Saturday, March 31, 2018


Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 9 of Wands/Staves

Expect difficulties.
 I'm thinking this guy has been goldbricking. Laying doggo, limping, with a crutch. And management has called his bluff, physical and visceral.

I know three people who have been drawing government money due to a mostly bogus disability for thirty years or more. I know at least five people with serious disabilities that I would approve for that stipend who haven't asked, they get up and drag themselves off to work every day.

Human nature, what can I say.

Friday, March 30, 2018

Exercise in Desperation

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ Chariot

Outrunning adversity.

I can't say I've been poor because I've never been hungry.
But there have been times when looking behind the sofa cushions for lost change was an exercise in desperation.

Life. In the Chariot. And I do believe there were once dragons of great magnificence.

Thursday, March 29, 2018

Relatively Speaking

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 4 of Cups
Su Tung-pʻo, more commonly know as Su Sish (1037 –1101) considered himself a poet. An unsuccessful one who turned to drink in his disappointment.  

Written While Drunk in Lake-View Pavilion 
on the 27th Day of the Sixth Month
The inky clouds fly in, but do not hide the hills,
As random drops of white rain leap into the boats.
A sudden wind arrives and sweeps across the earth,
Below I see the lake a mirror of the sky.

I wonder if the depression fueled titles are why his work wasn't popular in the day, or if those titles are what makes him relatively famous today?

The real turning point of his fame may hinge on the translations by Watson Burton. My point being don't drown your troubles in four cups, because your troubles may be short lived. Relatively speaking that is. 

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

To Die, Unloved

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 5 of Wands/Staves

Debating the aesthetics of someone else's art.  Pointless but fun.

Quilt police comments:
How can you do something so boring?
How do you have the patience?
Why in the world do you do this?
Where do you get your ideas...(book authors get this all the time)
Why don't you quilt your own quilts?
That isn't a real quilt because it wasn't hand quilted.
Did you know this, that, or the other is backwards?
Ah. You make utility/farmhand quilts.

It will be disputed but there aren't any Quilt Police, just the harsh words we run thorough our own mind. Although that last one has been smarting for awhile. If I decide to make something with red in it, I'll use 20 or 30 or 40 different reds. In the 'olden days' scrap quilts were utility quilts, used hard, soon tattered, made from worn out clothing scraps.

On the other hand, I would be happy if recipients used my quilts hard and wore them out. There are more where they came from and I'd rather them used than stuck in a stuffy attic to die, unloved.

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Lift A Cup

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~3 of Cups

Resolution, conclusion, and a toast.
As I ponder those words I'm hard pressed to think of anything working up to a celebratory conclusion in my world. Probably one of the reasons I'm excited to get up and get going each day, to keep numerous pots on the boil.

Because my five year ordeal with deep depression has passed away this winter, maybe I should toast new starts? Enthused by my niece's amazing progress I've rejoined Weight Watchers, a program dear to my heart since the mid-seventies, and will kick my muffin top to the curb. Again

Next door are yoga classes, how serendipitous is that? I love yoga!

And I'm painting barn quilts, how much fun is that?  Tons! And I'm wishing I knew how to remake my blog page into a clear and crisp space.

Monday, March 26, 2018

Do Good?

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ 6 of Wands/Staves

"Marching against heretics."S.Kaplan
Does it ever do any good?

Only if they register to vote, and actually do it.
I'm hoping for the affirmative.

Sunday, March 25, 2018

Acres of Time

Daily Draw: Chinese Tarot ~ Star

Longevity. He has peaches from a tree that only blooms once in three thousand years. He is accompanied by the stag of strength, and cranes, also longevity icons.

Do we want a long life? Asked at the age of forty? Don't even think about it, that is a lifetime away. Fifty, yes, easy, forty years left yet. At sixty? Thirty years more, maybe. Probably.

I've always thought Rob and I looked younger than our age, people have said it often enough. But even a well lived life catches up with our mortality. I was amazed at how fast this past week went. And how fast this month went. I haven't got all the time in the world. Yikes.

