Saturday, October 31, 2015

On The Wind

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Kite

Have you looked at kites lately? You will seldom see a old fashion kite shape if you do. They are incredible works of creative invention. Just look at this clip from Long Beach's annual festival.

I'm reminded by this card of all the ways I and the world have radically changed since the time of a simple kite, a spring wind, and arguments about how to make the best tail. Arguments weren't very long, we were limited to mom's rag box and what she was willing to give up.  That box is also what I turned to for my Chinese Jump Rope...bless dad's underwear elastic.

"You can't fly a kite unless you go against the wind and have a weight to keep it from turning a somersault." ~ William J. H. Boetcker 1873-1962

Friday, October 30, 2015

Weakness For Gleam

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Diamond

Until a very few years ago, the only jewelry I owned of value was my wedding ring. Like clothes, I always felt there were better ways to use my hard earned moolah. I had an older friend though, who was a walking jewelry store. She could afford it and enjoyed wearing every bit of it. I often accompanied her to her various favorite shops. Where I discovered the discretely promoted estate jewelry cases. ooOOooo.

Fast forward to any one of the mental and physical hits I've taken. My coping/memory mechanism is to go choose a ring or bracelet, a good one.  So now I have a 'gleamer' arm. Each bracelet, is so special and so beautiful. This card reminds me I hope I don't need another pick-me-up via tragedy. But...Rob brought me an opal bracelet from Alice Springs Australia. It just glows! And isn't attached to any sorrow or fear.  Perhaps my one little weakness, for gleam, might get revived.

"Jack Beauregard: You shine like the door of a whorehouse. A blind man could spot you ten miles off." ~ Henry Fonda, My Name Is Nobody 1973

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Magnificently Unremarkable

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Vine

I've never bothered to ask any of my doctors if they mind me looking information up online. The early adage was don't believe anything you read online unless you've verified it with three different sites. But in the old days (20 years ago) there was a lot less online and much of it really did need to be viewed with askance.

I'm reminded by this card that information can educate, but also soothe.  I'm no a 'sky is falling' person, and the more I know the better prepared I am, the more at peace I am. My dye scan report is back and all is well. But the report covers a lot of things that to me the layman, sound odd. So I did some googling and now know more.  I take serious exception to one report word, unremarkable. It would be a great gift to patienthood if they changed unremarkable to Magnificent.  Would it kill them to do so? I think not...

 "If we hadn't had such a magnificent optimism to carry us through all these things, we wouldn't be here. We have survived it on our optimism." ~ Edward J. Steichen 1879-1973  

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Heavy Work

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Shield

My shield is about the size of a barn. It is heavy work carrying it around, at the ready, at all times. But still I do it.

I'm reminded by this card, why is it we need the biggest shields against the people we love, who in theory should love us?  I'm going to lay mine down for a few minutes this morning. We've neither any axes to grind against each other, this should be easy. Will the door slam shut? I'll know pretty soon.

 "Before I refuse to take your questions, I have an opening statement." ~ Ronald Reagan 1911-2004

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Shark Ahoy

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Shark

Loss of material wealth. Let me count the ways...from a hole in a pocket, to ill thought expenditures, to housing or stock market tanking, underinsured disasters. Everyone has had material loss of some kind if they live in the real world.

I can hardly bring myself to speak of it but we have a three year old silver Jetta TDI, from that company in Germany where all the management should be serving hard time. It hasn't moved since the day their chicanery and fraud came to light. The car is still the same...but our viewpoint of it isn't. I have talked up this car to everyone I know considering purchasing a new vehicle. Beside being well made and easy to ride in or drive there is that 44 miles to the gallon.  They made a complete fool of me and I'll be a life time forgiving. Plus the fact it probably isn't even sellable at this point in time. Ooooo I could just pinch someone's head off.

"It's not very nice to be where people are being swindled all day long, is it?" ~  Nevil Shute 1889-1960  Ruined City

Monday, October 26, 2015

Running

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Archway

New paths. Do we forge forward and create them? Is it being sidetracked until the side track becomes a main track?

