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Monday, June 30, 2014

Exists In My Memory

Daily Draw: Creatrix Cards ~ Collaboration

I've made one collaboration quilt, with a friend who lived with us for a year. She is an extraordinary beadworker and has a great sense of color.


I hope you can pinch and pull this bigger to see some of the details. It no longer exists except in my memory.













"The secret is to gang up on the problem rather than each other." ~ Thomas Stallkamp

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Assessment

Daily Draw: Creatrix Deck ~ Reflections

This card makes me think of the devil card last week, what I physically reflect when I'm consumed by anger. I'm guessing it is no pin-up girl. But this is a card from the Grace suit, what do I reflect to myself?

Tired. Struggling to maintain my personal status-quo.
Mentally at peace, no old tapes at all.
Comfortable with the decisions I've made this century.
Proud my depression is under control with nature, not pharmaceuticals.
Happy with the plans we've mapped out for retirement.
Got to work on disassembling that hair trigger.
Happy with my weight and love walking in the mornings.
At peace with our family decisions, current and future.
I can live with this.

"Give up to Grace.
The ocean takes care of each wave before it reaches the shore." Rumi 1207-1273

The deck this week has art by Melissa Harris, 33 cards and 47 page companion book. Printed under the Melissa Harris Art Enterprises imprint, 2008.  The deck link is here.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Open Both Ways

Daily Draw: Minchiate Tarot ~ Aquarius

The Aquarian seems to be double gifted, bringing new ideas and assistance to the table, and also willing to listen and learn with an open mind.

I'm reminded by this card of the Missouri Quilt Company. A family business, started on half a shoestring in an area plagued with unemployment. A business which even in good times often goes belly up. If you travel in the quilt world you've heard about them and their legendary customer service and the employment they have brought to their little town just since 2008. It would be interesting to know if any of them are Aquarian.

"Work is the price paid for reputation."  Baltasar Gracian 1601-1658

Friday, June 27, 2014

Let The Devil Ride

Daily Draw: Minchiate Tarot ~ Devil

I know who I inherited my hair trigger temper from. My mother. Dementia removes all the normal buffers of good manners, common sense, ability to reason, and reality, one of the many reasons dementia patients are so difficult to be around.

I'm reminded by this card, I need to cement my hair trigger shut, else I'm no better than our friend here. Let him ride it out, I'm not getting on that bus.

"There are only two people who can tell you the truth about yourself.
An enemy who has lost his temper and a friend who loves you dearly." ~ Antisthenes 445 BC-365 BC

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Stranger Danger

Daily Draw: Minchiate Tarot ~ Tower

I generally think of Tower moments as something I've set in motion, and unaware I've done so until months or years later.

I'm reminded by this card there is another Tower...the ones that come to us. I've been reading the Jimmy Savile inquiry results this morning. Nuff said.

"Because we live in a very funny world. And it's easier for me, as a single man, to say "I don't like children" because that puts a lot of salacious tabloid people off the hunt." ~ Jimmy Savile 1926-2011  Edinborough Eye 2000

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Pretty Please

Daily Draw: Minchiate Tarot ~ Strength

From William's book: In ancient art this figure was also named Fortitude and Constancy. She supplies the firmness that makes all other virtues possible.

I'd like to borrow a cup of all three please.

"There is no such thing as colossal failure. There is only colossal courage to attempt the impossible again and again." ~ Toni Sorenson

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Bogusness

Daily Draw: Minchiate Tarot ~ Capricorn

I'd like to do a survey of one hundred people with a newspaper in their hand.
Ask them if they always read their horoscope.
Ask them if they believe in fortune telling.
Ask them if they know what characteristics their sun sign has.

I'm reminded by this card I'm guessing their answers are yes, no, yes.
In my book they are all three bogus.
Life is confusing isn't it, said the goat/fish.

