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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Que Sera Sera

Daily Draw: Ship of Fools Tarot ~ 9 of Swords

Just how many things can we dream up to worry about in the night? MotherTerryGordonKyleMarindaRobHazel incomeexpensestaxessavings AmazonbooksalesEbaybuys howtodothis howtonotdothat conditionofpillow  tomorrowthedayafternextyear appliancesvehicles chickensgoatsdogscatshens survivorsoftheMinnow

I'm reminded by this card the list is endless in the dead of night and pointless in the light of day. Que sera sera

"I set up a meeting with Tom Morrow and Yes Terday, and I’m afraid I’ll be both a day late and a day early." Jarod Kintz, A Story That Talks about Talking

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Homeless Or Homeward Bound?

Daily Draw: Ship of Fools Tarot ~ Fool

This card is made up of two original plates from the Narrenschiff, one a very 5 of coins-ish/6 of swords-ish scene showing the despair of a traveling family. Babies in baskets on the back of a mule, father with a cane leading, mother bringing up the rear.

I'm reminded by this card, as I tear around town on Really Important Missions I see cars and vans that families are  living in or contain everything they own. There by Tower event or foolishness, my heart cries for every one. In a country as rich as this with billions to spend elsewhere it seems so wrong. Or perhaps Mr. Romney was correct and I have a welfare mindset. I hope this version of the Fool has brighter days ahead.

"And homeless near a thousand homes I stood,
And near a thousand tables pined and wanted food" ~ William Wordsworth 1770-1850 Incidents Upon Salisbury Plain

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Spittle Flying

Daily Draw: Ship of Fools Tarot ~ 5 of Wands

Got a friend or family member who is great company unless the conversation bumps up against their trigger?

My maternal grandmother always said "anyone can be a fanatic about anything" and she was right, it isn't limited to politics and religion. By the time they get up to spittle flying stage I'm already long gone.

"Sometimes I think you don't really believe the things you say; you just like the sound of yourself having opinions." ~ Amy Reed, Crazy

Monday, January 28, 2013

Rumor Has It Meets Tombstone Shadow

Daily Draw: Ship of Fools Tarot ~ 2 of Coins

A toast to good news and good times. I can do this, can smooth my frown and think good things. Heaven knows I have blessings running out my ears.

That fresh delicious and only cup of coffee first thing. Doggies that don't bark when I let them out in the night. Goats are always good for a laugh when I come out in the morning with their apple newtons. Rob who works so hard and provides so much for his little family. Computer, sewing machine, treadle, fabric, iron, scissors and needles. Mind hands heart. Two brothers and mother, all healthy. No snow. Music...it is incredible, particularly given the limited subject matter, that millions of songs have been written and no two sound the same. Life is good, Creedence and Adele rule. 2015 Australia.

"On some nights I still believe that a car with the gas needle on empty can run about fifty more miles if you have the right music very loud on the radio"~ Hunter S. Thompson 1937-2005

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Upside Down

Daily Draw: Ship of Fools Tarot ~ 9  of Coins

Don't know about other countries but Americans are very private about money matters. We'll talk about our childhood dysfunctions, shout politics, proselytize our faiths, all personal subjects, but money? Nada.

I'm reminded by this group pooling funds (playing cards) the silence about money is one of the reasons our economy is in the bucket.  As individuals and as a country we've blindly spent until we are upside-down financially. A terrifying state of affairs.

"Each time I see the Upside-Down Man
Standing in the water,
I look at him and start to laugh,
Although I shouldn't oughtter." ~ Shel Silverstein 1930-1999

The deck this week is The Ship of Fools by Brian Williams (1958-2002). The cards are based on the German book Narrenschiff or The Ship of Fools, published in 1494. Almost all the cards depicted are pulled directly from the book and required very little alteration to turn them in tarot. Which shows the more things change the more things are the same...humans were fools then and are fools now in spite of the cloak of modernity we hide under.
Published by Llewellyn Worldwide 2002, now out of print. Includes 207 page soft cover book.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Tackle Them All You Big Crybaby

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

Yesterday I said the same thing, in 27 words. Pick yer poison.

