Friday, July 31, 2015

Matters Not

Daily Draw: Guardians of Wisdom ~ 5 of Coins/Diamonds

Oh those darn 5's. There is always some kind of turmoil involved. So I ask myself, "does anyone need to worry about me in any way?" The answer is no, absolutely not.

This card is giving my mind a mental shaking. The two people I always worry over, always have nightmares about are really just fine. Happy, capable of handling life in their own way. And if not handling life my way, what does it matter? Matters not. Let it go.

"Your nightmares follow you like a shadow, forever." ~ Aleksandar Hemon  1964-  The Lazarus Project

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Knowledge Bank

Daily Draw: Guardians of Wisdom ~ 2 of Coins/Diamonds

Oddly enough, because I limit my time on line so strictly, my on line time is one of the major reasons I've changed over the last 18 years. We had libraries of course, I worked in three, but you have to know what is  missing, what is needed before you can find the book information you need. Working with the Web we can start with a word, the results tell us if we are on target and we can enlarge and refine our scope from there. To encompass all the world's knowledge it sometimes seem.

I'm reminded by this card, that knowledge has to be sieved and winnowed and verified, keeping our bogus meter running. But every start is another step in growth. For me genuine knowledge is worth more than gold and diamonds.

"If we value the pursuit of knowledge, we must be free to follow wherever that search may lead us. The free mind is no barking dog to be tethered on a ten-foot chain." ~ Adlai E. Stevenson Jr. 1900 - 1965


Wednesday, July 29, 2015

To Procrast

Daily Draw: Guardians of Wisdom ~ 5 of Cups/Hearts

I do feel good today. For two and a half years I've been putting off a job. Yesterday I finally started, still being prodded on by that 5 of Wands a couple of weeks ago. I got a third of the job finished.

I'm reminded by this card of what I already knew from FlyLady. A job put off is never as big as we imagine, and never as hard. Get 'er done.

"Of course, reading quotes about procrastination instead of actually getting started on an important task is a form of procrastination itself..." ~ keepinspiring.me/procrastination

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Crabbypants

Daily Draw: Guardians of Wisdom ~ 5 of Wands/Clubs

It can't just be the heat, half the world is sliding into fall and winter, but the online groups I'm a part of (quilting and tarot) seem to be exceptionally crabby.

As someone who is often impatient and on the prod, this card reminds me to not make fire in the first place is better, way better, than starting or fanning. I know that. And I'm not. But gee people seem grumpy this month.

"The crabby little girls of today are the crabby old women of tomorrow" ~ Charles M. Schulz 1922-2000   The Complete Peanuts, Vol. 7: 1963-1964

Monday, July 27, 2015

Whatdidyousay?

Daily Draw: Guardians of Wisdom ~ Moon/Communication

Dreams and intuition. I had an opportunity to give a reading for an acquaintance yesterday. It was meant to be an exchange using tea leaves, but I went to the Ron Weasley School of Divination and got squat. Then I tried Russian Sage buds, squat also, so caved and went with this deck.

On reflection the Russian Sage buds well mimicked the reading that came out. A lot of things are like that, we know what we know once we know it.  I should try reading for others more often, I forget how much fun it is.

"The single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place." ~ George Bernard Shaw 1856-1950

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Easy Money Free Money

Daily Draw: Guardians Of Wisdom Deck ~ 10 of Coins/Diamonds

If I believed in fortune telling this would sure be a neat card to receive. I lived just across the river in Oregon when Washington state began selling lottery tickets in 1982. Forty-three states now have lotteries but it was a fun new novelty then.  Every morning one of our customers would come by and pick up some of our hard earned dollars, wag them across the river, and come back with a fist full of lottery tickets. There weren't any winners of course, but we'd shriek if we got a three dollar hit anyway.

I'm reminded by this card, I know two people with a gambling addiction. born of Indian casinos, not scratch tickets, but it comes to the same thing, both have nothing left but the clothes they stand in. Easy money free money? Hardly, I figured out way back in 1982 gambling was a suckers game and nothing I've seen since has altered that opinion.

