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Monday, October 31, 2016

Adaptation, With Economy

Daily Draw: Moon Oracle ~ Economy

The black moon for October 2016 falls on the 31st. With a mind numbing lack of astrology I think this boils down to now being an inspirational force of positive change.















My economy is directed this week. I'm scroogeish about the stairwell lights. But once on the way up or down I'm kicking myself for not lighting the way because my depth perception is way off. I wondered if the holiday tube lights might work. We found something even better. A flat tape of led lights, bright enough to bake a flouncing turkey...but no heat, never needs to be turned off. This is Rob working out variables. Down the corner, yikes NO. Underneath the big spoon rack, and under the side landing facing down..eureka. Even set at 25% this creates more than enough light to navigate the steps. Inexpensive and constant.

"Thrift is poetic because it is creative; waste is unpoetic because it is waste." ~ G.K. Chesterton 1874-1936  What's Wrong with the World

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Flouncing From The Room

Daily Draw: Moon Oracle ~ Artemis

Artemis warns against her worst traits, impetuosity, brittle cleverness, competitiveness overkill.

I'm reminded by this card of my teens. a time ripe for the first two. Pushing boundaries, sullen responses, plus a flaming temper I hadn't yet managed to control. My most often killer response to being reined in? "Fine then, I just won't go" and flouncing from the room. I can't conceive of  my parents being button pushers, but that response always worked to their favor. Not until the angry temper fell away would I realize I was right where they wanted me. I haven't got a competitive bone in my body which I've always considered a plus.

"That girl could flounce better than a fat turkey on a trampoline." ~ Terry Pratchett 1948-2015

Saturday, October 29, 2016

Run While You Still Can

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ 10 of Wands/Tortoise

He is coming towards us rather than away, uncommon for a card that generally shows great burdens we have willing shouldered which exact a great price, even to madness and death at times.

Why do we do it? Like this tortoise who sees and ponders the burden, we have no idea when we start how heavy the commitment will be or how long we'll carry it. So we take it on, one step at a time, to the end.

"The pain is unrelenting; one does not abandon, even briefly, one's bed of nails, one is attached to it wherever one goes." ~ William Styron 1925-2006

Friday, October 28, 2016

Life Shore

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

Comfortable in her own company. I've known women who couldn't stand being home alone. I know it isn't my concern, we are who we are but it does make me sad, I love being home, that is the main reason I love being retired.

I'm reminded by this card there are many things that can't be trained into or out of us. I grateful this comfortable with myself shore is where I washed up long ago.

"I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore. . . .
I hear it in the deep heart's core." ~ William Butler Yeats 1865-1939

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Thousands, Nay Millions

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ Page of Wands/Insects

We once had an invasion of ladybugs, we could scrape them off the front of the house with a shovel. Our annual insect problem is with Boxelder bugs. Black with pretty orange stripes. We never see them until the cool weather sets in then a hot day comes. The front of our house with its south facing windows then attracts them like a magnet. And I mow the lawn before 10 AM, after that the neighbors honey bees come work our clover.

All that said to say, I miss a lot of what goes on around me. Reading Beaks, Bones and Bird Songs last week, bats eat 600 to a 1000 bugs in an hour, swallows scoop up 3-400 in short order for their hatchlings. How can so many bugs be in the air and me not see them. Perhaps I'm just lucky that way....

"It's a bug-eat-bug world out there, Princess. One of those "circle of life" kind of things." ~ Hopper  A Bug's Life 1998

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

In Common

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ Ace of Coins/Guinea Pig

Goals and gains. I have a master plan for this pouring rainy day, and two goals if I get that far along.

I'm reminded by this card all I know about guinea pigs is seeing them in pet stores as I whiz by on my whatever it was missions. So I've had a little whip round the web to learn about them. My consensus, totally cute and no, one wouldn't be a substitute for a kitten. And it is time to hit the floor running and get on with my Ace of Coins day. I have no clue what the deck creator found in common with guinea pigs and coins.

"Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you're alive, it isn't." ~  Richard Bach 1936-

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Chinese Redlight

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ Fool/Coyote

You can tell they are here by their voices. They surround their prey and by circling and barking/baying/singing confuse their dinner's sense of direction.