"Seven year cycles are very important in your life. The ages of seven, fourteen, twenty-one, and twenty-eight to thirty will probably stand out in your life as being very significant.
These are the ages when your Ruling Planet tests you mettle. Now not every Child of Saturn gets the same test at the same age. The area of life that gets tested will correspond to where Saturn is situated in the sky at that time.
One child of Saturn may be tested in his home life when he's seven, whereas another Child of Saturn may be tested in her home life when she's twenty-eight.  By Christopher Renstrom, Ruling Planets

Monday, June 23, 2014

Emotional Ties

Daily Draw: Minchiate Tarot ~ Water

What does each living thing have in common? We are made up of mostly Water. And have a  primary need for salt.

I'm reminded by this card of deep emotions, the one consistent thing my mother said about me was "still waters run deep" to explain my silence to someone. I wonder why it was necessary to explain me at all? My friend Linda once asked me why, when introducing her I always said "this is my friend Linda Blascovic with whom I work". Don't know. But the Minchiate asks us to think on our emotional ties and what defines them.

The Minchiate is in a class of its own, a 97 card deck rather than the standard 78 of tarot. It includes the 12 astrological signs and the 4 elements. Printed in 1999 by Destiny Books, it includes a 264 page soft cover book. Book and art by Brian Williams.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Thinking Locally Not Globally

Daily Draw: Green Man Tree Oracle ~ Aspen

The Aspen signifies a voluntary coming together of efforts for the common good. City or beach clean-up come to mind.  Close to my heart; good working non-electric sewing machines donated to women in third world countries.

I'm reminded by this Aspen when I think globally about united projects, war comes to mind. Human trafficking. Drug cartels. I'm working to retrain my mind to more positive fields as I approach retirement, for a place in the community that will make a difference. One small way? If I'm walking downtown, it wouldn't kill me bend over and pull some weeds in the new crosswalk plantings...

"I have written most of my melodies walking and I feel it is definitely one of the most helpful ways of sewing all the different things in your life together and seeing the whole picture." ~ Bjork 1965-

The deck this week is Green Man Tree Oracle, book by John Matthews, art by Will Worthington. Published under the Barnes and Nobel imprint 2003

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Creeping Melancholia

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ 10 of Cups

After their rocky start in the 2 of Cups, things just kept going from bad to worse as Mark of Cornwall vented his wrath on Tristan and Isolde.

I'm reminded by this card it is easy to forgive if you are the last one standing, the only one arranging  memories. Here he has planted two trees to mark their graves and love for each other. All very lovely and 10 of cups-ish... but bodies that close to the bank will eventually go the way of the water. Was that his final insult? The couple drawing inspiration from the site need to move on, this space exudes a creeping melancholia.

"Hurt? He'll never be hurt; he's made to hurt other people." ~ George Eliot 1819-1880  Silas Marner

Friday, June 20, 2014

Arranged

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

More fallout from politically arranged marriages. Tristan was sent as proxy wooer for Mark of Cornwall. Isolde was furious about the whole business, but a spell gone wrong ended with Tristan and Isolde falling in love.

I'm reminded by this card, don't send a man to do a boy's job.

"Marriage must incessantly contend with a monster that devours everything. Familiarity." ~ Honore de Balzac 1799-1850

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Every Day Every Way

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ Devil/Temptation

Long story short (from Dante's Inferno) Francesca was married to Giovanni but loved his brother Paolo. Giovanni caught them together and killed them both on the spot.

I'm reminded by this card long story short is by it's nature missing a lot of information and nuances. In a marriage based on political consolidation did love exist? Was Giovanni a pig, rough and cruel? Was Paolo a typical second son, a wastrel looking for trouble? Was Francesca a slapper? Or were they all good people who were pulled in by opportunity and human nature. The phrase the devil made me do it is a weak excuse, but we hear it still, every day every way.

