Monday, December 31, 2018

Maybe Next Year

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Responsibility

Where does responsibility end and apathy begin?

A big subject I carry through my life and it comes up here often. Change has to start somewhere, let it be me.

Bright Blessings to you and yours as we enter 2019

Sunday, December 30, 2018

FacePalm Brilliant

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Balance

An introduction to Claire Mack's beautiful oracle is going to riff off yesterday's post of planned obsolescence, and getting tools and appliances repaired.

There are so few ways we as singles can make a difference in keeping our Earth Illuminated. But a response to the idea that repairing things is a lost art brought this, from a small town in Australia.

"We now have a repair cafe in town. Once a month people come to a community facility and bring things to be mended, fixed. Others come to share their skills, to teach and to repair. last month toaster repairs were the most sought after." ~ Pam  

I can repair the knees in jeans like nobody's business. Invisibly if I get them soon enough. We need a DVD player repaired, another object going obsolete. We have good dry firewood, need sheetrock mudded. I could go on all day I expect...

Saturday, December 29, 2018

Spoons and Screwdrivers

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ Shining Quarry/Knight of Coins

The Shining Quarry is invoked to increase material resources and assets, and to cultivate fruitful abundance.

If we purchase something that doesn't work out to be what we need, did we waste resources or increase knowledge?
If something we own has been outmoded by technology, have we lost something or gained something?

My biggest thorn in the side of good stewardship of resources? Planned obsolescence. Towns had appliance repair shops, villages had a fix-it person, we could get our blender or tv or bench grinder fixed good as new. We could say the cost of labor outgrew the cost of replacements. Or is it our push for cheaper stuff that got us hoist on our own petard? There is probably no going back now unless the world goes dark, at which time all those tools and appliances will be replaced with spoons and screwdrivers.

Friday, December 28, 2018

No Hope At All

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ Archangel of Mysteries/King Coins

This King of Coins acts as intermediary and mediator both above and below and guide for lost souls. Would that were true of all leaders. In much of the world kings have been groomed from birth, so theoretically  enter the position with much of the knowledge needed to rule for the benefit of the whole and understanding of noblesse oblige to the individual.

In Queen Elizabeth's year end speech a gold piano was in the background which the see nothing say anything are frothing over. Much of what royalty owns has the weight of gifts or ancientithicy foisted upon them. I've always had a kitchen, but I'd really like a shiny kitchen. Do our Kings of Coins ever dreams of an uncluttered space with no gold anything? Smooth lines, big windows, new carpet, dark ancient hanging pictures by artists they can't abide gone. Royalty is a gilded prison. At least I can hope for a shiny kitchen, this King has no hope at all.

Thursday, December 27, 2018

Life In Process

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ Emperor

"Making sense of self" Benebell Wen
Probably the first thing that has made the Emperor card and path make sense to me. I see the word, get bent out of shape because the world is full of crap emperors and my brain stops there.

But what if I turn that to observe what kind of emperor I've become?
Ruthless because I can kick the superfluous to the curb?
A terrible short term trait but a must have for long term planning.
I learn by observation, I don't have to experience to empathize.
I have zero agenda based on world or personal view.
I can respect the idea without being subsumed by it.
Because I've made my own way without gifts and entitlements I know anyone can. Which probably brings me back to ruthless.

A life in process. What will I learn today that will change me tomorrow?

Wednesday, December 26, 2018

Low Magic

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 7 of Coins/Orbs

"The nature spirit of low magic and spirit of the harvest" Benebell Wen
"Low magic/Gaia Magic/Earth Magic, draws energy up from the earth, which has been melded by existing within the manifest world around the magician." Frater Sg
All way above my pay grade, nevertheless interesting concept to poke with a stick, see if anything emerges.

Green thumb
Soothing spirit
Eye for color
Ear for music
Reasoning mind
Nature for notions
Word wealthy.   Low magic? I think so.

Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Wishy-Washy Faith

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 8 of Cups/Chalices

Is it strength or defection to recognize failure and cut our losses?
Is it strength or defection to leave a group in the lurch because it isn't working for us? Is it legal to not finish a book? To not clean our plate?

