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Monday, April 30, 2012

Memory Chips

Daily Draw: Granny Jones Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

Memories, life is made of 'em.
  •  The spring of 1970 bringing home a jar full of polliwogs. Probably my first artist date although it would be 30 some years before I'd read the phrase and recognize it. 
  • Reading Jane Eyre through a rainy camping weekend. 
  • My first airplane trip, alone, going to Alaska to care for a friend with cancer. 
  • The 'club' in the late 1950's...we thought we were going to make a killing for the club kitty by selling mints out by the mail box. Those kids were all such good friends. No agendas at that age in those days.
  • Cats, all my precious cats through the years.
  • Hunting parties and how wet we'd get during the days and how much laughter there was at night. 
  • The green and cream kitchen woodstove. So beautiful. Got shoved in a pit and buried, time had moved on at the farm.
  • The first time hearing a friend had died in 'Nam. Would that it had been the last. 
I am reminded by this card I have memories by the millions, could finish out my days  just reliving them. But no...I'll go forward, making new memories for the files, something to look forward to when there isn't any more forward going.

"Own only what you can carry with you; let your memory be your travel bag." ~ Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn ~ 1918-2008

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Bore Bored Boredest

Daily Draw: Granny Jones Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

Whining to my mother as a child that I was so bored... she replied "only the boring are bored, find yourself something interesting to do".

I'm reminded by this card, I don't believe I am ever bored, or apathetic, as an adult. My days are full of things I'm eager to get to, and my mind is on a constant quest. Life is good, thank you mom. We did sometimes listen to you.

"If something is boring after two minutes, try it for four. If still boring, then eight. Then Sixteen. Then Thirty-two. Eventually one discovers it isn't boring at all." ~ John Cage 1912-1992

This week the small run long out-of-print Granny Jones Tarot deck from Australia is up to bat. Way too cute to be legal with color crayon art, lots of Siamese cats and a charming sense of humor as its hallmarks. Art by Rebecca Jones, published by Kangroo Press, 1994 or 1995. The suits are wands, cups, swords, and ...buttons. 

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Embers and Ash

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya Oracle ~ Iq Icatz

I chose this card, rather than fan with the backs up and draw at random which is my normal method. It was on the top when I picked up the deck and seemed to cry out to me; I both have and need new fire. I need the kindling, the spark, the smoke, the flame. And to see and feel the ash. And to fire up again.

I'm reminded by this card to remember to cut myself some slack. "It's My Life!" I shout to myself. "It is just life", "there is more tomorrow" I shout back. I can't do and be everything to everybody, yes I know that. But I can't seem to understand I can't be and do everything for me either. Sometimes I need help. Sometimes I need to see the embers and ash, to know starting each day fresh is a good thing.

"I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry-rot." ~ attributed to Jack London 1876-1916

Friday, April 27, 2012

Faithfully Yours

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya Oracle ~ Oc

The Maya had dogs as pets and like some of the world today, as food. They were often buried with their dog, and their pottery shows the dog leading them through the underworld.

Ever notice people are funny about their pets...sure you have. Get one and leave it chained in the yard for the rest of it's life. Buy a $4000.00 air conditioned dog house for one. Kick and beat it, usually along with their kids, and like the kids it comes back for a pat on the head for taking it. Go for a walk just for the pleasure it brings the dog.  There is faithful and there is undiscriminating faithfulness, something as human we need to review in our own lives. 

"Faithfulness lives where love is stronger than instinct." ~ Paul Carvel 1964-

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Jester In Name Only

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya Oracle ~ Ahaule

This unknown symbol was found on objects worn only by nobility and kings. It derives the modernish name  jester from it's three pronged hat and is thought to indicate benevolent power.

I'm reminded by this card to wonder if there ever was or is or could be, such a person. Because with the trappings of power come decisions, in which the few are always sacrificed for the all. Staff gets cut, point men are missioned, benefits are denied, the weak get disenfranchised. Hard decisions seem to be the point of power and I wonder that anyone applies for the job and the fact they are rabid for it sends up the red flags. "Just doing my job" doesn't cut it for me.

"The benevolent despot who sees himself as a shepherd of the people still demands from others the submissiveness of sheep."  ~ Eric Hoffer 1902-1983

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Conflict and Venus Transits

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya Oracle ~ Nohoch Ek

There are two of these cards, same only different...this one has the Venus glyph above the warrior, and indicates a fresh conflict is on the rise, but an old conflict is resolved. This is the minor, card 14 would be the major.

