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Friday, November 30, 2018

Claustrophobia or Acrophobia?

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Tower

A dragon hanging on by his thumbs, holding up or tearing down?
A winged hero forcing the dark back...is it a dare?
A hand controlling lightning, or is it just empty threats?
Little winged figures are beginning the climb, fresh starts, new ideas.
The lights are still powered, can't be all bad. Can it?

What we don't see is the tunnel, the darker way to arrive.
Can we choose the claustrophobia of the inside journey
or the acrophobia of the stairs? This is our life and there is
always a choice even if they all seem bad.

I've been on both paths, and they all lead to here. Today. Keep moving or life runs over us taking our choices away.

Thursday, November 29, 2018

The Pumpkin Doesn't Last

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 7 of Coins

Yesterday's 7 has us wishing, today's 7 has seen the fulfillment. He seems contented with that, sitting there on his pumpkin.
Did he seek more of what he has? Or to have what was the other side of the fence? I think either way, still having coins on his tree pleases him, because he understands the pumpkin has limited value.

I think there are three kind of people. For some it is the money making, for some the money having, for some the money spending. I used to wonder why rich people kept on working...must be because they fall in the first group.

I work toward health and a peaceful heart; everything else will fall into place. And because the pumpkin never lasts.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Think About It

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Be careful what you wish for you  might get it? That seems such a mean thing to say. I suppose it might have some truth in it, from the viewpoint of, if you achieve/get your dream you don't have anything to dream for/about?

The wishing and hoping, dreaming and thinking, for me is more about the anticipation, the hunt, the mulling. I'm looking for a pink fiestaware oval plate, small. For my kitties. So they have the same plate in the 5th wheel and the big house. I've never actually gone out looking for one or checked ebay. We live in a town full of antique stores, there is probably one down there.

More fun to just think about.

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

In The Blurb

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Magician/Apprentice

I dare you. Not the best view of our apprenticeship of life, but one of the learning paths. I had nice friends or I was very timid, I don't remember doing anything on a dare or suggesting someone else do it. Now that I think of it though, we took a dare yesterday.

We've talked about selling this place for the last 10-ish years. When we, What if, Have you thought, Are we,..We've actually made a decision after all that farting around. Buy a new place better suited, then move. Only then sell this house. We'd be sure we were only taking what we need, with a few want things. And after stripping this place, deep cleaning, staging the main rooms, put it on the market. How easy is that. Why not said the Fool. Brilliant said the Apprentice.

And we actually went out and looked at a place. Don't they all sound so good in the blurb?  "Reverse! Reverse!" ~ Father Jack

Monday, November 26, 2018

Afraid To Know

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

Today's modern decks often include a squirrel card, a nod to Homer Simpson; and several lovers cards offering the option of multiple likes and loves.

I dreamed last night I was friends with a rodeo bronc buster and didn't even know it until I saw him on a horse in the arena. I wonder how many things Rob and I don't know about each other.

I always ask, because Rob is interesting and I never know what he will say. He never asks, probably because he is afraid to know.

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Into The Net

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Temperance/Time Lord

Poole didn't want a gentle card like Termerance between Death and Devil (Metamorphosis and Tempter), so drew her Time Lord to take the space. Look at him, slamming those chalices together. No overall sense of moderation here, the subconscious is awake shouting "Watch out for the bus!"

And we merrily go our way, unaware or ignoring the coming Tower we've set in motion.  We were never a nation for moderation were we? Unwilling to drop to our knees and crawl, we'd rather go teacup over kettle then start fresh. Life and Time don't work like that; small individual actions do affect the whole. And on we run...straight into the Time Lord's net.

Saturday, November 24, 2018

Non Seeing Eyeballs

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

Know the secret of using a seeing eye ball? I don't either but I can say where the initial difficulty arises because I inherited one. They reflect. Every bit of light in a space. Can't really say you are seeing in, when you can't see past.

