Monday, November 30, 2015

oy vey

Daily Draw: Sephiroth Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

I can go to Walmart and get one for $99.00. To get one made by the craftsman for the Royal Family would start around $15,000.00.  It is something we use every day, seldom think about. There are many in this country whose 5 of Coin situation preclude using one at all.

I'm reminded by this card my magical space age engineered mattress is crumbling. I never lay down on it without whispering "I love this mattress". I just worked out it has cost me .36 cents a night for it's comfort to date. And worth every penny. Sometimes it is only that backward look that gives the real value of an item which gives even this card much value.

"Three things give us hardy strength: sleeping on hairy mattresses, breathing cold air, and eating dry food". ~ Welsh Proverb

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Always Another Lesson

Daily Draw: Sephiroth Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

A card of emotions and openness.

Which can blow up in our face.

"He scratched his ear, the infallible resource to which embarrassed people have recourse." ~ Lord Byron 1788-1824

Tarot of the Sephiroth, published by U.S. Games Systems 1999, art by Dan Staroff, 286 page guide book by Josephine Mori and Jill Stockwell.

Saturday, November 28, 2015

On Fire

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Ace of Wands

Wands are the very root of the Thoth minors. An absolute explosion of energy, both innie and outie, of the Tree of Life.
Just looking at it should give us a combination of energy and goose bumps.

The two months of the Samhain season have settled upon us here in the Pacific Northwest. A week of temperatures in the twenties have done their work. Two hundred feet of blooming nasturtiums reduced to watery looking ground worms. The boxelder beetles aren't clinging enmass to my west facing door. The chard struggles on in a bitter manner. My little hens group to chatter in the coop rather than the play pen.  I love these days, so clear and crisp...with the underlying power of this Ace, lying in wait, setting the stage for the return of Fire. Within I feel the force of the fiery innie, leaping to consume the old life and rebuild the new from it's ashes.

"I have my own views about Nature's methods, though I feel that it is rather like a beetle giving his opinions upon the Milky Way." ~ Arthur Conan Doyle, Sr. 1859-1930

Friday, November 27, 2015


Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Queen of Swords

Independent. Dependent. My ego thinks of myself as a modern independent woman. My reality is quite different if I'm to be honest.

I'm reminded by this card my pension goes to health insurance. I'm a lucky girl to have both, but of course it wasn't my vision of carefree retirement. Which places me as dependent on Rob for food and shelter, also not my vision. And speaking of vision, I can clearly see Rob ramping up around here, learning and taking on tasks a low visioned woman will have a lot of trouble with. Also lucky. But infuriating since I'm being honest. This lolling Queen with the severed dependence would be a hard person to find in my world.

"What you are aware of you are in control of; what you are not aware of is in control of you." ~ Anthony de Mello 1931 - 1987

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Intellectual Low Point

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

The deck artist Harris wrote "I have done the 10 of Swords and promptly Russia takes up arms". Apparently if I won't deal with Death, than I can deal with the 10 of Swords. Tarot's little joke.

This card is the intellectual low point. We can't see a way out, no one else can see a way in. The day I threw my anti-depressants in the toilet was such a day. It wasn't triumph of success, it was terror. I was so drugged I could barely put a sentence together. I was blacking out. I sideswiped a car, and hit a bicyclist.  Ways to suicide was my little mental exercise hobby, a down side of being an info-junkie. After two years it was obvious even to me this wasn't the road to better.

"My land is bare of chattering folk;
the clouds are low along the ridges,
and sweet's the air with curly smoke
from all my burning bridges." ~ Dorothy Parker 1893-1967

Wednesday, November 25, 2015


Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Death

For today I say pffft on Death. Not having Death, too final, not having Renewal, too much work...

"Hungry Joe collected lists of fatal diseases and arranged them in alphabetical order so that he could put his finger without delay on any one he wanted to worry about." ~ Joseph Heller 1923-1999

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Potential Unrealized

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Prince of Swords

Thoughts without action, potential unrealized. Sadly, how I view  those I'd like to help the most.