Our 8 of Cups has so many permutations, great and petty. How can we measure the value of staying vs. walking away? I've let my subscription to WW lapse, it is so darned expensive. I've gained three pounds. Where is the win in that? I didn't ask to be invited to christmas dinner, and we weren't. Is that a win? Watching my little bundle of stocks this I pull and flee, or invest more while they are low? What if I took my whole buy a house fund in cash and put it under my bed, or what if I put it all in Tractor Supply?

Those darn 8's. They require faith, not wishy-washy worrying and my stomach hurts thinking about it.

Monday, December 24, 2018

IRL (= in real life)

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 3 of Cups/Chalices

One of the strongest themes in story and song is how and why family and friends interact. It is a basic core need to be +1 and more is better as a rule. I have a niece who has over 500 facebook friends. She runs a daycare and seldom goes anywhere. Does she know that many people who she cares about and who care about her?  I have no idea but I'm jealous.

I was listening to a quilting podcast this week and someone emailed in that they were listening at guild meeting. Ehh? Even in the real world her connection to online activity was stronger? I've been thinking about that ever since.

My closest friends are no where  near me and I've met in person so many really wonderful people whom I first met via mail and then via internet.  Never met even one I didn't like. Kalama is getting a yoga studio! I'm hoping to be a charter member and make some real life friends. Yes please!

Bev...we are breaking out the boiled peanuts as the centerpiece of tomorrows buffet. Thank you for your friendship. Carolyn...My word of the year painted rocks (2018 Reality) (2019 Equilibrium) are commingling as we speak. Thank you for being such a good sport for taking the commission each year and thank you for your friendship. Eluned, remember when postage was affordable and we'd send big boxes across the ocean? Thank you for your friendship.  Pam, thank you for giving Rob the trip of a lifetime, thank you for being our friend!  Judy, when I first contacted you, you said you didn't do much online...those were the days, thank you for your friendship. Joan... just. (((hugs))) And to so many more, Love, Sharyn

Sunday, December 23, 2018

Eleusinian Mysteries

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Benebell likens the eights to the participation in the ancient Greek semiannual Eleusinian Mysteries and the resulting release from fear of death. This 8 of Swords allows us to pretend we are not yielding to a change that will come, want it or not.

I'm a grown up, I can eat dessert first. She said, whistling in the dark. Because being a grown up provides exhilarating and terrifying stepping stones to life. We can fight to not take those steps...paying income tax, burying our parents, by pretending we don't have to go there. But we do and regardless of how we approach it, life wins. And in the end so do we, whether we flounce from the room or sweep through with royal dignity.

Saturday, December 22, 2018

Do No Harm

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ Devil/Demon

Typhon. The most: horriblest, worst, biggest, terriblest, oldest, grisliest, and deadliest, a volcano demon with one hundred dragon heads. Youngest son of Gaia, felled by Zeus.

A lot of new to me information to take in so early in the day. As I've been reading I've been trying to think of anything I've ever done that might draw his eye or ire.

I've come to the conclusion that the littlest harm is as bad as the biggest harm. Honest. Because like 'husky', people carry that harm forward, grit that does not result in an oyster, but somewhere inside grinds away at our being.

Friday, December 21, 2018

The Capacity of a Hollow Void

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 4 of Cups/Chalices

The Hollow Void? Ehh?
45 minutes later, I'm back from info-junky side road.
The little companion book is just enough to make me want to better understand Benebell's outlook. And get the companion publication, Book of Maps.

Is that a chalice of kool-ade?
No...just my brain is a hollow void, and each day I try to increase its capacity.

Thursday, December 20, 2018

Doesn't Cost A Thing

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 3 of Coins/Orbs

The mason's labor is validated each day because you can see and touch and use his output. Much of what we do daily is never remarked upon because it doesn't show. Office work, house work, healing work, is never in a state called finished, there is more of the same tomorrow.

I'm reminded by this card complimenting  a job well done never goes amiss. Take a look around today at our fellow passengers. They too would appreciate a little validation, a hug, a thank you. Doesn't cost a thing and gives much.

Wednesday, December 19, 2018


Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 5 of Cups/Chalices

Distorted outlook. Destabilized.
I see the grapes, I see the empty cups. How did I get from here to there?

My doctor has requested my presence for a talk. Yipes. She also sent new findings about the only medication I take, and have taken since 2005. The beauty of the cure is now covered by the grotesquery of the side effects.