I have today and that is all that matters. And it is early. Acres of time.

Saturday, March 24, 2018

Change Even Beyond Empathy

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ 6 of Swords

Because they have wings I wonder if our long ways is their little ways, or if because they are small our little ways is their long ways. They are certainly going in swan splendor, so different than for a raft load of refugees.

I'm reminded by this card my changes were mostly of place; farm to town, town to city, city to rural. Physical changes that required small mental adjustment and all by choice.
Even empathy is beyond my ability to understand the life of refugees. And why the fat wealthy lawmakers at the top make decisions for the good of themselves rather than the good of all?

Merciful sailing little group, I wish you all success on your distant  shore.

Friday, March 23, 2018


Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Oracle ~ Devil/Goblin Market

I think our shady Gringotts Goblin has the pulse of the customers. It doesn't need to be exotic elixirs and fruits of secret origin, we can find our own unneeded wants.

I've talked about my 'three week rule' and rhinestone brooch addiction, The rule works for me, and believe it or not, taking my Ebay search out of bookmarks cured the rhinestone banquet.

I just realized I now have five pair of cute tennis shoes though, up from an inherited pair and the lawn mowing pair.. That peculiar itch needs to be stomped. With a cute tennie. Go away you goblin.

Thursday, March 22, 2018

So We Go

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ 8 of Cups/Summer

When someone with wings chooses to  walk something is wrong. Trudging a muddy creek bed says the heart and spirit are exhausted.
Life can turn turn in a heartbeat when we are confronted with a knowledge that alters our thoughts and patterns or it may be something we've stewed about or in for years.

The 8 of Cups is a hard taskmaster because change is uncomfortable and often difficult for human or fairy. There are no companions like the 6 of Swords, no finality like the 3 of Swords. Just forward. And so we go. Alone.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

La-La Land

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Fool

The Fool has strayed from the path by "entreating and enticing" fairy folk.

I worked with a lady who was a self-admitted multi-level sales junkie. Although she and her husband both had good businesses they were enticed by the call of easy free money. She'd always say, when the thrill died "I wish I had all the money we've spent on nebulous plans back, we'd be rich".

I've been working on an entrepreneurial idea lately, triggered by two cards last month. I hope I'm on the path and not wandering around in la-la land. 

Tuesday, March 20, 2018


Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ 7 of Coins/Autumn

No wine before its time.
How many things have I messed up because I was too hurried, or too timid?

If humans were perfect, the world wouldn't be very interesting.

Monday, March 19, 2018


Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Lovers/Bride

Current statistics, 1st 10 years: 53% of marriages make it, 47% don't. Possibly fake news. We just hit 48 years. I wonder where the statistics for long term unions are kept. Census? We undered the radar on the last two.

I'm reminded by this card how little the marriage day means.
How we conduct ourselves all the days after is what matters.
This news coming from an eloper with a $35.00 wedding.

Sunday, March 18, 2018


Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Page of Spring/Wands

Lovely and unworried, the page is still living behind the white picket fence. Protected by youthfulness from the realities of life on the other side. Good for her, children shouldn't have to worry about bullets and booze, broken homes and parents with dementia and pedophiles.

I'm reminded by this card I wish this for all children. Would that it were possible in any and every world.

Saturday, March 17, 2018


Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Versatility

Sun in Gemini in the 3rd house
Fortune Flexibility Mental Awareness

70% of lottery winners are bankrupt within five years.
Rich people go bankrupt too, our president a shining example.
Members of my own family have declared bankruptcy.

I saw this card and was happy. Started writing a happy post. But here I am again, seeing the dark side, worried.
We don't buy tickets but a fun mental game is "what would we do if won some kind of 100,000 windfall"? I'm guessing everyone does this once in a while, usually dreaming of what wonderful things they could do for their extended families. (#2 don't do on the bankrupt lottery winner list)

My first though is carefully take out all out all my new windows and wood stove and raze this house to the ground and build a smaller one level. My logical mind says why not buy a new house? People. Money. Yipes.