The cards sometimes present what we might interpret as a sense of humor. Love this deck but the courts make me roll my eyes. This morning I shuffled, fanned, and drew in succession, Spider Woman of the West. Brahma of the East. Odin of the North. Feeling a little cocky today I shouted fie on you and took another draw. Ahh. 10 of Swords. Serves me right, redraws are for babies. So I'll tackle them all, here is my Reader's Digest Condensed version.
  • Spider Woman: Her calm demeanor and the labyrinth shows I know one of the key movers in my epic battle against depression. At center I have a probable cancer in my right lung found when they did the calibrations for breast radiation in 2011. Small, very small.
  • Brahma: Until my friend Judy said it yesterday it never crossed my mind that a magic miracle could happen and I'd get out of this life alive. Brahma says think outside the box, there are more worlds than these. I'm an exceeding practical person, but even I can allow hope combined with the real world grunt work of general health duties. It has doubled in size, but is still small, very small.
  • Odin: Hung upside down with a side of elephant legs and black spot...Odin chose to hang suspended. I don't. I stand on my own legs and go forward.  
  • 10 of Swords: Yes. I know some verdicts are written in stone and all these swords go into the same area, straight down embedded. But..at the bottom there are sword tips from somewhere else, at odd angles. Some one is down there tunneling, weakening the foundation of the ten. Shhh..Me, it's me! Google cancer miracles. And allow me my hope. 
Such a long post for such a little spot. If you've read this far give yourself a hug for me. I usually hit the back button on long posts... Sharyn                                                                            

Friday, January 25, 2013

Reality Bites

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

Hope. Truth. Reality.

Sometimes we run from the reality, but only by embracing the truth can we merge hope and reality into something we can live with.

"Reality is one of the possibilities I cannot afford to ignore". ~ Leonard Cohen 1934- Beautiful Losers

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Bide A Wee, Drift A Bit

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ Empress

There is a ton of stuff going on in this card beyond my level of understanding. Most of it refers to natural or nature and how we gain our quotient of humanity as we choose to be sculpted by love and loss.

I'm reminded by this figure floating on the water buoyed by the crescent moon, sometimes we require that kind of respite, to allow ourselves to drift along a bit until the mind catches up with what the heart already knows.

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." ~ Anais Nin 1903-1977

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Tight Weave

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

The tight weave of spirituality with which we bind ourselves. We take what was joy and light and start adding rules, restrictions, and fearful consequences until our mind and heart are paralyzed and buried by the very spirituality we embraced.

I'm reminded by this card religion has brought more pain and sorrow and grief to this world than any kind of plain old hate. Odd that, when at it's center it is pure love in any language and culture.

"Man did not weave the web of life, he is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself." ~ Chief Seattle 1780-1866

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Mutual Respect

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ Page of Wands

Krishna and Radha are the perfect couple in Indian mythology, being equals and full of mutual respect and experimentation and pure playfulness. The reality of the average woman in India is nothing if not the opposite.

I'm reminded by this card to be grateful to have married a man who respects women, everywhere. The world seems full of opportunities to do the opposite.

"Love does not cause suffering: what causes it is the sense of ownership, which is love's opposite." Antoine de Saint-Exupery1900-1944

Monday, January 21, 2013

Entertained and Appalled

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ 5 of Wands

Change? Conflict? Revolution? Which is it and what triggered it? This card asks what do we need to do to affect the status quo in a positive manner. We surely don't want to live our lives in the stagnation of the the fours, fives offer us an option toward resolution.

I'm reminded by this card and a family drama, sometimes people seem to prefer conflict to resolution.There is zero I can do about it, and it isn't any of my business, so we are left with the option of being alternately entertained and appalled.

"One is never wounded by the love one gives, only by the love one expects." ~ Marty Rubin

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Revolting Revelation

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ Devil

In my youth I believed alcohol was a good friend. When I had three drinks in me I believed I was the life of the party.  I'd even have my first drink at home so I'd have a head start on all that fun.

