Sunday, September 30, 2018

Explosive Reveal

Daily Draw: Haindl Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Youthful folly and illusions of success. I could write pages on this subject because we have seen it played out on a national scale this month.

It has me reviewing my own juvenile behavior from 12 to 21. 90% pure, 10% reprehensible. I am not excusing anything I did. I did learn from all those experiences and carried none of it into adulthood.

Could anyone come forward with an explosive reveal today? Absolutely. But I'm not dumb enough to set myself up as an honorable example and all encompassing judge over every single person in the USA for the remainder of my life.

His behavior while under examination has been anything but judicial. He is still 18 at root.

Saturday, September 29, 2018

Potholes + Orange Cones

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Moon

The Moon is often read as the dark side of our personalities.  As my favorite card in all decks, how does that personal tarot discord help a querent who just wants to know what the heck is going on?

Perhaps the hunting owl says night or day we have to recognize the details, the mice of life. If we leave the details unstrung, unformed, there isn't enough knit up together to lead a cohesive life, it is all potholes and orange cones. Potholes signify the breaks, orange cones signify awareness and repair.

Friday, September 28, 2018

Well Mannered

Daily Draw: LLewellyn Tarot ~ Page of Cups

Well mannered and accommodating. We've run into bus loads of kids this trip, Wind Caves being the last group. And they all have been polite and helpful.

We have also been on tours with senior citizens and they have been just the opposite. Why do they sign up for these tours when all they do is complain?

We plan on never being senior citizens. Unless it gets us a discount.

Thursday, September 27, 2018

His Armor

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Knight of Coins

Hardworking, orthodox. I wonder how big the test group has to be to get yourself deemed orthodox. I might even find a person using the term on someone a sanctimonious prat.

Name calling out of the way for the morning, I admire a upright man with a job and a future in mind. Rob has worked as as an adult beginning at thirteen when he left home for good.

I could never even once get him to call in sick so we could goof off. He is an always busy, hardworking man. And as unorthodox as a white male can get. And he doesn't need any armor, his honor travels in him.

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

Rerun, Running Hard

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Chariot

Ten wheels to the ground today, rolling hard, long road ahead.

So I'll share some of my past Chariot posts
It always surprises me what the cards yank out of my brain.

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Anazing

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

If I could have just one physical sensation for the rest of my life it would be hugging. I love hugs.

I hugged Juan, the owner of of Rockcliffe Mansion in Hannibal Missouri a few days ago. Surprised the heck out of him but auto-response took over and I got a good one in return. This house set empty of residents for 43 years...still full of all it's furnishings. And most survived. Amazing.

Monday, September 24, 2018

Fool + Rudimentary Plan

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ Fool

This is no dummy walking off a cliff, but a dummy with sammiches, friends, a rudimentary plan. Sort of like us, on the road. Turkey sammiches today. Grand Island one goal.

Little city RV parks (Winterset today) are fun with about 25 spots. There were 400+ at Amana Colonies the day before. All good places to get steps in. Those old round GMC motorhomes? (1973-1978 RIP) There was a convention at the Amana Park. Way cute! There were two lime ones!

The oddest thing we've found? People pull into a park, get set up, go inside their rigs, shut the doors, and apparently do whatever they do at home. We thought we'd meet hundreds of people, run our gums, hear lots of interesting stories...not.

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Crikey

Daily Draw: Llewellyn Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

I have been pierced and flayed by this stance.
Can't even begin to understand myself.
The how and why of myself.

Or even why I'm blaming myself, an auto response.
Poor deluded Sharyn, trying to escape herself.
Wasting my money, wasting my time.

An hour later, still pissed off. Crikey.
Good thing tomorrow is a new day
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Even later. After walking a couple of miles I noticed these trees and their shadows. a fork in the road..every single step we take is individual, as good as a new day, as are our decisions.

Saturday, September 22, 2018

AI

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 6 of Swords
Innovative thinking + philosophical and scientific perceiving.
A little above my pay grade in understanding. 
Bringing my brain fossil together with artificial intelligence?

I'm at AmazonSmile everyday checking out the books on BookBub.
Invariably the Amazon home page is awash in AI products. I don't comprehend a single one of them. Or how having any of them would enhance my daily life. But I've had a computer since 1996 and accepted its usefulness and ability to compute and draw a response in less than seconds. 

Perhaps I should do a reading on the subject...