Placed as the Fool, I've been trying to think of Fool-ish stunts. When we first started driving we thought it was the pinnacle of hilarity at stop lights to jump out, tear around the car, and jump back in before the light changed. I think most of my most Fool-ish moments probably involve driving. I'd rather not think about the danger I placed myself and passengers in. Kids. Amazing  any of us make adulthood.

"So, rather than appear foolish afterward, I renounce seeming clever now." ~ William of Baskerville il nome della rosa Umberto Eco

Monday, October 24, 2016

Mental Challenge

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ 5 of Cups/crocodile

 I think crocs are amazing creatures, surviving and in many cases thriving from back beyond time, with a current life span of 70-100 years. I'm having trouble focusing on this card and it's intended negativity so instead I've just had a whip round of favorite blogs.

I'm reminded by this card negativity is a mind set. I've gotten way past that, but it makes me wonder if grief is also a mindset I can't seem to think my way out of. A good mental challenge for today.

"Crocodiles are easy. They try to kill and eat you. People are harder. Sometimes they pretend to be your friend first." ~ Steve Irwin 1962-2006



Sunday, October 23, 2016

Good Heart Bad Heart

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ Justice

Self Justice in a nutshell comes down to decisions. Yes, we need to see the full circle of consequences, yes we need to weigh our heart as in good heart bad heart, and whether we want to or not our Justice will also contain some ingrown judgements and injustices.

I'm reminded by this card, and Maat, the ancient Egyptians had acres of gods and goddesses, pretty much one for every circumstance they might be involved in. And I doubt that made day to day life any easier or more pleasant than having one, always guiding via placing it's thumb on your scale. I trust our personal view of justice to be far more fair...

"Truth came home one day, naked and wounded, having been beaten and cursed by the people who did not wish to hear, while his brother Falsehood went dressed in the brightest garments and feasted with every household." ~ Kerry Greenwood 1954-   Out of the Black Land

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Booby

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ Knight of Cups/Blue Foot Booby

From the book: "the most dangerous quest of all is the one of the heart". My mind went straight to Barb. From a 2008 post: I once told a friend if we put all the men she'd dated (and married) in a locked room the world would be safe for womankind.  Her judgment in men was obscured by her desperation, she didn't feel complete unless there was a man in her life.

I'm reminded by this Knight, Blue Boobies don't mate with Red Boobies but how do humans ever know who isn't blue and who isn't red? Mostly we don't. I got lucky because I knew at 17 what I didn't want which cut out about 75% of the local gene pool. My Knight is still my choice, but I still don't know if he is the Blue Foot or the Red Foot.  And maybe that is what doesn't matter at all.

The Blue Booby

The blue booby lives on the bare rocks of Galápagos and fears nothing.
It is a simple life: they live on fish, and there are few predators.
Also, the males do not  make fools of themselves  chasing after the young ladies.
Rather, they gather the blue objects of the world
and construct from them a nest—an occasional Gaulois package,
a string of beads, a piece of cloth from  a sailor’s suit.
This replaces the need for dazzling plumage;
in fact, in the past fifty million years the male has grown considerably duller,
nor can he sing well. The female, though, asks little of him—
the blue satisfies her completely, has a magical effect on her.
When she returns from her day, she sees he has found her a new shred of blue foil:
for this she rewards him with her dark body,
the stars turn slowly in the blue foil beside them like the eyes of a mild savior.  James Tate 1943-2015

Friday, October 21, 2016

Thunderous Silence

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 8 of Cups/Salmon

The book indicates a quest.  I live in salmon country and its quest upstream in the third year of its life always results in red death. I'm not moved to be that questy. But trying to figure out how this salmon reflects in my life today, I'm reminded  of my annual learn something new efforts.

With forethought rather than whim, I spent three years on the stock market. followed by quilling and paper embroidery. Followed by Tarot, Blogging, Yoga, Nursing, Astrology, Runes, History of Australia, MesoAmerica, Encaustic art, Archaeology via Brown University, Treadle sewing machine, Thoth, Sacred Geometry. Some resulted in epic failure but all were savored.

My brain lost traction and I skipped 2015 and 2016 but 2017 will be back on schedule. The chosen subject, geology of course! Through the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign via Coursera.
This nation offers its residents exceeding valuable gifts, acknowledged with thunderous silence.

