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Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Political Perspective

Daily Draw: Moon Oracle ~ Duel

With the state and federal elections upon us we see clashing opposition everywhere we look. But nothing quite as reasonable as one-on-one, best man wins. Mudslinging is only the nicest term for what occurs.

I'm reminded by this card in politics, nothing ever changes. I'm glad my state is totally mail voting. I have my ballot, most of it is marked. Once I drop it in the mail, oddly enough, I forget all the carpola that goes along with it. I don't wear political button, I wear a pink ribbon. Helps perspective no end.

Keep yourself a stranger and pilgrim upon earth, to whom the affairs of this world are of no concern." ~ Thomas Kempis 1380-1471

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Exposed To The Light

Daily Draw: Moon Oracle ~ Artemis

Artemis the Huntress and patron of females dates from Etruscan times, predating Greek and Roman mythology which call her Diana. Real or myth her story portrays a life of clearly defined choices and independence. She chose animals over people, the remote mountain life over a city full of worshipers, to be single rather than wedded and knew this was the life she wished to lead by the age of six.

I'm reminded by this card Artemis was a goddess of light, not of the sun but the reflected light of the moon. That reflected rather than straight on light probably resulted in some of her choices costing her dearly. Because who amongst us hasn't had the most brilliant idea since time began which when exposed to strong light was found to have some cracks and flaws? I had a brilliant idea this morning. So far it is working, but it's hours to full light...and the reality of my day.

"Nature never said to me "Do not be poor"; still less did she say; "Be rich"; her cry to me was always "Be independent." ~ Sebastien-Roch Nicolas De chamfort 1741-1794

Monday, October 29, 2012

I Know It's There

Daily Draw: Moon Oracle ~ Kali

Kali defeated Raktavaji and his thousands of demons, but accomplishing the final solution drove her mad and in that madness she also killed her husband and wreaked havoc on Earth.

I'm reminded by this card of obsession. Of being so possessed by something or someone everything else is lost to us.  And we don't even note it's passing in our single mindedness. I'm trying not to become obsessed about getting better. Because to be well by that route would leave much of who I am behind and me is all I have. And finding compassion for myself is like trying to find the light switch in a dark room. I know it is there but where?

"I came upon a doctor who appeared in quite poor health. I said, 'There's nothing that I can do for you that you can't do for yourself.' He said, 'Oh yes you can. Just hold my hand. I think that that would help.' So I sat with him a while then I asked him how he felt. He said, 'I think I'm cured." ~ Conor Oberst 1980-

Sunday, October 28, 2012

I Oppose

Daily Draw: Moon Oracle ~ Opposition

The days are drawing shorter in this fall season, and we've added three hours of artificial light out in the chicken coop. It comes on at 5:00 AM and little Peanut is out there crowing like mad. I love to stand at my office window and watch the girls deciding to get up. Like other women, they greet the day differently. Pepper and Smudge are groomers, if there were a mirror they'd be in heaven. Emma and Sara are shrunken humps, waiting for their coffee. Sugar tries to stare down Peanut because he turns around on the roost and crows in her face. Angel takes the side chair and hen watches. Shortly they will all be on the floor having a little nosh.

I'm reminded by Opposition if it isn't too bad we shortly get used to anything. And if it is unspeakable and unthinkable, we soon find a way to divert our mind from that too, a mental by-pass to a place where we can cope.

"But what is all this fear of and opposition to oblivion? What is the matter with the soft darkness, the dreamless sleep?" ~ James Thurber 1894-1961

This week features the 1st edition Moon Oracle, published by Eddision-Sadd 2000 by Caroline Smith and John Astrop. The Moon Oracle has been reissued by McMillian and is available again, all the better for card lovers. 72 cards and 128 page book offer a practical introduction to lunar astrology including moon phases, elements, mansions, and goddesses, plus Moon Tables for pinpointing signs and phases.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Boggles My Mind

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ Hanged Man

Titled the Bound Man in this deck we see a raggedy man being led by a rope around his neck. In the background a burro is being beaten. Are we to assume both men and animals are possessions and deserve no more than they get? That has been the case through history right up to today.