Some conflicts are thrust upon us, others we can choose. I choose not to argue with those who fall on the side of Mayan Prophesy and end of days. Even when the baktun long calendar is explained, they adhere to their view point. Which is fine, it is a pointless subject to have conflict over. I'll see them in January after our own calendar is reached it's end of days and we've hung the new one up.

"So, there is a lot to look forward to in 2012 but I don't think the apocalypse is going to be one of them." ~ Lou Mayo, NASA

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

On The Wing

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya Oracle ~ Ik

The Maya had intricate and precise timekeeping systems, this is the symbol of the second day of the sacred calendar made up of 20 day cycles with 13 numbers, a 260 day calender of 9 months. There was also the solar calendar and the long one, hype calling that one the Mayan Prophecy end of days, although it is neither prophecy or the end of the world. It is just a cyclical long term calender which has a beginning and an end, and will begin again late this year. There are 13 baktuns in a great cycle.

All that said, to say, this card is the unseen, creativity, the small personal wind which hopefully fills our daily sails with good ideas, well finished work, zings of brilliance. A working gift that lifts our lives and civilization above and beyond eat sleep shelter.

"Look to this day for it is life,
Today, well lived, is the very life of life." ~ From the Sanskrit

Monday, April 23, 2012

Dirty Fingernails and Muddy Boots

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya Oracle ~ Chac

Chac, a forebearer of Tlaloc below. Civilization, first and foremost is agricultural. We have to eat. Just because we take our green bags down to the local market and pick our harvest in covered rows doesn't mean that you and I aren't farmers at our core.

I'm reminded by this card it really wouldn't take very much to knock us back to this stage. If some of us remained we'd move forward more quickly because we've built a fund of knowledge beyond past civilizations, but would you and I be scrambling for seeds and a shovel? And praying to some form of Chac for the perfect balance of rain and sun? What could you contribute? SW Washington is perfect for vegetables and cattle and soft fruits. Fallow fields are covered with blooming mustard right now. Too short a growing season for melons, too cold for good tree fruit, soils not quite right for legumes or potatoes. So watch for me coming over the rise with trade goods in my green bags...

"When tillage begins, other arts follow. The farmers, therefore, are the founders of human civilization." ~ Daniel Webster 1782-1852

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Danger Will Robinson

Daily Draw: Wisdom of the Maya ~ Chibil Kin Eclipse

The Maya were astrologically sophisticated enough to predict eclipses but internalized it as the sun and moon fighting. It was a time of stress and danger when both life and emotions were off kilter. Chibil Kin is portrayed as a god taking a bite out of the moon. Sun and moon glyphs are under his feet.

I'm reminded by this card of the people who move the stock market. It swings wildly from day to day, showing little reflection on long term thinking, rather  fear selling or frenzy buying. Little gods biting the moon, buried in the minute rather than seeing the light on the whole.

"The fast lane I am flying down is one with no end in sight
Filled with reckless adventure and paved with dangerous delights." ~ Ashley Young 1986-

The deck this week is Wisdom of the Maya, an oracle of ancient knowledge for today. Published by St. Martin's Press 2000, hardcover 144 page book by Dr. Ronald Louis Bonewitz, the card art is from literal carvings by artist Achim Frederic Kiel, comprised of numerous topographic layers depending on the complexity of the image.
The deck consists of: 12 Old God cards, 4 Astronomical cards, 4 Sacred Animal cards, 5 Sacred Form cards, 20 Day/Number cards. Depending on where they fall in the spread they can be fixer, influence, identifier, or modifer cards.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Shortsighted Indifference

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Tlalok Source of Life

A search for Tlaloc turns up this sculpture which now stands outside the Mexico City Museum of Anthropology. So named source of life because it is the deity of water. No water,  no life.

I'm reminded by this card water is the first thing looked for on other planets. We can cover ourselves and create artificial sun in enclosed communities, but without a source of water from sky or earth the exercise is pointless, regardless of how many billions gets thrown at it. Closer to home, we are upside down in our priorities; we carpet deserts with golf courses and green lawns, yet worry about running out of oil. In 2000 years some new civilization will shake their heads at our shortsightedness. 

"In an age when man has forgotten his origins and is blind even to his most essential needs for survival, water along with other resources has become the victim of his indifference." ~ Rachel Carson 1907-1964

Friday, April 20, 2012

Polar Opposites, Fused

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Ketsalkoatl Feathered Serpent

Feathered Serpent is the sum total, the highest aim of the Toltecs, and indeed the Aztec Maya and Inca civilizations. It shows the combining of two opposing forces, thoughts, beings, in this case by the fusion of the low moving serpent and the high flying eagle.