This card reminds me I'm falling into my semi-ruthless mode. I know better now than to scrub everything from my life, as I always come back to my centers. But I'm antsy, and impatient with people, things, places and my mind screams for something new, something different, something encompassing. Fortunately drugs and drink don't tempt, but running does. Running to, running from, ...what?

"He who breaks a thing to find out what it is, has left the path of wisdom." ~ J.R.R. Tolkien 1892-1973

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Say Do Be Nothing

Daily Draw: Tea Leaf Fortune Cards ~ Cup

I've written a number of times about how it seems difficult for women of my generation to accept a compliment with grace rather than negation. But what about criticism?

Oh, the mental histrionics when the boss leaves a sticky note on the desk saying "Lets Talk". Or the glowing annual review with just that tiny little suggestion where we could do better. What do we go over and over in our mind? The compliments? Hardly.  I will say, I do appreciate Rob's viewpoint when I ask him for an opinion, as long as I remember to say "tell me what you think, not what to do".

"Criticism is something we can avoid easily by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing"
 Aristotle 384 BC-322 BC

Tea Leaf Fortune Cards, 2011, published by US Games Systems. 94 page soft cover book, Rae Hepburn, art by Shawna Alexander. 188 tea leaf cards, 12 month cards, 6 astral house cards.

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Conflict

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ King of Spears/Wands

We met Pellinore in the 7 of Cups, he of the obsession with the Growling Beast. He is also credited with killing one of the rebel kings, King Lot, whose sons later were knights of the round table...where they spent their time nursing a blood feud with Pellinore's sons.

I'm reminded by this card, life is complicated, no matter who you are, what you have, what you do. In myth or real life it is the conflicts that move the story along, lest we die of sheer boredom.

"Boredom is the shriek of unused capacities." ~ Saul Bellow 1915-2005   The Adventures of Augie March

Friday, October 23, 2015

Looking For Blood

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Ace of Spears/Wands

The Lance of Redemption. Or death. My heart quakes at some of the things humans revere.

And I'm reminded by this card, of why it is in our nature to slow down and look at wrecks. Our minds want to know. Our eyes want to see...

"Newspapers are unable, seemingly to discriminate between a bicycle accident and the collapse of civilization" ~ George Bernard Shaw 1856-1950

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Love, Blinds

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

Tristan and Isolt. What a convoluted, nay, I say ridiculous love story. But I can see by the headlines we aren't any smarter today.

I'm reminded by this card, love, or what we think is love, blinds.

"Without love, what are we worth? Eighty-nine cents! Eighty-nine cents worth of chemicals walking around lonely." ~ Hawkeye Laurence Marks, M*A*S*H, "Love Story," original air date 7 January 1973

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Poison The Well

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ King of Shields/Coins

Because they couldn't defeat Uther Pendragon in battle, or overrun the kingdom by sheer force of numbers, the Saxons resorted to poisoning the king's well.

I'm reminded by this card, to wonder how  many innocents died before the community realized what had been done. It is the ripples of what we do we have to monitor, as well as the immediate results.

"Success is more dangerous than failure, the ripples break over a wider coastline." ~ Graham Greene 1904-1991

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Feverish Imagination

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Endlessly Pellinore, and then after his death, Palomides chased this mythical beast Glatisant which growled like thirty hounds. This 7 of Cups makes me think about when interest turns to quest turns to obsession.

I have to have a dye CT scan today. I appreciate I have lots of doctors looking after me, keeping me on track, keeping me alive, but I'm moving away from chasing the cancer beast with every breath. I don't want to live there. I want to live here.

"I admit to having an imagination feverish enough to melt good judgment." ~ Dean R. Koontz 1945-  Seize the Night

Monday, October 19, 2015

Satisfying

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

From the book: Following a higher calling, receptivity to a higher plane.  The word Grail has become a bit of a catchword for anything we've sought for a period of time, something that won't just fall in our lap.

I'm reminded by this card I've found the journey, the hunt, to be the best part of my various grails over the years. There, is the higher plane for me, the time of learning variations, getting to know fellow seekers, honing focus. Trivial perhaps, as opposed to thinking I'm on a holy mission, but a lot more satisfying.