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Social Breakdown

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ Tower/Termite

Termites are eusocial with a highly developed social system where everyone has and knows its place. And like bees and ants, have managed to survive intact over eons.

I'm reminded by this card human society over millions of years has always been a case of build the tower, blow the tower, build again. New faces, same old places, same old story.  I'm reading Dinosaurs Without Bones in which the ancient tracks are expected to tell the whole social story. Can't be done in my opinion. Our ancient cycles of human history are mostly mute, subject to interpretation and opinion based on very little. I hope my history is part of the building, not the blowing.

"Some primal termite knocked on wood.
And tasted it, and found it good.
And that is why your Cousin May
Fell through the parlor floor today." ~ Ogden Nash 1902-1971  Good Intentions 

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Aimless, Me?

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 2 of Wands/Stingray

Am I floating along aimlessly these days or are there directions I'm focusing on?

I'm reminded by this beauty of the sea, yes and no, and also no and yes. In otherwise, life as usual. Which works for me.

"The trouble with retirement is that you never get a day off." ~ Abe Lemons  1922-2002

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Big Gray Grief

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 3 of Swords/Elephant

I couldn't find proof that elephant graveyards are anything but a myth. A moot point as elephants and their fellow animals and mammals with ivory tusks and teeth are hunted to extinction.

I'm reminded by this card the idea of a romantic death isn't possible. The most we can hope for is a clean one.

"The planet's menagerie has become like shards of broken glass; we're grinding the shards smaller and smaller." ~ Carl Safina 1955- Beyond Words

Monday, October 17, 2016

Doorstops

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ King of Swords/Bald Eagle

Perspective, and total focus on the moment. Sounds kind of nice, no good/bad/indifferent memory and problems to weigh on the mind, muddying up that focus.

I'm reminded by this card, that wouldn't be for me. Without our context we'd just be doorstops.

"Taken out of context I must seem so strange." ~ Ani Difranco 1970-

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Honeypot

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ Hanged Man

Honeypot ant. Yikes. Bigger isn't better. From the companion book, "a life of complete sacrifice, service, surrender".
Our current unemployment is 5%. Our current number of men between 18 and 34 unemployed is 16%

I'm reminded by this ant it isn't just the rich that aren't paying a fair share. Do I have a solution? Hell no. I just have a impotent hanged man feeling of being sucked dry.

"How little you know about the age you live in if you think that honey is sweeter than cash in hand." ~ Ovid  43 BC-17 AD

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Lie

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese Tarot ~ Justice/La Giustizia

Because this is a taroc deck we see a sword, but must make an assumption that fair scales are in the other hand. Perhaps she is just hanging a few dainties out to dry.

I'm reminded by this card it is important to do personal fact checks. Just because I say something it isn't necessarily so. Justice without her scales is just another sword card.

"When you I tell a lie, you I steal someone’s right to the truth." ~ Khaled Hosseini 1965-   The Kite Runner

Friday, October 14, 2016

A Dell

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ 3 of Cups/Coupes

Remember Egroups? Which morphed into YahooGroups? Long time predecessors to Facebook. Before that there were newsgroups and alt groups I think. I saved for two years to get my first computer, but wasn't fired up enough to buy one until I understood there were quilting groups out there on the web. My first computer was a Dell and cost me $1700.00 in October 1996.

I'm reminded by this card of all the places I've been and people I've met on my little magic machines. Of all the big brains that go into making touch screens and miles of code, that work. Of the white hats and black hats that work against each other to make or break the whole system. My first sewing contact on-line? WadesList, made up of New Home/Janome sewing machine users. What I miss most? Factory installed Word.

"Coming together is a beginning; keeping together is progress; working together is success." ~ Henry Ford 1863-1947

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Tiny Trickles

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese Tarot ~ Ace of Cups/Coupes

The power of emotions. And how far and long we can tamp them down. I spent 15+ years avoiding my mother, just a once or twice a year visit for a couple of hours. Then my baby sister died and mother was left to me. I brought her home and rediscovered a bright and witty sense of humor, mostly overridden by dementia into a cruel and angry harridan whose words and presence haunt this home.

I'm reminded by this gentle cup, as we passed through Iowa and Illinois this month, what I could hear were mothers memories being told again and again about her happy childhood there. And because I'd never known her there, my own childhood mother began to reappear, the one I'd never found as an adult. And some of my buried grief began to trickle through. It is safer this way...just a trickle at a time, my coping mechanisms are unsafe.

