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Monday, September 30, 2013

Guttering Candle

Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ 6 of Coins

By whatever name they are called, this suit is the world/earth related reality. Health, finances, work, everything that we physically manifest, and for me particularly how I 'bank' myself. My life is not a guttering candle on a cracked plate, but the last couple of years have manifested as black for me.

I'm reminded by yesterday's seven, and today's six, what a difference a few weeks can make. An exceptional number of things happened all at once, to which I reacted poorly (mostly poor pitiful me if truth is told), leaving me caroming off door jams, unable to string a four or five word sentence together, sideswiping a car just to touch on a few of the lighter highlights. I was a 7 to the 9th degree. I actually thought I had contracted instant dementia. In a few years that will be funny, but my mother is in late stage dementia, and it isn't funny now.

I'm reminded by this card what I'd actually done, in a fog of grief, was take one of my antidepressants all in the morning, rather than divided night and morning, and by weeks end rapidly arriving at toxic levels. When I realized what I'd done I felt so damned stupid, I went off my all anti-depressants cold turkey. Not something I'd recommend to anyone else, but this morning I'm a 6. A wobbly 6 but still. Funny how we can see so clearly what's up with someone else, and not be able to look inward to see what is wrong with ourselves.

"Drosselmeir had unwittingly exposed himself to an overdose of reality, and it had destroyed his reason." ~ Angela Carter 1940-1992

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Wake Up You Fool

Daily Draw: Petrak Tarot ~ 7 of Coins

In the Thoth system, the sevens basically mean all is lost. We've prepared for it in the wrong ways, we were ignoring the signs that suggested we were on the wrong track, we let our garden fall fallow with no harvest at all.

This could be something as simple as our cake falling while baking to losing all our investments in the stock market. The Thoth six of coins is success, the eight of coins is prudence. Time to pull up our socks and take an active role in life and our future.

"Try again. Fail again. Fail better." ~ Samuel Beckett 1906-1989 Worstward Ho

In use this week is the Patrak Tarot, art by Petra Reiter, Thoth based, published by Piatnik 2008.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Hare-Brained

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 2 of Stones/Coins

Two march hares box on a stone bridge. We and they know they will end up in the water with nothing much changed or solved.
Does that stop them? Hardly. All the more reason to fight harder.

Ever pick a fight based on ungrounded information? Religion and politics come to mind. Child rearing, driving directions, having or not having money...and that all time favorite, just because.

"Some interesting ideas, but a little haphazard in execution, and not really any clear indication of exactly what the point was." ~ R.A. Harris
 

Friday, September 27, 2013

Opposing Thumbs

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ Archer/Chariot

I expect there has always been no respect.
But it seems there is even less now because we have the option to know about every little incident world wide instead of just our own village. In our own villages all the news all the time  encourages and emboldens those happy to wreak havoc by overrunning our fragile world. Why shouldn't they, it must seem to them they are virtually unstoppable, it is ok because everyone else is doing it.

I'm reminded by this Archer card as a vehicle of protection, it isn't just 'they should do something about it' but we each and every one need to nock our invisible bow and stop the defilements in our our own back yards. The animal beasts of the world are clearly more advanced than the ones walking upright with opposing thumbs.

"It's tragic how humans can wrap their mind around things and fit them into their version of reality." Rick Riordan 1964- The Lightning Thief

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Perspective

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 4 of Arrows/Swords

Funny how just a few days away can bring perspective and clarity. I see how clearly we need to take more breaks, I'm getting a clue about my next stream of income, and what I already knew, there is nothing like Home.

I'm reminded by this card how few newspapers are left, that our motel rooms had hundreds of tv channels to offer us and not one single thing we wished to watch...weird that. That the rusty silhouettes in Raymond are a lovely addition to that little town, how much I loved the Weatherwax art sculpture in Aberdeen, how gorgeous autumn is on the Yakima River is, how friendly our neighbors to the north are and how the ocean at least never changes. I can live with that.

"We may act sophisticated and worldly but I believe we feel safest when we go inside ourselves and find home, a place where we belong and maybe the only place we really do." ~ Maya Angelou 1928- Letter to My Daughter

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Dovie'andi se tovya sagain

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 9 of Arrows/Swords

Potter's sword suit seem more about recognizing what isn't working and putting the full force of our mind on fixing it than living through grinding hardship just by hanging in there and waiting for the wheel to roll off our back.