"The new infidelity is between people who unwittingly form deep passionate connections before realizing they've crossed the line from platonic to romantic." ~ Shirley Glass 1936-2003  Not Just Friends

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

No Brakes

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ Wheel of Fortune

It is a wonder to me the folklore and myth of Olympus and it's ilk have survived and are even popular study choices. Is it because mere humans wish they could be so out of control? Or because life imitates fiction? Mortal or god, the brakes are off the bike and the more views and likes the better.

I'm reminded by Danae's story our strength must originate within, to pine for miracles from the outside is a losers game.

"Sometimes what we call love is just a settling of old scores." ~ Anne Roiphe 1935-

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Cupid Made Me Do It

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ Knight of Swords

Our Cupid is a mixed bag of personalities, depending on how old the reading source is. Through them all remains the irresistibility of his will via the arrow.

I'm reminded by this card of addictions, habits, responsibilities, and consequences. I've accepted that truth and I think I've broken the back of my particular addictions, only iron will keeps them broken because the desire is still there years and decades later. Habits can be easier to break but just as destructive until we recognize the results for what they are. Being alive means being ever vigilant doesn't it? But oh that flutter of anticipation, that sigh of pleasure...that quick need for another...

"Just because you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town." ~ George Carlin 1937-2008

Monday, June 16, 2014

The Other Side

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ Knight of Coins

Perseus represents hard work = happiness and prosperity. In whose world I wonder? He is also lionized for chopping off Medusa's head ending her second career, turning people to stone by looking at them.

I'm reminded by this card of 'the other side of the story'. Medusa came to be who she was via her love of Poseidon, incurring the wrath of  Athena. All her prior hard work in aid of Athena = a living death of misery. There is no point in my post, just two sides of the big gold coin.

"One thing I know, that I know nothing.
This is the source of my wisdom." ~ Socrates 470-399 BC

Sunday, June 15, 2014

How Goofy Is That?

Daily Draw: Lover's Path Tarot ~ 7 of Coins

Waiting for the harvest, are we pleased with how we've nurtured our tree?

I'm reminded by this card I sent six quilt tops out to be quilted this spring. Four are back, two are on the bed. I do complicated quilts very slowly. I don't need more quilts, any more than Monet needed another picture. I quilt because needle thread cloth makes me happy to the core. There is always some area in which to push myself. Machine quilting them myself is next on the list. I used to do it all the time in the 80's until the books came out saying how difficult it was...so I quit doing it. How goofy is that?

"Age wrinkles the body; quitting wrinkles the soul." ~ Douglas MacArthur 1880-1964

The Lover's Path Tarot published by US Games Systems 2004. Art and 162 page book by Kris Waldherr. The card art represents love stories from history, myth, and folktales. This is the most beautifully cased set I own, I know of no other US Games deck that was presented this way. Sumptuous.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Arise And Shine

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Fate

My education being a bit short on Greek history and mythology, I learned about Clotho, Lachesis, and Atropos from Stephen King's Insomnia.  I think about the stages of life often, particularly with mother living here.

I'm reminded by this card a recent loss is audio direction, she hasn't a clue where I'm speaking from unless I'm right in front of her, focusing her eyes on me. There is a class for caregivers that includes the exercise of having dementia. The caregiver is left in a closed room with uneven floors (loss of directional understanding) blindfolded (unable to distinguish common sights) ear plugs (sounds coming from every direction). Try it someday when you think senility is a good joke subject.

Mother got up at 4:30 with me, she is eager to see what Saturday brings. Atropos is not here today.

Friday, June 13, 2014

The Three Graces

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Charities

The three graces suggest celebrating beauty, harmony, and joy, in creative ways.

I'll work on it.
Maybe tomorrow.
Beauty harmony and joy should still be in vogue then.


Thursday, June 12, 2014

Wild Childe

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Medea

I wonder what the earth balance is now between peoples who understand the natural magic of healing and harmful herbs? Sitting here it seems like everyone has a medicine cabinet full of little plastic bottles, or exist in Calcutta-like ghettos with no access to medicine in the wild. Where is the middle?