Friday, September 21, 2018

Deluded And Eroded

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 5 of Cups

Self-delusion, in a tattered gown. I've thought "you must be deluded" at myself. We can see so clearly when someone else says the earth is flat, but not so much when it is our own pet belief.

My self-confidence is eroded because of my ongoing memory problems and I spend a lot of time double and triple checking everything before I say it, and then wonder if it made sense, is it true, should I have checked again, thought harder.

PITA but I'll take what I have over the ash urn anyday. Even a tattered dress is better than no dress. And deluded, I can call it fine and who could say different?

Thursday, September 20, 2018

Tangled

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Tangled in the minutiae.

So easy to get muddled up in the small stuff of life and forget to look up and track the big stuff.


Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Puff of Wind

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ 9 of Cups

Zillich equates this card with knowing and liking yourself and where you are, and also a sense of entitlement and arrogance.

I can understand that mix. I've worked hard to get to where I am today, mentally, physically, financially. I'm also oldish, weakish, tiredish. That is usually the price, because it takes a long time and a lot of sacrifice to get to the 9s.

I'm reminded by this card to encourage others struggling the same road, not sniff and walk off. To enjoy the bliss, never take what I have achieved for granted. It can all be gone in a puff of wind.

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

An Upright Place

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Hanged Man

"suffering leads to enlightenment"  Zillich

Also explosive anger.
Observation can lead to enlightenment.
Which can also lead to hubris and judging.
Suffering can teach humility and empathy.

Enlightenment, humility, empathy. An upright place to be.

Monday, September 17, 2018

Cry Off

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Chariot

"A symbiosis of shell and driver rushing toward the sun"  Zillich

That pretty well sums up yesterday. We've looked forward to visiting Mississippi and Louisiana for three years.

Well we cry off. We can't take it. We are big fat northern crybabies, tucking tail and running from 98 degrees (the weatherman says "feels like 106") with 98% humidity.

"You're a better man than I am, Gunga Din!" ~ Rudyard Kipling

Sunday, September 16, 2018

Tenth Chance

Daily Draw: Zillich Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

A well grounded beginning in the material world. Education, experience, maturity, Then comes what we've learned and gained from the three suits that have gone before. Critical thinking, heartfelt interest, and get 'er done mind set.

Seems so straightforward. Amazing how many ways we can screw up. Fortunately there is always a second chance, and tenth. As long as we stay willing adaptable and open.

Saturday, September 15, 2018

Possibilities

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Star

"the inexhaustible possibilities of existence" Crowley

If we could remake ourselves, would we?
The first thing that comes to my mind is "what about all my stuff".

I'm still the person of 1970, 1990, only more so. To know what we'd renew as, we'd need to know what we aren't. This is a 'think all dayer' card of release, and renewal.

Friday, September 14, 2018

Happy

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 4 of Cups

Pursuing happiness. It isn't likely to just fall in our lap. Or does it, and maybe we don't recognize it as being happy.

Small happys:
Shelling peas or snapping beans
needle and thread making stitches
My one cup of coffee
My two cups of tea
Being able to read books still, via Kindle app
If I wanted to I could call every single person I know
Honcho and Ash
Xavier and XingXing
Going on vacation
Getting back home
Electric light
Good sleep
I could go on all day. Happy is in the moment, joy is deeper and stays when happy is gone.

Thursday, September 13, 2018

Bedevil The Light

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Sun

Are we the hijacker of our personal light, of the world's light? Are we so undeserving that the minute that lightness comes near us we begin working against it?

Honestly. Humans. We are worthy. It isn't illegal to enjoy and appreciate goodness, funny, joy, anticipation, to 'have a nice day'.

I had a day in the light yesterday, but I kept dampening it by thinking how could I when children are incarcerated, when homes are abandoned, when families are killed by family.

None of that is my fault, nor could I possibly do anything to correct the ill of the world. But here I sit worrying over everything.  Hokey Smokes Bullwinkle. Humans.

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Meant Well

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 2 of Swords

Meant well.
I'd do it again.
So why stress over the results/fallout?

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

Choice Vs Surrender

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 6 of Wands

Setbacks and persevering.
If it were easy everyone would do it.
In for the long haul.

I'm thinking Weight Watchers this morning, my current battle, but it applies to anything worth doing. There will be times when we think something is impossible and times when we wonder can it really be this easy.

