Saturday, September 30, 2017


Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Shaman of Foresight

"See beyond the moment and ready or adjust accordingly." John Matthews

"Know what the right hand and the left hand is doing."
Sharyn Woerz

Friday, September 29, 2017

Honest Truth

Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Hunter of Honor

Honor/Honour. Your choice, both are english.

The cards are hitting my hot buttons this week. gives 200+ words that mean truth, at least that many again for honest. Similar words really, simple in application. And the world is drowning in not-true not-honest.

What's that all about anyway? Did we forget to swear on our pinky at some point? Or was that a lie too?

Thursday, September 28, 2017

Reap The Whirlwind

Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Hunter of Gifts

Sometimes the gift is insight. Brought to  me today via researching why numbers of Australian communities are dropping the idea of celebrating the founding of a county and citizenship based on building penal colonies.
Australia already had citizens with a country long before the coming of the white. Which brought me to

a country whose flag observation has come under scrutiny. A flag raised over the slaughter of the First Peoples, the eradication of their cultural norms, a war with roots based on treason. And money. Of course. Got land? We got beads.

Insight... A gift or a curse? I fly the American flag off my deck every day. I need to seriously rethink that. Thank you Mr. President, may you always reap unexpected consequences.

edited to add later: Still thinking...what about  my post from a few days ago, about how old is a country? Do we measure by government time or time time? Here in my country I believe we've had French and Spanish flags, Mexico's, Union and Confederate, Canadian and British flags, are we usurpers of their cultures too because we were here last?

Wednesday, September 27, 2017


Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Shaman of Reflections

The real me.
What is the truth and what is skewed in my own mirror regardless of how I sneak up on it?
Is it all a lie? Is there a corner of truth if I reflect on what my whole consists of?
So much of why we are is buried even from self.
I think our brains would explode if we knew everything, dragged it out in the sun and let it shrivel.

I think our brains would explode.


Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Lines In The Sand

Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Shaman of Purification

Another long post, backspaced to oblivion. I'm not interested in looking up my posts on this card in a few years and reading why, since the mid-90s, I don't fly anymore. Or why I quit buying quilt fabric in 2001. Or why we stopped going to fairs.

But I am reminded by this card, we purify in many ways. To hold our sanity. To hold our civility. To draw our own lines in the sand. 

Monday, September 25, 2017

Elephant In The Room

Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Dancer of Reconciliation

Is the figure on the right taking a knee while the three hold hands?

As a woman I have been discriminated against in hundreds of ways. Yet I've never been shot or hung or drug behind a pickup because my skin is white.  I've never had a bone broke, not been served, house burned, denied education, or turned away from communal friendship. I've never been punished for speaking my mind, how I dress, how I exhibit my personal vision.

I'll take a knee any where any place, in support of turning discrimination to ashes. I suspect I'll be taking a knee until my dying day and nothing will change.

"We have met the enemy and he is us." ~ Earth Day 1970

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Circles and Serpentines

Daily Draw: Shaman's Oracle ~ Dancer of Inspiration

Where does it come from? Is it a blazing light or a small constant trickle charge? Surely it is both. Sometimes it is late to the party. I have a bed topper half assembled and only yesterday realized why it is boring. Each block has four 1" blocks where I put neutrals. Which just die in that spot, it needed something more flash.

I'm reminded by this card, the impetus of doing something I like to do over and over is the results are never the same and each project scrapes off some hidden part of my inspiration to create something wholly new.

Sometimes I'm inspired to mow my acre of lawn in circles or serpentines. Practical? No. Fun? Yes.

Saturday, September 23, 2017

The Long View

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Star

Contemplation, renewal, reset. The Firedrake reflects the turbulent and cruel time prior to Uther the Pendragon and the adventures and later ascension of Arthur.

I'm reminded by this card, myths and history both have star crossed times. Hazy math for age of England or Wales, 987 or 200,000,000? By what reckoning, time or government? How old is America, or North America? America is the new baby on the street only 241 vs 200,000,000? Give or take a year or two...

