Monday, March 31, 2014

Time To Think

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ 7 of Wands/Fire

What's in your favour? Where must you back down?

Given time to think, I can usually see a new, better, or easier way.
Back down? When it is none of my business. You'd never believe it of me...but advice runs out my mouth without invitation, I'm always surprised and look behind me to see who is talking back there.

"Never miss a good chance to shut up." ~ Will Rogers 1879-1935

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Monkey See Monkey Don't

Daily Draw: Da Vinci Enigma Tarot ~ Justice/Experience

Dimmi: How does experience inform your integrity? 
Where do you need to be just or impartial in this matter?
Much of my experience is from a lifetime of observation, seeing the results when lack of integrity is exposed. Those who dish it out seem to travel along in a cloud of oblivion, the receivers stagger through life with wounds that never heal.

Justice should be impartial. I often forget that from my lofty keyboard. Mother was in her bad betty eight year old mode most of yesterday. In the night I had the bright idea to tell her no breakfast until she picks up her trash. I am reminded by this card that would be far from impartial, it would be me in my own eight year old mode, getting back. There is no getting back with dementia, what was I thinking? If mother is my job, it is me who cleans up the messes and keeps the ship on target. Period.

Da Vinci Enigma Tarot, St. Martin's Press 2005. Softcover 144 page book Caitlin Matthews. All illustrations from Di Vinci's work, credited to dozens of universities and museums.  Many of the majors have been renamed and each card has a Dimmi or 'tell me'.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

First Appearances

Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ Knight of Coins

This Knight appears less warrior than diplomat, arriving more as a concept. Surely warriors didn't carry sword and shield 40 or 50 miles did they? And have off the shoulder fashions?

I'm reminded by this card and the previous Knight of how first appearances determine much about relationships.

"Every picture tells a story. But sometimes it's hard to know what story is actually being told." ~ Anastasia Hollings Beautiful World

Friday, March 28, 2014

Sharp Words

Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ 5 of Swords

Cultures throughout the eons have figured out how to make cutting weapons. A matter of survival for the meat eaters and plant harvesters, but most certainly for offence and defense. Because ingrained in our being seems to be a gene that takes joy in provocation.

I've been party to more arguments in the last five months, than in the whole prior of my adult life. You might think dementia patients lack the mental agility to argue but as mother recedes from us she has honed the schoolyard hot buttons and eight year old child's aversion to just about anything to a fine point. Who knew you didn't need a reason to fight. When I mentally step back I'm totally amazed at my  participation and if it wasn't so sad it would be downright funny.

"You are dumber than a donkey"
"I know mom but the entertainment is free"  Betty and Sharyn

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Found Knowledge

Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ High Priestess

Ungiven knowledge, not hidden. Hokey smokes, I'd fill my cart if I saw some of that laying around. I'd start with spelling, and shop on into grammer. I have IEspell, and I suppose there is an app for checking was and were, is and are, s and 's,  and the rest of the tricksy ones.

I'm reminded by this card that isn't what this card is about but hey,
my cards my rules. The older I get the less I retain the harder I have to work to just stay in place. Knowledge I stumble across unawares eludes storing. I do wonder how the Druids managed those elegant cloth patterns and the bound book. Poetic license? Bit far fetched since so little is known of them, except their one bright star, Stonehenge, isn't theirs at all but predates them. Sad that.

"Chance is always powerful. Let your hook be always cast. In the pool where you least expect it, will be a fish." ~ Publius Ovidius Naso 43 BC - 18 AD

Wednesday, March 26, 2014


Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ Fool

Humm...what can I be fool-ish about today? Fool like in pure untapped potential. I've often said I wouldn't go back in years, not a chance, but I sure missed, ignored, or was afraid of a lot of potential good things over the years.

I'm reminded by this card, and looking forward, I have a growing list of things to do that have pure potential for joy or happiness. I'll take either.

"Each difficult moment has the potential to open my eyes and open my heart." ~ Myla Kabat-Zin

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Poked With My Own Sword

Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ Page/Princess of Swords

Hurray for spring. Snowbells and heather, and sunshine that will fool you because when you step out the windchill is about forty degrees. The wind has also twisted her sleeve and cloak tie around her sword rendering it fairly useless except as a danger to herself.

I've had a lot of jobs so consequently I've had a lot of the dreaded 'first day on the job' experiences. Probably why the second half of  my working life has been self-employed at multiple streams of income. If I fell on my sword it was my choice, not because of some idiotic job rule.