One route to success is to recognise random and unexpected victories. This is probably where the crowded field of those who try and those who prevail part company. A matter of choice vs. surrender.

Monday, September 10, 2018

First Laugh

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 2 of Coins

Wait a minute it will change. That is what we say about the weather in the Pacific Northwest. The Minors are like that and nowhere more so that the Coins. The 2s are industrious but unreliable. I'm sure I've been described that way at some early point.

A financial funny on myself; I had to write a note to my bank this morning to ask how to use my debit card at a 'not my bank' to punch out some cash. Am I the only person that unknowledgeable? Oh well, it will be their first laugh of the week...

Sunday, September 9, 2018

Enough is Enough

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

I've heard it takes three generations to make a fortune and one generation to go through it.
There seem to be a lot of people who've taken a shortcut to wealth in these times. Many of today's crop of stars seem to be paid by the wheelbarrow load. Paid for being a celebrity. That boggles my mind.

I'm reminded by this card, I am glad to be who what and where I am.

Saturday, September 8, 2018

Paced

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Ace of Wands

Coiled to spring...I like sudden turns, new ideas, quick action.

On the other hand I need a warning to get ready for fartin' around, dwalding, poking along.

We are coiled to say goodbye to Missouri and spring into Tennessee this morning, where we stay in place and poke around for a few days.

Friday, September 7, 2018

Daylight Is Burning

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Eolh/Algiz

Who protects and who endangers?
What serves and what takes?
When are we comforted and when overwhelmed?
What structures and what destructs our lives?
Why can we have all the above in a day?

Life, lived a mile a minute, even when sitting still.
Daylight is burning.

Thursday, September 6, 2018

Innie Outtie

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Queen of Cups/Beltane

Vision. Is it a curse or a gift that we cannot see ourselves as others do?

I'd like to be on the outside looking in for a day. Good or bad, it would be a eye opener and a life changer.

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Truths

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 9 of Swords

"he convinces us of his truths"  Smith/Astrop

I'm not going there today, I'm on vacation. What is true...
our Midwest is muggy.
Multiple lightnings do light up the whole sky.
Thunder does roll on and on.
The sky here is gorgeous, we forget, at home we are walled in by trees and mini and maxi mountains.
No one in America should be hungry, the crop fields stretch forever.
Every state and town has both tourist and traveler hot spots.
Today it is the Pony Express Museum.

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

Nuking Marshmallows

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 4 of Wands

What do I still do, that I did in childhood?

I've always liked to go in grocery stores in different places. Two new ones here in Lincoln, Shopko and HyVee. I found a new veg, canned yellow squash. Can't get that at home.
Rain tapping on the roof, with a good book. Marlfoxes in Redwall.
Skipping breakfast. I don't because it sets me up to overeat later.
Hug on cats.  Ash and Honcho are the bees knees!
Still hate talking on the phone. I think it was the eleven families on a party line that killed the wonder of speaking into space.

Eating marshmallow with a fork. Twenty or so mini-marshmallows in a bowl, topped with a tablespoon of butterscotch chips, nuked for thirty seconds.

Monday, September 3, 2018

Red

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

We are in Lincoln Nebraska where everyone and everything seems to be Cornhusker Red. As we mentally say goodbye to Rob's mom this week our minds are on dissimilar paths.

I asked Rob to tell me something funny or fun about his mom. With barely a beat he said "there isn't anything". I said "Really?". And he said "she was just, mom".

I remember her coming home from her daughter taking her up to the top of the Seattle Space Needle. She said every single person in the elevator was dressed in red. The Cornhuskers were in town. So they had a picture taken of all them in the elevator, showing the two of them being the spare wheels on the Cornhuskers are in town ride.

Sunday, September 2, 2018

Change

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Eoh

Change is the only consistency in life,
and what we most resist.
Humans. The most interesting people on earth.

Saturday, September 1, 2018

Begin Again

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Spirit ~ 9 of Wands/Fire

The apex of all is right in our personal Thoth world. On the scale of the Majors, this might be akin to all the noise all over the world when World War Two was officially ended. As a Minor card it might be getting the license or diploma, finishing a big project. Even all the lights are green all day long.

I'm reminded by this card the apex isn't all it is cracked up to be, more a nice resting place to savor something before we begin something new. Where the new excitement is, after relaxing on our laurels until boredom sets in.