"I am a thread too slender
To suspend all this reality..." ~ Phillip Pulfrey  Madness

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

All The Ripples

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ Page of Cups/Coupes

Learning to recognize and respond to complex emotions + dealing with the consequences to ourselves and ripples washing over those around us.

I'm wondering about our ripples. If I happen to be in line in front of someone and they walk out the door and get hit by a bus, was it me in the line that made them be in the wrong place at the wrong time? Interesting spaghetti junction of the brain that I could follow back to birth.

"These paper boats of mine are meant to dance on the ripples of hours, and not reach any destination." ~ Rabindranath Tagore  1861-1941

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Blending For Better

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ Temperance/La Temperanza

In 2008 I was gifted a 30 week course offered by Jean-Michel David, invaluable in studying the marseille decks.  It made me think rather than assume, what is Temperance doing? Is this an act of caring, or spreading the poison? Is she filling or emptying? Is the liquid going up or down, anyone with wings wouldn't be concerned with gravity. Purification, dilution, dissolution?

LaTemp reminds me today, there are many methods and reasons for stirring the pot, cloaking it with a smile is one of them. Each day allows us to refresh our mind, spirit, and body in genuine thoughtfulness, to show and act on caring rather than just thinking about it.

"I met in the street a very poor young man who was in love. His hat was old, his coat worn, his cloak was out at the elbows, the water passed through his shoes, - and the stars through his soul." ~ Victor Hugo 1802-1885

Monday, October 10, 2016

Unfamiliar Familiarity

Daily Draw: Piemontese Tarocco ~ Moon/LaLuna

As a tarock card we only see the pool as a reflection and the crustation isn't manifesting. There are no yods or sense of merging, changing, growing, movement.
We are offered both a full and third quarter moon. A primal card. Yet the dogs are collared and the two towers are human constructs.

I'm reminded by this card of all the ways we are tied in place. By home, family, jobs, friends, sweat equity, farm animals/pets and most of all, by the familiar. Change, even designed and implemented by us is none the less, a lurch. Until the pond releases the crustation, we stay.

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power." ~  Alan Cohen 1950-

Sunday, October 9, 2016

It Is Mine

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ L'Imperatrice/Empress

Tarocco decks were meant for gaming, and the majors and courts are all shown half with half. We don't see what is going on with their feet, how their clothing is placed, how any symbolic items below the waist are arranged. What we can see is she is facing us straight on. Take me or leave me, period.

I'm reminded by this card how long we've labored to have the right to govern our own body.  When I hear 'advanced civilization' my mind goes to the female genital mutilation of young girls. The lifelong curse of fistula in young girls before their bodies have matured enough to give birth safely, the double standard... of all the other ways old men of power try to silence our cries, crush our spirit, render us malleable. Good luck with that.

"Enter on the way of training while the spirits in youth are still pliable." ~ Virgil 70 BC-19 BC

Friday, October 7, 2016

Safe Zone


Daily Draw: Karma Cards ~ North Node
Orange up, What Should I do

Spirit, Have Faith In: The combined mental balance and innate good judgement of my fellow citizens.

Mind: Do Not Worry About: I get twisted up every time I have a CT scan, ever six months now, coming up again in November. My lung cancer was rare and non-aggressive. What chance is there for it to come back? Limited. Get a grip. And this month I'm five years out from breast cancer. Am I lucky or what?

Physical: Now is the time to: It is always the right time to eat balanced meals, walk and do my yoga, breathe...release the mad monkey mind.

"I have come to realize that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity, or power, but self-rejection." ~ Henri J.M. Nouwen1932-1996

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Insuranced To Death

Daily Draw: Karma Cards ~ The Third House
The Foundation + Relationship to the world

Making the right connections: How about insurance? Our first agent was Mrs. Johnson. It was liking walking in and finding family behind the counter. Total connection. I rearended a car, drove to the office to turn myself in. She gave me a #10 hug and I never heard another word about it.

The idea in question: Second agent, when we moved states, the only thing I remember is her face and the question she asked when our roof blew off. "Did you call the contractor?". Huh? She could have offered a lot of good advice dealing with the massive amount of water in the house. Info tidbit? Five big dehydrators running all day will bring the house temperature up to 110 degrees by the time you get home from work.