I'm reminded by this card, and a conversation I had yesterday, about bullying. It has always been with us, yet each instance exposed surprises us once again with it's cruelty. Are we really so bound to our dark nature that this behavior gives us something of value?

"Stefan spat. "Oh, aye, he fell. O' course, Master Ralon helped him fall, several times. Poor li'l tyke didn't have a chance." ~ Tamora Pierce 1954-, Alanna: The First Adventure

Friday, October 26, 2012

Seeding and Sowing

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

Lovely image, she is forming the mental seeds that will grow her to her goal. From the size of the structure I'd say it is a big goal.

I'm reminded by this card, perhaps the bigger the goal, the simpler the plan should be? Or it should be broken down to steps, the next step pretty much ignored until the current one is completed? Because that enormous company I might have as my goal could easily go bust. And the next one might have other requirements. Long term projects like dams and major bridges can be shelved, requiring a change in direction. And as we grow and change our own interests might change, requiring a switch from biologist to meteorologist. Or like me, the source of my continuing education classes might stop giving them, requiring me to go on-line. I'm grumpy about it, just seems one or two more steps removed from life and real clients. But alter my actions I will. Because the Ace is always stage one.

"You cannot hold onto your seed. You must sow it and reap anew." ~ Robert Collier 1885-1950

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Dream vs. Reality

Daily Draw: 1001 Nights Tarot ~ 2 and 7 of Cups

As shown by the cards drawn here in '08, '11, and this week, this deck has much to do with love and all its attendant facets. Two cards came out today and placed side by side they made me think of childlike dream world of love, or the expectations placed on that first date, and the fear of repeated failures of those disappointed in love.

I'm reminded by this card of the utter truth of 'love is blind', and so is hate. When we bring our illusions to the table with us, it doesn't matter what the reality is, when we are already committed to an illusion. Because no one can live up to it.

"Illusions commend themselves to us because they save us pain and allow us to enjoy pleasure instead. We must therefore accept it without complaint when they sometimes collide with a bit of reality against which they are dashed to pieces." ~ Sigmund Freud 1856-1939



 

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Benevolent Dementia

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ Queen of Wands

The get 'er done queen. That was my mother, farm raised during the great depression who grew into the classic 1950's mom. Four children, enormous garden and full pantry, raised hens 500 at a time for her egg and meat route. The house was always clean, hot meals were always on the table on time, thrifty, smart, and she thought rough camping really was a vacation.

I'm reminded by this card that mother is just a memory now for both of us. She is 87 and has dementia and today and yesterday are the blurs. But if there is such a thing she has a benevolent dementia...she is happy, she appreciates that she doesn't take any medicines, and that she is so much better off than many of the other residents where she lives. Her sense of humor is sharp and we still share good laughter when we can be together. She will always be the Queen of Wands to me.

"My memories pale as I prevail upon them again and again. They become more and more ghostly. I fear nothing so much as losing them altogether and having only my blank endless mind to live in." ~ E.L. Doctorow 1931-

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Swept Up

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ Temperance

A tiny figure, being swept along by the larger one, magic carpet and all.
It is easy, exciting even, to be swept up in someone else's grand plan. To really feel part of something that is greater than us.

I'm reminded by this card, the key is perspective. Where will we be left when the hubbabubba moves on? Broke, sucked dry, cast aside? Abandoned by the old friends we abandoned first? Or perhaps exhilarated and renewed, going forward with expanded horizons?

"There are times when the greatest change needed is a change in my own viewpoint." ~ Denis Diderot 1713-1784

Monday, October 22, 2012

Class Time Again

Daily Draw: 1001 Nights Tarot ~ 8 of Coins

In a workshop setting the older man cautions the younger before his forge. On the shelves are finished bells goblets and servers. Before them on the floor are urns with holes and visible seams.