I'm reminded by this card of the past month of losses and disasters. I surely don't care to live it again, ever. But to lie there with the wheel pinning my face to the dirt? I'm tunneling under and out. Shifting some of that carpola off will be a funny story in a few years, for now the digging keeps my brain occupied and my heart beating. Always a good thing. I'm looking for light, not buying more tunnel...

"Sene sovya caba'donde ain dovienya" ~ Robert Jordan 1948-2007 Wheel of Time

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

The Good Earth

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ Queen of Arrows/Swords

A white hart, still in body and mind allowing the good in the world to come in and fill the dark spaces, the empty corners, the unfulfilled parts.

I'm reminded by this Queen, that images and information, once in, can't be unseen or unheard. With incredible naivety I think "well that is the worst, humankind can't possibly sink lower than that". And yet it does. I look at this Queen and grieve for our world which will never achieve The Good Earth title it's potential offers.

"And you know what the worst thing was? The worst thing was that nobody ever believed how hard we tried." ~ Jack McCarthy 1929-2013

Monday, September 23, 2013

Open Mind Open Heart

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ Sun

In Potter's deck this sun is the fool's wheel, completed. The figure has gone from gangly and impressionable to grounded, confident, and educated by and with an open heart and mind. The figure is now offered the Uffington horse for future journeying.

I'm reminded by this card no matter how many times we travel there is always another wheel, another cycle, more information to be added to the whole. By the end of yesterday I actually felt like the figure in the Blasted Oak. Today I regroup, once again, to face the next thing.  I can do this. I think. Open mind open heart, one without the other is useless.

"Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you've suffered." ~ Unkown, offered by Paulo Coelho 1947-

Sunday, September 22, 2013

But Everyone Else Was Doing It

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ Blasted Oak

Potter designed this card as Hanged Man and Tower. The vines he used to bind himself are turning to ash and the entire limb is slung asunder from the Blasted Oak.

I'm reminded by this image some of my bindings have been so loose as to be nonexistent, courtesy vines so to speak. Yet they held me just as surely as chains. A blinding sense of tradition, family history and habits, everyone else is here, why not me thinkings. Goodbye and double good riddance, I'm free to think for myself. And how empowering it is...where was my brain and why did I go lock-step all those wasted years?

"Honor the human in you and let it go, for now, so you can go deeper." ~ Nancy Antenucci

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Broth of Life

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

The cycle of birth life death, rebirth life death is shown, with the broth of the center cup representing our continual recombining as we travel the path.

I look at this cups and think about the new me today vs. the old me yesterday. I actually feel the difference because this month has been full of events that have moved me off center and it takes attention and effort to rebalance. The base of these efforts is my own remaining broth plus the additional seasoning effects of what goes on around me.. Needs a little mustard and pepper today...and take out the stones, they were old to begin with and will never get tender.

"Caterpillar: 'Who... are... you?'
Alice: 'Why, I hardly know, sir. I've changed so much since this morning, you see...I'm afraid I can't explain myself because I'm not myself. I can't put it any more clearly because it isn't clear to me'." Lewis Carroll ~ 1832-1898 Alices's Adventures in Wonderland 1865

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Follow The Dog's Lead

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 9 of Wands

The guardian of our integrity. How often do we offend or shame ourselves? Or conversely make ourselves proud or is this where pride is a sin?

Life shouldn't be complicated and we shouldn't need a book or teacher to tell us right from wrong. And even more complicated, everyone's book is a conflicting edition. What's that all about?

"Integrity. Dogs have it. Humans are sometimes lacking it." ~ Ceasar Millan 1969-

Round Up

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ Three of Wands

This figure is complete, alone. How rare is that?

I'm reminded by this card perhaps it isn't uncommon, but only rare we bother to consider the possibility. It is simpler to look outside our self to round down to the smallest denominator rather than inside and round things up.