I'm reminded by this card the life of the party is a dangerous place indeed, and some of my actions I regret bitterly. And when I quit drinking but before I quit going to parties it was a revelation of just how unfunny and revolting a drunk is. But, it would be nice to loose a few of my inhibitions...

"Take counsel in wine, but resolve afterwards in water." ~ Benjamin Franklin 1706-1790

I'm working with the Haindl Tarot this week, large German edition published by Lotos Verlag 2002, art by Hermann Haindl. The suits are labeled Wands, Cups, Swords, Stones. Wands represents Indian Hindu, Cups Celtic, Swords Egypt, Stones Native American. The minors include I-Ching, the majors include runes, Arabic numbers, zodiac sign, and Hebrew letters. All this has tried to create a one size fits all deck. I ignore it all and go with the images, as usual. That said, the Haindl is one of my top ten favorite decks.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Wield The Sword

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

The dawn of the grail quest as Galahad draws Balin's sword from the stone. Meaning brighter days and new directions.

I can only hope it is true, three antidepressants and time can't do it all, I need to pull and wield the sword of life.

"You have to find something in your soul that's going to push you forwards - to find your inspiration." ~ Elvis Stojko 1972-

Friday, January 18, 2013

Bone Coat

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

The wasteland. So bereft the humans and buzzards who remain fight for a morsel of carrion where there is none.

This image reminds me of the year I spent in a black rage. I didn't need to look for morsels to keep the rage aflame, I wore that corpse like a bone coat. I was a long time letting go and don't grieve it's passage. Forewarned is forearmed...I'll never let anyone push me that far again, a wasteland is no place to live. I can change myself, I can't change past events or other people.

"It is easier to gnaw through bone
Than the hide of the heart." ~ Diane Glancy 1941-

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Hardwired

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

Has anyone ever reached nirvana and been satisfied or content? Is it even within the scope of human character to be so? Or are we hardwired to always put our foot in it?

I'm reminded by this card of the 60's with JFK in office and Camelot was the keyword the press lived by. Jackie was never shown smoking and nary a word was printed about Kennedy's insatiable hound dog proclivities and Vietnam was just a dot on the part of the map we couldn't be bothered with. Were we better off when we didn't know? Did any of it matter? It could have been the pure perfection of the idea of Camelot that drove Oswald to his rage and mission.

"We forgave, followed and accepted because we liked the way he looked. And he had a pretty wife. Camelot was fun, even for the peasants, as long as it was televised to their huts." ~ Joe McGinniss 1942-

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

We Build The Myth

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

Much like a ball players lucky sock, superstitious beliefs come with the grail cup. We absolutely love our omens and portents and lucky pieces. We build the myth then reinforce its power with use.

I'm reminded by this card special tokens are the bread and butter of hope, one of the keys that gets us up and spurs us on. I suspect that is why I have pink ribbon pins on all my coats and sweaters-I ward thee away carcinoma, although I wouldn't confess to it in public...on the other hand I will acknowledge I gave up wishing on first star and white horses a long time ago.

"There is superstition in avoiding superstitions." ~ Francis Bacon Sr. 1561-1626

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Fortuna's Flick

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Wheel

This card refers to Arthur's nightmare prior to a big battle, regarding the fickleness of Fortuna. In the dream life was grand for Arthur while at the top but when Fortuna flicked the Wheel, in the fall his jaw was crushed and the Wheel broke the rest of his bones, then he was eaten by worms.

This card reminds me of the type of pre-knowledge gained in insider trading or corporate research and development, secrets that can make someone without integrity wealthy. I consider myself as honest as the day is long, but I expect I'd be hard pressed to ignore knowledge that could make me a financial pile. Fortuna isn't likely to offer that choice...so I'll never know will I?

"The line between honesty and dishonesty is a narrow, shifting one and usually lets those get by that are the most subtle and already have more than they can use." ~ Clarence Darrow 1857-1938 The Story Of My Life

Monday, January 14, 2013

Have Just The Thing

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

A pile of knights with nothing knightly to do. An uninspired lifestyle is how the author so eloquently describes it.