I'm reminded by this card three years ago I didn't take any medicines, today I am embarrassed to say I use a pill box to keep track of what I take. I wonder what would result if I just threw them all away? I'm thinking about it even as I march off to another surgery this morning.

"Just because it's natural doesn't mean you can be as stupid as you want with it." ~ Susan Lynn Peterson  Western Herbs for Martial artists and Contact Athletes

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Sunflowers and Nasturtiums

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom Oracle ~ Carpo

The world can become as complicated as we like, but it won't alter the fact that without seasons and the cycles of nature and agricultural bounty it would all be moot. Kalama might as well be the Sahara or Antarctica for all the population it would support.

I'm reminded by this card I have't got much time for caring for a garden this year, but as an alternative I have 250 foot by 4 foot of nasturtiums planted in front of the split rail fence out front, and at least 50 foot by 4 foot of mixed sunflowers planted across the front of the garden space. Nature sustains me, when nothing else will.

"Thomas Jefferson recorded planting Nasturcium , Cresses, Celery, and Radichio in his March 1774 garden. Nasturtium is an edible flowering plant; seeds and buds can be used like capers, leaves and flower heads in mixed salads."

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Hark It Up

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom Oracle ~ Eris

Discord to mayhem, Eris represents it all. Funny how humans say they hate war and disdain arguments, but I don't believe it for a minute.

I'm reminded by this card we seem to cossett that irritant in our craw, telling ourselves if we worry it enough it will become a pearl. Hardly. It just sits there until one day we either choke on it or finally hark it up and out.

"Throw roses into the abyss and say: "here is my thanks to the monster who didn't succeed in swallowing me alive". ~ Friedrich Nietzsche 1844-1900  Posthumous Fragments

Monday, June 9, 2014

Come A Long Way

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom Oracle ~ Iphigenia

Sacrificed to appease the goddess Artemis, all in aid of her father's ambitions.

I'm reminded by this card of 200 Nigerian school girls, the booming sex slave trade, all the individual girls whose parents use them for barter and cash, of the millions more who will never be mourned as their names will never be known...we haven't come a long way baby.

"Ignorance is bliss when knowledge is so damn frightening." ~ Laurell K. Hamilton 1963-   Laughing Corpse

Sunday, June 8, 2014

New Phase

Daily Draw: Ancient Feminine Wisdom ~ Hera

"This card appears when a woman is changing roles or entering a new phase of life."

Cool. I am and I will. Time to be looking forward rather than back.

The deck this week is Ancient Feminine Wisdom of Goddess and Heroines, 62 cards. Art by Kay Steventon, small book by Brian Clark, published by US Games 2007.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

Failure. Betrayal. Thy Name Is Sharyn

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 6 of Wands

Commitment to change for the better.
I can keep my mother safe but I can't keep her happy.
Mother is bored stiff.
Combine that with dementia and the result is often dreadful.

Since December I've been working steadily on getting mother admitted to the premier memory care facility in this region. The difference between this facility and her former nursing home is night and day.
It has been akin to pushing a pea up a mountain, as mother hasn't got a dime. In this post I got the ok, she can come. Today or Monday I'll get a date. It is a wonderful place, she will love it. She does not know who I am, I'm just staff, the Company; there she will simply have different staff, a different Company but a much better one.

Failure combined with betrayal.

Friday, June 6, 2014

What Is Normal?

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

Camlann. Brother against brother, father against son. Dark days indeed. We've come to this edge of the wheel on both sides of our families. We refuse to fight so instead of words we get shunning. It is just as painful as swords, and it all comes to the same thing.

I'm reminded by this card, sad as it is, I no longer care, am not even clear why I ever did. Perhaps because it seemed the normal thing with other families? But then I never was quite normal...