"I don't gamble, because winning a hundred dollars doesn't give me great pleasure and losing a hundred dollars pisses me off." ~ Alex Trebek 1940-

Guardians of Wisdom, subtitled Universal Power Cards.
Art by Emy Ledbetter, words by Todd Hershey, no companion book with this set but it comes with seven extra cards, four with the story behind the deck and three with spreads suggested for use with the deck. The entire deck is designed to use both upright and reversed card positions. Printed by Carta Mundi, 2000.
The suits are:
Swords as spades, in the Ancient Asian category
Cups as hearts, in the Goddess category
Wands as clubs, in the Angel category
Coins as diamonds, in the Native American category
Majors are marked with a triangle and are the Universal Guardians group.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Anima mundi

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 8 of Cups/Soul

From the book: Spirit of the Soul: a shaman beats a drum to evoke a spirit in obsessive search for response.

The closest thing to a soul that I believe in is the hive mind, how enough people all over the world build on the same idea, come to like conclusions, at the same general time. Do I believe we have a soul, without which we die? Carpola. It has been decreed animals don't have one. I say again, Carpola. Either everything has it or nothing. My money is on nothing.

"You don't have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body.” ~ C.S. Lewis 1898-1963

Friday, July 24, 2015

Getting There

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Death

I fear death not at all. Not afraid to be there.

Hugely afraid of the getting there. The process of dying...there are so many bad ways to go.

"We just did an awesome job of not dying." ~ John Green 1977-  Let It Snow

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Union

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Lovers/Union

Renamed Union, this card covers more than mate, it includes choice, luck, destiny, contract.

I'm reminded by this card, a long standing union can cover all those options at some point. The actuality and experience of loving is a constantly moving target, endlessly interesting and worth the effort.

"In all human affairs there are efforts and there are results, and the strength of the effort is the measure of the result". ~ James Allen 1855-1942)

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Pack Of Fools

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Fool

Incomprehensible being.

I made the mistake of checking my news page before I drew my card. I'm not sure I'm human the things people do surprises me so. It shouldn't, for I have no faith or regard for humans as a group, what a pack of Fools we are.

"Some say that the universe is made so that when we are about to understand it, it changes into something even more incomprehensible." ~ Douglas Adams 1952-2001

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Realign

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 5 of Wands/Nature

The standard card is portrayed as sparring or negotiating or even community effort. This card sees the 5 as balance, the chance to change direction, even start over.

I get real tired of hearing myself natter on about being better, better than yesterday, better than my norm, but if I don't consciously try what and where will I be in a week? I shudder to think. I was better yesterday, kickstarted by the skull and truth. How can I not carry that through to today?

"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better." ~ Samuel Beckett 1906-1989

Monday, July 20, 2015

Oomph

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 7 of Coins/Jewels

Do we wear our past? Do we live in the present? Do we really even consider the future?

I think I've been wondering about the first since mother left here for the memory care home. Her care took all the stuffing out of me and I seem to be mighty short of oomph. I'm just imagining I'm on top of things. Something to consider while I make me get on top of a job that needs and has needed, doing.

"Self-control; Self-regulation; Ego depletion." ~ Department of Kinesiology, McMaster University, W. Hamilton, Ontario, Canada

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Ever Vigilant

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 10 of Coins/Jewels

I had a friend who didn't make it through her second round of breast cancer six years after the first onset. I've used to wonder why she didn't go to the doctor sooner.

I'm reminded by this card I'm coming up on four years clear and I know why she didn't go. Because she felt well, and the cancer brain that runs on for a year or two saying I know I have cancer Everywhere slows, and then stops. We do feel well. I'm reminded by this card of ease and complacency to be ever vigilant.

"Complacency is always a comfort, and sometimes a career." ~ Albert Camus 1913-1960

The deck this week is Lo Scarabeo, Tarot of the Origins 2000, long out of print. Raw and primitive, art by Sergio Toppi (1933-2012). Suits are:
Wands, green/nature
Swords, red/blood
Cups, blue/soul
Coins, yellow/jewels

Saturday, July 18, 2015

The Eccentric Crackpot

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer ~ Uranus

(from the book) The planet of eccentricity, genius, rebelliousness, revolution, and invention.

