Thursday, September 20, 2007

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Cat People ~ 3 of Swords

Have you ever been so mad at someone you stopped speaking to them? Forever? I had two great-aunts who had a falling out in their 30's and never spoke to or of each other again. I have an aunt by marriage who hasn't spoken to her son in at least 18 years. She is now literally on her deathbed and still nourishes that hard knot of anger daily. I have a shirt-tail cousin I haven't spoken to nor acknowledged his presence for at least 30 years. Were it harm to me I'd probably have gotten over it in a few weeks...but he did something unforgivable to my husband so I don't care if we live another 50 years, he is invisible to me.

Yet I've had other incidents that were probably equal or worse and no harm done. We've made our peace and gone on in a friendly manner. So is it our mood on a particular day that makes us do something this drastic, literally take a sword and cut someone out of our life? How do you measure harm and hurt? Why is something forgivable on one day and not another?

I'm reminded by this card that I'm older and wiser now, that life has given me better tools for living than I had in my 20's, and to use that accumulated knowledge for a happier ending when faced with a breach of trust that harms the heart.

"Of the Seven Deadly Sins, anger is possibly the most fun. To lick your wounds, to smack your lips over grievances long past, to roll over your tongue the prospect of bitter confrontations still to come, to savor to the last toothsome morsel both the pain you are given and the pain you are giving back -- in many ways it is a feast fit for a king. The chief drawback is that what you are wolfing down is yourself. The skeleton at the feast is you." ~ Frederick Buechner 1926-

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