Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Rock This Outfit

Daily Draw: Harmonious Tarot ~ King of Cups

Everyone in this deck so far have been of a happy go lucky demeanor. Have things ever been going so well that you start to get worried, too good to be true, everything is surely about to fall apart?

Cups being about emotions, here we have the King of. Even in the black times I still got up every day. I did it because deep down, floating at the top, somewhere in the middle, was the knowledge my life was good. Worth getting up for. With more good in store.

I'll take it and keep it. And I would so rock this outfit in my favorite colors. But still, that little voice says 'too good to be true'.

Monday, July 30, 2018

Trust Me, They're Brown

Daily Draw: Harmonious Tarot ~ 6 of Wands

Both my neighbors have a horse, one big brown steed and one little brown pony. Horse people will shout 'you know nothing' because there is no such thing as a brown horse.

I'm reminded by this card just because we know something doesn't mean we know anything at all. Self congratulations are probably a good habit to let go.

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Knightly Transition

Daily Draw: Harmonious Tarot ~ Knight of Coins

"Organized and dedicated to duty"

I see no indication he and his horse are dressed for anything other than show. Being a knight was usually part time employment. If not employed at war they were pretty much bottomless stomachs forty days of the year waiting for grub; expensive to maintain.

In return for that 40 days a year liege to their Lord they were often granted land on which to support themselves. Being a knight and a farmer are mental  miles apart, I wonder how well they made the transition? In wars, years long, how was home and family maintained? And if they didn't come back did land revert to the Lord?

Life is complicated. Always has been. Organized and dedicated is generally the only way to survive it.

Saturday, July 28, 2018

Blue Food

Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ Slogan #6

"Beyond perceptions made by presumptions"

Hard to not just lump like things with what we think are like things.

Each year about this time I buy a budget pack of 18 twin pop popsicles. The yellow banana are my favorite which I save 'till last, I love to have things to look forward to.

I eat the purple grape ones, taking the bullet for Rob so he doesn't have to. Then the green lime ones go.
I have yet in all these years eaten a blue one. Nope. If it isn't blueberries I'm not eating blue food. Lojong and presumptions or no.

Friday, July 27, 2018

Turning Inward

Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ Slogan #40

It is so easy to think why bother. Why bother with community service, grassroots involvement, generous donations, paying taxes. There is so much skimming, waste of time and materials, inappropriate use as to boggle the mind.

"Self concern"
Slogan #40 asks me to turn away from how all this is all about me, to it is all about a better place, here, on earth, where we live out our days. Living them to the highest good...

But But But. All I can think is why bother. At all. I'll cocoon, I'll turn my face from the world, I'll stop, step around the vexation and distress, make it invisible.

Thursday, July 26, 2018


Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ Slogan 38

"Their loss our joy" karma and vampireism

Karma will get you for that. I've never understood the mechanics of that thought or what karma is, but we get the idea of wishing  a bolt of lightening upon a jerk. Or the vampires, when you have a joy to celebrate you get the "yeah, but what about that son in jail or sister that can't afford surgery or that garage about to fall down...humm, what about that?

We all know a joysucker and there are probably times when we've inadvertently been one. Slogan 38 would like us to work on our compassion, and recognize our own joys can generate more joys.

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

Dose of Daily Rage

Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ Slogan 51
"this time practice the main points"

Of the three, Bodhichitta snags my brain this morning. As I go through life working on being a better person than I was yesterday and the days before, how am I actually doing it? Better is a nebulous word...I know what I don't do, but what are my do? Haven't a clue.

Bodhichitta would like me to transform rigidity of don't do into a softness of practicing an all compassing gentle spirituality. It has been two years since I started reading the  morning train wreck called the news again. Yesterday I disappeared  my news page. I don't need a dose of daily rage. Or the daily heartbreak of humans out of control. Practicing peace in the morning...what a concept.