Hey. My people! I can get behind that...To be, or not to be, a crackpot or not, that is the question.

"Every man is occasionally visited by the suspicion that the planet on which he is riding is not really going anywhere." ~ James Thurber 1894-1961

Friday, July 17, 2015

Unique And Special

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer Oracle: 12th House

The 12th House is memory. Memory that the world doesn't revolve around us, unique and special yet still just grains of sand on the world's beach. But very much part of the whole.

I'm reminded by this card yesterday was a hard memory day. I was weepy and bordering on morose so I kept to myself and worked like a field hand to keep my mind moving. Or perhaps blank, either works. Those that have touched me, been part of my whole are joy and burden in my 12th house. So be it.


Thursday, July 16, 2015

Heart's Desire

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer Oracle ~ Venus

This one can be baby pats puppy sweet or passion at any cost any consequence.

I'm reminded by this card we need direction and control to gain the object of our desire, and the clear thinking to know the difference between passing fancy and true love.  I've mentioned my 'three week rule' here before...the current object of my desire is a Willcox and Gibbs chain stitch sewing machine. In a few weeks we'll know if Venus is just messin' with my mind or if it is a true heart's desire.

"Venus favors the bold." ~ Ovid  43 BC-17 BC

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Life Created

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer Oracle ~ 5th House

Life Creativity. We all do and have done it, often without realizing it is happening. Children and how they are raised is one canvas. Work can be a loom, Marriage can be treated as self service or full course. Hobbies and passions can be a well-spring or a money crypt. Our desk and bedroom are mini-snaps of the state of our life and mind.

I'm reminded by this card to think beyond what I'm seeing this morning, to see the whole picture I've painted with my life. Where does it need some color, what could use a sanding down.

"The only people who see the whole picture are the ones who step out of the frame." ~ Salman Rushdie 1947-

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Sad Vigilance

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer ~ 6th House

The 6th House seems to be much akin to tarot's suit of coins. Health in body and mind, occupations, favors and gifts, all living creatures and things. And the suit of swords too, the opposite side, dirty things done to us, and self-inflected bad news.

I'm reminded by this card I will go to my grave thinking my breast and lung cancer were self-inflicted. We all have dormant disease cells, lying about doing nothing at all, and my nature combined with circumstances fired them up like a full tilt chainsaw. What could they do but thrive?
I've learned my lesson. So far it has cost me my in-laws, one brother, a dear friend, but if I'm not vigilant keeping myself out of harms way who will? My 6th house has both sides, the me who cares too much which is now governed by my ruthless side.

"Being vigilant isn’t a part-time job, it’s not about being nice to people, it’s about reality. I made a terrible mistake, believing the ones that want to hurt us are easily identified, rather than walking and hiding amongst us. That’s my reality." ~ Tucker Elliot  The Rainy Season

Monday, July 13, 2015

Endurance

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer Oracle ~ Mars

Strength and will, ability to get what we want.
My cousin Kim training for, entering, and finishing the Montana Spartan Sprint.
My friend Katherine, beginning and finishing college in her 40's.
My friend Pam whose fitbit steps have been consistently over 100K each week.
My Rob, who has met every goal he has ever set.

I'm reminded by Mars, we can achieve amazing things when we focus on the process instead of whine about why we can't...It's that eat an elephant with a spoon thing isn't it. And a little endurance.

"Never give up. And never, under any circumstances, face the facts." ~ Ruth Gordon 1896-1885

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Progress

Daily Draw: Enchanted Astrologer Oracle ~ Scorpio

Knowledge seeker and secret keeper according to the book. I'm a Scorp and can agree with that although I'd call it keeping my own counsel, I don't care for the dark connotations associated with the word secret.

I'm reminded by this card though, I kept the secret of losing my mind for five years. I expect no one cottoned on because we see people as we expect to see them and I'd become the master of the cover up. An update on the April 21 post, is instead of consulting my cheat sheet three times per need, I can again remember my most used usernames and passwords. I am no longer thrown into a panic wondering if I'm on the right street to somewhere. If I have to remember four things I still need a sticky note to go by. Huge progress in three months, I'm hopeful for more over time.