~As is your sort of mind, so is your sort of search: You'll find what you desire." ~ Robert Browning  1812-1889

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Gathered Together

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 10 of Shields/Coins

Were the questers Dark Age barbarians or Middle Age honorables? Without formal proof the whole story of the Round Table and Grail quest is down to myth and belief. But certainly in all ages there have been times to gather and celebrate life, harvest, and quests.

I'm reminded by this card of gatherings. Some gave a lesson to be remembered, others offered heartache, and yet others were of course, joyful. Whenever families or peers gather there is bound to be a little of each.

"It is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be." ~
Anna Louise Strong  1885-1970

Legend the Arthurian Tarot, art and 256 page A Keeper Of Words book by Anna-Marie Ferguson, published by Llewellyn Worldwide. My second edition was published 1998, Suits are titled Swords, Cups,  Spears are Wands, Shields are Coins.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

The Headlines

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 9 of Beltane/Cups

My home page when I come on-line has headlines from Australia, the UK, and Canada. The headlines always send  me reeling as I click here next.

I'm reminded by this card it is just a decades old habit to scan the headlines first thing. And with a computer it is the easiest thing to change, AKKK. I don't know how to do it in chrome! There is no file/edit/view/favorites/tools marching across the top of the screen. It would make this a 9 of Beltane day if someone can tell me how to get those options at the top of Chrome. Or at least how to change my home page...

"Journalism has a drawback that cannot be overrated. Headlines have a brutalizing effect , which both excites and demoralizes the public." ~ Margot Asquith 1864-1945

Friday, October 16, 2015

Vagary

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 12 of Lughnasadh/Coins

The author sees this as the worst of Pisces and Scorpio coming together. Single-mindedness with a nature that goes to extremes.

Who? Me? I think we all get this way sometimes, head down, goal in mind, too many hours, not enough play...fortunately it isn't a permanent condition unless we are being brainwashed. We'll have 'one of those days', shake ourselves out of it, and get on with the common vagaries of life.

"There is a fine line between wild, and full-on whack job." ~ Kimberly McCreight  Reconstructing Amelia

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Coast Run!

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 4 of Beltane/Cups

Years ago here I said I didn't have or believe in rituals. In comments Carla pointed out my Daily Draw and Blog are two. Busted! I've thought about the comment often since, as we've quit celebrating birthdays and have completely drifted away from remarking any kind of holiday.

I'm reminded by this card I'd like to live at the beach, but reality says an annual coast run is as close as I get. Today is the day, supposed to be 77 degrees in Astoria and Seaside. And a couple of times a year gutbusters at Mrs. Beesleys, a true hamburger stand where we've been eating since we were pipsqueaks. I suspect we all have rituals and traditions, to cling to or avoid...

to misquote  G. K. Chesterton, tradition is where the dead still have a vote.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Out With The Old

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Spring Equinox

Like our spring cleaning, the ancient rites of Spring Equinox also practiced out with the old, in with the new.

I'm reminded by this card in Spring I always think that is my favorite season, and when Autumn comes, that is my favorite.

"And we are living in unconstant world. Full of hopes, dreams and purposes. Make the most beautiful moments while we are here. Savour it as if it's the last for we may not know how long we could stay in this wheel of life." ~ Omar Khayyám 1048-1131

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Marked By Childhood

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 9 of Imbolc/Wands

Big activity. Spring cleaning. I wonder if anyone cleans like that anymore? Short finances precluded such luxury as a vacuum when I was growing up. The rugs we had were all moveable, and wood heat and wood cook stove made a dusty dirty house.  It made sense to pull out the rugs, throw them over the clothes line and set the kids to beating the dust and dirt out of them. Inside, curtains, furniture, walls floors ceilings, windows all got a good going over. Kinda makes me tired to think about it...but then I got my FitBit step report today, the lowest ever in 2.5 years.  Lazy bum indeed.

I'm remind by this card, we had time to do all that cleaning because we were late adopters to progressive technology. There was no TV or phone and the rest of the stuff that eats up our days hadn't been invented. Probably why I don't have a TV now, and limit my time online, and avoid talking on the phone. Funny how I think I'm such an independent thinker, yet am still marked and lock stepped by childhood.

