010
This card pretty well sums up me. Creating and studying, cat and cuppa by my side. My learning project this year is the history and symbology of Runes, hence the widget on my sidebar. It is a fun subject and coming along well. I can write your and my name in runic script now...that is much more than I could do a month ago. The runes were by choice, completely by accident I'm also learning about the ancient holidays, my new calendar is stuffed with them. Celebrate every day, it's a holiday somewhere!
I'm reminded by this card that some days I hope to live forever, picking a new subject each year and immersing myself in it.
"To exist is to change; to change is to mature; to mature is to create oneself endlessly. ~ Henri-Louis Bergson 1859-1941
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I've been thinking about this card since I drew it many hours ago. I've come to the conclusion, that for me, today, I have a small world. The farm is coming alive and there is so much to do here...My FIL is dieing and there is so little I can do there. And all my friends are on Facebook and I don't 'get' it.
I'm reminded by this card that I am an avid internet socializer, have been since 1996. With the exception of two or three people, I consider my best friends to be internet friends and have traveled to them and had many of them travel to me. Just because I don't get Facebook doesn't mean it isn't a wonderful world too...one that just doesn't happen to be on my daily map. Yes I have a page with a face :) but perhaps because I share so much of my world on my blog I have nothing left to give Facebook. If you'd like to show me your face leave me a link...then maybe one day I will 'get' Facebook too.
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born." ~ Anais Nin 1903-1977
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Granny has a nice take on this card, in the foreground we see a figure in the middle of a jaw-ratcheting yawn and two others blindfolded, the arrows on their clothing going every-which-way, and all their cups are draining into the river.
I'm reminded by this card of what is being missed or ignored in life. Those four tin cans floating down the river are seeking fresh directions, the cloud is leaving the sun, the bridge leads to adventure or fulfillment, and the grass really is greener on the other side. Makes me think of the saying "if what you are doing isn't working, quit doing it". Being bored or dissatisfied isn't the environment, it is us. Time to wake up and get to living. Dying comes soon enough.
"Thou must be emptied of that wherewith thou art full, that thou mayest be filled with that whereof thou art empty." ~ Saint Augustine 354-430
Monday, February 15, 2010
Granny sees a champion as one who perseveres. Good point. What have you been persevering at the longest? Off the top of my head: keeping weight reasonable, keeping temper in check, building a good marriage, learning/doing new things. I'd probably think of more or better ones given the time.
I'm reminded by this card if living life were easy everyone would want to do it.
"The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one comes from a strong will, and the other from a strong won't." ~ Henry Ward Beecher 1813-1887
Sunday, February 14, 2010
When my father-in-law was 80 he started an orchard. Some folk laughed, my sister-in-law summed it up best, "now that is optimism". He is still here and the orchard has been producing lovely fruits for many years now.
I'm reminded by this card that saying we are too old to start or it's too late to do something is a sin against ourselves. We don't know how long we'll be here so why not take on new projects, get interested in something different? It is only time after all. If we have to leave early we've spent our remaining time fruitfully, if we get to stay we have something to show for our time beyond cheek marks in the easy chair.
"Enthusiasm is contagious. Be a carrier." ~ Susan Rabin 1947-
Saturday, February 13, 2010
When I'm on the road I'm listening to Stephen King's audio book The Gunslinger. Pretty grim work for Roland and his ka-tet.
I'm reminded by this card, the daily headlines, and the Gunslinger that I have it very good. Something I need to keep stapled to my forehead, on the teleprompter, and cribbed on my hand.
"We knew we had our work cut out." ~ Vance Law 1956-
Friday, February 12, 2010
Granny's point here I think is our lives aren't the big old single wagon wheel we see on most cards, it complicated, with lots of varying sizes of cogs.
I'm reminded by this card it's the big life cogs we worry about or look forward to, but it is the little cogs that are running the show. If we tend the little cogs the big cogs will take care of themselves.
"You pretend to be more eccentric than you actually are because you fear you are an interchangeable cog." ~ Douglas Coupland 1961-
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Granny Jones was peeking at mid America; No insurance, no job, and the fat cats are still stealing us blind in broad daylight.
I'm reminded by this card that it has mostly aways been so. The rich get richer, the poor get poorer, we adjust or die. There is always two choices.
"A world of woes despatched in little space." ~ John Dryden 1631-1700
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Solid. Stable. Secure. Today I go back to the known.
I'm reminded by this card how difficult it is for us to step away from 'being in charge' and letting others find their own way. This morning I whip through an airporter, come home and eat my veggies, then go back to the farm and being reliable and practical. And quit moving like a snail, rather emulate the spider by weaving a net of safety for loved ones. This card, my day in a nutshell.
"I'll give you my opinion of the human race in a nutshell... their heart's in the right place, but their head is a thoroughly inefficient organ." ~ W. Somerset Maugham 1874-1965
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
It has taken three weeks of walking back and forth past the quilt blocks on the working wall but last night I finally got a brainstorm, just as I was taking them all down and packing them up to head north again. I also made some personal decisions that will impact my life in many ways. My card yesterday (in the Rider-Waite sense, not Granny Jones sense) was dead on.
I'm reminded by this satisfied cat how good a good idea feels...even if it turns a dud in the end it is nice to know some little grey cells survive.
