Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ 6 of Coins
By whatever name they are called, this suit is the world/earth related reality. Health, finances, work, everything that we physically manifest, and for me particularly how I 'bank' myself. My life is not a guttering candle on a cracked plate, but the last couple of years have manifested as black for me.
I'm reminded by yesterday's seven, and today's six, what a difference a few weeks can make. An exceptional number of things happened all at once, to which I reacted poorly (mostly poor pitiful me if truth is told), leaving me caroming off door jams, unable to string a four or five word sentence together, sideswiping a car just to touch on a few of the lighter highlights. I was a 7 to the 9th degree. I actually thought I had contracted instant dementia. In a few years that will be funny, but my mother is in late stage dementia, and it isn't funny now.
I'm reminded by this card what I'd actually done, in a fog of grief, was take one of my antidepressants all in the morning, rather than divided night and morning, and by weeks end rapidly arriving at toxic levels. When I realized what I'd done I felt so damned stupid, I went off my all anti-depressants cold turkey. Not something I'd recommend to anyone else, but this morning I'm a 6. A wobbly 6 but still. Funny how we can see so clearly what's up with someone else, and not be able to look inward to see what is wrong with ourselves.
"Drosselmeir had unwittingly exposed himself to an overdose of reality, and it had destroyed his reason." ~ Angela Carter 1940-1992
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