The point with the Star, is we can allow ourselves to be in total turmoil 24/7 by focusing on the instant. Time is a great leveler, reducing moments and people to a grain of sand.  Step back. Take the long view rather than the screen view, contemplate star time. Breathe. Relax.

Friday, September 22, 2017

Liar Liar Pants On Fire

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Wands/Spears

Ah, way more interesting than eight sticks flying...a sudden opportunity requiring quick decision. The myth of the White Hart surrounds the wedding of Arthur and Guinevere, and the massive chaos when hart, dogs, hunter, crashed though the room, and the fast decisions resulting.

I'm reminded by this myth to make snap decisions ethical. Gawain, Tors, and Pellinore didn't and the Round Table reputation for honor paid the price until things were set right.

I've said it before but I'm still ticked at myself for not refusing to make fake purchase orders for an employer in the 80s. Arguing isn't the same as refusing, not one bit.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Sweeping Change

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Death

Gwyn Ab Nudd is thought to have controlled weather with his horn, so augmenting sweeping change. His place in this myth is as hunter and pick-upper of the dead.

I see the Tower as lightening changes; heart attack, new baby, car wreck. Unless I'm literally dead I see the changes of the Death card as long term, seldom can we change a lifetime habits with lightening strikes.

"The second half of a man's life is made up of nothing but the habits he has acquired during the first half." ~ Fyodor Dostoevski 1821-1881

Wednesday, September 20, 2017


Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Temperance

A cauldron, head, and spring, all long thought of as sources of inspiration or prophecy.

What I had typed was "prophecy, if you believe in that sort of thing". Passive aggressive pout including sneer,  because I couldn't figure out how to use the word mantic.

It is easy to miss the moments that cry for temperance, because it feels good to blow off some steam. Except it doesn't make everyone feel better because there is always a target. Generally the next person you encounter.

A work in progress, that's me.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017


Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 6 of Wands/Spears

I've been sitting here trying to think of anything I've done that could be termed well earned, caused change for the better, conquest and advancement.

I'm having trouble coming up with a 'win', probably because I don't have a competitive bone in my body. Hummm, Pretty exciting to get my lifetime key from weight watchers. But I continue to gain and lose the same 30 pounds over 5 year periods. Mastering clutch and stick was more an end to heart pounding terror rather than satisfaction. Carrying 8 dinner plates in one hand and arm was a pretty awesome skill.

I'm reminded by this card, not many of us have rated a victory parade with lots of horns and horses. What we can hold as precious are the successes personal to us. We just need to pull those memories forward more often. We are each so incredibly special in our own right.

Monday, September 18, 2017


Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Coins/Shields

Do you remember when it was bad news from the boss if you were caught on personal phone calls at work? I don't think I've been anywhere the last year or so and not seen employees doing their phone thing.

I remember the first five or six years of Rob working away from home all week we didn't touch bases because long distance call costs were outside our budget. It was miserable.

I'm reminded by this card our 'on all the time' lifestyle may have dulled our appreciation of the value of keeping in touch with family.

But I still wonder what the boss thinks and how it affects actual production time today.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Wonky Tools

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 3 of Wands/Spears

Subtitled the Horse Fair, this card speaks of fine tuning our knowledge and valuable resources.

As a quilter I use rotary cutters and acrylic rulers to cut my fabric. I noticed while building out my block the 2.5" corners were not aligning perfectly with the 6.5" block they were being set into. On examination my 2.5" ruler has slumped shoulders.

As an experienced quilter I can adjust each block as I sew along, my work is not lost. But as a knowledgeable quilter I am only as good as my tools. Replacement ruler is in order.

"When a work lifts your spirits and inspires bold and noble thoughts in you, do not look for any other standard to judge by: the work is good." ~ Jean de la Bruyere 1645-1696

Saturday, September 16, 2017


Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 4 of Coins

Looks like she has already moved her coins away from the door, put them on the fireplace, and thinking about the person who wants in, is taking them back down. Some common sense responsibility going on here.

If I could revamp schooling, I'd eliminate sports that use a small number of players, and add in yoga from year one. I'd have ongoing fiscal stewardship classes beginning year one. By middle school we'd know the name and location of every country in the world. Oh, basic four of coins practically, we hardly knew ye.