"It is the brain, the little gray cells on which one must rely. One must seek the truth within--not without." ~ Hercule Poirot
Monday, February 8, 2010
Gambler? Not much. The last time I was in a casino my twenty dollar stash was gone in less than five minutes. No fun in that and the machines are too complicated for my pinhead brain anyway. And the Indian casinos in this state are the only public buildings left where people can smoke so they do, copiously. As an ex-smoker I think I can say "can you smell stench?" and be politically correct.
I'm reminded by this card that easy come easy go is for the big boys, my budget won't bear it. The bank isn't much better. I was reading the insert with my checking account statement yesterday and they will be happy to pay me 3% on my pennies if I meet three different criteria, including use a debit card X times a month, sign up for automatic deposits and automatic payments. Not in this life.
"There is a very easy way to return from a casino with a small fortune: go there with a large one." ~ Jack Yelton
Sunday, February 7, 2010
As I sit serenely sipping my morning cuppa I smile at this card but it is painful to look at also. I have a hair-trigger temper I've been trying to control all my life, but lately it seems there doesn't need to be a trigger at all. Not a pretty sight.
I'm reminded by this card how destructive anger can be and whether self-directed or focused outwardly I can do a powerful lot of harm in a very short time. Asking for help and seeking tools on-line would be a good idea.
"If a small thing has the power to make you angry, does that not indicate something about your size?" ~ Sydney J. Harris 1917-1986
This week the small run long out-of-print Granny Jones Tarot deck from Australia is up to bat. Way too cute to be legal with color crayon art, lots of Siamese cats and a charming sense of humor as its hallmarks. Art by Rebecca Jones, published by Kangroo Press, 1994 or 1995.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
In the course of a day how many times do your thoughts turn to the past? Yesterday's grocery clerk, last week's walk to the park, last century's love life.
I'm reminded by this card while the days flow one into another and good bad or indifferent people and experiences pile up in our mental files, those files become who we are. Memory is the largest unwritten blog of all.
"If you want to test your memory, try to recall what you were worrying about one year ago today." ~ E. Joseph Cossman 1927-
Friday, February 5, 2010
I was a hairdresser for many years and our motto was "I'm a beautician, not a magician". I did understand though, I was well into my 30's before I finally understood I was going to be the same person coming out as I was when I went in for a haircut.
I'm reminded by this card of just how often we expect someone to pull a rabbit out of the hat for us. Perhaps that is a good thing, even irrational hope is hope, and where there is hope eventually we will grab the shovel and start doing our own digging.
"Dogs are King of Everything"
"big Bubbles, big Troubles"
"Transplant your rant"
"Love is Blind To Your Behind"
"What Is The Mixture Of Life's Elixir?"
"Feast on yeast"
"Stuff a Liar with Balls of Briar" ~ Quotations from the inner cap of Magic Hat Beer
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Lots of Majors this week. I have come to accept this week, that I am clinically depressed. So let me count the ways I am fortunate beyond any worthiness as the Sun card points out.
My Rob of course, with me 40 years this month.
All my little animals, who love me unconditionally.
Unconditional love cannot be measured, it is a miracle.
The stack of books I have to read on a wide range of subjects.
A whole box full of seedless grapes, I've become addicted to grapes.
I live in one of the most beautiful areas of the world.
I have two homes, both odd, one large one tiny.
If there is ever a shortage of golf balls I'll be a rich woman.
The pantry and freezer are full of food.
Mortgage is paid ahead, no consumer debt.
We both have jobs.
My funnest purchase this year was a tiny little piece of Warren Buffet.
Cell phone and wireless modem
We sort of have medical insurance
A president and first family I take pride in
Fabric and needles and scissors and patterns and a creative mind
A selection of scissors fobs, all the way from Australia from a young girl who wanted no payment.
Electricity, heat, running water
Wide range of occupations that have taught me I can do anything given a chance
My on-line Facets ladies and Theresa
An ability to journal via blogger, and the blogs I enjoy visiting
When I get past Mr. Churchill's black dog that plagues me, I'll be able to think of 1000's more.
"Thou hast given so much to me,
Give one thing more, - a grateful heart;
Not thankful when it pleaseth me,
As if Thy blessings had spare days,
But such a heart whose pulse may be Thy praise." ~ George Herbert 1593-1633
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Clear conscience or foul, the horn of Judgement will probably sound like my dad's feet stomping up the wooden staircase, when as a kid I'd have friends sleeping over and we'd been noisy long past time for a hardworking man to be asleep. The sound of those feet were enough to quiet us down. To this instant it never crossed my mind that perhaps the stomping was a sham, maybe he was even grinning a little bit knowing we'd be scared enough by that to do the trick.
I'm reminded by this card that against all intents I had a really rotten day yesterday. I'm sure if there is payment due at Judgement, there will be a bill for me to pay for February 2.
"Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools." ~ Albert Einstein 1879-1955
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I spy blue sky, I'm outta here for an Artist's Date. My map? A coin which I flip for left or right at each intersection or crossroads. Come on Fool, catch me if you can.
"Thanks to the Interstate Highway System, it is now possible to travel across the country from coast to coast without seeing anything." ~ Charles Kuralt 1934-1997
Monday, February 1, 2010
"Rest is for the weary, sleep is for the dead." ~ Doctor Who 1963-