"I remember figuring up after the first day of the first job with a boss employement, .60 cents an hour plus at least $1.25 a day in tips, I was gonna be RICH!" ~ Sharyn

Monday, March 24, 2014


Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ Moon

"Fear is a powerful teacher and ally" Carr-Gomm
Am I the only fraidy-cat adult? One of my little amusements is standing back and watching how many things I have to power push myself to do.

I'm reminded by this card I guess if I'm afraid it means I'm alive at least?

"The fear is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; this you have the power to revoke at any moment." ~ Marcus Aurelius 121-180 AD

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Death In The Room

Daily Draw: DruidCraft Tarot ~ Death

The authors see death as rebirth, a coming rather than a leaving.
In small ways, mentally, I can see this viewpoint in my own situation. Each day another bit of mother chips off. I know she is going because dementia is a progressive disease with a beginning and an end, not a way station.

I'm reminded by this card of the small ways I am thinking forward, of acknowledging mother is leaving. I say to myself "I'll get my hair cut then", "I'll put all my rings back on then", "I'll take Xing-Xing and Xavier down to the river and listen to wind and water then".  I don't know why I don't do those things now, I guess it just doesn't seem fair to the Death in the room.

"There is nothing permanent except change." ~ Heraclitus 535-475 BC

DruidCraft Tarot, Eddison Sadd edition, 2004. 192 page softcover book by Philip and Stephanie Carr-Gomm, card art by Will Worthington

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Dummox Lummox

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ Page of Wands

Is this a dummox lummox who is burning all his bridges? Who hates being a page and everything that goes with it? Or is it a really bright page who is metaphorically on fire with great enthusiasm and goals?
I'd like to think the second, but am a wee bit worried about the broken shrub.

I'm reminded by this card of the times I cut off my nose to spite my face. Guess it is a way of learning, but it sure is a dumb way.

"Fortunately for me, I know well enough what I want, and am basically utterly indifferent to the criticism that I work too hurriedly. In answer to that, I have done  some things even more hurriedly these last few days." ~ Vincent van Gogh 1853-1890

Friday, March 21, 2014

Takes A Cog To Know A Cog

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ Knight of Coins

He is looking back. Towards home? Thinking over past battles? The sweetheart he left behind? Was he shunted off because there was no place for younger sons under English inheritance laws? That's what used to keep the monasteries and ungodly crusades peopled. Or perhaps he is thinking it is pretty good duty here at the fort? His horse is well fed, he has a pretty big coin on hand. What about the weapon? Were these knights at the head of the charge? It would take brawny strength to make that weapon useful more than once.

I'm reminded by this card of the people doing their jobs around us every day, which have dozens of nuances oblivious to us. It is the workers of the world who keep life spinning on, whose actions each day move the hands of clocks and time. A nuclear bomb would be far less dangerous than if all we cogs just stopped doing what we do.

"Capt. Kirk: There is one thing you could do.
Cyrano Jones: Yes.
Capt. Kirk: Pick up every tribble on the space station. If you do that I'll speak to Mr. Lurry about returning your spaceship.
Cyrano Jones: It would take years!
Spock: 17.9 to be exact.
Capt. Kirk: Consider it job security." ~ David Gerrold 1944-

Thursday, March 20, 2014

When Is Enough, Enough?

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

People are living incredibly long lives now, I wonder at what point a person feels safe resting on their laurels? I can say I have everything I need all day long, but eventually shoes and vehicles wear out, house maintenance will certainly occur, the economy will tank, more...

I'm reminded by this card of the saying, plan like you are going to live forever, and live like today is your last.  Not sure I buy that either, I've only heard it from live people, not anyone dead.

"It's paradoxical that the idea of living a long life appeals to every one, but the idea of getting old doesn't appeal to anyone." ~ Andy Rooney 1919-2011

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Bicker Bicker...

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ 4 of Wands

The foundation of the home is set but by the post tops we can see there is some unevenness in the project movement.
Is he arguing his case for her hand in marriage?
Are they both frustrated?
Are her eyes closed to this future?
Is this homestead a wee bit barren?
Is he angry, is she pouting?

I'm reminded by this card Rob is trying to stockpile enough food for a year preparatory to retirement.
My viewpoints?
We live in an A-frame. No storage. When I open a kitchen cupboard door now it makes my stomach hurt, I'm simple, seeing stockpile brings out my inner FlyLady.
If the world goes dark people with guns will come and take it anyway.
The first year of retirement isn't the one to worry about, ten and twenty years of inflation down the road is the problem.
In a relationship there are billions of things we can fight or disagree about. Sometimes  agreeing to disagree is the answer. Most are unimportant in the long run.

"Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others." ~ Jacob M. Braude 1896-1970

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Stumped By The World

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ World

I'm absolutely stumped by this card because it is so opposite to the way I feel and am. I'll think on it.