"A man is like a fraction whose numerator is what he is and
whose denominator is what he thinks  of himself. The larger the denominator the smaller the fraction." ~ Leo Tolstoy 1828-1910

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Unlocked Cars

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 6 of Wands

Instead of bark dust to keep the weeds down in our front flower bed, we took the route of tilling and planting the area with nasturtiums and butternut squash. Both plantings have not only filled the eight foot X hundred+ foot bed, but have climbed over the split-rail fence and are filling up the driveway side of the bed.

I'm reminded by this card, today we start to harvest two weeks of vacation days. We seldom take vacations but we are practicing slowing down. Relaxation is a hard seed to plant and grow. And in a few weeks I'll start harvesting billions of butternut squash and looking for unlocked cars downtown in which to deposit the bounty. (That is a local zucchini joke but any squash will do...)

"Beauty. Beauty." ~ Steve Irwin 1962-2006

Monday, September 16, 2013

I Know Squat

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ Ancestor/Hierophant

Ancestor, with her drum and stick brings the frozen world alive. Tracks lead on for those who are willing to experience life. What drum beats for you?

I'm reminded by this card I stand on the shoulders of those many who have come before me. I'm awestruck by their stories and deeds and honor them today. I know squat about my own genealogy but I know I am what is and what was.

"Are we being good ancestors?" ~ Jonas Salk 1914-1995

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Two Plus One More

Daily Draw: Greenwood Tarot ~ 3 of Stones/Coins

A trilith, a doorway made of two standing stones crossed by a top stone.

I'm reminded by this card we may have an inclination toward some skill, recognized by the two standing stones. But it isn't the creative opening without a top stone, the actual doing of it, the practice makes perfect part of it. Just thinking or talking about doing something doesn't make it so, anyone can  blow smoke.

"You could lock the Gasman in a padded cell with some dental floss and a bowl of Jell-O, and he'd find a way to make something explode." ~ James Patterson 1947-  Max

One of my top five favorites. Greenwood Tarot, art by Chesca Potter and her companion guide printed from her website. Thorson's/Harper Collins 1996.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Worry Box

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 9 of Swords

Years ago as a part of my effort to change from a negative person to a positive one, I decided I was worrying about way too many things. The result was an imaginary simple hand-crafted wooden box about the size of a standard women's shoe box. Really a lovely thing to look at and run imaginary hands over.

What this card reminds me of is the imaginary interior of the box. Rough wood with toxic stains, foul smelling, creaky mis-fitting lid, and horror of all horrors, the one thing in life I'm frightened of, a couple of big moths tucked amongst the worries. That aside, the point of the box was its size. It would only hold so many worries and no more. I allow two big worries and two little worries. If a new worry arises I have to gird loins, go in that awful interior and take something out in order to fit the new worry in.

The exercise did improve positivity. I learned how many small and enormous worries never happen. And choosing to take something out to fit something new in taught me degree of worry. All in all a good thing.

What's the use of worrying? It never was worth while." ~ Old Kit Bag, 1915 George Henry Powell

Friday, September 13, 2013

Should I Or Shouldn't I

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

If offered a tray with four filled cups and you were the only person there would you think they were all for you? If we were thirsty or needful, probably we would. Why not?

I'm reminded by this card being needful is probably a choice too in the developed world but I suspect most of us work on the why not principle.
Is it because we live in a land of plenty? Might be, the media shoves down our throat the idea of gotta have, right now. And we are brainwashed into buying their load of carpola. Why not?

"Is it better to go with the flow or let the flow go?" ~ Aidan Chambers 1934-  Postcards from No Man's Land

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Controlled Screams

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

I drew a blank on this card this morning. Fives are about changes, changes which we power ourselves, not ones that are thrust upon us.
This fellow has his arms wide open, a huge smile on his face, one foot holding a coin steady, the other foot right on through the coin.

My life recently has been on a roller coast ride, mostly going down, the part that makes you scream the hardest. That said, I'm reminded by this card, I'm still the luckiest girl in the world and control my own life in so far as anyone of us can.

"She was a prism through which sadness could be divided into its infinite spectrum." ~ Jonathan Foer 1977-  Everything is Illuminated


Wednesday, September 11, 2013

The Ace of Teas

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ Ace of Wands

Wild yellow chrysanthemums were first cultivated in China for tea, ceremonial, and herbal use in the 15th century BC. Thousands of cultivars have been hybridized from the original yellow. Now that is an Ace to be respected. No wonder this stave is topped with them.

