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Saturday, April 30, 2011

Well This Ain't Working...

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ 3 of Swords

Precarious situation this fellow is in. His awkward stance spells doom all by itself, at best he will fall in that big hole. He may be on verge of kneeling though...but that right hand is going to bleed like the dickens, the sword in the left hand will come around correctly, but it is made useless by being tangled in the tail of his brain wrappings.

I'm reminded by this card we can create a situation where if someone did offer us a hand we couldn't take it if we wanted to. Those situations seldom happen in an instant, we can spend years refining that house of cards. It is time to just let go of the useless swords of excuses, blame-laying, artificial crutches, and rethink that stance entirely.

"The juggernaut lumbers on, doing what it knows how to do best. It is unwilling to rethink its future, unable to let go of the past. Like the shark, it must keep feeding, only now it is feeding on itself." ~ William Greider

Friday, April 29, 2011

Thinking

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ High Priestess

Another card telling me to stop and think, to let ideas or actions simmer on the back burner for a bit, everything this instant isn't necessary.

I'm reminded by this card procrastination is a fault, truly, but well-considered actions throughout our days can make life a real treat. I'm giving myself a 'well done' for this Spring's work.

"Turn on the prudent ant thy heedful eyes. Observe her labors, sluggard, and be wise." ~ Samuel Johnson 1709-1784

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Sleep On It

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

There are a million reasons to think before we act. This little idea soldier has given himself space from everything in order to do just that.

I'm reminded by this card if everyone seems to be pushing us for a decision, one more sleep on it wouldn't hurt...looking back and knowing it was our decision is a good thing. Once decided, do it and then move on, wishy-washy doesn't look good on anyone.

"Build a little fence of trust around today;
Fill the space with loving deeds, And therein stay.
Look not through the sheltering bars Upon tomorrow; God will help thee bear what comes of joy and sorrow." ~ Mary F. Butts 1890

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Time Line

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ Death

It was a year ago this morning my father-in-law let death take him. I was his constant companion much of those last two years.

I'm reminded by this card each person grieves differently from the next. In retrospect I can see my own time line and what actions were grief driven rather than Sharyn driven. I'm sure it will be no help at all the next time Death knocks, I'll relearn the same lessons over again just as I have every time I've lost someone I loved. Another of the Wheel's little jokes.

"Most things break, including hearts. The lessons of life amount not to wisdom, but to scar tissue and callus." ~ Wallace Stegner 1909-1993

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Open To Injury

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ Fool

At what point do we change from open and eager to closed and afraid?

We refuse to read the manual because we know everything we need to know. Then we're royally ticked off at the manufacturer because they sold us a piece of crap that won't work right. We are Fools our whole life but somewhere we lose the open light-heartedness part of ourselves that is willing to look the Fool for a moment in exchange for knowledge or experience.

"Every act of conscious learning requires the willingness to suffer an injury to one's self-esteem. That is why young children, before they are aware of their own self-importance, learn so easily."

Monday, April 25, 2011

Outweighed

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ Emperor

So much power, so many options...

I'm reminded by this card that much power can also severely limit options. Everything he says is picked over for nuance and shading, each action is judged and rejudged. Thanks but no thanks, I can't see any amount of pros outweighing the cons.

"He who controls others may be powerful, but he who has mastered himself is mightier still." ~ Lao Tzu 600BC-531BC

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Student Of Life

Daily Draw: Bosch Tarot ~ Page of Wands

There was once an advertisement whose message was 'the mind is a terrible thing to waste'. Yesterday I was reading the current issue of Smithsonian Magazine and was impressed as always with just how learned a person can become.

I'm reminded by this card our IQ is probably set at birth. I will never be able to design and build an engine, or understand calculus, or translate the Dead Sea Scrolls, but I can pick up a book knowing when I've finished it I will have learned something new. That is a gift I treasure.

"I find television to be very educating. Every time somebody turns on the set, I go in the other room and read a book." ~ Groucho Marx 1890-1977

The Bosch Tarot was published in 2000 by Lo Scarabeo, based on 16th century art and times of Hieronymus Bosch. Last used here in 2008.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Evolution

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ 5 of Cups

As the butler's tray flips we can see the need to acknowledge balance between service to others and service to ourselves, acknowledge what we've lost and celebrate what we have.

I'm reminded by this card I did my best.