March 19th.  Just ain't feelin' it, whatever it is.
I certainly don't feel safely encased in any direction whatsoever.
I don't trust old men who think they know better.
Beware that angelic pose...Behind it lies eons of lies.

Monday, March 17, 2014

I Doubt I'm Sure

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ Hermit

The latin translates to words from Cicero,"by way of doubting we arrive at the truth".

I doubt I'll ever stop hating Windows 8.
I doubt my mother will ever stop being in a hurry.
I doubt my back will ever be better.

I'm reminded by this card, life could be a whole lot worse.

"The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own." ` Albert Ellis 1913-2007

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Well Done

Daily Draw: Durer Tarot ~ 8 of Coins

I enjoy watching anyone working at their craft. Their tools and movements honed to reason and need. The hammer and anvil, simplicity themselves filled the world with both beauty and utility.

I'm reminded by this card, once again, of the purpose of practice. Not so much of repeating the well done, but pushing with the not so well done.

"For the things we have to learn before we can do them, we learn by doing." ~ Aristotle 384-322 BC

Durer Tarot, Lo Scarabeo 2002. All art based on that of Albrecht Durer 1471-2528

Saturday, March 15, 2014

A Life Of Our Own

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Star

She dances at night. From her steps new growth springs

I retired from paid work last August in order to care for my mom.
Rob will retire from paid work late this year.
In broad daylight we worry about everything.
But at night under the stars we dance for the joy,
the potential of actually having a life of our own.

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music." ~ Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche 1844-1900

Friday, March 14, 2014

Which War Today?

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ 3 of Swords

This soldier is killing a priestess, and looks like he has done more first.

I'm reminded by this card how a Page soldier and a career soldier keep their enemies straight. The elder because enemy is a moving target over the years. The Page because he had no enemies at all and has now been given the job of killing wholesale in name of god or country. I seriously grieve that nations are still in Etruscan mode two thousand years removed.

"They've got us surrounded again, the poor bastards." ~ Creighton W. Abrams 1914-1974

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Someone Always Craves Blood

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Page of Swords

The Etruscan's copper and tin mines provided the bronze military trappings of the soldiers, and was far more effective than their opponents for several victorious centuries.

I'm reminded by this card a couple of centuries is nothing in the span of time and civilizations. In the end the Romans crossed the Tiber and assimilated the Etruscans. I suppose with today's techniques we could find someone with Etruscan blood, but why would we? Time moves on and trained pages can't hold for nations of apathetics. Someone always craves war. They feed on it, grow rich from it, exalt in the money to be made.

"Freedom is never free." ~ William Tecumseh Sherman 1820-1891

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Tearing In

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Ace of Wands

Eager to tear in.
Tear into the morning, the day, life.

I'm reminded by this card I love mornings! I'm toast by 4-5 in the afternoon, but give me a morning and I can move mountains.

Consider the postage stamp: Its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing until it gets there." ~ Henry Wheeler Shaw 1818-1895

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Power Stick

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ 5 of Swords

Ain't it the truth...

Power Stick
Leave the room
Leave the house
Leave the planet

"Is it worthwhile that we jostle a brother bearing his load on the road of life? Is it worthwhile that we jeer at each other, in blackness of heart, that we war to the knife?  ~ Joaquin Miller 1837-1913

Monday, March 10, 2014

Keep It Simple

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

Today's factoid. Did you know in ancient times bared breasts were said to ward off evil. The nude figurehead on ships came from this myth, which is odd because it was said a woman on board was a sure omen for bad luck. More likely because one woman and multiple men is a sure recipe for problems.

I'm reminded by this card and the Lady of leisure I'm glad to be a woman, I'm glad I was born in this time, and I'm glad to be alive. Call me old fashioned but keeping my life simple is a sure recipe for personal success.

"You have to work hard to get your thinking clean to make it simple. But once you get there you can move mountains." ~ Steve Jobs 1955-22011

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Seedy Bread

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Magician

The Etruscan majors tell a story. The Magician is dancing for himself, dancing alone for the pure pleasure of it. Dancing because he can, dancing in spite of tension, anger, worries...or perhaps because of those things.

I'm reminded by this card I stopped saying I love you in spite of a long time ago. The in spite ofs are often what make a person interesting, the little daily magic in our interactions with others, the seedy bread of life. I love you because of.