We are formulating our wills. Many people I have known, won't make their will because they are discouraged in the way their children handle their finances. I used to wonder why elders with more than enough for themselves seldom give their children extra money.  Last time I looked a parent could give a child $12.000.00 a year without the child being required to pay income tax on the sum.
But then they will the entire lot to them. Is it the 'I can't see it so it can't bother me' syndrome?  We never had children, so ours gets a little more ticklish.  Know any good causes where the donations don't go into the director's big pockets?  I'd like our estate to have potential, unlike this Prince.

"When you have told anyone you have left him a legacy, the only decent thing to do is die at once" ~ Samuel Butler 1835-1902

Monday, November 23, 2015


Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 2 of Coins

Yo-yoing. This is most commonly heard now in relation to gaining and losing weight, but thinking about it, it also relates to life over time...for me anyway.

Healthy and not. Comfortable and strapped. House from hell, good house. Joy and sorrow.  I'm reminded by this card of balance, just how difficult that can be.

"Life is like a yo-yo. Sometimes you are up, and sometimes you just get tangled in the string"  Unknown

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Unfettered Mind

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Ace of  Swords

We can resist life, we can accept life, or we can pick up the mental Sword and fight for the life we want and need.

I'm reminded by the rather grim suit of Swords, life does drop us in the carpola fairly often. What we make of that, and how we choose to fight is not written in our DNA.  We aren't dandelion fluff floating to wherever, we have minds and will and independent thought.

"The third-rate mind is only happy when it is thinking with the majority. The second-rate mind is only happy when it is thinking with the minority. The first-rate mind is only happy when it is thinking." ~ A.A. Milne 1882-1956  War With Honour

Saturday, November 21, 2015


Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ Sun

The Sun tweaks a scientific turn today, wondering if our sun rotates a bigger sun. Not something current knowledge thinks probable, but the Sun, with our own solar system rotates through the Milky Way each 270 million years. Which led to the thought, surely our star system must change also.  Yes. Over a fleeting 10,000 years we will be able to note the recent, relatively speaking,  changes with out aid of telescopes.

I care not if humanoids remain in any form by then, but it makes me rather melancholy that the placement of amazing structures of the ancients to track the timing of equinox and solstice will also be moot. I'm reminded by this card of how slowly but finely the wheel of time grinds.

"Astronomy is the only progressive Science which the ancient world produced." ~ William Whewell 1794-1866

Friday, November 20, 2015

Man Handy

Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ Prince of Coins

DuQuettte suggests this Taurus Prince could be the ultimate handyman. Somewhere in the recesses of my mind I hear someone asking "would you prefer a handyman or a man handy?". I still don't know my own answer.

Or perhaps the answer is both. Or none. I'm reminded by this card we seldom pick partners based on anything other than initial attraction. And how impossible we are to please while being so easily satisfied. Humans...endlessly interesting.

"Repairing the world one light bulb at a time." ~ Handyman jingle

Thursday, November 19, 2015


Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ Fool

Earth, Air, Water, Fire. At their best.

I'm reminded by this card life always holds the potential of the Fool card. From birth to death bed, all experiences offer expansion of intellect and character.

"Just as iron rusts from disuse, even so does inaction spoil the intellect." ~ Leonardo da Vinci  1452-1519

Wednesday, November 18, 2015


Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ 5 of Swords

Despair. The dark depths of the four elements, earth wind fire water.

I see this dark card and wonder if I'll be able to see it a year from now. Each day in every way I see how my vision is failing. If my eyes are open the truth is unavoidable. But to put a positive spin on petty despair, this would wake up my FitBit...Beep Baseball, who knew?

"Hakuna Matata."

Tuesday, November 17, 2015


Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

Dance for joy.

If we can't, sometimes fake it until we make it is a permissible substitute. And a little lipstick never hurts...

"Remain calm, all is well." ~  Kevin Bacon  Animal House

Monday, November 16, 2015

Streching Toward More

Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ 3 of Wands

In Agatha Christie's Murder At The Vicarage, a twenty year old girl/child sleepwalks through life. The way the character is written, she has never read a book, pencil doodled, walked further than her three block town.

I know people do live this way, I just have to wonder why. Where is the spark that says that book was wonderful, I want another. Pencil doodling was so fun I want to try a charcoal still life. People hold us together, but that spark, which illuminates further, is what carries us forward through a worthwhile life, a life worth getting up in the morning for.

"The function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them. I shall use my time." ~  Jack London 1876-1916

Sunday, November 15, 2015

Obstructed Vision

Daily Draw: PetraK Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Attention to details at the expense of more important things. (Snuffin)

I'm reminded we can clearly see this in other people's lives...not so much in our own.

