Stop Judging Me

Brady Tarot ~ Judgement

Rising up. Lifting off. Bats are leaving the cave in an organized explosion. Is the eagle observing? Herding? Bat snacking? Getting out of the way? Being harried? And what's the snake thinking?

Earliest tarot decks with majors based on christian iconography offer folk rising from coffins to greet an angel. I roll my eyes and move on taking a more literal stance. A little snarky judging.

A deck based on the animal kingdom tells me the eagle is the highest flying bird. Ehh? Hardly. The companion book by Pollack would have us believe it. Sometimes I just get tired and think I should be using playing card decks. Nah...where is the thought provoking fun in that? But lots of birds fly higher than eagles and lazy fact checking gets on my last nerve. 

Slow Process, Death

Brady Tarot ~ 3 of Swords/Arrows

Scrub Jays again. Who are called and gather to peep and  screech at the body of a companion. (UC Davis study) This surprises me as they hold a wide territory as a pair. Maybe not as wide as I've been led to believe by other sources.

Grief, mourning, acknowledgement, acceptance. Mother has been gone four years next month. I am only now truly getting past the horror that was her gripped in dementia. Maybe because just this month we are tearing out the resulting damage from her time here. Carpet has been replaced, her bathroom is gutted.

Mother going. My mom coming back. That woman I can grieve. A slow process, death. 

Pretty Sure

Brady Tarot ~ 4 of Swords/Arrows

Withdrawal. Truce in Thothyspeak. Not the same thing. Withdrawal can be full scale retreat, or gathering up force to spring. I am marginally cross with one of my quilt groups. My nature is to be ruthless and leave. Otherwise known as flouncing from the room. But I'm also thinking about my moon phase reading of vulnerability vs disguise.

I think my 2019 path is clear, find the equilibrium in the situation. It is only a personal truce after all. I can live with that. Pretty sure.

Vulnerability vs. Disguise

Brady Tarot ~ Ace of Cups/Horns

I feel in flux.
My drawing for first quarter moon today called for more vulnerability, less disguise. Ace of Cups...

I told Rob about my four Thursday nightmares, my little sister and me, her always dying, my finally choosing the lava over the pain.

Never let it be said . Something. I don't know what

Chickenhawk

Daily Draw: Brady Tarot ~ 8 of Swords/Arrows

We have bird feeders year around. We find the Stellar Jays are communal birds and spend a lot of time squawking. We enjoy the Scrub Jays, usually a pair to about ten acres and they are quiet.

The stellars and even the finches harry our red tail hawks and crows. Strength in numbers I suppose. The hawk that does the most damage to the little birds reminds me of FogHorn LegHorn nemesis Henery the little brown chickenhawk. He lurks in the same big rhody as my finches and favorites, the juncos. Then bam, nothing but feathers.

If we eliminated the unimportant and immaterial it would be fairly simple to identify where our oppression comes from...it isn't everything, it is something. Ignoring it or busying it won't make it stop. 

A Nation. Eroded

Illuminated Oracle ~ Erosion

Erosion: Mind. Heart. Faith. Trust. Spirit. Heroes.
Courtesy. Honesty. Thoughtfulness. Nation.
Bones. Belly. Skin. Hair. Lungs.

The whole illusion of fair. It is all going. Life in a nutshell.
But our nation? In a speeding handcart on eroded rails? With really expensive tires?

Lava

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Fire

Last night I died in a black suffocating boiling lava flow.
Just laid down and took it.
Sometime insomnia is the better of its twin, nightmares.
And lava would be a better alternative to losing someone again. 

Ragbag Love

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Relationship

Most shirts these days don't need pressed if pulled from the dryer promptly. Rob likes a crisp shirt. So about 20 years ago I quietly gave him the gift of spending a whole 10 minutes a week crisping up the sleeves and collars. On all of them.

This is one of the extreme results. A shirt that has sentimental meaning, he  wears it when he puts up hay in Eastern Oregon every year. I still press it for him. A relationship thing. 

Honcho and Jacob

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Abundance

My ginger tabby Honcho is in the hall playing with the same piece of heavy wrapping paper he has been working on for two days. His favorite toy is a pink pipe cleaner that is grey and worn now. If he understands abundance he knows he has it in spades. Two hots and a cot as they say.

Since the 30th of December I've been flinging books to ebay. Five shelves gone, many pounds, and I've gotten over feeling abused about my eyes. Last night I put my entire hardback collection of Stephen King on Craigslist. They were gone in two hours and the young man is SO excited. It was fun to talk to a fellow King follower, so many many years of pleasure. I included a signed letter in one of the books for a treat later. I have abundance, I recognise that every day, and now Jacob has some abundance also. Life is good. 

On A Scale

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Wisdom

Wisdom. Book Smart. Wise.
Hidden Knowledge. Found Knowledge.
Fund of Knowledge.

On a scale, would the above or below have the greater weight?
Common Sense. Street Smart.

The greater value?