I'm reminded by this card to keep our skills sharp we have to use them. But we also have to be aware as volumes of knowledge grow, better and safer techniques come down the pike. We need to keep abreast of those changes to be worthy of our practice. Otherwise the prairie dust-bowls of the 30's would still be dust and barbers would still be bleeding patients for all causes.

"I tried to draw people more realistically, but the figure I neglected to update was myself." ~ Joe Sacco 1960-

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Going Nowhere At All

Daily Draw: Thousand and One Nights Tarot ~ 6 of Swords

The frame of the Thousand and One Nights collection is Scheherazade keeping her head attached to her neck by telling a new tale to King Shahryar each night.This looks like a lovely one, peace after turmoil perhaps.

I'm reminded by this card of a catamaran ride off Maui in the mid-90's. Another time when I was grieving and depressed. And quitting smoking... About mid-trip we took an evening cruise on a catamaran. To nowhere. The creak of the rigging, the slap of the waves, the utter peace of the ocean and time, and suddenly I could feel tension draining out of my body like water. I like to see how each artist presents this card, going away or coming toward, joy or sorrow. Or the odd one, going nowhere at all.

"I went to Maui to stay a week and remained five. I never spent so pleasant a month before, or bade any place goodbye so regretfully. I have not once thought of business, or care or human toil or trouble or sorrow or weariness, and the memory of it will remain with me always." ~ Mark Twain  1835-1910

This visually stunning deck is from Lo Scarabeo 2005, art by Leon Carre (1888-1942), graphics by Pietro Alligo. Based on the collection of Ancient Eastern stories and fables (also known as the Arabian Knights) the oldest Arabic manuscript dates from the fourteenth century, although scholarship generally dates the collection's genesis to somewhere between AD 800–900. There is no associated deck book, so if the reader is very familiar with the multi-volume tales they might know which story each card art is alluding to. I haven't read the books so I'm basing my readings on the art before me...your mileage may vary.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Insight of a Crustacean

Daily Draw: Buckland Romani Tarot ~ Moon

The crustacean emerging from water in the moon cards is said to (in very condensed form) represent new insight. Being humans we don't care for change so it's seldom welcome hence the idea the moon card means nightmares and dark times approaching or overtaking us.

I'm reminded by this card I am hiding from that insight, barely glimpsing the reflection, then turning my back on it before it can set in as the new truth. How long can know something and refuse to know? Forever would suit me just fine.

"We make mistakes because the easiest and most comfortable course for us is to seek insight where it accords with our emotions." ~ Aleksandr Isayevich Solzhenitsyn 1918-2008

Friday, October 19, 2012

Keeping Her Own Counsel

Daily Draw: Buckland Romani Tarot ~ High Priestess

I wonder if she is thinking how glad she is she isn't just starting out in this world. I wonder if the Romani's who've stayed within the clans still respect the wisdom of their elders? Or their king. Is elder wisdom even practical wisdom for today's world?  Is their king any better at leadership than ours are? Or are they all corrupt and self centered also?

I'm reminded by this card, approached one on one with a willingness to listen our elders still have a lot of wisdom to share, earned in living life, observation, and the school of hard knocks. It is just that each generation seems to need to experience those hard knocks themselves. Probably why our High Priestess keeps her own counsel, and simply reflects.

"I have often thought what a melancholy world this would be without children, and what an inhuman world without the aged." ~ Samuel Taylor Coleridge 1772-1834

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Influence Peddlers

Daily Draw: Buckland Romani Tarot ~ Chariot

The leader horse is larger and more powerful, with blinders. The smaller follower horse doesn't wear them. The type of flat cart they pull is incredibly easy to maneuver but the down side is if the horses aren't working in tandem it is all over the place.

This makes me think of influence. We all have people who trust us. People who believe what we say. Some lies influence by simple omission. Some lies are Munchausen-type, and can be spotted a mile off. They all make our cart wobble. But what of people of world influence, who when caught in a lie, just lie harder? Ah, the big horse with blinders. So focused on the goal and themselves their lives become one big cover-up. Until exposed and their cart goes over. Or we continue to support them, blinders on, believing the lies.