Who we become can only be known in hindsight as we change until we die. Who we are can be examined. If you do a outline of your life in five year increments you can see the sections of the physical, mental, and spiritual shape forming. And if you look back at that list a month later you'll be struck by the big things you forgot. That personal three-part-harmony is an amazing journey and well worth a review.

"The true portrait of a man is a fusion of what he thinks he is, what others think he is, what he really is, and what he tries to be." ~ Dore Schary 1905-1980

Thursday, April 19, 2012

A Dogs Life

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Itskuintli Dog

Considered the companion traveler for prince, or shaman trance guide. It can mean traveling which renews the mind and spirit while the body still welcomes coming back home. The human figure has a double or shadow figure indicated by the curve across the head.

I'm reminded by this card we all have two, sometimes more sides. The one that interacts with the world and the one in our mind. It would probably take several lifetimes to intergrate the two because most of us don't have or accept the tools of trance or visualization or psychotherapy. And having two sides isn't a bad thing by any stretch. We must have our mind in which to celebrate or blow off steam in a manner which wouldn't be acceptable in public. And we can talk it over with our own version of the faithful dog companion... More politically correct than spewing our innermost thoughts in public, then as now.

"Dogs' lives are too short. Their only fault, really." ~ Agnes Sligh Turnbull 1888-1982

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Right From Wrong

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Kuetspalin Lizard

Among other things (from the book) the lizard symbol represents the pursuit of shamanism, without losing connection with the earth, being down to earth and common sensical. You'd think that the most redundant comment, but what is asked is that we not put worldly blocks who tell us what to think and when to think it, between us and a naturally spiritual life.

I'm reminded by this card to open my mind, my eyes, my heart, my spirit, to what the world and nature has to teach and offer. Cowering to one side, allowing some self-proclaimed spiritual leader of men to tell me what is right and what is wrong and when to squat and when to jump is ludicrous.

"Have you ever known a time when there was so much talk about ethics, or so little practice of it?" ~ Thomas Sowell 1930-

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Soar By Proxy

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Koskakuautli Vulture

Oh, elegant cleaner of death
From the remains of what was
You will bring forth beauty, flying, and light

In societies revolving on nature a carrion bird does have its uses and I like that image of after death the we would fly by proxy, giving the opportunity of seeing it all one last time.

I'm reminded by this card it wouldn't bother me to have my bones cleaned in this way, it is rather comforting to think of my bones, scattered hither and yon still being warmed by the sun and shining under the moon. After all death is nothing, it is living and dying that is hard.

"Does wisdom perhaps appear on the earth as a raven which is inspired by the smell of carrion?" ~ Friedrich Nietzsch 1844-1900

Monday, April 16, 2012

Mooning

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Koyolshauki Moon

Another push for heightened awareness, this time from or in the subconscious. To the unaware, the moon could be dismissed as simply a reflector of the sun's light, no more. But the moon exerts a gravitational pull that affects the whole world.

I'm reminded by this card we may not be able to grow crops by the light of the moon, but we can certainly plant by it. It is possible our internal moon, or subconscious gives us it's greatest gifts, via the moon and sleep.

"There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls." ~ George Carlin 1937-2008

Sunday, April 15, 2012

The Oblivious Life

Daily Draw: Toltec Oracle ~ Kuautli Eagle

Eagle represents our need to seek deeper knowledge, a higher plane, beyond the everyday cycle of eat sleep shelter, eat sleep shelter. Conversely we can take eat, and sleep, and shelter to a higher plane...

I'm reminded by this card if we chose to use our brains as much as our feet and hands we'd likely all be a genius. Selectively perhaps, I'd not concentrate on calculus but it is a matter of focus. We allow ourselves to be distracted into the trivial most of our waking hours limiting our chance to ever soar with the eagles, and know more, for the joy of learning.

"That's been one of my mantras - focus and simplicity. Simple can be harder than complex: You have to work hard to get your thinking clean to make it simple. But it's worth it in the end because once you get there, you can move mountains." ~ Steve Jobs 1955-2011

The Toltec Oracle by Victor Sanchez, published by Bear and Company 2004. 33 cards and 275 page soft cover book. 

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Sheer Velocity

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Secret Forest ~ Chariot

How can he stand upright with wings that big? Is that an enormous beetle carapace he is riding and is it alive or a shell? Is it upside down or right side up? Are those flies harnessed as pulling engines? With extra wings?

I'm reminded by this card of the cycle of mankind. We are born, we grub about, we finally get an idea, and begin using other creatures, usually in a manner which they were not intended. I hope his wings blow off from sheer velocity.