I'm reminded by this card Ace-like ingenuity must have been encouraged and nurtured to have so very many incredible ancient 'invented in China' things. I have a yellow chrysanthemum blooming on my deck, perhaps ingenuity will strike me today.
  • 10 - 20 Golden Chrysanthemum blooms
  • 1 - 3 teaspoon of honey or rock sugar
  • 3 cups (850ml) of water
  1. Wash and drain chrysanthemum flowers.
  2. Add 10 - 20 yellow chrysanthemum flowers into teapot.
  3. Add 1 - 3 teaspoon of honey or rock sugar.
  4. Pour boiling water on to content.
  5. Allow tea to stand for 5 minutes.
  6. Pour tea into cup and allow to cool slightly before drinking.
edited to add a few days later: It was lovely, much like Emperor's White Tea.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Gowns and Trains Begone

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ Empress

This beautifully gowned Empress brings to mind Morticia Addams' gown. How did they walk in them? Were there gown slaves? Or voluntary ladies in waiting? Or clever suspenders worked by one hand when no one was looking?

I'm reminded by this card of the best and worst jobs I've ever had. I'd take the rest of my life at the worst job rather than be a skirt holder.
I've had a turbulent and painful day today, but the idea of me as a lady in waiting gave me a good laugh. Thank you Empress, I hope you had a good laugh also today.

"To other women the choice of clothes was a form of ingenious exhibition, a shameless seduction. To me, dresses were like a breastplate that I put on to set off to war against this life." ~ Yan Ni (Shan Sa)1972-  Empress

Monday, September 9, 2013

Winklepicker Life

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 2 of Coins

Any ideas how to bring out your other side? The manly or feminine you
that helps balance personality? I can do a man's days work on the farm without becoming overwhelmed over a busted fingernail. I don't give a fat patootie about shopping or clothes or shoes. Does that balance out my nail polish, tears, and important stuff hanging on the rear view mirror?

I'm reminded by this card one of the joys of maturity is the fact that none of it matters anymore. Why parking stalls at senior apartments are filled with silver vehicles. Why ladies of a certain age favor 4-door Buicks and wear sweatshirts with roses painted on them. Comfort and practically begin to come first. Being comfortable with whoever we've become is an incredible blessing.

"Anyway, there is one thing I have learned and that is not to dress uncomfortably, in styles which hurt: winklepicker shoes that cripple your feet and tight pants that squash your balls." ~ George Harrison  1943-2001

Sunday, September 8, 2013

I Loved You First

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot~ Queen of Wands

A more senior version of our Queen with young handmaidens to do the heavy lifting. This could be my mother, she is 88 and struggling with late stage dementia. I drive up there every week, sometimes twice, and each visit finds less of her there.

I'm reminded by this card what remains is still my mother. If I say go for a drive? she claps her hands with childlike glee and is on her feet promptly. And she would far rather stop for pie and coffee than a meal. Her sense of humor is one area that is still sharp and bright. A couple of weeks ago as I was saying goodbye I said "I love you more than you love me", and she was on to me instantly. Her response was "I loved you first".  How cool is that. Power on mom...

"My name is not Dementia."  ~ Alzheimer Society UK, 2010

One of my favorite decks this week, from 1989,  pen and ink art by Jui Guolaing. Recently republished, from US Games Systems Inc.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Dawn? Is It You?

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

Hounded by the Three Furies to death's door, Orestes is too far gone to witness his last minute reprieve by Athene. The sun is rising in the distance signifying the Three Furies are also finished.

I'm reminded by this card to acknowledge in real life there is seldom a clear cut relief from dark times. By hindsight we can acknowledge there was a dawn and a fresh start and finally drop the black sack of pain and despair. No magic bullets, just us and the dawn. Would that it casts enough light to miss the abyss before us.