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." ~ Theodor Seuss Geisel 1904-1991

Friday, April 22, 2011

Seeking Sanctuary

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ 4 of Swords

We know when we need to seek a place to nurture the inside us, the one that screams when we pile on one more chore, agree to one more activity; when we need a silent retreat rather than a noisy vacation.

I'm reminded by this card of my own sanctuary here, and a passage I recently read.

"When despair for the world grows in me, and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life may be -- I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds. I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief. I come into the presence of still water. And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free." ~ Wendell Berry 1934-

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Joy And Pain

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ 10 of Swords

I know. I know as well as I know my name there are two sides to everything. For something to give joy you can bet it will also be able to cause pain. I chose long ago not to shut myself off from joy to avoid the pain.

I'm reminded by this card how much joy and pleasure my hens bring to my life. Now that I have them I can't imagine not having chickens. There is a sick one right now and the area vets are not interested in treating her. She needs surgery and it is a fact of life, chickens seldom live long after anesthesia, their respiratory system is too fragile. So I hold her and we tell each other stories, and time passes and soon the end will come.

"Regard it as just as desirable to build a chicken house as to build a cathedral." ~ Frank Lloyd Wright 1867-1959

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Pushing The Envelope

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ Chariot

Interesting steeds. And is that a Volkswagen badge on the tub? I don't believe a dragon would allow itself to be harnessed and I'm pretty sure peacocks no longer fly.

I'm reminded by this card the people that love us the most are the first ones to say can't. What do they know...can is always a possibility. There is comfort in the safe zone, but there is freedom outside the box.

"The truly great tragedy is the destruction of our human resources by our failure to fully utilize our abilities, which means that most men and women go to their graves with their music still in them." ~ Oliver Wendell Holmes 1809-1894

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Life And Soul, In Unison

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ Ace of Coins

Mother being earth, her breath water, the babe becoming all the things that live on earth water air. The Ace of Coins at it's root, in balance, healthy.

This is where I am right now. I have a purpose I am serving, and a goal I am working. It makes me feel good about myself, my life, and where I am right now. What more could I ask of today?

Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints his own nature into his pictures." ~ Henry Ward Beecher 1813-1887

Monday, April 18, 2011

Looking Beyond

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ Judgment

If we look beyond what dogma and outside influences have taught us about our final reward or judgment day and instead look inside, without blinders, could we judge ourselves, our life, honestly?

I'm reminded by this card the deepest sins I continually chastise myself for probably wouldn't even be sins in someone else's eyes. And what I blithely do without thought or reflection are perhaps the biggest sins. Do we tell the biggest lies of all to ourself?

"The truth is the only thing worth having, and in a civilized life like ours, where so many risks are removed, facing it is almost the only courageous thing left to do." ~ E.V. Lucas 1868-1938

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Eaten For Breakfast

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ Page of Swords

This card image makes me think of the character Meryl Streep plays in Devil Wears Prada. Like a queen in a hive, all cluster about her, seem to have an obsessive need to be enslaved by her, yet at the end of the day not one of them know her or is she in any way willing to know them.

I'm reminded by this card if you insist on pinning your star on a butterfly chances are good you'll never see that star again. Better to pin it to yourself and be the momentum.

"Bodie was a notoriously tough camp, where "a man for breakfast" was so frequent an occurrence that the phrase "bad man from Bodie" was coined to describe those residents who were still in the land of the living." ~ Nevada State Archives

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Would That It Were So

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ 6 of Swords

What an evocative card. What once seemed clear cut and ultimately doable has turned into immense pressure and what was good has seemingly been squeezed out. Yet the geese flowing to the future indicate this too shall be relieved.

One option always available to us is to put things in perspective. Yes I have a giant pain in the (Y) that blocks my smooth progress...but on the other hand this time last year was full late stage hospice care for my father-in-law. Compared to those last six weeks anything in my life that is currently troubling is a piece of cake to deal with. Truly.

"All pressure is self-inflicted. It's what you make of it or how you let it rub off on you." ~ Sebastian Coe 1956-

Friday, April 15, 2011

Tip Of The Iceberg

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ 4 of Coins

Poor guy, he has fallen asleep at his desk, all worn out from figuring his rates of interest and growth on his money. He has tried to shut himself off from the world with multiple door locks which crack me up. Locks only keep out honest people, they are no deterrent to a thief at all.

I'm reminded by this card that great wealth is also a burden, not just all about pleasure; great wealth takes work to manage and brings responsibilities and worries also. The impression we gain looking in the window is just a tip of a iceberg.