"The car has become the carapace, the protective and aggressive shell, of urban and suburban man." ~ Marshall McLuhan 1911-1980

Friday, April 13, 2012

Haven or Hell

Daily Draw: Secret Forest Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

Is he homesick and can't wait to get back inside, or sick of home and getting ready to leave the paddock? Is he waiting for someone to come back, or go?

I'm reminded by this card gates and doors go both ways. I often feel I'm on the outside looking in while I wait for the cancer to return or that magic five year mark. I often feel I'm on the inside wanting out when I look at the glacial movement toward my goals.
But I feel...and there is life and hope.

"because the past was always around her and might return at any time. It prowled the world searching for her, and she knew it was growing angrier at every passing day." ~ Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Savored Bounty

Daily Draw: Secret Forest Tarot ~ 2 of Coins

Is she or isn't she? Will he or won't he?
Who cares and who doesn't? Are they or aren't they?

We make decisions and choices every day weighted by the lives which surround and touch us. Yes, choices of the heart, but the suit of coins is much more, body mind and everything earthly is caught up in the suit. Free choice and the bounty thereof are gifts to be savored.

"You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche 1844-1900

The Secret Forest Tarot is an excellent example of Lo Scarabeo Publishing'willingness to step outside the Rider-Waite tarot box and offer something that makes the brain work...no rote fortune-telling here. Each card has two sides, a black and white rough draft, and the colored side, the finished card art. The humans in the art take a back seat to the setting and the natural and unnatural creatures who inhabit it. If you want to stretch and grow your reading abilities, this is a great deck to do it with. Published 2005, beautiful art by Lucia Mattioli. She is hard at work on a second deck, this one landscape rather than upright, with a double image on each. More thinking required!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Happy Times

Daily Draw: Victorian Flower Oracle ~ The Flower Ball

It doesn't take much to make me happy. Today the baby chicks will be in at Del's. I'm getting six. I even dreamed about them last night; for some reason Bruce Willis was assisting in the hen house. Their brooder is warming up right behind me here in the office, my days will be filled with their peeps.

It doesn't take much to make me happy.

"Regard it as just as desirable to build a chicken house as to build a cathedral." ~  Frank Lloyd Wright 1867-1959

Edited to add later: This deck no longer makes me happy, so tomorrow I'll be switching to Lucia Mattioli's Secret Forest. Now I'm really happy... :)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Shy No More

Daily Draw: Victorian Flower Oracle ~ Wallflower

I wasn't sure if I'd pulled this card in the past so did a blog search for shy. I haven't, but was amazed once again what the shy child who couldn't even look at a stranger, the shy young woman would couldn't even call to have the electric turned on, is willing to share on this blog...

I'm reminded by this card I actually enjoy meeting strangers, I'm a heck of a lot healthier mentally, letting stuff out instead of keeping it in; and I really like the old fashioned etiquette of shaking hands. I've experienced bone crushers to limp lettuce leaf shakes, all to the good bringing someone new into my life.

"They remember me as this shy girl sitting under the table. But they obviously didn't know what was going on in my head." ~  Izabella Scorupco 1970-

Monday, April 9, 2012

Wishful Thinking

Daily Draw: Victorian Flower Oracle ~ Pansy

She looks fragile, but look at which flowers are on offer first at plant nurserys. Pansys and Primroses. I've had some in pots for two months, they've been snowed on and frozen and rain rain rain, and they are still bright and lively and full of new buds. They are tough.

Nothing wrong with a little wishful thinking either, just don't encourage the "I'm so delicate and frail, won't you please do it for me" personality. From wishes can come the positive step of small actions, which lead to larger wish fulfilling actions. Which leads to a stronger independent capable life. That is what I wish for my sisters who think they are frail and hesitant. Empowerment. Via baby steps.

"Many of us spend half our time wishing for things we could have if we didn't spend half our time wishing." ~ Alexander Woollcott 1887-1943 

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Farewell

Daily Draw: Victorian Flower Oracle ~ Forget Me Not

We have had straggly stemmed sky blue forget me nots in our upper flower bed since we moved here 20 some years ago. They were also in the rose bed where we lived last. We didn't plant them, they just seem to come. But they aren't invasive so we just admire them each year and then yank out the remains when they turn brown or moldy, depending on the year's weather.

We become connected with a lot of people like this in the course of a lifetime. Acquaintances by accident, not much in common but it is always a pleasure to run into them for a few minutes, or hear news of them from mutual friends, otherwise not giving them much thought. But you know what? It is still a jolt to the system when we hear they've really gone...funny that.