"People do not believe lies because they have to, but because they want to." ~ Malcolm Muggeridge 1903-1990

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Eatin' Worms

Daily Draw: Buckland Romani Tarot ~ 10 of Wands

Am I put upon? Amongst other irritations I've been working on getting this post finished since 4:30 AM. Three different computers. My dogs have decided to forget everything they know. My chronic pain sensors are back. There aren't any bananas.

I'm reminded by this card a day off would be a good thing. Except I can't stir up enough enthusiasm to go sit in the car, let alone start it up. So little things are getting on my last nerve. Guess I'll go eat worms.

"Guess I'll go eat worms,
Long, thin, slimy ones,
Short, fat, juicy ones,
Itsy, bitsy, fuzzy wuzzy worms. Down goes the first one,
Down goes the second one,
Oh how they wiggle and squirm. Up comes the first one,
Up comes the second one,
Oh how they wiggle and squirm" Author unknown

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Mental Chock



Daily Draw: Buckland Romani  ~ 9 of Cups

"Misspending time and income is a kind of self-homicide." ~ Edward F. Halifax 1881-1959

Monday, October 15, 2012

Master Plans

Daily Draw: Buckland Romani Tarot ~ 4 of Coins

I think our long term efforts and future plans are beginning to come together in a cohesive manner.

I'm reminded by this collection of various sized wheels, until you get the wagon they aren't much good. You can only envision going for the ride. Or push them around the field. Or show them off to folken who couldn't care less. Or polish them. But they are meaningless without the plan... in action.

"It was the right thing for him and the right thing for me. I guess it was all part of the master plan. It's something I'm looking forward to."  ~ Paul Howes 1981- 


Sunday, October 14, 2012

Executor

Daily Draw: Buckland Romani Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

The death of my little sister has presented me with a conundrum, she has always been listed as the executor of our estate. Who to choose (burden) now?

I'm reminded by this view, a disconnected set of people is not a team, are not confidants, may not even be family or friends. Whatever links them isn't strong enough to make them close.

"A lawyer is a learned gentleman who rescues your estate from your enemies and keeps it himself." ~ Henry Peter Brougham 1778-1868

Deck of the week is the Buckland Romani Tarot, 2008 from Glade Press. Art by Lissanne Lake, softcover 248 page illustrated book by Ray Buckland. Renamed suits are Bolers/Coins, Koshes/Wands, Koros/Cups, Chivs/Swords.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Ride The Waves

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Amphitrite

The unknown depths of the sea, suggesting our own unknown depths of feelings. Feelings is a funny word when you just sit and look at it, a nominalization of the verb to feel, the physical sense of touch.

I'm reminded by Amphitrite it is quite amazing we have any control and ability to direct our strongest feelings and not surprised they get away from us on occasion.

"Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings, always darker, emptier, and simpler." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche 1844-1900

Friday, October 12, 2012

Unwashable Stain

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Harmonia

Love and hate. Peace and war. I've only hated two people in my lifetime, one of them passed me at the post office last week and said 'hello friend'. I thought to myself, if I'm your friend I hope you have a passel of bodyguards against all your enemies, you are in trouble bud.

I'm reminded by this card, perhaps, 22 years later he thinks it is all water under the bridge. I'd like to see him under the bridge. I've let a million things go, we have to or we'd blow up, but not that. He harmed my Rob and that, in my book is an unwashable stain he'll never get off.

"You can clean your sword as much as you want but the blood still stains it." ~ Matsuro Emoto 1943-

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Flopsided Triangle

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Galatea

Triangles. We always got 'em. Work/Family/Life, Spouse/In-laws/Friends, Duty/Desire/Freedom. If we look around we can probably all pull up 3 or 4 just for today. I need to go to Portland and LaCenter/I need to get a gazillion pounds of long needle pine needles out of the yard/I must get mothers finances in order/I should finish my Ebay/Amazon listings. Mundane but in truth most triangles are, we just need to prioritize and live with it.