Friday, March 16, 2018


Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Moon ~ Choice

Action Justice Beauty

How much and how often are we swayed by peers or media?
I'm thinking I would be embarrassed if it could be measured out in percentages.

This card reminds me of the the BookBub list each morning.

“Darkly humorous” A delicious slice of undead Americana”
" thrilling postapocalyptic read"
 “Funny, sad, and utterly believable”
"blistering send-up of lifestyle blogs"
“A masterfully told story”
“Engrossing… A page-turner”
“refreshing” and “instructive”
"Totally unputdownable… watch out for the twist!”

Are we already leaning or easily swayable by every little nit that comes along?
I wouldn't look up any of these topics on my own. Lincoln, 'Nam, hot pots, zombies, liars, altruism
but the flow of  exaggerated hyperbole is nearly irresistible. I feel swayed just writing them down.

Thursday, March 15, 2018

Healthy or Poisoned

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Egotism

Action Creative Self Expression

I'm thinking of Stephen Hawking today, his life path and choices compared to other influential men.

In all truth there is no comparison to be made, one person to another. Every step and decision we make marks and deepens our unique path. And how the difference in a healthy ego and a poisoned ego can touch the lives of so many of us.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018


Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Extremism

Mercury in Scorpio in the 8th house
Change Self-Control Regeneration

What do you suppose that burning paper is about?
Right to vote?
Divorce decree?
Her mother's favorite recipe?
The deed to the land is in her name?
Gun control?
Right to control her own body?

I'm reminded by this card what seemed radical yesterday is tomorrow's yawn.

Tuesday, March 13, 2018


Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Practicality

Moon in Capricorn in the 10th house
Security Duty Perseverance

I'm everything this card represents, to the point of nausea.
For all the good and bad things this personality requires me to plow through to the finish, the reverse is also true. To myself I act out, complain in a really whiny voice, shout "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired".

I'm reminded by this card the same thing is true of everyone I know. As a whole I'm sick and tired of the human race, but we go on, working playing loving honoring, cloaked as classic humanoids.

Humanoid is not a bad choice considering the options available.

Monday, March 12, 2018

My Block, Knocked Off

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Detachment

Venus in Aquarius in the 11th House
Love Principles Humanity

This detached head with the river of life  going by  pretty much nails my interaction with the real world.

If I'm detached, consolation is the knowledge the world has restarted at least six times after natural events have wiped out life. The current gnats will be gone soon and who will even care.

If my heart is torn on a personal level I detach, don't think or speak of the wound until heart and mind can find a common space to cope. Often, years later.

If everyone but me has been invited to the birthday party, I can grin and bear it. There are better worlds than this.

Sunday, March 11, 2018

The Things I Do

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Convention

Venus in Capricorn in the 10th House
 Love Duty Perseverance

According to the book author, this card/house is me. I wish I knew astrology. Or I wish I'd picked astrology rather than tarot as my 'learn something new' subject back in 2006, when my brain still worked.

Astrology is far more conventional and acceptable to the general public. This is everything I know on the subject. But for all the author good vibes, I look at this card and see a building sinking, a strange wind blowing, a pouting child, packages left unwrapped, and flora and fauna from a different world than mine.

I'm reminded by this card, nothing is ever what it seems on the surface. And being conventional is productive but boring.

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Still Waters

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ 8 of Cups/Water

"Still waters run deep." Pamela Eakins

As a kid I was the shyest person I've ever met. People would comment because I'd do everything I could not to speak to someone.
Maybe that is where my root aversion to talking on the phone comes from. Mother would say 'still waters run deep' with a raised eyebrow if anyone commented.

I thought she meant I was really smart. A busy busy mind. My first laugh of the day. I'm reminded by this card sometimes we do need to step back from the world, but to withdraw completely is a waste of a good life.