"The key phrase there is “get into the ecosystem,” which means downloading apps, movies, music, books, long distance home security, etc." ~ Erica Ogg  Gigaom Research 6/13

Monday, October 12, 2015

Let Us Gather

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 7 of Beltane/Cups

I went to a quilt show yesterday at the Aurora Colony, an 1800's commune whose root and concept was based on religion and celibacy. Well you know how well that worked out...the colony quilts shown listed the family chains that had passed them down.

I'm reminded by this card instinct will always perpetuate the line. And on the whole, family will always gather to share the one thing they have in common, blood.

The actual stuff my family owned, those boxes under my stairs, I can't quite bear to look at. I like other people's things better. They come with other people's history." ~ Gillian Flynn 1971-   Dark Places

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Jockeying

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 10 of Imbolc/Wands

Self promotion is how this deck sees the 10 of Wands. Quite different from the pity party it is often portrayed as, or burden carried.

Here in Canada and USA it is coming up on elections. I much prefer the idea of UK's six weeks campaign.  The expense of campaigning here is huge because the countries are huge and the candidates have to be everywhere.  A first in national elections, a number of candidates have been blown out of the race by injudicious use of social media coming back to bite them. But as far as blowing their own horn, I doubt you could am for high office without a big ego; the press and public hold no one safe from being blasted in every way possible. Weird job to jockey for...

"I wonder how many people are clutching secrets like little fists, like rocks sitting in the pits of their stomachs. All of them, maybe." ~ Lauren Oliver 1982-   Before I Fall

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Blow The Cobwebs Out

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 4 of Lughnasadh/Coins

On the Wheel Year this card falls into the last week of August, for the northern hemisphere this is the busiest harvest time. Astrop stresses it is also the time for physical and emotional nurturing.

This card reminds me eating candy corn and sitting reading a book isn't falling in with this card's advice. Anyone want to go for a good long walk with me? I really need to blow the cobwebs out of my brain.

"Life expectancy would grow by leaps and bounds if green vegetables smelled as good as bacon."  ~ Doug Larson 1926-

Friday, October 9, 2015

With Us, For Us

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 4 of Samhain/Swords

A family, having adventures, traveling together. I'd sincerely like to believe families still do this.  Dad said late in life he was sorry he wasn't around more, that it seemed like he was always picking up overtime, driving his big concrete mixer truck.

I'm reminded by this card we all were struck incredulous by the very idea. Because when dad was home he was with us, he was always there for us. We weren't sent to do chores, he did them with us, he was a great believer in 'many hands make light work'. If we were camping, which was the most common entertainment, he was hiking, fishing, reading, playing games, with us and mother. I knew I was lucky then, and I know I was lucky now. There are many ways to relax and rest and thinking those memories is one of my ways.

"The time to relax is when you don't have time for it." ~ Sydney J. Harris 1917-1986

Thursday, October 8, 2015

Chattel

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Gyfu/Gebo

Do you have a lucky number? This rune is apparently the origin of that line of thought. And perhaps where our feeling of obligation comes from when receiving a gift or need to negate when speaking of our talents and skills.

Gyfu/Gebo reminds me today that give and take in all areas is one of the Great Keys to a balanced and lasting relationship. If it is all one-sided quit kidding yourself, you don't have a relationship, you are or have chattel.

"Keep company only with people who uplift you, whose presence calls forth your best." ~  Epictetus  AD 55-c.135

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Ghost Of Friendship Past

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 7 of Coins/Lughnasadh

Friendship. I remember at about eight years old, Karen Carter bringing an adult cat to school in a box for me to take home. I do not believe I was able to keep it, so it must have went back for another day at school. I also remember taking my little sister, little brother, and cousin to spend different days at school. Doubt that would fly today...

I'm reminded by this card school and life were simpler then. Not better, but simple is good in childhood. I wonder if it was easier for us to cope with the dark sides of childhood or if we understood mental, physical, sexual abuse as natural? I send a hug today to all those ghost friends and hope those with dark childhoods found a lighter brighter adulthood.