"If you are different from the rest of the flock, they peck you to death." ~ Vincent O'Sullivan  The Next Room


Thursday, June 5, 2014

All The Mod Cons

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 10 of Cups

Corbenic. It has many shapes and places. Two things are consistent. It is always the home of the Grail, and is always near water.

I'm reminded by this card, it took a long time to acknowledge in the mind and accept in the heart, that where we live is home. I'm not waiting for the next home anymore, with all the mod cons. My home is much like me. We could use some serious updating but everything works and that is all I need.

"If you had my love and I gave you all my trust would you comfort me?" ~ Mambo All Stars

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Who Asked Me?

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Knight of Swords

A valiant champion of human rights.
What a particularly thankless job.

I'm reminded by this card if we did what we do for thanks we've sincerely chosen the wrong path. I attended a support meeting yesterday. What I expected was a mass bitchfest, but there was a good facilitator and I think a number of the first timers were truly helped with tools and ideas. And equally horrified by  just how bad it will get before someone with dementia dies. I was so drained just listening to the stories, if I were this knight I'd have had to been drug by the horse rather than mounting it.  But it brings up the question I should ask myself every day. "Who asked me to do this?"  No one.

"I yam what I yam and tha's all what I yam." ~ Popeye the Sailor 1929-

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Minutiae In The Sun

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Sun

Of the many good meanings of this card, I like clarity of vision and understanding the heart's true desires.
  • All that said, this has nothing to do with the sun.
  • My quotations the last few years have often come from people younger than I am. Ekk!
  • My blog stats now show that viewers from China have overtaken readers from Russia and are very nearly equal those from USA. That puzzles me and I wish I knew why.
  • The newest Stephen King book shipped this morning, Mr. Mercedes. My top two Stephen King favorites are The Talisman and Dolan's Cadillac.
  • I have a little Cochin hen with a deep voice who mimics my rooster's crow. Badly.
  • So far, twice I've hit over 13,000 steps on my fitbit pedometer, lawn mowing days. The lowest numbers have been in the 3,000 range, on mother's needy days.
  • I'm currently reading Paul Doherty's The Ghost Cup. I liked his Egyptian series much better, not enthralled with this one, 1300's France and England. I think I'll try some more of  his Sorrowful Mysteries of Brother Athelstan.
  • I need a haircut so badly I'm surprised hairdressers aren't chasing after me with scissors.
  • I'm having carpal tunnel surgery next week. I've only been putting it off ten years.
  • If we were allowed do-overs, I'd be an archaeology student, sifting the minutiae of time.

Merciful Journey, where ever your day takes you.

Monday, June 2, 2014

Uninspired Lifestyle

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

The uninspired lifestyle. I have a newspaper with quite the eloquent editorial about the current young generation, all going to heck in a handcart, won't work, all they want to do is lay around, want everything handed to them on a plate...

I'm reminded by this card, that was a 1918 paper, and the article was a reprint from 1887. Humans stopped evolving eons ago.

"Most species do their own evolving, making it up as they go along, which is the way Nature intended. And this is all part of the cycles of the cosmos, which believes there's nothing like millions of years of really frustrating trial and error to give a species moral fiber and in some cases, backbone." ~ Terry Pratchett 1948-

Sunday, June 1, 2014

The Cave

Daily Draw: Legend The Arthurian Tarot ~ Magician

This Merlin is shown retreating to his mountain cave, from the solitude of nature he centers and reconnects to his own nature.

Here, we refer to that cave as "when our new life starts". We've been forming this new life, in some respects for years, but the t's crossed and i's dotted have really ramped up this year. Wouldn't the joke be on me if nothing changed at all.

"Thousands of tired, nerve shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out going to the mountains is going home; that wilderness is a necessity." ~ John Muir 1838-1914

One of my favorite decks this week, Legend the Arthurian Tarot, art and 256 page companion book by Anna Marie Ferguson. Published by Llewellyn Worldwide. I have the second edition, published in 1998. Suits are Swords Cups Spears Shields.