Tuesday, December 18, 2018

Ride On Sir

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ Death

Evidence based ritual, intuition based ritual. Symbolism pulled from every path of humankind. The little book that accompanies the cards is beyond my coping skills. In some part because I don't believe in anything and Benebell Wen believes in everything. Which leaves me having to think my way through. Yesterday's 2 of Cups/Chalices stumped me although I often returned to it.

All that said to say, a juicy meal indeed. Just the way I like it.
Me a Homer Simpson, my decks an Einstein equation.
Do I believe in Death? Yes, I guess there is one thing I believe in.
I believe in decay after death. That's two.
Am I afraid of death? Never. It is the dying I resist, so many bad ways to go. Ride on Sir, nothing to see here.

Sunday, December 16, 2018

Man Up

Daily Draw: Spirit Keeper's Tarot ~ 5 of Coins/Orbs

Titled the Vagabond, this 5 recognizes the disconnect of change. We've had a goal, done the heavy lifting, got to the result...but are now unsure the change is what we wanted.

Ouch. Change is growth and if that change isn't what we expected we are still somewhere new. Even if we could take a step back it wouldn't be the same because at this point we have changed. That is life, fraidy cat prayers are pointless, man up.

Saturday, December 15, 2018

The Ingredient

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ Lovers

Secular and spiritual.
Worldly and otherworldly.
Pure and profane.
Tolerance and bigotry.
Humble and pretentious.

Is any part of us singular? Life is a recipe we each create based on early environment combined with a lifetime of ingredients. It boggles me each human is so alike and so utterly different from the next.

I can't think of anything my mix needs today, but if offered I'd take a pinch of this and a smidge of that.

Friday, December 14, 2018


Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 7 of Coins

Integrity. Whether we intend it or not, leading by example is what we share with others each day of our life.

What will we teach today?
From whose example will we enrich our spirit?
From whose example will we learn what Not to do?

Thursday, December 13, 2018

Give. Receive. Breathe. Love.

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot~ 2 of Cups

The goal here is to be equally adept to giving and receiving.

Going out does it sound like good advice
Coming in does it sound like mind your own business?

Going out does it feel you are giving your treasures to family
Coming in does it feel like you are getting someone else's carpola?

Going out do food gifts feel like a true labor of time and love
Coming in does it seem like thoughtless sabotage?

Give. Receive. Breathe. Love.

Wednesday, December 12, 2018


Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

If we need shoes or a day off from work or blow the cobwebs off our brain, we can accomplish that without much fuss. But what about the inner person? This is where the Ace of Cups comes in, helping us to acknowledge the emotions that nourish or tear us apart. Emotions are a gift, without them we are just a gray rock with arms and legs.

I belong to a quilting forum and tarot forum, and I have learned when I get crabby about posts in general it isn't about them it is about me. I take a break of three or four days and hokey smokes, when I come back those people are really nice and make interesting posts, what was I so grumpy about?

If my cup seems empty I will curl up in the base and work on refilling the well.

Tuesday, December 11, 2018


Daily Draw: Roots of Asia ~ 4 of Swords

Pause. Reflect. Listen.

That small still voice needs to be heard.

Pause. Reflect. Listen.

Monday, December 10, 2018

Brain In Gear

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ Strength

All our desires satisfied would soon eat us alive. Each day the news brings us examples of humans who don't get the concept of enough and cross the line.

Interesting to watch long as it is someone else. Like seeing a train wreck or ship sinking about to happen. I've been there, getting so mentally or physically involved in something, crossing the line into obsession or oblivion. So hard to identify coming on, so clear in hindsight.

Strength. Brain in gear.

Sunday, December 9, 2018

Getting My Mind Around It

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

Ever had someone old send you to the store for bread and they give you a dime to buy it with? Sorry grandma, bread is three dollars a loaf now.

I have the same mind set about housing prices. We've been here 20+ years. A big development has gone in below us and every time I drive by my subconscious snark ticks the box "rich people". Apparently on paper it turns out everyone is rich.

I keep telling myself it is all speculation and posturing until money is in hand. I keep shaking my head like a dog flapping its ears. My brain still hasn't caught up with reality yet. But I'm determined to move, so I'll do my trick of 'if I don't look it isn't there' re: prices. Who knew 10 of coins cost so much?

Saturday, December 8, 2018

The Argument Within

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 5 of Wands

A Wandsy run this week. Klanprachar sees the tiger as our perception vs. reality. the Wands as striving for the answer vs. opening up to one, fire as the ignition.