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Hoist On My Own Petard

Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ #43

"remember these two; the vows of refuge and of devotion"

Lojong #43 suggests we follow the teachings of Buddha and devote ourselves to our community of like believers. On a less ecumenical level these suggestions apply to any group we are part of. We take mental and  physical sustenance from like-minded companions. Our success fuels theirs, our mistakes, shared, help keep others from the same errors in judgement.

My convoluted way of saying I'm up two pounds this morning, a first. If I was on program I wouldn't be. But I thought I'd try my own path this week, and am hoist on my own petard. I've mentally beat the crap out of myself. That done I'm simply blushing and will be today's shining example of what not to do.

Monday, July 23, 2018


Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ #42

Steady, consistent, patient.

Rabbit starts, leaps of enthusiasm, depths of  dog days doldrums.

Lojong #42 asks that we choose the 1st path. I can see the benefit but not the fun.

Sunday, July 22, 2018

Blown Off Course

Daily Draw: Lojong for the Layperson ~ Guidelines, #50

On letting external circumstances alter our direction.

 We got our state primary ballots in the mail yesterday.
There is a candidate I've backed in every single position she has run for. Because I admire the strength and dedication she has shown in her personal life, which has translated to honest thoughtful service in her political journey. Until now.

She has gone with the herd 93% of the time rather than vote with her brain. I can't say how disappointed I am.

But... am I the one who has been blown off course? Or is she?

Saturday, July 21, 2018


Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Rainbow Serpent

The creation theory with serpent as creator.
I could go on for hours.

Suffice it to say, the birth and ongoing creation of our planet over billions of years fascinates, amazes, and humbles me. Earth in all its facets is always worth preserving and honoring. I'm working to have a very small footprint that will go poof when I do.

Friday, July 20, 2018

Tit For Tat

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Echidna

Checking to see if the echidna is in the same family as our porcupine (not) I found it is one of the oldest surviving animals on the planet and is on the endangered species list.

All that said, in the Dreamtime this little one was late to the consequences party and was killed for the water he was keeping from the tribe who refused to help him get to the sugarbugs.

Tit for tat. Two wrongs don't make a right. Equivalent retaliation.
The Wheel, animal style.

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Perceived Perception

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Dingo

Perceived Perception and what we miss. The dingo barked to tell the distraught bereaved mother to listen to the parrot voices, much like those of the children she'd lost. For his pains he was whacked in the throat, and henceforth had no bark.

Akin to missing the forest for the trees? I know there are times I've been so focused on one thought that I've missed something important. I don't know if it is my nature or human nature but it leaves me felling like a dolt. A happy dolt, but dolt nevertheless.

Wednesday, July 18, 2018

Fish or Cut Bait

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Southern Cross

A version of Eden tale, in which one refused to eat the banned meat, and was lifted up becoming part the Southern Cross constellation. The man, the tree, and the cockatoos who refused to leave.

Belief, commitment, trial by fire. A lot of our beliefs are set in childhood, before we question the whys. Some of our commitments are made without knowing the full story. And trial by fire can make a believer or nonbeliever very quickly.

Fish or cut bait.

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Barrel of Fun

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Sturt's Desert Pea

A cautionary tale, and lightening makes its third appearance.
True love is rewarded by an entire tribe being slaughtered at the behest of a wirrunum, who, coming back the following year to gloat is transformed into a boulder which is then shattered by a lightening strike.

The lightening? Intuition ignored and disaster follows. I'm ignoring nothing and am always on full alert. She said in a confident voice. Meanwhile being ignorant of the meteor strike approaching. Life. Always a barrel of fun.

Edited to add later: Went through the deck, there are only three cards with lightening.

Monday, July 16, 2018

Less Than

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Brush Turkey

Brush Turkey always felt 'less than' in the green rain forest that once covered the area now red desert. When lightening struck she encouraged the fire which ended the forest, made the desert, and scattered the wildlife.

In a case of be careful what you wish for, you might get it, Brush Turkey earned itself the new features which pronounced it as touched by fire.  A scaly head, wattles, and ash colored feathering.