I'm reminded by this card of the times as a kid when I'd tell my mother I was bored. "Oh good, I have just the thing for that" and I'd find myself with a broom or paint brush or hoe in hand. Something to do cures a lot of ills.

"If you're reading this...
Congratulations, you're alive.
If that's not something to smile about,
then I don't know what is." ~ Chad Sugg 1986-, Monsters Under Your Head

Sunday, January 13, 2013

If Your Heart Isn't In It

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 5 of Cups

If the heart isn't in it there isn't much hope of a relationship lasting.

I'm reminded by this card it is the kinder thing to not try, quit farting around and get gone. I'd rather be old, by far, than full of teenage angst again.

"Love comes unseen; we only see it go." ~ Austin Dobson 1840-1921

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Run With It

Daily Draw: Legend The Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Wands

Merlin's task to three of the knights who remained seated as he had directed, during a chaotic hunt incident in the dining hall:
Find the knight who rose and stole a hunting dog,
Find the dog,
Find the strange knight who rode in and stole the damsel who was running the hounds,
Find the kidnapped damsel,
and bring the white hart back.

This card makes me wonder, should we sit dumb waiting for a message that may never come, or take the message propelled upon us by happenstance and run with it?

"Civilized life has altogether grown too tame, and, if it is to be stable, it must provide a harmless outlets for the impulses which our remote ancestors satisfied in hunting." ~ Bertrand Russell 1872-1970

Friday, January 11, 2013

Hermitage Thrust Upon Us

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Hermit

Lancelot was in a self-imposed exile for two years, his mind tumbled by the enormity of what he had done, or been tricked into doing. Two years later, only by the grace of the Grail was his mind healed.

I'm reminded by this card that all hermitages are not created equal. Prison or jail, hospital, nursing home or asylum, traveling, there are many places we are aloneish. Do we take that time as an opportunity to heal or grow? Or do we allow busyness by choice and environmental chaos to rule?

"Leisure should be a time to think new thoughts, not ponder old ills." ~ C. Neil Strait 1934-2003

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Needful

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Page of Wands

She has a message tied to her wand, the suit of action.

I'm reminded by this card, like a bolt out of the blue, I got a call yesterday (while I was lost, in another state, in the snow no less). I wasn't interested then but I've been thinking about it all night and today I can hardly wait until it isn't too early to call. Even a needful potential client wouldn't be interested in talking to me at 3:30 AM...

"The ideal client is the very wealthy man in very great trouble." ~ John Sterling 1948-

One of my favorite decks, Legend the Arthurian Tarot, art and 256 page A Keeper Of Words book by Anna-Marie Ferguson, published by Llewellyn Worldwide. My second edition was published 1998, Suits are titled Swords, Cups,  Spears (wands), Shields (coins).

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Silence Surrounding

Daily Draw: Waking The Wild Spirit ~ Silence

I occasionally lose patience with a deck and drop it mid-week.

When the artist/author shopped it around it was as an oracle. The publisher insisted on producing it as a tarot deck. For me it doesn't work on either level. Sorry Poppy, back in the sale pile it goes. What I hear from these cards is just Silence.

"He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words." ~ Elbert Hubbard 1856-1915

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Prisoner

Daily Draw: Waking the Wild Spirit Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

I'm reminded by this card of the 40+ children being held as sex slaves who were recently freed.

"Age after age, the strong have trampled upon the weak; the crafty and heartless have ensnared and enslaved the simple and innocent, and nowhere, in all the annals of mankind, has any god succored the oppressed." ~ Robert Green Ingersoll 1833-1899



Monday, January 7, 2013

Stir The Pot

Daily Draw: Waking The Wild Spirit Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

The artist asks "what changes for the better can I stir into the pot?".

Boy, good question but it's awful early to think...I need another side job; I want to buy headstones for the family plot. I need to do something about the table surfaces; in a house without much storage things collect all about, yet I prefer sparse..time for a serious clean out again. Maybe it will help clear my head too.

