Friday, April 30, 2010
We have two homes, this week is transition. I feel untethered, unsure, unhomed, unloved, uncalm.
I'm reminded by this card home is where you hang your hat, most of the day I'll be in the Pacifica...and I'll just call that home.
Now we are Unhomed,
Bereft of root and kith and kin.
From other mysteries of delight,
We set our sails to resail our track
But the winds of life blew not the way we chose,
And the land beyond the Sea was lost. ~ Stephen R. Donaldson 1947-
Thursday, April 29, 2010
He commands the beasts, Tarzan style amplified.
I'm reminded by this card of the patience of man and beast to be commanded...It isn't in the nature of either, yet elephants pull logs and dogs catch Frisbees, and humans wear belts and ties and shoes as if it were natural.
"To command is to serve, nothing more and nothing less." ~ Andre Malraux 1901-1976
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I've been thinking a lot today about elders and knowledge that is both handed down and learned. About how each generation thinks it has invented everything, sex and drugs included. There is nothing new under the sun, and as we each become elders in turn, we can smile as youth try to protect us from bad news and explicit life. Been there, already done it kiddo.
I'm reminded by this card, speaking for myself, with age has come tolerance, which is a gift of wisdom in itself because I can step away from ego and judgement and simply appreciate each person I meet.
"One's first step in wisdom is to question everything - and one's last is to come to terms with everything." ~ Georg C. Lichtenberg 1742-1799
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
This card can refer to the Father God, Fathers that guide and mentor, or just plain male parent. In his first incarnation in our minds he is enormous and powerful. As time goes by and we gain confidence and arrogance he assumes human proportions. As we grow older and recognize our own failings Fathers again grow in size as we acknowledge their strength and importance.
I'm reminded by this card, being neither goddess nor mother, what a debt the world owes to the Fathers who stuck it out, did their best, and love us anyway. To the Father God, I can only apologize for my ungratefulness, and to my mentor Fathers my eternal gratefulness. To my earthly father who died 22 years ago, my love, and to my father-in-law who lies dying beside me, all I can offer now is comfort and thanks for the last two years when he became both father and mentor father. They are all giant fathers in my eyes.
"It doesn't matter who my father was; it matters who I remember he was." ~ Anne Sexton 1928-1974
Monday, April 26, 2010
Just a few people considered to be visionaries of their times. I wonder what they could have accomplished with the aid of modern technology? At some point I've probably used quotes from all of them. I wonder where the women were?
- Pythagoras, (582BC-507BC) Greek mathematician, philosopher
- Lao-Tzu, (c. 570BC-?) Chinese philosopher
- Heraclitus of Ephesus, (535?BC-475?BC) Greek philosopher
- Herodotus, (484?BC-425BC) Greek historian
- Alexander the Great, (356BC-323BC) Macedonian ruler
- Homer, (750BC-?) Greek author
- Seneca, Lucius Annaeus (4 BC-65AD) Roman philosopher, statesman
- Thomas Aquinas, (1225-1274) Italian theologian, philosopher
- Leonardo da Vinci, (1452-1519) Italian painter, sculptor, architect, engineer
- Copernicus, Nicolas (1473-1543) Polish astronomer
- Galileo, (1564-1642) Italian physicist, astronomer
- Epicurus, (BC 341-BC 270) Greek philosopher
And what of the great unnamed ones on every continent, the ancient ones who worked out the passages of the sun and moon and laid great monuments marking time? A lot of people today, given a piece of paper and pencil couldn't write down what day today is.
I'm reminded by this card the world couldn't bear it if we were all as intelligent as those on the list above. Everyone would try to fix everything with a complete muddle of results, or try to run the world, with the same results we see today... I'm not going anywhere with this, they are just questions that have always run through my mind. I wonder if they were considered visionaries in their own time or crack pots? I wonder if someone I know today will make that list in 500 years, considering hindsight is clearer than foresight?
"Such is the pleasure of projecting that many content themselves with a succession of visionary schemes, and wear out their allotted time in the calm amusement of contriving what they never attempt or hope to execute." ~ Samuel Johnson 1709-1784
Sunday, April 25, 2010
And yet I doubt any among us doesn't occasionally wish or hope or pray for a magic solution, the cure-all, the I-can-drop-the-burden, the bullet that fixes everything.
I'm reminded by this card that real magic lies in the nature that surrounds us, the brain we use and abuse, our two hands, and taking the first step.