We are what we are and it usually takes our lifetime to get comfortable with it.

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Truth Doesn't Lie

Daily Draw: Oracle of the Dreamtime ~ Lightning Man

Namarragon. If you are lying you are dying. The power that pushes us to our knees when our actions or thoughts go awry.

In truth there is no punishment, only consequences, and the lifetime development of personal codes and sense of right. Fifty years ago we only knew the liars and beaters and cheaters in our own community, a tiny contingent of aberrations.
The magnifier 'bad news gets eyeballs' of the web has made me feel abnormal and out of sync, often stunned and disbelieving. It is indeed a weird old world.

Saturday, July 14, 2018

Wile E.

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ Page of Swords

The Roadrunner, the 1949 cartoon example of a mensch letting the problems of his world slow him not at all. On the other hand his nemesis Wile E. Coyote, with endless Acme plans, invariably ends up squashed flat, left in the dust, caught in the net.

A prime example of moving on and can't move on.

Friday, July 13, 2018

Corn Stalk Antlers

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ Judgement

Hey. Was Santa pulling the reindeer? They look kind of sheepish...

I'm reminded by this card we are our own worst judge. Why do we do it? Habit at this point.

The sheepish ones have every right to try something new, to form a union, to party hearty with the elk, to move to greener pastures, to ditch the constant computer bell, to kick the butt of the artist that drew their antlers like corn stalks.

In other words just another interesting day in the life of...everyone.

Thursday, July 12, 2018

Carry On

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

Under attack, defending feelings and ideas. Perhaps offering to explain the idea behind the idea. Perhaps they aren't interested or feel there is too much justifying.

Actually it is none of their business. Carry on.

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Fully Aligned

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

"Use the energy of the Dragonfly to align emotions with thought"
Robertson   Eh?

To be honest I didn't even notice the dragonflies, only the table settings, honing in on the cherries. It is cherry season here and the tippers (from a few days ago) are coming into the landfill with forty thousand pounds of pits and stems each load. Imagine how many loads of cobs are dumped when corn starts processing. When the tomato harvest begins in California the freeway exits/entrances near the fields are awash with tomatoes that have bounced off the trucks.

I am daily furious with federal wasteful spending. I'm always furious about it. I'm pretty sure thought and emotion are fully aligned.

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Bless You, Girls

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 6 of Coins

What gives more freely than a chicken? When the world goes dark hens and a rooster would be my pick for hard working animal companions. They can free range for their food, eggs would be akin to gold, feathers a usable commodity and in their old age meat for the stew pot.

Of course I'd never allow that thought to worry my hens! Just three wee banty ones left now, Sugar Bear plus Little and Little.
As they die of old age they each have a shroud and are buried in a circle around the walnut tree.

The most thoughtful thing Rob has ever given me? When I was in a bad way after seeing my little sister in ICU he never said a word, just took me out to sit with my girls. Listening to them visit and comment among themselves helped me draw strength for much worse to come.

Monday, July 9, 2018

Sharyn's Game Sharyn's Rules

Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ 5 of Coins

You must be rich.
How many times has that thought crossed my mind?
I thought of my friend Betty Jo as rich, she always had some pocket money. Compared to my empty pocket.
I thought my landlady must be rich, each month she mailed a stack of checks about five inches high to pay bills.
The knowledge I could get more credit than I could afford was still years off.

It is all relative isn't it?
If you are ten pounds lighter than me,
If you are ten dollars richer than me,
If you are ten years younger than me,
whatcha complaining about?

Easy Peasy, Sharyn's game, Sharyn's rules.

Sunday, July 8, 2018


Daily Draw: Animal Totem Tarot ~ Temperance

I once collected flamingos. Flamingo notepaper, candlesticks, fabric.
Salt dips, precursors to salt shakers. Brass bookends. Picture frames. And where  did the dozens of pencils and pens come from? Do they hatch in the night? Big rhinestone brooches. In the early days getting decks was probably a form of collecting, but there isn't a library for decks where they can be checked out and used for a few days. They have to be used to see if they are usable.