Friday, March 9, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ 8 of Coins/Earth

This card reminds me of when a hunt comes together.
I've been looking for a Hultgren square in a square ruler for years.
Eyes of the Dragon, Salem's Lot, Rose Madder on CD
The Long Patrol on CD.  (all in my bottom feeder price range)

Someone to show me how to load a MP3 book onto the player.

If that is all there is and all related to my eye changes, I'm living a pretty nice 3 of Coins life. And I'm well aware it.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

Need Want

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ 5 of Coins/Earth

What is it worth? Who decided the value quotient? How is that value changed? Can you live without it?

I value clumping cat grit far higher than diamonds. Amazing invention.
I value my excellent 10¢ coffee, drive through coffee not at all.

A list that could go on forever, and something to think about next time I feel envy or jealousy.
I value having what I need above getting what I want.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

For The Ages

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ 5 of Cups/Water

Spilt love.

I wonder how much gifted love I've spilled, incoming and outgoing.
Rob's brother died in January, no one thought to tell us until a few days ago.

Where does love go, when it's gone? A question for the ages.

Tuesday, March 6, 2018

Encourage and Enlarge

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ Ace of Swords/Wind

A new idea. One to encourage and enlarge.

A mind is a funny thing. We cling to the old comforting ideas. We work hard to birth not very good ideas. If we have a new idea most of us are assailed from every corner with "are you crazy, that won't work".

I'm reminded by this card, the reality of a broken brain is I have to work at having new ideas. The mind monkey is smaller though, so I accept the balance.

Monday, March 5, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ 6 of Wands/Fire

Glory? Does precarious worldly success equal glory? Did it ever? Does it still? Will it always?
Graduating at the top of the class? Without cheating? Well deserved glory.
Cubs winning the World Series? Wildly Glorysom.

 Pick a war, any war, real, threatened, long over. No glory whatsoever. None. Zip. Nada.

Why am I instantly angry at the thought? Isn't that how wars start?

Sunday, March 4, 2018

No Fear

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ Judgment/Resurrection

Don't believe in either. In my mind ludicrous.
I could go on for hours. I won't...

Moving on to another day and week filled with the reality of what I have and am, right here in the now, and with zero fear of retribution or death. That is enough for  me.

Saturday, March 3, 2018


Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ 3 of Coins

How about honing our capabilities rather than skills. Ooo. Sounds hard, sound like work, as opposed to how smooth and skillfully we do what we already do well.

Easier to do what we already know? Preference for ego stroking when we do something we know well? Is it really easier to learn things as a child? Maybe they just learn quicker than adults because learning is their go to skill and adults potential is all wrapped up in gotta do and mind sinks.

A painful conundrum for me, the woman who used to wiggle in delight to learn something new. I'm grateful to have held on to the skills I have, which is a cop-out. I'll think today on what I'm capable of I'm ignoring.

Friday, March 2, 2018


Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

Respite after turbulent times. In the 4 of Swords, we literally withdraw, thinking of nothing, doing nothing. In this 6 of Cups we see healing begin, and renewing our joy in living.

I never had any success in trying to be well. Well and renewal come on their own schedule. It is so nice to look forward to life rather than missing the target completely.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

'Ware, 'Ware

Daily Draw: Animals Divine Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

Sometimes we sneak up on ourselves, all the while shouting it isn't fair it isn't fair. We protest so loudly you'd think we'd hear ourselves coming and get some preparation in order.

My feet touch the floor when I walk and you'd think that would be enough, but the legs attached to those feet are short. So all the years I was a secretary and then customer service director at a mall I wore high heels. Long story short I earned myself a nice bursitis in my left ankle. Holy crapola that hurts.

I learned my lesson and went to flat shoes (here comes stubby, they shout) but sometimes that bursitis comes back. I've just spent two days getting around the house on my hands and knees.  I admire how sharp women look in heels and think  "7 of Swords 7 of Swords, 'Ware the 7 of Swords,.. it is thyself".