To Be Continued...

Crystal Visions Tarot ~ Page of Coins

Court cards. I doubt I'm the only one who sighs when one comes up, much easier to interp minors and majors. Then I checked the master list this Rogue card came from and laughed at the name.

I am a page today, in search of crystal vision. they've held me over here for a second battery of tests, because my broken and withered eye rods may be eligible for experimental surgery. There is no concept of restoration, but the theory is it would prevent further vision deterioration and the eventual blindness.

A story, to be continued...  

I Ain't Afraid

Merryday Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

We toured the Natural History Museum in Salt Lake City yesterday, marvelous, took us from cells through dinosaurs through indigenous people of the region. One of the displays was a room with a clear plexiglas floor exposing a paleontology dig area underneath. This figure clearly shows my reaction. I was frozen, could not take a step because with my eyes I couldn't judge if there was floor at all, knew there had to be but my vision wasn't up to the action required.

My first reaction was to cry like a girly and run away, followed by anger because nothing scares me, nothing.

Keep telling yourself that... maybe someday it will be true. Anyway, today up to the Moran Eye Clinic, a partner in the worldwide study of MacTel and more tests to go into the general fund of knowledge. 

Stockpile and Hunker?

Cathar Tarot ~ 9 of Wands/Shields

No longer an abstract concept, this Cathar is face to face with personal annihilation by the Crusaders.

Which begs the question, while I sit here at the very heart of Mormon country, what will I do if/when faced with having to fight for what I believe rather than shout from my soapbox? Would I take up arms? Would I run? Would I stockpile and hunker hiding from friend and foe alike? In the end it didn't matter for the Cathars, those oh so Holy Crusaders annihilated them.

Just what do I believe in strongly enough to fight? Because I sure as hell don't believe in war. Maybe that's what the bullys depend on? People like me saying, I didn't vote for him, so all the human rights being steamrolled, well, it isn't me doing it? 9 of Wands...

Julia Turk And Her Own Mystic Sea

Navigators of the Mystic SEA Tarot ~ 8 of Wands

Farting around, twiddling my thumbs, spinning my wheels, not in my nature ma'am. Not to say there haven't been times I've run flat out into a brick wall...just a course correction, always necessary in trajectory.

Julia Turk, artist and author of this deck led that kind of life. Often captain or crew of boats in Greece, California, Washington. Always drawn to art, never considering herself an artist. Until 1987 when surviving a demolished auto wreck she had a wake up call. "I was still holding a view that I was waiting for someone to tell me what I was supposed to do," she said, when a clerk at a metaphysical store suggested they team up to create a tarot deck. Turk agreed to do the artwork.

The course trajectory changed a number of times for her too, but in the end the deck and her vision survives her. She went on to write a three volume series based on her Navigator. Thank you Julia. 

Sobering

Centennial RWS ~ Justice

Most Justice cards show the scales dead even. Balanced is the ideal but generally we are in the process of getting there, because life isn't static. We've got our innie me and outtie me working the center, above and below, past and future dealings, means vs ends.

When have I ever been done wrong, and was it ever addressed? I can think of four. The first two were from childhood, those people are all dead. The third and forth? I'll never get Justice as money is involved and that always trumps truth.

A thought to think on today. When have I done someone wrong, and have I addressed it? Was it delebrite with malice aforethought or no thought at all? Sobering. Yesterday between Albuquerque New Mexico, through Colorado, to Farmington Utah we crossed at least six reservations. Also sobering. No Justice whatsoever. 

Curiosity Is A Cat Named Sharyn

Alchemical Tarot Renewed ~ Knight of Cups/Vessels

"He samples the water, the fish is a messenger from the unconscious – seeking information, questing into the unconscious." Robert Place

What drives an info-junkie? Seems like a Coins or Swords suit thing, but curiosity is a cat named Sharyn and my under-mini-me trusts Robert Place to know his alchemical knights.

That inner seeker is probably what led me to, and loves and hates what the cards bring out; occasionally something I didn't know I knew or thought, often a curd that makes me squirm. The cup, the fish, the quest, it's all good with me.

It led me to hunt down all the information available on my rare eye disease, got me into a world wide study, and is the focus of our next destination, a participating clinic in Salt Lake City Utah. We spent the night in Clines Corner New Mexico on a rock pile, buffeted by wind. I dreamed of beautiful Utah vistas, and today we will see them. 

Never Underestimate

Victorian Romantic  Tarot ~ 3 of Swords

Sorrow, loss. total disillusion, fantasy exposed. We can get to this card from many routes but it always results in heartache.

We can ignore it, we can harden our heart, but we will never escape it in this lifetime, it arrives in too many forms. Without this side of life we'd never be able to experience joy, love, pleasure, happy, funny. Remembering this, recognizing, savoring the good in our days is what gives us strength to cope with the hard times. And never underestimate the power of a hug. 

When You Grow Up

Dreamkeepers Tarot ~ 6 of Swords

Odd...peacock boat, human prow, nude body reclining, sword points up. Stormy sky, red curtains, floating above a forested lake. Odd.

A dreamlike image where nothing makes sense, like asking a child what they want to be when they grow up. Eh? How could they know. But we plunge right in and do something, generally without much more thought than we gave it at 8. Only 27% of college graduates work in the field they majored in.

Rob knew he wanted to be in trucking and worked in the industry his whole life. I worked in 16 different industries, at home in none. Not a clue..although I know now, too late what I should have done. I can attest, 6 of Swords is an odd way to live a life. 

Full Of Hot Air

Japaridze Tarot ~ 3 of Wands/Fire

What a view. We have to stand back, see the bigger picture to understand the scope of what we are working toward. We can polish gears and buy screws until our brains fall out but they will never be a machine. It is when things and ideas and practice and will to complete come together that we begin to accomplish projects and goals. Lots of hot air is worthless unless it fuel something.

But speaking of balloons, I'd hoped to visit the Albuquerque area on the way home...no room at the inn. It is Balloon Fiesta week and we didn't think far enough ahead to get reservations anywhere. Click here to see what we will be missing.

Recenter

Green Witch Tarot ~ World Tree

When I was a child I climbed alder trees and thought my child thoughts. As an adult, the trees remind me I'm immaterial, a short timer, pointless in the long term. Which reinforces how sweet life is and the importance of priorities and completions. And how much I love the Ents.

When the World card eludes me. it is a  message to recenter. It is so easy to float along, day to day, doing the same things in the same order, disregarding this is my life I'm burning up, frowning over the minutia. Some time under the century old pecan trees here, in appreciation for what I have and who I have the capability of becoming seems a good start to a new week.