"You live eighty years, and at best you get about six minutes of pure magic." ~ George Carlin 1937-2008
A new week, a new deck. The Celtic Shaman's Pack, soft cover 208 page book by John Matthews (who also did the book for the Shaman's Oracle below), and 40 card deck with art by Chesca Potter who did the Greenwood Tarot deck I've used in late January.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I've been trying to think of something challenging I've tackled since I pulled this card at 3 AM. I must be a real weenie, can't think of a thing.
I'm reminded by this card that some days thinking can be a challenge for me...
"The greatest challenge to any thinker is stating the problem in a way that will allow a solution." ~ Bertrand Russell 1872-1970
Friday, April 23, 2010
Like an overlay of grey Crayola, sorrow colors the days of the happiest person I know. Happy is surface, sorrow is deep, too deep for her to reconcile her loss or for the good memories to clear the bad.
I'm reminded by this card to forgo impatience and cut her some slack. We all grieve in different ways on different time lines. The eyes, the windows of the soul will show when the healing finally begins, if it ever does.
"Give sorrow words. The grief that does not speak whispers the o'er-fraught heart, and bids it break." ~ William Shakespeare 1564-1616
Thursday, April 22, 2010
I've said it a number of times, I have every thing I need. I was middle-aged and had kept a gratitude journal for several years, and spent nine months working through every drawer, cupboard, and shelf in my home before I finally realized and accepted that truth. I not only had enough, I had surplus by a mile.
I'm reminded by this card that abundance has nothing to do with "I'll go ahead and get this because it's on sale". "I'll hang on to this just in case I might need it" has nothing to do with gratitude, abundance, or need. My generation is meeting the truth of it's past today; hungry and homeless having mortgaged their future for too much, too much of everything.
"As we become curators of our own contentment we learn to savor the small with a grateful heart." ~ Sarah Ban Breathnach
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Do you think your father or grandmother watches over you from heaven? That whole idea gives me the creeps. What kind of heaven would it be if all you got to do was watch your family scratch (Y), argue, paint the barn, sit interminably at a computer...?
I'm reminded by this card to each their own. I have a Heinz 57 family tree with no strong specific ethnic or culture at all. Where the moniker white bread came from I suppose.
But I have my father's nose and hair, my mothers judgmental streak and love of words, my grandmother's proclivity for stretching a dollar. Our DNA strands tell a long story, whose will speak to me today?
"Every man is an omnibus in which his ancestors ride." ~ Oliver Wendell Holmes 1809-1894
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
There isn't much I'd do differently if I were to live my life over and I guess that is a credit to 'things always work out', but I do wish I had come into my own power earlier in life. I have spent most of it masking fear.
I'm reminded by this card not many would know that and wonder if we ever really know someone as well as we think we do. Mostly we only know people by the parts we assembled through observation. What I fear the most I force myself to deal with and that is what people see, not the little me that is frightened and unempowered.
"Fear does not have any special power unless you empower it by submitting to it." ~ Les Brown 1945-
Monday, April 19, 2010
From the book: dance with me to become uplifted, shaken from stale routines, and raised up beyond what it is to be human. Move forward with me and look at the world with a renewed understanding.
My father-in-law from his death bed says "what am I supposed to be doing?". Sometimes I kneel by his bed and run a list of little farm chores: final clean out of the barn, hang CD's in the orchard, clean hen house, another round of mowing yards, till the little garden. And sometimes I kneel by his bed and remind him that his and my ashes will tuck in with Rob at the Willamette National Cemetery, a beautiful resting place and that we will all be together again. In his final cloudy days I have no idea if his query is literal or figurative. Either way, I have his back covered for beginnings and endings.
"What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from". ~ T.S. Eliot 1888-1965
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Ever harbored the tiniest bit of resentment when faced with the product of the truly gifted? The quilts than knock your socks off, the music that makes you cry with its beauty, the building that shouts the designers talent? Yeah, me too.
I'm reminded by this card that I've spent most of my life being adequate. Being adequate is no banner to wear across the chest, everyone is adequate that chooses to be. But a few years ago I was moaning to a friend that I was never going to live long enough to know what my 'real' talent was, to know what I was born to be or do. She laughed and said of course you know, you do it every day. And she was right. My special talent is nothing I can hang in a quilt show, or compose a melody for but I am content in the knowledge that I have a gift, and I've honored and used it to the best of my ability ever since that day when the light finally dawned.
"My heart is singing for joy this morning. A miracle has happened! The light of understanding has shone upon my little pupil's mind, and behold, all things are changed." ~ Anne Sullivan 1866-1936
Saturday, April 17, 2010
This is a Spirit House, a place to go for solace and support. I've been thinking about this card since I drew it (as I do with all my cards) and there are just so many places to go with nurturing, as there was with Love and some of the other cards. Looking back through the last seven draws with this deck it may seem it is a 'feel good' deck, no real life, doom and gloom cards. Not so, at all...I just haven't drawn any.