Hey, that's me! Striving vs. opening, mulling and  mulling and then eureka, the possibilities open up, Sometimes that mulling takes years, but without it, and knowing myself, I don't think that opening would ever present without that brain softening prequel. It is all good, and I recognize being able to think and mull are gifts of life.

Friday, December 7, 2018

We Just Keep Going

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 9  of Wands

When life gets tough the tough get going. Does that make sense to you? It sounds like the tough get out which I don't find to be true, they slog on, bruised and bent, one leg in the ditch, limbs slapping us back, socks slipping down, falling into the pond because we thought it was a puddle. Knocking over things that will need to be set right again, grass stained and eyes full of dust, blisters and a rash everywhere, we Just Keep Going.

Something I read this week made me laugh out loud.  "People stay back from an edge, not because they fear falling over, but because they might jump." Michael F. Stewart

We just keep going because life is a minute to minute thing, and there are always the tarot tens to look forward to. Or not. That is why I make sure I have something to look forward to, and ignore the edge.

Thursday, December 6, 2018


Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 8 of Wands

Rushing through our days. Is it real or is it Memorex? A 1970's ad campaign posited their products were so good you'd have the same experience live or recorded. We all smiled and said what a clever promotion.

The world has moved on. Everything is recorded. Many people have died getting the ultimate selfie. In a room full of people most will be screenglued seeing if their life is as photogenic as everyone else's.

This is neither criticism nor judgement. I get, that I don't get it because I don't do it. But I'd bet a zillion drachma the real thing would surprise and delight and the social thing gives the ultimate flatline experience. 8 of Wands, move along people, nothing to see here.

Wednesday, December 5, 2018

Good Side Of The Tide

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

"The witness within us" Klanprachar

The lying truth teller, mean sibling, secret spreader, hider of things, breaker of trust, applier of sabotage.

We do all these and so much more, and yet perceive and promote ourselves as a 'good' person; the reach of what a person is and does is limited only by imagination and length of life. Sun bleached or moon washed, we can only be what we are, flawed humans. And each day the sun and moon offer another opportunity to fall on the good side of the tide.

Tuesday, December 4, 2018

Flip The Switch

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

Mindfulness, contemplation.
I miss my pond sanctuary on the farm, someone else's sanctuary now.

I recognize with the right mindset already in place anywhere will do. My busy monkey mind needs to find a switch first. Perhaps it has been here all along, I just haven't given it the credit it deserves.

Monday, December 3, 2018

Dunce Cap

Daily Draw: Roots of Asia Tarot ~ Knight of Swords

Always my favorite court card. No farting around, get 'er done.
Klanprachar sees this knight as dangerous, be aware of opposition and conflict.  Well there is one in every crowd isn't there?

If I don't know by now not to believe everything everyone says I deserve the dunce cap and corner. Meanwhile, I love this card, shooting off in all directions at once.

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Optimism w/Potential

Daily Draw: Roots Of Asia ~ Star

Optimism. I can. We will. Assuredly yes. 
Potential. Why not. Yes please. Let's do.

I can live with that brain set. In fact I do. Yes opens all the doors we didn't even know existed. 

Saturday, December 1, 2018

Cheap At Twice The Price

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

On this first day of December, I look at this heartbreaking image and acknowledge, once again, I am the luckiest girl in the world.

Most of what I hold dear I worked hard for but the other most of what I hold dear landed in my lap. I was born in a country of freedoms, and I was born white. I acknowledge being born and being white was where the Great Wheel rolled that day.

I'm reminded by this card to keep my heart open and mind ready to recognize any opportunity to return to the world ten times what I have. I would still be rich.

I wonder the criteria Poole used to people the suits: Wands/Black, Cups/Native American, Swords/Asian, Coins/White. A kernel to gnaw over today.

Friday, November 30, 2018

Claustrophobia or Acrophobia?

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Tower

A dragon hanging on by his thumbs, holding up or tearing down?
A winged hero forcing the dark it a dare?
A hand controlling lightning, or is it just empty threats?
Little winged figures are beginning the climb, fresh starts, new ideas.
The lights are still powered, can't be all bad. Can it?

What we don't see is the tunnel, the darker way to arrive.
Can we choose the claustrophobia of the inside journey
or the acrophobia of the stairs? This is our life and there is
always a choice even if they all seem bad.