Friday, September 15, 2017


Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Temperance/Sidhe

The Druidcraft name this card Fferyllt or Shaman
The Llewellyn calls her Keeper of the Well
Thoth based decks call her Art
Goddess Tarot calls her Yemana
There is also the Intergration, Mingler, Golden Flower...

She is represented by a giraffe pair, any number of anthropomorphied felines, tigers in surf, angels and faeries, a crane, rabbit, badger, ferret, multiple goddesses, Buddha, muscleman, triclops, figure hanging over the porcelain throne, stick figure...

All that said to say, we can find or seek temperance in any situation. Patience, communication, organization, blending, all in aid of balance.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Not My Bag

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

This ace often rams worldly success down our throats, but financial gotta haves aren't the only point of this suit. I look at this card and run screaming from the room. I can't imagine giving up life force time to fill and keep this house or multiple houses. Not my bag. Not my idea of a home.

I'm reminded by this card of the 'dream'. Be careful what you dream for, you might get it. And once you got it, you have to care for it.

I'm cognizant that we have different Coin dreams and more power to each and every one of us. I worked hard all my life, today I value my time above all else.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017


Daily Draw: Green Fairy Tarot ~ Knight of Wands

A new endeavor, based on experience already gained. I wish.

Another long post, gone into backspace land. I wonder how many words I've typed that I've untyped over the years? Better that way, they weren't worth reading.

If I average 125 words per post = 465,875 words, spread over 3727 pages. And I look forward to writing a new page tomorrow.  And it is ok if they don't make sense to anyone but me.

My mothers last coherent words: I think I remember something, but I don't know what it is.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017


Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Death/Lord of Shadows

While my mind composed great words of keeping the life free of stagnation and brimming with fresh growth...I got sidetracked by wondering if ancient wells generally had the equivalent of a thatched roof.

I'm reminded by this card I have no fear of being dead, I will simply be gone. That is perfect for my needs. It is the dying that worries me. so many bad ways to go. Never mind, I'm here today and our own well is pumping along. As is life. Death can wait.

Monday, September 11, 2017


Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 2 of Wands

Hey, my favorite frogs with sticks!  And the rug weaver!  I know a number of small business owners who lead lives  of quiet desperation. On the other hand Kalama has a tattoo parlor now (where did that association come from I wonder) and what we seem to think will be a gift shop. They have gutted one of the prettiest buildings and have been working on it for at least six months. Who has pockets so deep and how will a 'stuff' shop survive here??

I'm reminded by this card, of the man at Baker Lumber who chided me  for getting part of my list at Home Depot.To me Home Depot employees are all local, so that counts as shopping local. As does Target and Safeway. Amazon is my last resort.

Let's retalk this in ten years, see if there are any local stores left.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Just A Word

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

 There are hundreds of types of relationships with hundreds of descriptors in all cultures. Across the board, #1 for me is trust.

'Nuff said.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Without Forethought

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Knight of Coins;

Pranayama breath, before battle. But wait, the flail in his right hand was used for threshing wheat. He'd end up decommissioning his horse before he got to the fight. The stag on his helmet was associated with prudence.  Prudence in that 'it seemed like a cool idea at the time' for a hat design?

I'm reminded by this figure no matter how we plan an incursion we will have missed or forgotten or didn't take into account something important. Rethinking on the move is a specialty of this Knight because he has the resources to make it happen.

Friday, September 8, 2017

I Used To Think I Thought

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Priestess

If you were new to earth, pure, innocent, intuitive, what would you make of politics, religions, money? Slavery, war, addictions?

I'm reminded by this card it is difficult to uncolor our perceptions in order to achieve a new understanding. Many are based in childhood, influenced by environment or peers. We often don't recognize our leanings are not our own but inherited. We would be required to really bear down in order to sort out what we thought and what we think, in order to get distance between what we think we thought.

Our daily lives are all influenced by those six subjects. How often do you think what your thoughts really are? It is a small world, and our grain of sand counts.