I'm reminded by this card some triangles aren't so mundane. Acis was the spirit of the Sicilian river Acis, Galatea was a sea nymph and they were in love. Peeking around the corner of the rock is the cyclops Polyphemus, a prototype stalker who crushed Acis to death. End of triangle. Was anyone's purpose served? Hardly.

"I think she's what we call a square, and we're kind of like a lopsided, obtuse, triangle, oval all put together like a, like a deformed shape." Honey Boo Boo (Alana Thompson 2005-)

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Irretrievably Lost

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Demeter

Such a beautiful card. It was a month ago as I write this I was holding my little sister's body as it cooled.

I'm reminded by this card grief is a savage and cruel mistress.

"The deep pain that is felt at the death of every friendly soul arises from the feeling that there is in every individual something which is inexpressible, peculiar to her alone, and is therefore, absolutely and irretrievably lost." ~ Arthur Schopenhauer 1788-1860

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Know Thyself

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Pyhthia

Let me see if I've got this right. The python prophet who inhabited this cave as Pythia, who received her knowledge from Gaia, was eventually killed by Apollo, who took her place as top seer. Gaia who we met yesterday, was no fool and transferred the ability of Seeing to mortals in the form of dreams. Leaving Apollo to twiddle his thumbs in the dark.

On the pillars behind the scene Apollo inscribed the message "Know Thyself". I'm reminded by this card why I no longer read the cards for others. The questions querents ask about themselves they are capable of answering themselves, they just don't want to think it through, or enters the realm of future telling which isn't possible. The questions they ask about other people are none of their business. I'm with Apollo here, know thyself, and everything thing else of import comes clear.

"Prophecy: Two bull's eyes out of a possible million." ~ Mark Twain 1835-1910

Monday, October 8, 2012

Honor

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Gaia

Considered Mother Earth and said to have birthed all sky/earth/water. In the lake before her are the first humanoids.

I'm reminded by this card, regardless of whatever religious beliefs anyone holds, to sustain life everything comes from nature first. Sustenance, raiment, shelter, toys. So obvious it is easy to forget as we look for complicated convoluted answers to the simplest question. When we respect earth we honor ourselves, our ancestors, indeed all life.

"Wildness reminds us what it means to be human, what we are connected to rather than what we are separate from." ~ Terry Tempest Williams 1955-

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Throw The Wine

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Hebe

Some research on Hebe brought this paragraph from the epic 48 volume poem Nonnus by Dionysiaca circa AD 490. It made me laugh and then brought me back to yesterday's arrows thoughts.
"Nonnus, Dionysiaca 33. 74 ff : 
"[The godlings Eros and Hymenaios were playing a game of cottabus in which wine was thrown from cups at a mark:] [Eros] on the golden top of Olympos, shooting the nectar-drops from a cup. Beside him stood Hymenaios, his fair-haired playfellow in the dainty game . . . A large silver basin stood for their game, and the shooting mark before them was a statue of Hebe shown in the middle pouring the wine. The umpire in the game was Ganymedes, cupbearer of Kronides [Zeus], holding the garland." 
courtesy   http://www.theoi.com/Ouranios/Hebe.html

I'm reminded by this card, the story, and Hebe's goblet of nectar for the renewal of the spirit that each day is a new gift, and rather than a victim full of arrows, today I can choose to envision myself as part of a laughter filled game of toss the wine at Hebe/Sharyn. That won't kill me either.

"She throw wine on me
So ah throw wine on she
She throw wine on me
That make me throw wine on she
She throw wine. Ah throw wine.
She throw wine. Ah throw wine.
She throw wine. Ah throw wine.
Ah throw wine on she." ~ Throw Wine, Prophet Benjamin (Devon Samuel 1978-)

The deck this week is Ancient Feminine Wisdom of Goddess and Heroines, card art by Kay Steventon, 64 page companion booklet by Brian Clark. Published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc. 2007.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Martyrdom Isn't An Option, I'm No Saint

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ 3 of Swords

Study of the Martyrdom of St. Sebastian, ordered shot to death with arrows by the Emperor Diocletian, Rome AD 288.
Dimmi: What are you mourning? What is painful?