"I'd like to live as a poor man with lots of money." ~ Pablo Picasso 1881-1973

I've switched decks to Songs For The Journey Home. The deck is out of print and the website is even gone so I have nothing to link my sidebar to. It is one of my top 10 decks and has carried me through some rough times in the past. By Catherene Cook of New Zealand and Dwariko Von Sommaruga, deceased.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

My Kingdom For A Wheel

Daily Draw: Deviant Moon Tarot ~ Chariot

There is a lot of movement in my life right now in many different levels.

I'm reminded by this card it may not all be comfortable and it may be movement by unexpected method or mode...but it means I'm alive and that is all to the good.

"Many a trip continues long after movement in time and space have ceased." ~ John Steinbeck 1902-1968

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Harcourt Fenton Mudd

Daily Draw: Deviant Moon Tarot ~ 5 of Cups

Harry, inveterate conman, was left on a planet with nothing but his wife Stella's shrill nagging voice for company. Multiple copies of her.

I'm reminded by this card giving advice is probably the one thing most of us have in common, and the biggest waste of time on the planet. Why do we persist? Perhaps if we were charged by the minute every time we opened our mouth we'd start thinking before the words come out rather than after.

"We teach people how to treat us." ~ Phil McGraw 1950-

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Environment

Daily Draw: Deviant Moon Tarot ~ King of Swords

I can't think right off of another deck that has a member of staff portrayed with a king. Interesting.

I'm reminded by this card who, what, and how we surround ourselves can paint two pictures. Who we are or who we want people to think we are. It takes a thinking mind to know the difference.

"If we divine a discrepancy between a man's words and his character he revolts the imagination by his lack of unity, and even the good in him is hardly accepted." ~ Charles Horton Cooley 1864-1929

Monday, April 11, 2011

Wishing

Daily Draw: Deviant Moon Tarot ~ 9 of Cups

I deeply dislike this interpretation (widely held) of the nine of cups as the Wish card. Is that really what they tell their clients clamoring for fortune-telling readings? Your wishes will come true? Codswallop.

I'm reminded by this card just how much real work is involved to make wishes come true. Nothing wrong with daydreams, as long as we admit what they are and acknowledge to ourselves they won't happen until we rename them goals and get off our lazy bums.

"What a wonderful life I've had! I only wish I'd realized it sooner." ~ Sidonie-Gabrielle Colette 1873-1954

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Sufficient

Daily Draw: Deviant Moon Tarot ~ Empress

This Empress has a garden full of flowers which all came from her body.

I'm reminded by this card the things we want the most seldom come from someone else, it needs to come from within. Empresses are standers not leaners.

"Allow your love to nourish yourself as well as others ." ~ Mahesh Prasad Varma 1914-2008


The Deviant Moon Tarot by Patrick Valenza is the workhorse deck of the week. Published 2008 by U.S. Games Systems, this is a deck like no other. Some call it dark and frightening, to me it is sweet and melencholy. That is the joy of decks and why we have so many to choose from. Thank you Patrick, for sharing your art with us.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

The Power Of Ten

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Flora

Flora announces spring, along with physical and mental renewal. I'd like to think I do not follow a rut but in some things even if I didn't know me, I'd see my hand all over it.

I'm reminded by this card there is absolutely nothing wrong with tradition and habits...unless they keep us small or weak. I think each one of us has the power of ten, should we ever get off our bums and apply ourselves.

"Being willing is not enough; we must do." ~ Leonardo da Vinci 1452-1519

Friday, April 8, 2011

Smarty Pants

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Metis

For nine years we lived next door to the smartest people we've ever known. And watched while they made a complete shambles of their inheritance, marriage, and life. They seemed to have one-dimensional brains.

I'm reminded by this card that intelligence and common sense are partners, as are wisdom and intuition.

"We only becomes wise when we begins to calculate the approximate depth of our ignorance." ~ Gian Carlo Menotti 1911-2007

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Potential

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Eurynome

I can't imagine anything more interesting or exciting that to have been able to watch the early formations of our big blue marble. Dark from day, land from air, flora and fauna appearing... And then the one mistake...humankind.

Billions of years later and we are still schlepping along without a clue, reactive rather than proactive. After we've wiped ourselves off the map perhaps in another billion years this planet will finally be allowed reach it's potential.