"People only see what they are prepared to see." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson 1803-1882

PetraK Tarot, Petra Reiter-Kock, Published by Piatnik 2009

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Running Over

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Ace of Cups/Chalices

Is it possible when our Cup runs over, to be truly appreciative? It isn't like we are carrying a over-full cup in our hand to remind us of the good things going on in our life. That myriad of things combining into good times didn't happen overnight, there is no button to push or alarm going off, just, sometimes everything is right, and good, and sweet, and rewarding.

I'm reminded by this card, those times do happen and we do need to be awake enough to appreciate it, but there are mini cup running over moments every day. Those are the moments I really like to remark on to myself, steady proof life is good and it is even better when we don't take it for granted.

"We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures." ~ Thornton Wilder 1897-1975

Friday, November 13, 2015

Giddy Up

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 3 of Wands

In my mind what we first learned of is Swords, which is considered and pondered in Cups, comes to action time in Wands, with Coins being results.  Uber-simple, but works for me. Here is a man on the bank watching great crates being loaded onto a tall ship. He has made the decision to fish or cut bait and now the idea is being transformed into actions.

This card reminds me of how many (at least a zillion) great ideas we have in the course of a lifetime that we didn't bring to fruition. Followed by so many instances of "Hey! That was  my idea!", or "Hey! What a great idea, why didn't I think of that.". Our 3 of Wands today says get busy or get left.

"An idea has to make sense in the world it finishes in, not in the world it started." ~ Tim O’Reilly 1954-

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Sum Of Life

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Hermit/Holly King

Time, experience, adaptation.
Does that pretty much sum up a lifetime?

I'm reminded by this card we all begin the same, with that drop of DNA, and time immediately begins the inexorable roll over us. How we adapt to that life is our cerebral/Hermit side. To think our way through, rise above, or be crushed under the weight

"Adapt or perish, now as ever."~  H. G. Wells 1866-1946

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Heave A Sigh

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

Sigh. I'm so bored. There is nothing to do around here. Zero interesting people. Nothing ever happens here.

I said the above as a kid, to my mother. She said "only boring people are ever bored". I must have taken it to heart to still remember it, and I can't imagine being bored.

"Is life not a thousand times too short for us to bore ourselves?" ~ Friedrich Nietzsche 1844-1900

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Will And Testament

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 3 of Coins/Pentacles

Sealed contracts is one of the 3 of Coins meanings. We had wills drawn up in the mid 80's. Easy Peasy as I was working for a group of nine attorneys at the time.

I'm reminded by this card many things have changed, seriously time to do it again. Why do people put this off so long, too long in many cases, so the state decides, never a good idea in anyone's case. I'm not much buying the idea of no one wants to admit they are going to die.

"Had they been witty lies, or merry lies, they would never have grieved me; but palpable lies, damned lies, lies as big as one of the Guards' chines of beef, who can abide?" ~  Thomas Nashe 1567-1601

Monday, November 9, 2015

Magic Beans

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Page of Wands

How did you decide what you would be when you grew up? This young Page is headed to town to sell his produce, but his heart isn't much in the task. He may be wishing he were practicing sword play or spell casting or cottage building.

I'm reminded by this card sometimes a Page who starts as a grocery bagger stays in the field all his life, often doing very well because he knows the business from the bottom up. Others are always lured by the magic bean salesman and spends a life time complaining there aren't any good jobs to be had.

"Here I am, fifty-eight, and I still don't know what I'm going to be when I grow up." ~ Peter Drucker 1909-2005

Sunday, November 8, 2015

Hoving To

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 4 of Swords/Athames

Ah, a second 4 of Swords. I would not think the cosmos is trying to tell me to take it easy. I've been in self-imposed relax and drift mode for the last year.

I'm reminded by this sloppy set of Swords, the standard pose this card is drawn from is quite rigid in comparison. To stand back, review, access, distance, from pain, fear, anger, is a job in itself. One that as always, should hove to the middle ground.

"Somewhere we know that without silence words lose their meaning, that without listening speaking no longer heals, that without distance closeness cannot cure." ~ Henri Nouwen 1932 - 1996

The Green Witch, published by Llewellyn Worldwide 2015. 240 page softcover book by Ann Moura, art by Kiri Ostergaard Leonard.