The idea we are never given more than we can bear is total unmitigated hogwash. If it were even remotely true there wouldn't be any suicides.
Like Sebastian's arrows, they all killed him, not just one, the last straw syndrome; we each just have a different Tilt point. I'm working on arrows that go back over twenty years I think, no one enough to bow me but in total, finally enough to lay me out.
I've named the word depression out loud for the first time in my life, and have asked for help for the first time in my life...that was painful. But it didn't kill me...and maybe it will help. Maybe it already has. I've been up for a couple of hours and haven't discovered pointless tears running down my face yet. It is early, but believe me that is progress.

"As the eagle can be killed by the arrow winged with his own feathers, so the hand of the world is wounded by its own skill." ~ Helen Keller 1880-1968

Friday, October 5, 2012

Driving Desire

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ 9 of Cups

Dimmi: What is your heart's desire?

I've been thinking about this since I drew it at 4 AM. Leonardo's dream was to fly. It may be my age but I don't have any burning ambitions or even a concrete bucket list.

I'm reminded by this card I'm not sure if this should be deeply worrisome or is a zen-ish sort of place.

"Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needs than what you though you were looking for." ~ Lawrence Block 1938-

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Unique Gift

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ Magician

Dimmi: How does your unique gift change the world about you?

My intent has never been to change the world, only me. But having acknowledged what my special purpose is I use it to the full of my skills and abilities as often as possible.

I'm reminded by this card I'd like to think I've made a significant gift and difference for the better in a few peoples lives. The world? That would be too much to cope with, I'm a fractured grain of sand, not a beach.

"You make a living by what you get. You make a life by what you give." ~ Winston Churchill 18874-1965

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Three Week Rule

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ Page of Swords

Dimmi: What do you have to watch out for?

Oooo, my inner page...right on time. I have to watch out for my three week rule. I've piled full tilt into so many things in the past, an off-shoot of the info-junkie mind, only to wake up one day and decide it just isn't for me. So now I wait three weeks to pile in, and usually the feeling passes.

I'm reminded by this card the experience is always good, something is always learned but the time and often expenses involved makes me shake my head at myself. On the other hand...I'm nine days into my wait three weeks rule, once again. (wiggles eyebrows) Five days and I'm going to try something else...if the interest lasts that long.

"The torment of precautions often exceeds the dangers to be avoided. It is sometimes better to abandon one's self to destiny." ~ Napoleon Bonaparte 1769-1821

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Knightly Knightness

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ Knight of Cups

Dimmi: How do you feel about this?

Rather cryptic dimmi. A knight in ribbons and furbelows? Is he effeminate? Good for him, be yourself, go for it. Is he going to a faire rather than war or practice? Is he playing at being a knight, thinking it's all romantic connotations and adventures to be had?

I'm reminded by this card being a knight in Di Vinci's 1400's was simply an economic response to the inheritance laws. The oldest son got everything. So for the younger sons two options for food and shelter were the church and hiring on as someone's knight. I'd like to think this knight has hired on with a remote Earl or Lord with about two dozen other down-and-outs and has found it  much to his liking. Lots of work, balanced by quality play time. Good for him.

"It's like being a Knight of the Garter. It's an honor, but it doesn't hold up anything." ~ Fulton J. Sheen 1895-1979

Monday, October 1, 2012

Not A Pretty Picture

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ Queen of Swords

Dimmi: What is Really going on?

The more I think about it the further back and deeper it goes
the higher the stack of things to overcome grows.

The Queen of Swords is renowned for her sharp intellect and the ability to use it. Right now I don't consider it a gift but a burden.

"The voice of the intellect is a soft one, but it does not rest until it has gained a hearing." ~ Sigmund Freud 1856-1939