I'm reminded by this card and my non-seeing eye ball, we see what we expect to see in this life. In everything from proofing a letter to choosing a spouse, first we see what we want to see.  It is worth looking deeper, there are hidden gems in this life that slide right by us every day if we aren't open to them.

Friday, November 23, 2018

Mental Autocorrect

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 8 of Swords

Blindfolded, he works his way down the stream using his big toe for antenna and his hands to field obstructions. I feel like this sometimes. My eyeglass Rx has not changed in the four years I've been adapting to MacTel. So bizarre, as my surrounds ripple and roll. That isn't fixable by glasses but it takes me twice as long to take the standard eye test.

It most certainly could be worse, much worse, and maybe someday it will, but for now I'm very grateful for the view out I do have. I just do a mental correct for what I think I should be seeing.

Thursday, November 22, 2018

Tribe-centric

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

If it were a thousand years ago what or where would a new direction actually be? The Americas were so thinly populated and natives were mostly tribe-centric and while we are at it, would those be indigenous or aboriginal?

How about if they had skills that would  be needed or missed.
How about if they were from the Leaders group?
How about if they were the most beautiful?

I expect humans have always had to market themselves, in tribe or out.

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Valor

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Strength

Is this a fantastic creature or what? Apparently enjoys bodhran, is amenable to saddle and reins. Has large three clawed feet, teeth made to rip, and a defensive tail. I'm guessing it intimidates by size so seldom needs to actually fight. 

The small centaur in the lower corner is smiling but no fool, giving plenty of leeway for an escape route. That also says strength; common sense is a good portion of valor. 

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

The Kid's Table

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

This card offers two keywords, applicable to holiday family occasions this week. If someone is gobbing off about religion or politics how do you handle it? These are weird times...

I saw a headline that said the little kids table should be banned. I always liked sitting there as a kid, cute little table, cute little chairs. But by seven to nine year olds? If they are willing to put up with adults squeeze in another chair. They will get true memories of family. I only remember some aunts and uncles and cousins via the specific interaction when eating together. Never saw them anywhere else. Our warrior here is how little kids see the adult 'seen and not heard'.

Monday, November 19, 2018

Mentor

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Hierophant/Mentor

My most recent mentor was Jan. I did her hair every week for 10-ish years. Married to a military man, she lived all over the world, had a child in Japan, another in Germany during the Nuremberg trials. She taught me to be open to what life brings and changed me in many ways.

Rest in peace my friend, you'll never be forgotten as long as I am alive. Sept.26, 1919-Aug. 21, 2015

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Pointless?

Daily Draw: Merry Day Tarot ~ Ace of Wands/Fire Dragon

Those Wands. "Work Work Work Work Work" Mel Burns

I got a notice from Flickr they were going to a paid format and would only hold 1000 images for free. The rest would be deleted. I panicked because I have well over 5K photos on this blog, wouldn't it be sad to lose all that?

Turns out I got the notice because one time I joined one quilt sharing group. Whew. But it made me wonder where the heck all my images are? Apparently on Picasa, which moved to google photos and most are in Quirkeries blogger archives there.

And I don't know much more than I knew when I started. Should I lay awake worrying about losing all those photos?  Could my computer hold all those images if I downloaded them? And like Webshots (which deleted millions of albums) would they all arrive with a string of numbers making sorting a nightmare? Work Work Work...

Saturday, November 17, 2018

No Path At All

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Cups

We had early Thanksgiving yesterday with two people we love. A+ day! We all retired about the same time and all agreed retirement is the best thing ever invented. Play all day!

But we also agreed what we liked or needed to do fills up the time and space we have to do it in and that pressure is both mental and physical.

I'm reminded by this card we don't have a new path, or old path, retirement is having no path at all. And we need one, with self discipline and mindfulness of our commitments. Time is precious, and truly flies.

Friday, November 16, 2018

Madder Than A Junkyard Dog

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ Devil/Cernunnos

Animal instincts in humans.
Die like a dog. Madder than a junkyard dog.  I'm stumped for any more. Probably because dogs are given bad press.