FlyLady created Temperance in my life. The flamingo stuff is gone, the bookends serve as door stops, the favorite remaining salt dips live in an inherited display case where I enjoy them every day. I don't buy fabric but use what I have. Decks come and go like buses, the few keepers reevaluated each January.

The quilt fabric collecting was a problem, an addiction akin to hunger and took some serious effort to break.  Believe it or not.

Saturday, July 7, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ Ace of Coins

Beginnings. My most often beginning? Bring myself back on-line. I may have the worst connectivity in the universe. Gripe gripe gripe.

I once saw a commercial for pizza, knocking another brand, by saying 'how many square feet of bad pizza can you eat?".

My broadband provider gifted me 30 extra free gigs of monthly allotment this morning. My question is "how many more times will that allow me to be kicked of-line and begin again".

I took two hours of frustration and funneled it into hoeing out gargantuan dandelion plants. They are beginning again as we speak. Dandelion and moles. Faithful to me to the end.

Friday, July 6, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ 5 of Cups

Conflict and uncertainty. This is a 'pip' deck of the Marseilles style, often shortened to TdM. The conflict with this whole style of deck is the right or wrong way to read pips. If you'd  never seen a pictorial minors deck, what would you make of five cups? Or seven coins? Or how to tell swords and wands apart, and which way if any, is the right way up?

I found airy advice in, concentrate on the vines. Look at the color symbology. Follow your intuition, let the florals speak... All unhelpful. So I do what I'm guessing most do, transpose the idea of the pictorial card into the pip card.

This is the oldest deck I own. Color symbology? The whole deck has the same four colors and shades. Choosing up or down there are still five usable cups. The differences in the vines and leaves are minimal. All said to say the first TdMs were printed in the 1400s. And we are still conflicted how to read them.

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Neon Toggle

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~10 of Coins

What part of our brain gives guidance on too little and too much? Is it so tiny as to be easily overruled? Is it so big as to become the overlooked tree for the forest?

I'd like a neon orange toggle switch on my forehead. Linked to a neon lime anchor, for those days I pass by Stop at a high rate of speed.

...Runs off to Amazon to see if either item comes with free shipping, while toggle and anchor sleep on, peacefully unaware.

Wednesday, July 4, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ 4 of Wands

Home. Going home from work always gave me a lift. Things to do I wanted to do. Bits to clean or clear making it a more welcoming home. Poking along at dinner prep. Or feet up, zening out.

Holiday today, tons of vehicles on the road, a record number according to the experts. Including Rob, working part time. (60 hours last week) Doing this. Only he is up the gorge in strong wind. Quite often when the tipper is finished he has to pull out and move over to get the possum belly rehooked up. The wind actually blows the tippers sideways.

Every job we come home from has something interesting to teach us. A skill and a fact. And a reminder home is best.

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

What If

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ 8 of Swords

The ties that bind.

It is incredibly difficult to give up the known for the unknown.
Human nature in a nutshell.
So we stand, tied, thinking "what if", "If only", but seldom "oh, why  not?"

Monday, July 2, 2018


Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese ~ 3 of Coins


at least that is the way it is supposed to work.
today my mind seems more tendrils than stem
more bud than flower
whatever I have isn't ripe yet
I can wait

Sunday, July 1, 2018

Back Door Butchers

Daily Draw: Tarocco Piemontese Tarot ~ King of Coins

What came to mind was
The king was in the counting-house
Counting out his money,
The queen was in the parlor
Eating bread and honey

Do we think this relates to King Henry VIII and religion?
Do we read this as women relegated to their proper role?

Do I think women are rapidly losing rights and being put back in place? Pretty much. How did we come to this pass? Am I the only one thinking about back door butchers rubbing their hands in glee?