"We shall never have more time. We have, and always had, all the time there is. No object is served in waiting until next week or even until tomorrow. Keep going... Concentrate on something useful.”
Arnold Bennett 1867-1931

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Rootwork

Daily Draw: Waking The Wild Spirit ~ 2 of coins

We are entranced by an idea, we commit to it, we work like mad, and we often end up with a dashed dream.

I'm reminded by this card we need to do the research and the baby steps which become the foundation, we need to nurture each stage. There aren't any short cuts to success.

"Short cuts make for long delays." ~ J.R.R. Tolkien 1892-1973 The Hobbit

The deck this week is Waking the Wild Spirit, art and 290 page soft-cover companion book by British artist Poppy Palin. Published by Llewellyn 2002, both now out of print. An updated book and the deck, now called an oracle, are available through Slippery Jacks.
The suits are given as elements: Spirit of Earth, Spirit of Air, Spirit of Fire, Spirit of Water. The majors have all been renamed.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

All Things Of The World

Daily Draw: Rocambole Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

A new year, a fresh start on good stewardship of finances and health, with a firm grounding on all things 'of the world'. Tall order.

I'm reminded by this card, tall order or not, we will live our days, say our words, spend our resources, so why not do it judiciously.

"Pour yourself a drink, put on some lipstick, and pull yourself together." ~ Elizabeth Taylor 1932-2011

Friday, January 4, 2013

Death Grip

Daily Draw: Rocambole Tarot ~ Page of Wands

Here we see the  male sluga/servant of Wands who has made a committment to do or complete something and he is sincerely and deeply concerned he isn't up to it. He has his figurative project, the wand, in a death grip.

I admire this Page. Number one because he has taken on the project or had it forced upon him, and number two because he will likely complete it and then stand up for the next one although he will have the same concerns again. He may be 'just' a page, a servant, but he will be the best one possible.

"The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field of endeavor." ~ Vince Lombardi 1913-1970

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Unnatural Element

Daily Draw: Rocambol Tarot ~ Page of Cups

To quote Echols/Mueller/Thomson this male sluga/servant most often feels like the fish in the cup, out of it's element. I'm always jumping into things I know nothing about, but the one that really stands out in my mind was when I was 16 and a cafe waitress. My boss called, said jump in a cab and go down to the port docks, someone would be waiting for me, some big wig dinner and they needed extra help on a ship.

I'm reminded by this card I couldn't understand a word anyone said, didn't recognize much of the food, and had no idea what or if I was getting paid. I was way out of my element at the time but in retrospect it was an intriguing experience I'd do again.

"I thought I was all-terrain, tough in any condition
I come to find out I’m mettle deficient
my eyelid’s on fire, got a heart made of glass
my shadow walked out on me and I’m fading fast
a closet claustrophobe who can’t be protected
I'm out of my element and I did not expect it" ~ Kenny White

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Only Strangers Until You're Not

Daily Draw: Rocambole Tarot ~ Tower

2012 gave me two Towers, one a long slow fall and one instantaneous. Not to put too fine a point on it, it was the worst year of my life.

I'm reminded by this card that tower moments are not always bad, although having our foundation shook can discombobulate us. You could say I'm having a tower moment today, but the good kind, a jamais vu. Here is to 2013 following suit.

"On days like this, I want to take my strangers home with me." ~  Gemma Seltzer, Speak to Strangers


Tuesday, January 1, 2013

A Pox On Civilization

Daily Draw: Rocambol Tarot ~ 6 of Swords

Each day as I look at these cards I think about how long the Mesoamericans survived and how sophisticated their culture was, and how fast it collapsed with the invasion of the Spaniards. They had never seen horses or ships until that time, yet had a far flung coastal trading system serviced by canoes and porters.

I'm reminded by this card which often shows a small boat traveling away, and the fiscal cliff idiocy; that we can run but we can't hide, eventually we too will fade into history. Leaving nothing for future archeologists to ponder but billions of smart phones and plastic sacks.

"All our lauded technological progress -- our very civilization - is like the axe in the hand of the pathological criminal." ~  Albert Einstein 1879-1955