Saturday, June 30, 2018


Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ Empress

Yearnings. The things we aspire to, reach for, that make our life a better place to live.

I would aspire to care more about my home, at least keeping it sparkly. I've lived a long time and had many yearnings, most I've managed, others have gone by the wayside as a bad fit. Always worth the effort. When we stretch our self, we make room for changes we didn't dream we needed.

Friday, June 29, 2018

Common Experience

 Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ 2 of Cups/Wave Songs

Is it familiarity? Or friendship? Coming together by plan or accident? I'm thinking this morning of a class reunion. My class only had one, the tenth, and all the new clothes fairly crackled in the room.

There were only twenty seven of us to begin with, many together all twelve years. I probably couldn't say any are friends, we haven't seen each other since then. But there is a deep bond of common experience, and that would carry us far beyond hello.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

Outrageously Different

Daily Draw: Songs for the Journey Home ~ 7 of Wands/Flame

The great escape. Cutting the ties that bind. People vs. Sheeple.
Self powered vs. Marionette. Marching to a different drummer.
Crystal vision vs. Muddled outlook. Outlier vs. Outsider.

It is a rocky road being different and I don't think many people choose it deliberately. Being different with a crowd of differents is another story. But then we get lumped with the ones who are outrageously different...Oh the sevens, and the sticky trap of aligning with anyone at all.

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

It Changes Us

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~Wands Page/Innocence

The time before we become aware there is a world beyond what we know. In some ways we are innocents all our lives.

I woke myself screaming last night.

Each day something happens in the world that catches my eye or ear and I immediately wish it hadn't. Because once something goes in it never comes out, we forever know it. And it changes us.

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Flapping Gums

Daily Draw: Songs for the Journey Home ~ 10 of Swords/Wind

Entangling relationships, and what do we know and when did we know it. Fresh off a family reunion I've had a number of my memories corrected for which I'm grateful.

But how much of the rest of my limited memory is fiction or tainted fact? Gives me a lonely untrustful feeling. Am I really the only one in there, flapping my gums in the Wind?

Monday, June 25, 2018

Good News Bad News

Daily Draw: Songs For The Journey Home ~ Chariot

Good  news. We are camped up high, overlooking the gorgeous Columbia River Gorge.
Bad news. Our chariot possesses a bad slide-out motor.
Good news. All under warranty.
Bad news. It is a long way to the repair center.
Good  news. We aren't going to be late for work. I Love being retired.
Bad news. I'll be forced to sit and sew while enjoying the view.
Good news. Life is as hard as we choose to make it.
Bad news. Rob needs a 7/8 crescent, the only one not in his busy bag of tools.
Good news. Who cares, I Love being retired.

Sunday, June 24, 2018

Life As Oops

Daily Draw: Songs for the Journey Home ~  5 of Cups/Wave Songs

The broken dreams and lost opportunities. Having a moan. I always meant to, I always wanted to, I certainly thought I' now.

We could probably go on all day. In a full lived life there are and will always be odd choices and blown plans. That is why it is called Life. Sometimes known as Oops. Move along, move along, no show here folks.

Saturday, June 23, 2018

Meat Hook

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 6 of Swords/Blood

Survival. Bring it down, bring it home, eat it.
I used to hunt. Sold my rifle three years ago.
Now I have a slingshot, never aimed at anything living, even trees.

We can care all we want about humane meat plants but when it comes down to it, from loading up until hung up, it is all terror for the animals.

If I had to kill it I say I wouldn't but humans will do anything to survive and being the market for packaged meat, I am killing aren't I?

Friday, June 22, 2018

Leave Her There

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 7 of Wands/Nature

Tumulus. Burial mound, grave marker, barrow.

I still go too often.
I have last summers grave flowers arranged on my deck.
Maybe someday, when I can say her name, I'll leave her there.
But I doubt it.

Thursday, June 21, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 2 of Wands/Nature

"Happy Development" A child and a stone toy.
Looks like a toy bullroarer with elements of learning involved.
Scraping my brain around into different mounds, trying to remember some childhood toys.

There was the red board. Supposed to mimic a woodpecker because one end was pointed. It has yellow legs pinioned into two spaces and became a walking woodpecker for as long as you wanted to bend over and lift it up and down so the legs swung.

There was the ever evolving round Quaker Oats box. We'd get a new one about once a month.

And the song Beep Beep The Little Nash Rambler makes me laugh still, and wonder how many miles my big brother and I crept and then ran full out around the house downstairs while it played.