Humans can and do way worse than animals and do it again and again, deliberately. Leave animals out of human nature, we are far worse without the redeeming features of animal to balance the scales.

Thursday, November 15, 2018

The Price We Pay

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ Knight of Coins/Shields

At a crossroads, Bors found his sister on the left and brother on the right, both in mortal danger. He made the hard choice to save his sister. On returning they found the brother had saved himself. But that brother never spoke to him again.

It has been 20+ years since I've jumped in to save my little brother. That option does not exist because it never ends and never fixes. It has been -20 years since he has even asked. Yet he has never faulted or blamed me, when I see him I am always greeted with love. Somewhere inside my little brother resides this honorable Knight who can only live by his honest choices.

I love you Gordon; I'm sorry love has never been enough.


Wednesday, November 14, 2018

R&R

Daily Draw: Legend Arthruian Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

A convoluted story of Tristran and Isolt with heaps of treachery and deception all around.

Lives lived like this are probably how R&R and Executive Time got started.

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

Liberties

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ Queen of Swords

After reading up on Morgause I was sorry I pulled the card. An unpleasant wife, mother, queen. But if I took the woman out of it and read her actions as a man and part of Arthur's court, then it is all business as usual.

Why do we allow men liberties and condemn women for the same behavior?

Monday, November 12, 2018

Go With It

Daily Draw: Legend Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Wands/Spears

A rush of enthusiasm, occasionally known as 'getting carried away'.
This card has my number.

I completely cop to often being carried away with some idea or project. It is an excited feeling, being in that grip. Awake and aware, brain pretty much in gear.

And I do have my three week rule, where I don't gut the house or sell a vehicle or paint myself red until three weeks have gone by. A little safeguard that pays for itself every time I use it.

Sunday, November 11, 2018

Flea In A Hot Skillet

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Hermit

Lancelot flees the turmoil of court life. I don't blame him, you couldn't pay me enough to have that constant hubbub and one-upping and fawning, and the begging for favors as constants.

I get why those who thrive on it do so...it must be like a action movie, always someone else's new firespot to extinguish, and old fire that needs kindling, a personal fire to fan to flames, and no quiet time in which to reflect or own.

Saturday, November 10, 2018

Perspective

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ 8 of Swords/Feathers

A change in perspective, intentional or not. We went to a big RV show yesterday. Having spent a couple of months in our 5th wheel this year, we thought it would be fun to see the show with experienced eyes.

We liked the new microwave/convection oven combo. We thought king size beds were a waste of good getting around space. Our lavatory sink is bigger than some in high end massive beasts. There are better made entrance stairs. Many of the couches had massagers, which were disquieting, uncomfortable, and noisy with a bass reverb sound. Not enough plug-ins across all brands.

We talked to couples who were seriously shopping for the first time, perhaps shared new perspectives they hadn't considered. All in all a fun date. And we love our own rig best and look forward to next week and another run with it.

Friday, November 9, 2018

My Dogs Are Barkin'

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ 2 of Coins

Feet. I'm guessing the first material thing my feet touched was black ink then were pressed against the paper birth certificate. I think those feet certificates stopped being used a long time ago. I wonder if our toe prints mirror our fingerprints?

Our feet become working partners . Part of the whole unit. This week I'm walking behind the mower, followed by Rob walking behind with weed and feed spreader.

I can't believe until a few days ago I didn't recognize I embrace walking as a hobby. Because feet are so utilitarian I gave the fun of them a mental miss. Last night my dogs were barkin'. In colloquial english that means my feet were sore. I'm going to have fun with my partners today. Life is good.

Thursday, November 8, 2018

Owning Thoughts And Actions

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ 7 of Swords/Feathers

Those loops. Why me, I'm so mad, it should have been mine, can't afford it, can't go there, so rude, why me, where is he, mean girls, why me why me why me, why not me.