"A wise man should consider that health is the greatest of human blessings, and learn how by his own thought to derive benefit from his illnesses." ~ Hippocrates 460 BC - 370 BC

The Enchanted Oracle, 36 art cards by Amy Zerner, 200 page hard cover companion book by Monte Farber. Published by St. Martin's Press 2001.
The set is designed as a straight-forward fortune telling deck in three areas.  Love/Relationships, Work/Career, Wealth/Success.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Today

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ 4 of Cups

Satisfied. Are we ever? Is/was there ever a point in our life where we would like to stay forever? Would that be satisfaction or fear of change thinking? Because humans are resistant to change as a rule.

I'm reminded by this card to be satisfied with today. And to remember tomorrow to be satisfied then. Because life can turn on a dime and it is perfectly conceivable the day we are living can turn into the worst day we've ever had.

Catherine Willows: [to Max, stuck up to his waist in concrete] So, how's your day going?
Max Sullivan: Lady, the best day I've ever had is worse than the worst day you've ever imagined.  CSI: Loco Motives

Friday, July 10, 2015

Context

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ Page of Swords

Not a Page in the general youthfulness of the term, but a grown man perhaps knocked back for cause? Or a Page drill sergeant? He appears to be in a pose of some kind doesn't he, certainly not in danger, with his sword point at rest. Or a soldier who would rather be doing golf swings?

I'm reminded by this card of context.

"Is everyone who lives in Ignorance like you?" asked Milo.
"Much worse," he said longingly. "But I don't live here. I'm from a place very far away called Context." ~ Norton Juster 1929-  The Phantom Tollbooth

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Enduring

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ Capricorn

Practicality and physical endurance. As I creep around with my usual short-term morning stiffness, careful how I turn my head, careful how I sit down or bend over, and me just a pup, I think about my uncle Chuck. Early 80's still running marathons and pole vaulting to great heights.

I'm reminded by this card to marvel at all the amazing differences there are in the Golden Agers. Which bodies persevere or don't, the state of bodies neglected or nurtured. Here is to some Capricorn in all of us.

"Excellence is not a singular act, but a habit. You are what you repeatedly do."~ Aristotle  385 BC - 322 BC

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

A Hurt For Others

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ Page of Cups

She is still  leading with her heart. She hasn't been hurt or embarrassed enough times to develop a insulated, don't give a crap, hard heart yet.

I'm reminded by this card of reading a long thread about how people dress yesterday. It didn't concern me at all and I wouldn't have read it if it hadn't been quilters talking. The deeper I read the more amazed I became at how harsh the women were.  Like the facebook post I made in February, reading that thread changed how I feel about a number of the members. No point to this post I guess, only that we can still be caught by surprise by a hurt heart. A hurt for others.

"Cruel people describe themselves as paragons of frankness." ~ Tennessee Williams 1911-1983

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Hard Times

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ 8 of Coins

My father in law was eleven years old when the 1929 depression hit. One of the jobs he + mother and sister had during those years was picking up plums. The 'old woman' as he called her shorted their pay every week. Gene worked up his courage and went to her office, asking for their true pay. She refused and fired all three of them on the spot. He said he wasn't leaving until he had their full pay and sat down.

Constructing our own fortune. I'm reminded by this card at the end of the day she paid them and said they were rehired. It was a rotten job but any job was of great value then. My uncle Chuck once told me he was hired as a child during those times to pull/cut the fleece off of sheep who'd died in the fields during freezing weather. I've said my worst job was working for nine attorneys and their enormous egos; but I was paid well, worked in beautiful surroundings, wore pretty dresses, and had lots of laughs with the 'back staff'.  What do I know of hard times and starvation? Nothing but the stories...but they taught me the value of saving and constructing my own fortune.

"It's a difficult truth to face that some people choose to define themselves by the pain they feel or the wrongs they've suffered. They're not going through hard times so much as making all times hard." ~ Dani Harper

Monday, July 6, 2015

Worrisome

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ 9 of Swords

Worrying about something or someone when there is absolutely nothing we can actually do. It is difficult to get out of this mindset when it is something or someone we care about.