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have." ~ Frederick Keonig 1774-1833

Lo Scarabeo, 2006, Etruscan Tarot based on ancient Etruscan art from tombs and necropoleis in what is not Tuscany. Art by Silvana Alasia, booklet by Riccardo Minetti.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Strength Of Convictions

Daily Draw: Etteilla Tarot ~ Angel of the Apocalypse

Speaking of convictions, gotta love Etteilla. A French seed merchant, in 1770 he published his Book of Etteilla in reference to the original use of the cards (gaming). But he spelled his name backward rather than use his real name, Jean-Baptiste Alliette. No, Ebay wasn't the first place to have usernames. It is a long interesting story which also includes the clergyman Court de Gebelin who spun the great book of tales which included tarot coming out of Egypt. Etteilla followed with the cards, whose seeds founded tarot as we know it today. And people still argue about its origins.

But the point is, he didn't use his real name. Pretty shaky convictions...but there again we have hindsight aplenty. And the title of this card, Angel of the Apocalypse? Perhaps it came from a flagon of mead. "This card means you will receive good advice and your fits of bad temper will be restrained." I can only hope.

"when you expect the world to end at any moment, you know there is no need to hurry. You take your time, you do your work well." ~ Thomas Merton 1915-1968

Friday, March 7, 2014

Exceptionally Worthless Tool

Daily Draw: Etteilla Tarot ~ Chaos

This is an odd card typical of the Etteilla; numbered one, titled Ideal and Wisdom, and when paired with other cards, to be read as Consultant, and in the companion book, titled Chaos.

I'm reminded by this card of ideals. Did I ever have any? I doubt it. Rolling through life like a tumbleweed seems to have been my method of going along. And it shows in the cards, the Wheel is the card I've pulled the most since I started doing a daily card. Hindsight shows me how different things could have been if I'd done this or that, but hindsight is a exceptionally worthless planning tool.

Chaos often breed life, when order breeds habit." ~ Henry Adams 1838-1918

Thursday, March 6, 2014

'ware the danger...

Daily Draw: Etteilla Tarot ~ Snake

In the Lenormand cards snake is 'ware the danger. In the Etteilla snake takes the place of the Chariot in a standard tarot deck and calls for support and protection. Behind the snake are ghost creatures patrolling for the unwary and foolish.

I'm reminded by this card of our pet worries. Perhaps that danger has become an old friend and we keep it by our side as a form of Snake, something safe to worry over so we can ignore the real danger?

"You become smaller and smaller, you small people! You are fading away you lovers of the easy life! ~ Friedrich Nietzsche 1844-1900

Wednesday, March 5, 2014


Daily Draw: Etteilla Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Ah...ideas and plans!

I'm reminded by this card of just how  much effort is required to make a plan with my history of cancer. Sometimes I feel like I'm deliberately lying to Rob when I say 'we'll go to the beach' or I'd like to visit the Bose store in Seattle'. When it isn't a lie but an effort at looking forward. I still don't really think I'll do those things but saying it makes it seem a lot more likely. And I'm all for that.

"Make no little plans; they have no magic to stir men's blood, make big plans." ~ Daniel H. Burnham

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

On Empty

Daily Draw: Etteilla Tarot ~ Moon

This is a mind on empty.

I'm reminded by this card I'm never going there.

"The pages are still blank, but there is a feeling of the words being there, written in invisible ink and clamoring to become visible." ~ Vladimir Nabokov 1889-1977

Monday, March 3, 2014

Wash Over Me

Daily Draw: Etteilla Tarot ~ 7 of Wands/Sticks

Ain't it the truth. Couldn't decide whether to get up or tuck back in.
Couldn't decide which coffee mug to use. Thought about reading my mail before blogging. Changed my mind.

There are days like that, but there are also decisions that don't require over-thinking...Breathe. Relax. Let the new day wash over me.

"I must have a prodigious amount of mind; it takes me as much as a week sometimes, to make it up!" ~ Mark Twain 1835-1910

Sunday, March 2, 2014


Daily Draw: Grand Etteilla Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

Sorrow moves through me like wind round the eaves.
Always there, behind my eyes, deep in my heart.
The shroud waiting on the coat hook.

I'm reminded by this card it isn't possible to bypass it and still get through life. Eventually it arrives and stays, unasked, unwelcome.

"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." ~ Kahlil Gibran

The deck this week is the Grand Etteilla.
This edition published by Grimaud 1977

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Smite, Sanctioned

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ Tower

The goddess of lightning strikes the unrighteous blind so they can't get away from the god of thunder who takes his hammer and chisel to them.

I'm reminded by this card of well known methods of torture. Does peeling the skin off someone make them righteous the next day? Codswallop. There have always been people who thrill to the agony of someone else's pain and will always find a way to do it, particularly when sanctified and sanctioned by state or god.

"E pur si muove." ~ Galileo Galilei 1564-1642