"She will look in at me with her thin arms extended, offering a handful of birdsong and a small cup of light." ~ William Collins 1721-1759

Friday, September 6, 2013

Big Bucks Little Bucks

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ 4 of Coins

Ever read the book Rich Dad Poor Dad? Robert Kiyosaki probably puts this man in the Poor Dad category. Works in the same field, often for the same company for thirty or forty years and has ingrained that goal on his son from his lounge chair where he spends his days living on the pension he worked for so long.

Good for him. At least he encouraged the best way he knew. Certainly far better guidance than "turn your hat around, pull up your pants, and get a job". I'm reminded by this card it is too bad parenting pays so poorly, parents and teachers should be getting the big bucks.

"Then she added in a sort of childish delight: "We'll be poor, won't we? Like people in books. And I'll be an orphan and utterly free. Free and poor! What fun!' ~ Francis Scott Key Fitzgerald 1896-1940

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Apocalypse

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

The columns in the rubble make me think of apocalypse stories, how people sort themselves into groups by accident, agenda, or goal. In books the natural leaders rise to the top, the baddies get sorted, and the sheeple, like today, fall somewhere in the middle waiting for someone else to make the decisions, fix things, and provide the bread and butter.

I'm reminded by this card there are also the not-there to consider. The millions of people in the world today who have had nothing but misery since the day they were born, how would they react? I'm thinking they would be the long term survivors, because nothing will have changed. Like this walker with cloak and swords. He doesn't need to rattle the doorknob to seek safety, he has been there done that and knows there is nothing at all there for him. Better out than in actually.

"The most I can hope for is to die in a pose that confuses future archaeologists." ~ Benjamin Yahtzze Croshaw 1983-  Jam

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Turn Back While You Still Can

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

That's all I can stands, cuz I can't stands n'more!” Popeye the sailor.

She is walking towards us with the cups behind her, rather than the reverse we often see. I'm reminded by this card everyone has a limit beyond they should not will not or can not cross. Would that we could recognize it sooner. In truth many times we are over the limit with consequences we can barely bear. Just making it out alive isn't a plan.

"You know the rules - there *are* no rules. This is a fight to the finish. The first man who's dead loses." ~ Wimpy

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Heart in the Tree Bark

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ Knight of Cups

Have you heard women say 'he just won't talk about it', 'feelings seem to be beyond him'? This sensitive knight may not say much, but believe it, he is overwhelmed with feelings most days.

I'm reminded by this card what proportion of love songs from any era were written by men? How about poetry? How about beautiful paintings? Oh, they all have feelings all right, its just that women have to be aware of where the men are carving the heart in a tree. It is just past 6 AM and Rob has already said 'I love you' in three different ways. I'd not known that if I was blind to the obvious. I am indeed blessed.

"The most important thing in communication is hearing what isn't said". ~ Peter Drucker 1909-2005

Monday, September 2, 2013

For the Duration

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ Queen of Wands

When my father and grandfather entered the military it was 'for the duration'. For WWI and WWII that was four long years. Under friendly fire or foe.

I'm reminded by this card, this fearless modern Queen of intelligence, loyalty, and youth, is also on the front lines. Is she sitting today in disbelief? That they are once again to be flung into the monstrous maw of a war of blood and rich men's pure propaganda? She has her lioness lightly bound to her, but either one can easily slip the bonds. Would that they all would, and stand up and say "never again, go yourself".

"Truth is so precious that it should always be attended by a bodyguard of lies." ~ Winston Churchill 1874-1965

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Tooth Paste and Tennis Shoes

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Too many choices? Or too many opinions? My thinking patterns are wildly divergent from Rob's.  When I want to hear how he sees something I say "tell me what you think, not what to do".

I'm reminded by this card, speaking for myself, we have way too many choices to deal with. Have you looked at toothpaste choices lately?  Lipstick colors? Tennis shoes? Apples?  How can something so simple at its base require we read the instructions for use, so we get just the right thing to make our lives happily ever after. I've picked and bought a car faster than I can choose what box of tea to buy. Funny old world...

"We are our choices." ~ Jean-Paul Sartre 1905-1980

The Mythic Tarot, original edition, by Juliet Sharman-Burke and Liz Green, illustrated by Tricia Newell. Published by Simon & Schuster 1986 and in print ever since. The deck is based on ancient Greek mythology, the kit includes a 218 page companion book, plus there is a 160 page workbook available