I'm reminded by this card it is part of being human, which is why 9 of Swords are in every deck. But it is also a reminder, if we are honest with ourselves, most of what we really worry about never happens.

"Worry is a misuse of imagination" ~ Dan Zadra

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Piece of the Jigsaw

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ 6 of Swords

A new path... my niece had a beach wedding yesterday, gorgeous day gorgeous future. People are living longer, until she was six she had four grandparents and three great grandparents. At thirty she still has two grandmothers living. Among the gathering were her father's three sons and one ex-wife and husband with their daughter who calls Miranda auntie. Her real dad and step-dad and his wife were there.

I'm reminded by this card of today's families. Perhaps broken, but extended is a better word. They were all there, happy for Miranda, laughing and talking together. I shake my head and moan about today's world and no moral center, but broken families didn't much turn out in full force at weddings when I was thirty. Unless it was to carp about each other and fight in the parking lot... I'll give full chops to those modern puzzle box families who are making it work.

"Having a family is like having a bowling alley installed in your brain." ~ Martin Mull 1943

Saturday, July 4, 2015

Furniture

Daily Draw: Minchiate Etruria ~ Ace of Swords

A painful decision or situation. Friday we went to Shelton to pick up the last of mother's things, mostly furniture. We had no idea there was anything of hers still kicking around anywhere, let alone taking up someone's house space. Someone who wasn't family, to boot.

I'm reminded by this card it was a painful journey and difficult situation and will admit I had to fall back on pharmacology to handle it. It seems to have kicked me back a few points mentally into that dark place. I wonder why those ribbons are ignoring gravity? Fake it until you make it?

 "You can have a seat in this chair, after I cinch the noose around my neck and you kick it out from under my legs." ~ Jarod Kintz 1982-

Lo Scarabeo reprint of a 18th century Florence Italy Etruria Minchiate deck. Designed for gaming, there is no particular proscribed way of using them for divination or introspection. A deck of 97 images; 41 majors, 12 zodiac signs, 4 virtues, 4 elements, plus all the usual suspects in the minors and courts.

Friday, July 3, 2015

Unloved

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ Fool

Oh Dionysos, how could he still have an innocent and unlined face by the time he was the young adult here? Of course from this point it got even worse but he wasn't to know that beforehand.

I'm reminded by this card of the millions of children who are born into horror, tragedy, and despair, and die never knowing kindness and caring.

"Innocence is always unsuspicious." ~ Thomas C. Haliburton 1796-1865

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Beyond Ourselves

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ Moon

I've read three myths about Hecate this morning, all different. Not surprising I suppose as myths predate myths predate myths. One reason I'm not a believer in oral tradition as history or cack handed translations.

I'm reminded by this card one thing the ancient god myths and current god stories have in common is enormous rage and extraordinary punishment. I'm going nowhere with this post, only thinking I'd expect a god to have more self control than an infant. One reason I don't believe in gods of any era. But they are sure fun to read about, great ranging tales with grief and fear and the occasional happy ending and bravery and cowardice and thinking beyond the box of credibility. Isn't that what a good story is all about? Something beyond ourselves.

"Mistress of the crossroads, this lunar goddess dwells in caves, walks the highways at night, makes love on the vast seas, and is the force that moves the moon." ~ Demetra George 1946-

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

End Of The Beginning

Daily Draw: Mythic Tarot ~ Three of Wands

Three is huge in tarot. The original contract, action, thought, or relationship has reached the first apex. From here it stagnates or reforms into something more.

I'm reminded by this card today is Canada Day, followed in three days by Independence Day in the United States. Both still young countries, still working out where we've come from, rather than where we are going.  The US is gangly and impulsive, Canada is shy and withdrawn. Good luck to both as the crowns begin to pass on to generations who've not known the world without pocket sized technology, hunger, war on their own land, government in rout. Will they look and move forward or doom us to more of what isn't working?

"Man is the only kind of varmint sets his own trap, baits it, then steps in it." ~ John Steinbeck 1902-1968   Sweet Thursday