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Price Of Peace

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 8 of Swords/Samhain

The Thoth 8 of Swords is willpower crossed by disruptive influences time and time again. In the Runic it is a  need to conform. Disruptive to whom? Am I going along to get along...not likely. Or is my personality strong enough to inadvertantly disrupt someone else?  I have seen and been all sides of this coin.

I'm reminded by this card, tradition is fine as long as it isn't blind. I choose to do as I think...which is a long way from how I started out, anything for the sake of peace.  Peace always comes with a price, for me it got too high.

Monday, October 5, 2015

Strong Suits

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Ur

Standing at the Magician space, the auroch, until hunted to extinction, indicated brute masculine type strength seldom attained by the feminine sex. It also stands for raw elemental power and determination.

I'm reminded by this card, when Ur is required to manage our goal we seek collective strength. The support group...one of our strong suits.

"Brute strength is blind without direction." ~ Samuel Butler 1835-1902

The Runic Tarot includes a major arcana of 24 rune cards in a zodiac wheel broken down into three groups; workers, protectors, prayers, with traditional Norse significance.
This is coupled with a minor arcana of four suits of 13 cards each, based on the four seasons of Imbolc, Beltane, Lughnasadh, and Samhain. The Runic Tarot kit includes 76 beautiful cards with art by Caroline Smith, and the 184 page companion book written by John Astrop. Published by St Martin's Press 2003.

Sunday, October 4, 2015

The Lion's Mouth


Daily Draw: Karma Cards ~ Moon

Based on my question yesterday "What is too much and when is enough, enough? with respect to visiting the cemetery.

Spiritual: In my defence, the quote I used yesterday.
Mental: What do I accept? There is nothing after death except being dead. It is a very comforting place to be, believe it or not.
Physical: Feelings? If I'm asking the question is the answer go more, or don't go at all?

I'm reminded by this Moon, our thoughts and actions are often based on emotions. Our brain knows what is good and bad for us. But our emotions over ride that toggle switch and we get up and march right into our version of the lion's mouth. The answer for me? It gives me comfort, and for now that is enough. Spring and Autumn, edge the platforms, scrub the granite, lay flowers, these actions seldom make  me cry, and always make me feel better.

"O! Mr Dedalus cried, giving vent to a hopeless groan, shite and onions!" ~ James Joyce 1882-1941

Karma Cards, 1988, published by Eddison Sadd. 96 page book Monte Farber, 36 card illustrations Linda Garland. Three cards are drawn, one each from planet, sign, house. Blue end up relates to working out the process, orange end up is outcome. I'm using just blogging one card here.

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Visiting

Daily Draw: Shining Tribe Tarot ~ Temperance

What is too much and when is enough, enough?

I have a funeral to attend this morning, suppose that is why the question crossed my mind. How often do you visit loved ones at the cemetery?

"It's easier to miss her at a cemetery, where she's never been anything but dead, than to miss her at all the places where she was alive." ~ John Scalzi 1969-  Old Man's War


Friday, October 2, 2015

Glacial

Daily Draw: Shining Tribe Tarot ~ 8 of Cups/Rivers

Moving on by choice rather than ennui. I've done both, I expect we all have. Or we've worn our mask until, surprise, we've become the mask.

Many tarot cards are about change. We think we don't because likely most change is glacial, but what are you doing today you didn't even consider ten years ago? twenty? Change we will, in spite of ourselves.

"Between every two pine trees there is a door leading to a new way of life." ~ John Muir 1838-1914

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Spare Me Reincarnation

Daily Draw: Shining Tribe Tarot ~ 9 of Cups/Rivers

In Pollack's mind these broken cups represent reincarnation, we keep coming back until we are whole and can hold the light we are meant to be.

What a depressing thought. In my mind each life experience, good bad indifferent, in the next instant, offers options. Start over and do it better, learn a lesson and don't do it again, create a new path. Personally directed redemption is the opportunity to get it right, in the only life we get. Reincarnation is just one more way to excuse ourselves from consequences.

"The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshipped anything but himself." ~ Richard Francis Burton 1821-1890