I've been on both paths, and they all lead to here. Today. Keep moving or life runs over us taking our choices away.

Thursday, November 29, 2018

The Pumpkin Doesn't Last

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 7 of Coins

Yesterday's 7 has us wishing, today's 7 has seen the fulfillment. He seems contented with that, sitting there on his pumpkin.
Did he seek more of what he has? Or to have what was the other side of the fence? I think either way, still having coins on his tree pleases him, because he understands the pumpkin has limited value.

I think there are three kind of people. For some it is the money making, for some the money having, for some the money spending. I used to wonder why rich people kept on working...must be because they fall in the first group.

I work toward health and a peaceful heart; everything else will fall into place. And because the pumpkin never lasts.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Think About It

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Be careful what you wish for you  might get it? That seems such a mean thing to say. I suppose it might have some truth in it, from the viewpoint of, if you achieve/get your dream you don't have anything to dream for/about?

The wishing and hoping, dreaming and thinking, for me is more about the anticipation, the hunt, the mulling. I'm looking for a pink fiestaware oval plate, small. For my kitties. So they have the same plate in the 5th wheel and the big house. I've never actually gone out looking for one or checked ebay. We live in a town full of antique stores, there is probably one down there.

More fun to just think about.

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

In The Blurb

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Magician/Apprentice

I dare you. Not the best view of our apprenticeship of life, but one of the learning paths. I had nice friends or I was very timid, I don't remember doing anything on a dare or suggesting someone else do it. Now that I think of it though, we took a dare yesterday.

We've talked about selling this place for the last 10-ish years. When we, What if, Have you thought, Are we,..We've actually made a decision after all that farting around. Buy a new place better suited, then move. Only then sell this house. We'd be sure we were only taking what we need, with a few want things. And after stripping this place, deep cleaning, staging the main rooms, put it on the market. How easy is that. Why not said the Fool. Brilliant said the Apprentice.

And we actually went out and looked at a place. Don't they all sound so good in the blurb?  "Reverse! Reverse!" ~ Father Jack

Monday, November 26, 2018

Afraid To Know

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

Today's modern decks often include a squirrel card, a nod to Homer Simpson; and several lovers cards offering the option of multiple likes and loves.

I dreamed last night I was friends with a rodeo bronc buster and didn't even know it until I saw him on a horse in the arena. I wonder how many things Rob and I don't know about each other.

I always ask, because Rob is interesting and I never know what he will say. He never asks, probably because he is afraid to know.

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Into The Net

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Temperance/Time Lord

Poole didn't want a gentle card like Termerance between Death and Devil (Metamorphosis and Tempter), so drew her Time Lord to take the space. Look at him, slamming those chalices together. No overall sense of moderation here, the subconscious is awake shouting "Watch out for the bus!"

And we merrily go our way, unaware or ignoring the coming Tower we've set in motion.  We were never a nation for moderation were we? Unwilling to drop to our knees and crawl, we'd rather go teacup over kettle then start fresh. Life and Time don't work like that; small individual actions do affect the whole. And on we run...straight into the Time Lord's net.

Saturday, November 24, 2018

Non Seeing Eyeballs

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

Know the secret of using a seeing eye ball? I don't either but I can say where the initial difficulty arises because I inherited one. They reflect. Every bit of light in a space. Can't really say you are seeing in, when you can't see past.

I'm reminded by this card and my non-seeing eye ball, we see what we expect to see in this life. In everything from proofing a letter to choosing a spouse, first we see what we want to see.  It is worth looking deeper, there are hidden gems in this life that slide right by us every day if we aren't open to them.

Friday, November 23, 2018

Mental Autocorrect

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Blindfolded, he works his way down the stream using his big toe for antenna and his hands to field obstructions. I feel like this sometimes. My eyeglass Rx has not changed in the four years I've been adapting to MacTel. So bizarre, as my surrounds ripple and roll. That isn't fixable by glasses but it takes me twice as long to take the standard eye test.

It most certainly could be worse, much worse, and maybe someday it will, but for now I'm very grateful for the view out I do have. I just do a mental correct for what I think I should be seeing.

Thursday, November 22, 2018


Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

If it were a thousand years ago what or where would a new direction actually be? The Americas were so thinly populated and natives were mostly tribe-centric and while we are at it, would those be indigenous or aboriginal?