The older I get the more I've acknowledged being an adult is just a kid in bigger clothes with more expensive toys. Having a child mind stays with us until the end. It is the mind we learned to think with, why wouldn't it always have a say?

The good news is the adult mind has a strong voice, and perhaps the two arguing it out gives us that clear concept of what thoughts and actions we own. Laying blame on the child mind serves no purpose at all.

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

Compadres

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ 2 of Wands/Flames

Siamese twins? No...more like meeting someone like-minded. And with that base, introduce each other to facets we hadn't considered before. That potential spouse, friend, mentor, even enemy.

I'm reminded by this card of my compadres on the sidebar. We met via the cards and formed a unlikely friendship that probably wouldn't have happened otherwise. They both make me rise above my base. I appreciate that.

Tuesday, November 6, 2018

Gimpy Magic

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ Magician/Magic

We live in a world stuffed with magic. Its true name is brain.

Magic so far today, at 5:23
Scan, name, post. Amazing, three different machines communicating along with Google. Four actually because I'm gimping along with a usb keyboard on my laptop.

For the fourth time in fourteen days I've tried to buy a refurbished gen5 ipad at ATT. That equals about one hundred screens, only to have the purchase rejected after completion. Amazing magic...

Falala, I don't care and when I'm over being mad, I'll just do it again. I'm retired, I have several hours, I will win. With my magic combo of brainy bits.

Monday, November 5, 2018

Buffet

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ Star

Nourishment from a place of self awareness.

I often find myself avoiding this buffet.  Not worthy. Late for the show. Who needs it. Falala I'm too busy. Can't be bothered. Not waiting on hold for nebulous results. Who is the moke running the show?



Sunday, November 4, 2018

Push Pull Lift

Daily Draw: Margarete Petersen Tarot ~ Devil

An expressive image for our devils. I have a number of them in stronger or fainter versions, dependant on the mad monkey of my mind for their power and movement.

I spent eight hours yesterday doing qigong, sitting and walking meditation, and yoga, with fifteen people and two leaders. I realized this morning I have not been bedeviled once since yesterday.

Something to be said for continuing my own practice and getting better at qigong. Lift the boulder follow the moon push the boat.

Saturday, November 3, 2018

Nag Nag Nag

Daily Draw: Enchanted Spell Oracle ~ Wisdom/Ivy

This card asks that we step back and grow some objectivity. Because Wisdom is a many faceted thing which changes constantly as we add new information and actions.

Being an info-junky, it is comforting to know I'll gain wisdom right up to death. While reminding myself, how to build a bomb isn't anything I need to know. Or how to make a noose, or sabotage someone's success.

Balance. Nag, nag, nag.

Friday, November 2, 2018

Healing Recipe

Daily Draw: Enchanted Spell Oracle ~ Healing

The healing properties radiating on this card are salt, echinacea, lemon balm, eucalyptus, St. Johns Wart, rose. Now that I'm well I had thought to ban the word depression from my blog. I really am trying but it was so all encompassing for so long...

I had a long series of unsuccessful anti-depressants over the first two years. Culminating in disaster. I then spent weeks ferreting out natural antidepressants. And monkeyed with those for a couple of months until I found my right recipe.

When I get home I'm going to add that recipe here, perhaps it might save someone else. It saved me. I'm all for any efforts toward healing.

Thursday, November 1, 2018

I Words And Detachment

Daily Draw: Enchanted Spell Oracle ~ Intuition/Rowan

Rowan is an ancient aid to encouraging the "sight".
Intuition:  ability to understand something immediately
Insight: accurate, deep intuitive understanding
Intellect: reasoning and understanding objectively
Illumination: clarification
All four of these states of knowing are in this deck.

The one missing? Influence. We have an inborn ability to coax and encourage a better understanding  of what and who we accept or allow to influence us.

Twinned with the ability to step back, put some distance between us and our hot buttons, good or bad, and see with detachment. Detachment is a good thing...