I'm reminded by this card that my cards of the day over the years have given me what I've needed. A fast kick in the (Y), a hug, a peculiarity to nibble on, a wake up call, a nag...This week I've particularly needed nurturing cards, and I've gotten them. To remind me to keep my face and focus to the light. I can do this.
"Tend All these shining things around you: The smallest plant, the creatures and objects in your care. Be gentle and nurture." ~ Anne Hillman
Friday, April 16, 2010
But we never learn.
I'm reminded by this card if the human life span was perhaps 600-800 years we might mature enough to actually learn from past mistakes. Given the limited ability of man to change, 80-90 years isn't enough to get beyond our basic instinct and historical tradition. Too bad. Our world has the potential and resources to be heaven...
"Tradition without intelligence is not worth having." ~ T.S. Elliot 1888-1965
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Is hope just another word for prayer? I did a lot of research on prayer last year, and while there is no wrong way to pray, I've come to the conclusion that 'as you will' is where I stand currently. But specific hope is always standing in the wings whether I mean it to be or not.
I'm reminded by this card of the William T. Cummings quote "There are no atheists in foxholes." Something that always struck me as odd when we had a TV, from game show to sit-com to reality show, any little excitement brings the shout "Oh my God"...why do you suppose that is? Got on my last nerve...anyway, hope springs eternal in our hearts whether we practice prayer or not even if only in the form of the third commandment. Does this post make sense? Probably not...
Dum spiro, spero, "While I breath, I hope"
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
I wonder what we'd change, if anything, if we had an opportunity to be an outside observer of ourselves for a week. I've often thought God gave us blinders in some respects because if we could see our own faults we'd put a bullet in our brain. Because who is harder on us than us? No one.
I'm reminded by this card I already know I'm bossy, impatient, hair trigger temper, slow thinking, can be a glutton, impulsive...those are just the ones I'm always working to erradicate...I don't think I could take the harsh reality of knowing all my faults.
"We learn our virtues from our friends who love us; our faults from the enemy who hates us. We cannot easily discover our real character from a friend. He is a mirror, on which the warmth of our breath impedes the clearness of the reflection." ~ Jean Paul Richter 1763-1825
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I'm not sure this is the best way to let off steam...but I have twelve cards finished. Got Sharpies?
This is the kind of subject you could write on all day and never scratch the surface...because how many kinds of love are there? This image has it's arms outspread, welcoming, ready to hug.
I'm reminded by this card there isn't enough hugging going on in the world. One of the best hugs I ever got was from a stranger in the middle of one of the biggest malls on the west coast. My father had died that morning, Rob had jumped on the first plane out to go get mom and I went to work. Who knows what I was thinking, not much...I also ate eight cinnamon rolls that morning...anyway I saw a couple approaching me, and suddenly he veered into my path and said "you look like you could use a hug". It makes me cry today, 20 years later, just how much that hug meant to me. So go ahead...hug someone, it might be the straw they need to hang on.
"We need 4 hugs a day for survival. We need 8 hugs a day for maintenance. We need 12 hugs a day for growth." ~ Virginia Satir 1916-1988
Monday, April 12, 2010
Are we the sand, oyster, or pearl?
Is what we need to be what we want to be?
I'm reminded by this card to shine my light on my ego, to better reflect that which is good for the whole rather than the one. In the end the one is served anyway.
"When death, the great reconciler, has come, it is never our tenderness that we repent of, but our severity." ~ T.S. Eliot 1888-1965
Sunday, April 11, 2010
This Spirit card represents healing, healing from wounds that can't be helped by traditional medicine and doctors.
I'm reminded by this card we probably have more spiritual wounds than any physical wounds we might pick up in the course of our lifetimes. Some we ignore, some we pick at constantly to keep the pain fresh, and if we are lucky sometimes we even heal and move on. This rock figure seems to be releasing into the light good, that we can partake from whenever we choose. Better that than the bitter cup of chosen non-healing.
From the mind and pen of John Matthews and paint brush of Wil Kinghan my deck this week is the Shaman's Oracle, Watkins Publishing, London England 2010. Beautifully slip cased with hardcover 88 page book and 52 cards based on ancient cave art. Five suits of ten cards each: Spirits, Ancestors, Dancers, Hunters, Shamans; plus the two Journeyer and Companion cards.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
If we were to use even a small portion of the untapped potential of our minds and hearts, in a week we wouldn't recognize our own world.