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Haves And Have-Nots

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~9 of Cups/Soul

"Necessity of ritual sacrifice"
Being impaled, while bound. Many nations have used this action through history. As capital punishment, like hanging, electrocuting, beheading, impaling supposedly deters miscreants.  And is the opposite spectrum from the standard card, a chubby man chortling over his nine cups.

Life is ever made up from the haves and the have-nots. If I were a desperate have not, there isn't much that would deter me from survival.
Odd old deck isn't it?

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Talent + Practice

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 3 of Coins/Jewels

"Abundant production" A craftsman offering a mask. I could happily go around the world just watching the production journey from a single person or original to finish giant manufacturing plant.

Yesterday our tree man came in and fell a telephone pole in the field next door. Came down exactally where he said it would, as have the trees we've had him fall. Talent + Practice. + thoughtfulness. He sawed it into eight foot sections for our corner and pull-to fence posts.

Monday, June 18, 2018

Blend And Drain

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Force/Temperance

If we set aside the brain, which may or  may not be of any use, I wonder how much innate instinct we have compared to a rabbit or elk or dog. Not much, in primordial times, but enough.

Many readers say they read by their instincts rather than basic tarot structure. I wonder what they mean by that. I wonder if it could be said that I do too.

As we blend, separate, reabsorb, and drain again, what we might of thought of as instinctive behavior ten or twenty years ago has probably reformed into new thoughts and responses.

Each day we get, we remake ourselves from what we had, what we have, what we take, what we are given. A good thing I think, giving us the path to be better rather than stunted and misshapen.

Sunday, June 17, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Moon

The feminine. That which pulls us and pushes us. The strength we find when our strength fails.

I'm reminded by this card I started a project this week which common sense about my eyes says is doomed to fail. Bull.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

Who Pays

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Justice/Adjustment

What about when things go amiss even when many eyes double check? This beautiful deck and the little book have a number of errors. Which should have been caught by the artist, author, and publisher.

How will Justice be meted? Thousands of decks to the landfill? Say it isn't so! Will the current purchasers get corrected cards and little book, or will new decks be shipped to them? Who will foot the expense?

I think there were two of this card, the other with oxen. The drivers goad and the yoke standing in for sword and scale. I want it. Adjustment indeed.

Friday, June 15, 2018

Below and Above

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Temperance

A gender equal deck, he blends action + reaction, male + female, the truth and the vision, id + ego. Above and then below, below and then above.

I'm reminded by this card of a peasant farmer in a hard scrabble country vs. everyday life in a G6 nation. They have limited access to most things modern, we have exciting input around us 24/7. Both ends of the spectrum need Temperance to find the balance I feel makes my life worth living.

Thursday, June 14, 2018

My Mind Refuses To Mind

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Don't lose the big picture by being caught up in the small stuff.
Perhaps this is where the light has been leaking from my days.

Small things which even by short term history are immaterial.
Animals die, houses burn, storms kill. There is no way to stop time or history to save anyone before or after the fact. Rather than the mad monkey mind which jumps from subject to subject, this mind lingers dwells drifts where it shouldn't, allowing even silken ribbons to drag us down.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Make It Stop

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

A creature of compassion: Sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.
Creature of empathy: The ability to understand and share the feelings of another.
Creature of coping:  Dealing with responsibilities, problems, or difficulties in a calm and adequate manner.

I would attribute all these qualities to this Queen. To do it she also needs a stone heart and steel backbone. Because where does it stop, all this caring? The light at the edge of my wellness is wavering. And I know the second it started.

Tuesday, June 12, 2018


Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

"Self-delusion and excess" Zillich

That could describe me a number of times over the years. Yet even now I delude myself that I'm cured of it.

The image of the gobbling queen is faint but the dead pheasant is very real. How many ways do I harm the earth, people I care about, my own heart with illusion?

Monday, June 11, 2018


Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Death

A black pelt, borrowed feathers, ossified fingers.
It welcomes new life as future fodder.

I'm led to wonder, on this utterly gorgeous spring day, how many will die, unremarked, unfound, unnoticed, gone?

Sunday, June 10, 2018

Evidence Of Effort

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 3 of Coins

Discipline + Effort = Goals
Is that a zippered folder? Are those rail tracks across the winter sky? Is he supporting the crystal to keep it from rolling back? Just resting his back? Pushing it uphill? Is he bothering with it because it is pretty and can be displayed as evidence of effort?

I wonder if visible evidence is a facet of my being a dedicated quiltmaker? Because if that counts then so would the remains of projects abandoned. Am I, did I learn anything from them? Is the 3 of Coins track so narrow as to not count learning as goal worthy?