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Still. Silent.

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

Still. Silent. Watchful. Certainly not the more normal at rest, disconnected 4 of Swords.

Anticipation is part of the fun of the hunt, why rush?

"The inability to stay quiet is one of the conspicuous failings of mankind." ~ Walter Bagehot 1826-1877

Friday, November 6, 2015

Gold Monkey

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Sun

All I can think of with this image is the one hit wonder TV series. Tales of the Gold Monkey. The setting was several South Seas islands, and you've never seen actors perspire as much as this group did. It is the most convincing part of the show when you get right down to it because each plot becomes increasingly more far fetched.

I'm reminded by this card, of fronts we put up, and fronts we are taken in by. How light on a subject brings out the fake and the true. In truth the Etruscan climate is quite like my own Pacific Northwest USA although the cards give the illusion of hot and dry. In truth the Gold Monkey show was filmed on set in Los Angeles, and on location in Hawaii. All that perspiration was hosed on. Don't believe everything you see until you've exposed it to natural light.

"Don't sweat the petty things and don't pet the sweaty things." ~ George Carlin 1937-2008

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Tree Wreck

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

Ever had a car wreck? Going along, minding your own business, and blam. Your day and sometimes your life is changed in that instant. The olive trees of southern Italy have a new to Europe blight, carried from tree to tree by spittle bugs. A sudden can't hardly believe it tree wreck.

I'm reminded by this lad, gleaning the olives, many of those trees date back to Roman times, and have produced steadily since then. They will probably all have to be destroyed. One more 5 of Coins calamity in the modern world.

"You gotta have good olive oil. You should have a cooking olive oil and you should have a finishing olive oil, like an extra-virgin olive oil." ~ Emeril Lagasse 1959-

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Tapping In

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Hierophant

From a book by Banzhaf and Theler, Look for what is substantial, what is concealed, as opposed to encrusted rituals and hollow phrases.

If I could remember the Hierophants advice every day, I'd spend a lot less time puzzled, and my thoughts would pay better dividends.

"Archetypes  let you tap into elements of the human psyche that sometimes escape our conscious minds." ~ Madeline Claire Franklin 1980-

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Moving On

Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

Heck darn. Sometimes we come to this place in spite of all our best efforts in the opposite direction. And then move on.

I'm reminded by this card at 8:30 AM we will be sealing the sale of our farm up north. Where I spent three years caring  for Rob's dad as he spiraled deeper into dementia.  In spite of the reason, we came to know the real Gene, as all his years of safeguards against people began to fall away, and the boy who lived before those came out to play. I'm still not over the horror of caring for my mother, but even at the end, we would have taken on Gene again in an instant.

"The secret of change is to focus your energy not on past which has gone, but give new direction to your dreams." ~ Anil Sinha 1956-

Monday, November 2, 2015


Daily Draw: Etruscan Tarot ~ Page/Knave of Swords

Committed. Upright, dressed to the shoes, tools primed and ready.
As an employee that is as it should be. As a self-employed soldier would this be less, or more common? Does a retired soldier have different 'pulling self together' habits than a retired butcher baker candlestick maker?

I always face and order my paper money. Banks don't even face their paper money any longer.
Rob 'pre-trips' any vehicle before we leave, a life time of habit there.
I always put lipstick on before I leave the house.
Neither of us ever wear grubbies going anywhere.
Some old habits can be ridiculous, or just as likely, they are simply comfort level. Our differences are what make life interesting.

"Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach." ~ Tom Robbins 1936-

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Damned By Birth

Daily Draw  Etruscan Tarot ~ Emperor

We've had tinpot and tosspot leaders, who always have a limited time in office, but an Emperor? I can't get my mind around the concept at all.

I'm reminded by this card a leader based on blood and birth order is groomed from babyhood, so despite the public glamor and adulation, they are imprisoned in their role. They have my pity.

"Woe is me. I think I am becoming a god." ~  Emperor Vespasian 9 - 79 AD

Lo Scarabeo, 2006, Etruscan Tarot based on ancient Etruscan art from tombs and necropoleis in what is now Tuscany. Art by Silvana Alasia, booklet by Riccardo Minetti.