I'm reminded by this card of just how little use I put to the gifts I've been given. What am I waiting for? Bush beaters to clear my way? A big yellow arrow? A chorus of trumpets?
"Sobering thought: what if, at this very moment, I am living up to my full potential?" ~ Jane Wagner 1935-
Friday, April 9, 2010
Irresistible challenges, blasts of enthusiasm, turbulent energy...sounds like spring fever to me.
I'm reminded by this card of the amazing drive we sometimes have when nothing can stop us or discourage us, when anything is possible, we can do it. Would that I could bottle and sell it for all those times we can barely drag our sorry (Y) from bed to recliner.
"Hoe while it is spring, and enjoy the best anticipations. It is not much matter if things do not turn out well." ~ Charles Dudley Warner 1829-1900
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Our relationships to and with others mark how the rest of our life plays out.
I'm reminded by this card that compartmentalizing the different areas of our days is neither healthy nor effective; it is a house of cards with a weak foundation. If as adults we honor ourselves, we draw honorable relationships to us. The key is self-respect first, with that loving blanket of armor we can deflect those that would harm or tarnish who we are and what we do. We don't need them anywhere near our lives.
"I am one powerful self made up of so many selves that sometimes I throw myself a get-acquainted party." ~ Eric Maisel
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
From the book: All that lives in Capricorn's landscape has proved its strength in the face of every challenge, and will survive when more transient things have fulfilled their time and passed away.
I'm reminded by this card to step back from the focused view and take a look at the bigger picture. Another reminder that while we have joy and grief in varying amounts in our lives, time will roll across us all;
Don't sweat the small stuff
This too shall pass
Old adages, but they, like Capricorn, have and will stand the test of time.
"At times, our strengths propel us so far forward we can no longer endure our weaknesses and perish from them." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche 1844-1900
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Breaker of family curses, and gifted with the foresight to recognize the consequences of actions. My FIL is laying here next to me in the final days of hospice care. I've been here two years preparing for this time and have observed the multi-faceted relationships between husband and wife, father and children, mother and children. Would have been nice had the Sun cast it's light and life to the heart and spirit of the family fifty years ago and broken the curse of 'the parent does what they learned from their parent'. So many hurts all around the circle...
I'm reminded by this card that recognizing and then accepting the consequences of our actions is one of the most important lessons we will ever learn.
"The sun never gets tired of rising but sometimes a person gets tired of being under the sun." ~ Simone Schwarz-Bart 1938-
Monday, April 5, 2010
As a reader, the most common query we get is about relationships. Ones based on wishfulness or unhappiness. People seldom need a reader to tell them they are happy.
I'm reminded by Cancer and it's tenacious grip how difficult it is to let go. Often it is only tendrils of past memories; what we have bears no relationship to what we want, need, or choose to remember. Humans...quirky to the end.
"No man is worth your tears, but once you find one that is, he won't make you cry."
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Long story short, Pluto rules the underworld, once in, there is no out.
I'm reminded by this card, like the juice of the pomegranate, good girls like bad boys, sinning is more fun than gooding, and in the end the cost is beyond calculation. Interesting to draw this card on Easter.
"He takes men out of time and makes them feel eternity." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson 1803-1882
I'm winging it here, haven't a clue what I'm doing; this week I'm working with my Mythic Astrology set; 224 page book by Liz Greene, blank journal, and 49 cards by well known illustrator Anthea Toorchen. Fireside imprint of Simon & Schuster 1994. From the book: "This book and card system are intended as an imaginative introduction to astrology for those who wish to grasp the emotional and intuitive, as well as the intellectual, levels on which astrology needs to be approached".
Saturday, April 3, 2010
I think the loss of innocence is one of the saddest deaths of all.
I'm reminded by this card of all the mini-deaths we encounter and endure in the course of a life time.
"Things fall apart; the center cannot hold." ~ William Butler Yeats 1865-1939
Friday, April 2, 2010
I don't know how it happened but somehow in the last 15-ish years we've managed one vacation away, ten days working our way down the west coast from lighthouse to lighthouse. I think it was in 2003...Pitiful.
I'm reminded by this card it's no wonder I dream of the fantasy of retirement. And a trip to Egypt.
"The ant is knowing and wise, but he doesn't know enough to take a vacation." ~ Clarence Day 1874-1935
Thursday, April 1, 2010
When all choices available are crap, where do you go?
I'm reminded by this card sometimes it is better to bide your time than go ahead and cave in when you know the choice is a poor one.
"To say that we are mired in stalemate seems the only realistic, yet unsatisfactory, conclusion." ~ Walter Cronkite 1916-2009