"Fare thee well! and if forever,
Still forever, fare thee well." ~ Lord Byron 1788-1824

Working deck this week is the Victorian Flower Oracle, 2006, deck design by Magic Realist Press, deck art JJ Grandville 1803-1847, 132 page soft cover book Sheila Hamilton.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Empty Hands

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

Empty hands. My mother and I have only had two tiffs. I pointed out years ago none of her kids had the moola on hand to pay for a funeral and wouldn't it be a good idea to pre-plan hers while she had the money? Quite ticked her off.

I'm reminded by this card, here it is many years later, and she is failing fast. And I'm selling stuff to pay for her funeral when the time comes. She was a true adherent all her life to You Can't Take It With You. Which begs the question...is mine pre-planned? Well...yes, it is planned, but it isn't pre-paid. Empty hands indeed.

"If you're here for inspiration, you're too late. If you're here for the funeral, you're too early." ~ Will & Grace 1998-2006

Friday, April 6, 2012

Greatful

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

She stands in a circle of earth power, daring the pain to pass her by this time. She holds no tools but her own mind and personal dignity.

I'm reminded by this card of all the people in the world who are wedded to pain with no relief in sight. I am grateful that is no longer the life I lived for sixteen years.

"Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind" ~ Margaret Atwood 1939-

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Work In Progress

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ Moon

The First People's myth associated with the moon and sun indicates they were a work in process. The people found while light was good, stationary wasn't too helpful. Two ancient elders gave their spirits to the globes and with that they began to move in tandem and became the critical sources of heat and light and tides and gravitational pull. 

I'm reminded by this card Work In Progress defines my life. Some days when I feel like a putz I look backward to reassure myself I have made forward motion. Most days I look forward to all the possibilities and potentials each moon cycle offers anew.

"Know well what leads you forward and what holds you back, and choose the path that leads to wisdom." ~ Gautama Siddharta,  Buddha 563-483 B.C.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Savor and Celebrate

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

A step past yesterday's card, on to living the life of the victor.

I'm reminded by this card, and a lifetime of observation, when something has played a big part in our life and we finish it or kill it or let it fly free, we immediately seek something to fill the gap. Quit smoking, start stuffing. Leave Mormonism or Catholicism and rush off to Buddhism or Paganism. Divorce and live at dating sites. It must be human nature, but it seems a shame not to savor and celebrate that empty spot rather than jam a poor fitting something in it's place.

"We're so quick to cut away pieces of ourselves to suit a particular relationship, a job, a circle of friends, incessantly editing who we are until it all fits." ~ Charles de Lint 1951-

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Conquest or Release

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ 6 of Wands

The Yei wears four prayer sticks and carries two more.
Everything she wears or holds or is, is of the earth. And conquest or release, it comes to the same thing, it's over.

I'm reminded by this card of my exercise last week making a stick such as this. Glass, copper, cotton, animal hide glue, feather, wood...I'll set it free in the ancient cedar near my sanctuary. With it's making I have finally and fully set myself free of the deep rage that had dogged me for two years. A year to finally choose to let it go, and a year accomplishing it.

"The only conquests which are permanent and leave no regrets are our conquests over ourselves." ~ Napoleon Bonaparte 1769-1821

Monday, April 2, 2012

Clocked Hours

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ 9 of Coins

There is always a price for doing well.

I'm reminded by this card Rob clocked 253 hours at work this month plus 30 more off the clock in Canada. How can that be right? Or legal?

"I wish life was a remote. Play the easy times. Pause the good times. Fast forward the bullshit. Rewind the memories." ~ Unknown

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Devil Made Me Do It. Not.

Daily Draw: Santa Fe Tarot ~ Devil

If I don't believe in a God how could I believe in a Devil?

I'm reminded by this card there is no such thing as the devil made me do it. We did it. With our free will choice. Then we own it and live with it, no such thing as wiping the slate clean with a few mumbled words in the dark.

Calvin: "Do you believe in the devil? You know, a Supreme evil being dedicated to the temptation, corruption, and destruction of man?"
Hobbs: "I'm not sure that man needs the help."
Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbs 1985-1995

The Santa Fe Tarot, by Holly Huber and Tracy LeCocq, published by U.S. Games Systems 1996, out of print. The kit included soft cover 175 page book which tells the story of the five stages of the emergence of the native Peoples with card images presented as sand paintings.  The suits are Buffalo/Coins, Rainbow/Wands, Water/Cups, Lightening/Swords. Each card is presented face on and considered to be facing East.