How about if they had skills that would  be needed or missed.
How about if they were from the Leaders group?
How about if they were the most beautiful?

I expect humans have always had to market themselves, in tribe or out.

Wednesday, November 21, 2018


Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Strength

Is this a fantastic creature or what? Apparently enjoys bodhran, is amenable to saddle and reins. Has large three clawed feet, teeth made to rip, and a defensive tail. I'm guessing it intimidates by size so seldom needs to actually fight. 

The small centaur in the lower corner is smiling but no fool, giving plenty of leeway for an escape route. That also says strength; common sense is a good portion of valor. 

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

The Kid's Table

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

This card offers two keywords, applicable to holiday family occasions this week. If someone is gobbing off about religion or politics how do you handle it? These are weird times...

I saw a headline that said the little kids table should be banned. I always liked sitting there as a kid, cute little table, cute little chairs. But by seven to nine year olds? If they are willing to put up with adults squeeze in another chair. They will get true memories of family. I only remember some aunts and uncles and cousins via the specific interaction when eating together. Never saw them anywhere else. Our warrior here is how little kids see the adult 'seen and not heard'.

Monday, November 19, 2018


Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Hierophant/Mentor

My most recent mentor was Jan. I did her hair every week for 10-ish years. Married to a military man, she lived all over the world, had a child in Japan, another in Germany during the Nuremberg trials. She taught me to be open to what life brings and changed me in many ways.

Rest in peace my friend, you'll never be forgotten as long as I am alive. Sept.26, 1919-Aug. 21, 2015

Sunday, November 18, 2018


Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Ace of Wands/Fire Dragon

Those Wands. "Work Work Work Work Work" Mel Burns

I got a notice from Flickr they were going to a paid format and would only hold 1000 images for free. The rest would be deleted. I panicked because I have well over 5K photos on this blog, wouldn't it be sad to lose all that?

Turns out I got the notice because one time I joined one quilt sharing group. Whew. But it made me wonder where the heck all my images are? Apparently on Picasa, which moved to google photos and most are in Quirkeries blogger archives there.

And I don't know much more than I knew when I started. Should I lay awake worrying about losing all those photos?  Could my computer hold all those images if I downloaded them? And like Webshots (which deleted millions of albums) would they all arrive with a string of numbers making sorting a nightmare? Work Work Work...

Saturday, November 17, 2018

No Path At All

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

We had early Thanksgiving yesterday with two people we love. A+ day! We all retired about the same time and all agreed retirement is the best thing ever invented. Play all day!

But we also agreed what we liked or needed to do fills up the time and space we have to do it in and that pressure is both mental and physical.

I'm reminded by this card we don't have a new path, or old path, retirement is having no path at all. And we need one, with self discipline and mindfulness of our commitments. Time is precious, and truly flies.

Friday, November 16, 2018

Madder Than A Junkyard Dog

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ Devil/Cernunnos

Animal instincts in humans.
Die like a dog. Madder than a junkyard dog.  I'm stumped for any more. Probably because dogs are given bad press.

Humans can and do way worse than animals and do it again and again, deliberately. Leave animals out of human nature, we are far worse without the redeeming features of animal to balance the scales.

Thursday, November 15, 2018

The Price We Pay

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ Knight of Coins/Shields

At a crossroads, Bors found his sister on the left and brother on the right, both in mortal danger. He made the hard choice to save his sister. On returning they found the brother had saved himself. But that brother never spoke to him again.

It has been 20+ years since I've jumped in to save my little brother. That option does not exist because it never ends and never fixes. It has been -20 years since he has even asked. Yet he has never faulted or blamed me, when I see him I am always greeted with love. Somewhere inside my little brother resides this honorable Knight who can only live by his honest choices.

I love you Gordon; I'm sorry love has never been enough.

Wednesday, November 14, 2018


Daily Draw: Legend Arthruian Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

A convoluted story of Tristran and Isolt with heaps of treachery and deception all around.

Lives lived like this are probably how R&R and Executive Time got started.

Tuesday, November 13, 2018


Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ Queen of Swords

After reading up on Morgause I was sorry I pulled the card. An unpleasant wife, mother, queen. But if I took the woman out of it and read her actions as a man and part of Arthur's court, then it is all business as usual.

Why do we allow men liberties and condemn women for the same behavior?