Get the ideas going: I nosed around and went to the agent who handled the policies of the richest person I knew.  We love her. But I hope we never have to place a claim, ever again. Info tidbit. Our single largest combined expense each year? Insurance...

"Fun is like life insurance; the older you get, the more it costs." ~ Kin Hubbard  1868-1930

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

A Quiet Country

Daily Draw: Karma Cards ~ Neptune
What will the outcome be?

Spiritual: idealization of: My America. As we roll through the South Dakota Bad Lands I'm thinking it is the best place to be, unhooked, thinking for ourselves. To remember money was the underpinning of the first ships full of immigrants, they were expected to repay their trip with the bounty of the land but the heart and determination of individuals made it work. In the ruckus of modern 24/7 wired addictions, I pledge to remember, what a wonderful country I live in. A quiet country.

Mental: Confusion regarding: Why there is such a disconnect between races. As we ate dinner tonight my eye kept going to a gorgeous woman, dressed in deep purple with long white hair swung up in an Aunt Bea bun. I waved her aside as she rose to leave and told her how stunning she looked. She said "I can hardly believe I'm 96". I would have guessed mid-70s. Of the Sioux tribe. I wish I could spend time with her, learn from her learning.

Physical: Sacrifice: I haven't made any sacrifices, but I have double cousins, and if they needed bone marrow or a kidney I'd be happy to provide.

"O poor mortals, how ye make this earth bitter for each other." ~ Thomas Carlyle1795-1881

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Spirit Mind Body

Daily Draw: Karma Cards ~ Jupiter
What will the outcome be?

Spiritual: The Granting Of: wisdom. My mind has become clearer over the last ten years. I've learned to recognize the difference between what is real spirituality and what is made up for convenience and herding the masses.

Mental: Blessings From: Recognizing if I direct my mind in only one direction, whatever the subject, it will become addictive. Having an info-junkie mind is a double edged sword. Knowing that is important.

Physical: Good Fortune: In a hurry, weaving through Wal-Mart, whipping past an end cap in the DVD section, stopping and backing up to look at the yoga DVDs. Never crossed my mind before that day. I picked up Elena Brower's Yoga For Beginners. I've never looked back, I love yoga, and learning Ujjayi Breath has eased stressful situations, mad monkey mind, gentled my heart, eased my pain, ever since.

"Namaste" May the divine in me rise to meet the divine in you.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Visionary

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ King of Cups

In 1871 Thomas Moran was attached to the first U.S. geological survey of Yellowstone, and his breathtaking images were key to the formation and protection of our first national park.

I'm reminded by this card he was a visionary with higher principles, higher love. We could use more of that in a world gone mad with me me  me.

From Thomas Moran and the Surveying of the American West  "In art, as in any profession, knowledge is power . . . I must know the geology. I must know the rocks and the trees and the atmosphere and the mountain torrents and the birds that fly in the blue ether above me."

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Americans Make America Great

Daily Draw: LLewellyn Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

We turned for home yesterday, unwillingly, but home we must, eventually.

I'm reminded by this card of the pleasure of meeting fellow  blogger Carolyn (Healing Health and Wellness on the sidebar), the elderly gentleman in Pizza Hut last night with whom I talked of childhood berrypicking and his wife's pies. And the bag of rocks in the back of the car, where did those come from? The man in line at Cracker Barrel who got scared when I told him we ate it all already...Of this gorgeous country we live in, of the miles of crops we've passed being harvested, cotton, beans, rice.  Of the silence in the Fort Davidson Park where once men froze on the ground and blood ran down the hills, and the South, where we've met nothing but kindness and courtesy. I salute backbone of America, we are what makes this country already great.

"The individual activity of one man with backbone will do more than a thousand men with a mere wishbone." ~ William J. H. Boetcker 1873-1962

Saturday, October 1, 2016

Tough Love

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 3 of Swords

One of the toughest things we ever had to do.

Leaving someone you love on the street to live or die is no small decision. Sticking to it is even harder. In our case it worked but it took years, not weeks. I love my little brother and the new life he has built for himself. The memory of how he lived and laid still sears my heart for all those left behind.

"I find as I grow older that I love those most whom I loved first." ~ Thomas Jefferson 1742-1826