"Because your own strength is unequal to the task, do not assume that it is beyond the powers of man; but if anything is within the powers and province of man, believe that it is within your own compass also." ~ Marcus Aurelius Antoninus 121-180

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Are We Amazons?

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Penthesilea

Women warriors. I've hunted. Deer and Elk...did it take strength? Yes. Did it take courage, not a bit. Killing with a gun isn't courageous, only efficient. Have I known courage? Yes, in hindsight. I tackled a shoplifter in a huge mall. I held a pistol on a drunk who in the middle of the night had buried his car in my new lawn. I got married...and stayed married. I took on training uncivilized puppy mill dogs. I think in public here each morning. I chose to be self-employed.

I'm reminded by this card if I had to sit down and think about doing any of those things, I wouldn't have done them. Too scary. Too much work. Too much effort. Perhaps that is why our most courageous moments come with the least thought and stay to help us carry through.

"The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud." ~ Coco Chanel 1883-1971

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

On Being Less Fettered...

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Charities

This is a many layered card but I'll cut to what the celebration of Aglaea, Euphrosyne, and Thalia means to me today. I've made a huge forward step toward my goal of downsizing my personal belongings this week by flinging 54 listings on Ebay, most in groups. Every single listing has sold or has bids. Am I happy? I am over the moon.

Until three years ago I made a good portion of my income on ebay, then I went on to other things so I'm way out of the Ebay loop. I had a question about insurance a few days ago and went to the discussion boards to ask for help. While I was waiting I read two or three pages in a couple of the forums. And I was suddenly struck with why my listings were so successful and so many long time sellers were moaning about little or no sales. It is because I took to heart something of Rick Levine's I read on March 16. "Staying detached from the outcome creates enough sacred space for an original solution to magically unfold". I just let go.

I've been just as pleased with the .99 cent sale as the $500.00 sale, because I truly detached myself from the weight of what I paid which allowed myself to let them go. I'm celebrating the release of letting go mentally as well as physically. A business person has to have a mark-up...but this business is soul work and price doesn't come into it.

"In fact, we moderns meet most of our needs, wants, and desires through money. We buy everything from hope to happiness. We no longer live life. We consume it." ~ Joe Dominguez 1938-1997 (Your Money or Your Life)

Monday, April 4, 2011

Abundance

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Auxo

It is finally warm enough to say Spring has arrived. We've ordered our bees and queens, the first yard mowing was yesterday, the lower flower border is awash with daffodils, the goats are shedding their winter coat everywhere. The job market here is beginning to open up, as is my mother in law after a year of living with grief.

I'm reminded by this card of all the Increase in my life after a long fallow period and I know my blessings are abundant and am very thankful.

"Both abundance and lack exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend." ~ Sarah Ban Breathnach 1948-

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Ouch

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Hygieia

Subtitled health. Yesterday I read a news story where the Arizona governor plans to penalize childless adults who are obese (which is 20 pounds over optium weight), smoke, display other health related symptoms in order to bring funds into their Medicaid program. I'm ok with the idea, actually I think Medicare aught to be capped at 50K a year. Period. But childless? Since when did this become a health issue to be fined? How about people that drive yellow cars? Or thrift shop?

I'm reminded by this card it's a funny old world and no matter our age ultimately our daily health is in our own hands. What we put in our mind and heart are just as important as what we put in our mouth and as with everything balance is key. How many times does Hygieia need to show us that lesson?

"Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing." ~ Redd Foxx 1922-1991

"Ancient Feminine Wisdom of Goddess and Heroines, by Kay Stevenson & Brian Clark, published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc.2007; 78 card deck with 64 page booklet.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Trapped and Wrapped

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

The mereman has been rolled into a trap, see the little guy hiding behind the rocks holding the end of the net?

I'm reminded by this card that occasionally we get ourselves in this position...the thing to remember is we are both figures. In the general course of life no one can make us do something we are unwilling to do. The tighter the net gets the more we need to look to ourselves to find the reason.

"The perfect no-stress environment is the grave. When we change our perception we gain control." ~ Greg Anderson 1964-

Friday, April 1, 2011

A Deaf Ear

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ 5 of Cups

Ahh, we love to give advice, almost better than speculation on people's income. How much of it do we listen to?

I'm reminded by this card the human life span isn't long enough to learn from history, but it doesn't hurt a thing to at least consider a good friends opinion. They can often see a situation more clearly than we can.

"We should be especially careful in giving advice that we would not think of following ourselves." ~ Adlai Stevenson 1900-1965