Blend And Drain

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Force/Temperance 

If we set aside the brain, which may or  may not be of any use, I wonder how much innate instinct we have compared to a rabbit or elk or dog. Not much, in primordial times, but enough.

Many readers say they read by their instincts rather than basic tarot structure. I wonder what they mean by that. I wonder if it could be said that I do too
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As we blend, separate, reabsorb, and drain again, what we might of thought of as instinctive behavior ten or twenty years ago has probably reformed into new thoughts and responses. Each day we get, we remake ourselves from what we had, what we have, what we take what we are given. A good thing I think, giving us the path to better rather than stunted and misshapen.

Bull

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Moon

The feminine. That which pulls us and pushes us. The strength we find when our strength fails.

I'm reminded by this card I started a project this week which common sense about my eyes says is doomed to fail. Bull.

Who Pays

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Justice/Adjustment

What about when things go amiss even when many eyes double check? This beautiful deck and the little book have a number of errors. Which should have been caught by the artist, author, and publisher.

How will Justice be meted? Thousands of decks to the landfill? Say it isn't so! Will the current purchasers get corrected cards and little book, or will new decks be shipped to them? Who will foot the expense?

I think there were two of this card, the other with oxen. The drivers goad and the yoke standing in for sword and scale. I want it. Adjustment indeed.

Below and Above

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Temperance

A gender equal deck, he blends action + reaction, male + female, the truth and the vision, id + ego. Above and then below, below and then above.

I'm reminded by this card of a peasant farmer in a hard scrabble country vs. everyday life in a G6 nation. They have limited access to most things modern, we have exciting input around us 24/7. Both ends of the spectrum need Temperance to find the balance I feel makes my life worth living.

My Mind Refuses To Mind

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Don't lose the big picture by being caught up in the small stuff.
Perhaps this is where the light has been leaking from my days.

Small things which even by short term history are immaterial.
Animals die, houses burn, storms kill. There is no way to stop time or history to save anyone before or after the fact. Rather than the mad monkey mind which jumps from subject to subject, this mind lingers dwells drifts where it shouldn't, allowing even silken ribbons to drag us down.

Make It Stop

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

A creature of compassion: Sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.
Creature of empathy: The ability to understand and share the feelings of another.
Creature of coping:  Dealing with responsibilities, problems, or difficulties in a calm and adequate manner.

I would attribute all these qualities to this Queen. To do it she also needs a stone heart and steel backbone. Because where does it stop, all this caring? The light at the edge of my wellness is wavering. And I know the second it started.

Gobbler

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

"Self-delusion and excess" Zillich

That could describe me a number of times over the years. Yet even now I delude myself that I'm cured of it.

The image of the gobbling queen is faint but the dead pheasant is very real. How many ways do I harm the earth, people I care about, my own heart with illusion?

Ossified

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Death

A black pelt, borrowed feathers, ossified fingers.
It welcomes new life as future fodder.

I'm led to wonder, on this utterly gorgeous spring day, how many will die, unremarked, unfound, unnoticed, gone?

Evidence Of Effort

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 3 of Coins

Discipline + Effort = Goals
Is that a zippered folder? Are those rail tracks across the winter sky? Is he supporting the crystal to keep it from rolling back? Just resting his back? Pushing it uphill? Is he bothering with it because it is pretty and can be displayed as evidence of effort?

I wonder if visible evidence is a facet of my being a dedicated quiltmaker? Because if that counts then so would the remains of projects abandoned. Am I, did I learn anything from them? Is the 3 of Coins track so narrow as to not count learning as goal worthy?

The track of my efforts re: comments on the new blogger, leads me to wonder if my readers clicked on the G+ in the upper left and left a message, would I get it? Blogger no longer supports Open ID. Just how many tracks do I have going? Eight? Dozens? None?

Beset Upon

Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ 8 of Wands/Orange One

Our Orange One feels beset upon by leakers and enemies. No cure for him as he refuses to learn or even acknowledge, but in my youth I sometimes felt the same way.

I'm reminded by this card, a life lesson for me. At any given time a percentage will not care, actively dislike, or totally ignore me. That is a good thing. Keeps life real. Keeps ego in check.