The track of my efforts re: comments on the new blogger, leads me to wonder if my readers clicked on the G+ in the upper left and left a message, would I get it? Blogger no longer supports Open ID. Just how many tracks do I have going? Eight? Dozens? None?

Saturday, June 9, 2018

Beset Upon

Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ 8 of Wands/Orange One

Our Orange One feels beset upon by leakers and enemies. No cure for him as he refuses to learn or even acknowledge, but in my youth I sometimes felt the same way.

I'm reminded by this card, a life lesson for me. At any given time a percentage will not care, actively dislike, or totally ignore me. That is a good thing. Keeps life real. Keeps ego in check.

Thursday, June 7, 2018

Shalt Not Steal

Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ 7 of Swords/Sides

I wonder if any popular writer in the last century has used the word shalt?

A common question asked writers is 'where do you get your ideas?' Same place everyone else does, seeds bubble to the top and get grabbed. The key is hold on and expand rather keep grabbing.

I'm reminded by this card to wonder why, when bad ideas bubble to the top, we grab and hold on to them? That bad idea in grade school to steal the packet of Fizzies from the school store. I still feel bad about it today. But I ate them. And the long term anxiety over the action taught me a valuable lesson. The things I earn have great value, and thing that was stolen has none.

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

Three Old Bags

Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ 3 of Cups/Steeped One

I use Ty-phoo, PG Tips, Highland, Tetley, or Yorkshire tea, because they remind me of my dear friends in the UK.

I'm happy with using each bag three times. The first dip is more of a drive by. The bigger the mug the better. Black two sugars. Often with a quarter spoon of instant coffee.

I found that recipe by happy accident, I made tea in the cup that still contained some of my morning brewed coffee.

I never dated anyone twice that didn't want to sit at the kitchen table and drink tea with me. Tea. The miracle reviver.

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Easy Decision

Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ 2 of Wands/Mispronounced

The Doner, where many foods are mispronounced.
Is this why we choose the familiar rather than something new?

Crudités ("kroo-dee-TAY") cru-dites
Edamame ("eh-dah-MAH-meh") ede-aim
Hummus ("HOOM-uhs") Hum-us
Radicchio ("rah-DEE-kee-oh") radi-o-sho

There is a youtube on how to pronounce yogurt...Wonder we get through our day at all, isn't it? My newest pairing? Dannon light and fit Greek topped up with Great Grains cereal. Crunchy to the last drop. Easy Decision.

Monday, June 4, 2018


Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ World/Chip Breaker

Lost in the dip bowl. Crumbs and bits of Scoops, BBQue, Ruffles, Rice cakes, Triskits...

We all go in the world dip, and we come out soggy or bent, broke or whole, occasionally carrying someone else's dipper or DNA.

I can buy it, the bowl for the world. And there is always George's five second rule for germophobics.

Sunday, June 3, 2018

Three Constants

Daily Draw: Food Fortunes Deck ~ Queen of Sweets/Coins

If the Queen decrees it, it must be so.
No dessert in the house. Particularly the kitchen. Not even hidden in the bottom drawer of the chest no one uses. Not behind the dog food. Not on the top shelf. Not in the Jeep, no not under the seat.

Rob, quilting, and Weight Watchers have been the three constants of my adult life. About once a decade I renew my get the weight back off relationship with WW. Funny how we can say every morning, today is the day. And it lasts about eight minutes. And then one day we are 'in the zone', act like an adult, and plow through the pounds. Humans are funny people.

Saturday, June 2, 2018


Daily Draw: Spiral Tarot ~ 3 of Wands

"Looking over the business of the day" Steventon

I'm in the process of listing a lot of decks for sale. When I came to the office this morning the LWB for the Trilateral Tarot was in the hallway.  Cards were on the floor. The original knit bag seems to be missing entirely.

Later: Four cards on the fourth stair step. Bag and one card in the bedroom. Honcho is polishing his halo. Perhaps we have another reader in the family? Amazingly, no teeth marks. I'm grateful for small favors.

Friday, June 1, 2018


Daily Draw: Spiral Tarot ~ Queen of Coins

"Practical and comfortable" Steventon

This Queen seems to be the 9 of Coins lady, older, smarter.
I'm out of the trial for my eyes. One is too good, one is too bad.
The practical side immediately thought, goodie, they will be just right for the fourth trial when they know even more.
Reality says the little featherweight sewing machine I take in the RV is no longer realistic for my sight. Instead of grieving, I'm thinking, goodie, sell it, get a small machine with better light and self threader.

I shout at myself, I don't want to know! but wiser, I'm booked for the chest cat scan and the mammogram.
A wise woman brooks no excuses. Comfortable isn't very sexy, but practical is the key of my life.