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Coloring My World

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 9 of Cups

Color plays a part in understanding the decks designed by the Golden Dawn members. The Thoth has had dozens of printings since the first publishing in 1969. Look at the first row here on google images. Mine is scanned from my 'greenie' deck, the one I have in  my hand is from 2006. 2006 has
deep purple background
yellow lotus
golden water
violet cups
red vines.

I'm reminded by this card it isn't much wonder communication is a difficult task and it takes a lot of words and arm waving to get us to the lovely 9 of Cups position.

I also remember in the 8th grade saying as our teacher came in the room, "I feel studious today". I got 3 hacks with a big wooden paddle, in front of class, for whatever he thought I said. I never did find out. Words...can't live with them, can't shoot them.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017


Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

Reflections and refractions. (Snuffin) The hunt for good fly fishing holes around the state has offered me many beautiful reflections; still water + shore line, as above so below.
And in this rainy state, the combination of light and water brings the refractions of rainbows and I study how far the foot might be, pots of gold don't you know?

I'm reminded by this card the greatest beauty offered us is free for the taking. No human, even with the deepest of pockets can match it or gift it, it belongs to all of us.

Our moon and sun are both cheddar orange from the forest fire smoke. Nature offers beauty in all things.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Smoke 'em if you got 'em?

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 8 of Wands

I got nothing from this card this morning. Two hours later I'm thinking it refers to this.

I expected to be on the road today, speeding down the freeway to the Rogue River area for some classes. Alas, forest fires are raging through the area.
Early in the week they said to bring eye drops, inhalers if you use them, masks if your lungs were already impacted...then yesterday they cancelled the whole works.

Ratsaroonie. So much for speeding anywhere. The areas we would normally visit since we are ready to go are all in the high 90's to 100 degrees, many of those are covered with smoke also.

I expect in the end I'll just be speeding upstairs to the quilt room. And life is good.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Makes Me Human

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Princess of Wands

Unconventional, impulsive, temperamental, bordering on unstable. (Snuffin)

I'm reminded by these words, I've been them. And worse. We all have. Most of us get good mannered out of it, or grow out of it. Those words are the double edge of court cards. Because Wands are the action, the push that gets things going, the ones working without the box of tradition. We are each all the colors in the carton, all the courts in the pack,  which makes us human, venerable, strong, alike.

Sunday, September 3, 2017

Wallow In The Loss

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Moon

The dark side of the  moon.
Illusion and deception.
Where do the donations really go?
How are they applied once they get there?
FEMA is broke and has been for some time.
Flood insurance is tricksy, very expensive, and seldom pays out.

On the income producing side there are regular two hour bus tours of Hurricane Katrina (2005) abandoned New Orleans Ninth Ward neighborhoods.

I'm reminded by this card right and wrong walk narrow paths, side by side.

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Quench and Extinguish

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 8 of Coins

Dedicated to Water. Like fire it purifies and can bring a rebirth. Or, recent weeks from CNN news files:
  •  A massive mudslide sparked by heavy rains and flooding in an area of Freetown, Sierra Leone, has killed around 500 people and left hundreds more missing.
  • A third of Bangladesh is under water and the floods have so far claimed the lives of 142 people and impacted more than 8.5 million.
  • Ram Krishna Subedi, a Nepal Home Ministry spokesman, told CNN last month that at least 143 people have been killed since August 11. Nearly 80,000 houses have been damaged by flooding.
I'm reminded by this card of our own flood December 2015. Our police station is still in borrowed community space. Our library just reopened last month. Our city hall is now moored in an empty bank space.

Water at flood stage is catastrophic regardless of area. But the rebuilding relentlessly wears and appalls because the damage goes on and on long after the cameras move on to the next big thing.

Friday, September 1, 2017

Badgers With Thumbs

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

Dedicated to Badger. Not native to my corner of the world. Everything I know about badgers comes from the 'big striped dog' citizens of Redwall.

In those stories they are the biggest creatures, fierce and loyal and deeply caring for their family and peripherals. The same could be said of humans, if you include thumbs, we are the biggest creatures in our world. Would that loyalty and care for each other was part of that. Other than looting, our best side comes out in time of need, as we see in hurricane Harvey and the aftermath sweeping the south. 10 of Coins caring in action.