Monday, August 19, 2019

Big-headed Woman

Ceccoli Tarot ~ Judgement
Letting go of the past

Out of the labyrinth a rose forms and from it arises a big-headed woman. By the time of Judgement our brains should be the best thing about us. A lifetime of pulling ourselves together, getting our head straight, understanding who we are, leaving the carpola behind.

I did a reading this week for a budding entrepreneur and asked her if she knew if she was a symmetrical or asymmetrical person. I'm asymmetrical and it was helpful to know that in managing my last two businesses. Do you know which you are?

Buhl Idaho is harvesting grain and we are enjoying fresh from the field corn on the cob and cantaloupe.
 

Sunday, August 18, 2019

Disneyland Drive By

Tarot of the Cat People ~ 2 of Wands
Partnership, Balance, Division, Desire

We haven't had many vacations. The first, maybe three years after we married was a week. Nevada/Arizona/California. Traveling with a truck driver...point a to point b. Shudder. One of the reasons there were so few. We were out of money by California, did a Disneyland Drive By. About seven years in we got our first dog, Goldy. Things improved because we had to stop to run Goldy.

Our first retired trip was the day after mother was accepted into the memory care home. We were exhausted in every way. We drove straight to Mississippi to see a terminal friend, but we did stop to run the dogs, still the traveling lifesavers.

This is our fourth long retirement trip and we've got it dialed! Just two real destinations, short driving days, several days each stop to explore, and our little house on wheels, no motels! A happy partnership, a balance of who does what, all interests are being met.

Ash, in her favorite spot while I sew. Our first accident? I collect rocks. I would prefer to pile them up behind my seat. Rob dropped it in the pickup bed...on his fiberglass fishing pole. His first pole. Now a broken pole. Oops. 

Saturday, August 17, 2019

Daylight Savings

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Detachment
Venus in Aquarius in the 11the House
Originality, Humanity, Rebelliousness

Daylight savings time. Originally thought to be a helpful idea for humanity..not. In a 24/7 world it works for no one, benefits no one. Pain in the arse for everyone.

Look here, type in your state, write your legislator. Detach from this idiot rule. Good job you states that already have or never did fall for the whole idea.

added later: check check check. Done.
added 8/19/19, from Representative Ed Orcutt:

Orcutt, Rep. Ed
Aug 18, 2019, 8:25 PM

Sharyn,
I agree we need to stop the changing of the clocks twice a year. I supported a bill to allow us to opt out of Daylight Savings Time (stay on PDT permanently). As we neared the deadline for bills to advance and the bill had not moved, I signed on to a letter to the Speaker to move the bill – and, fortunately, he moved the bill! I supported it, but that change doesn’t happen automatically – it is just a request for Congress to authorize us to do it. But, we now have made the critical first move to accomplish this objective.
Ed

Friday, August 16, 2019

Repeat Master Plan

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Speculation
Cancer in Jupiter in the 4th House
Gain, Nurturing, Attachment

The book reading of this card relates directly to my earlier Pounce Scrub Rinse Repeat master plan. If I'd drawn this card 2 or 3 weeks ago I'd probably be crying. Not today. Pounce Scrub Rinse Repeat.

I'll go to Speculation. Moving house today to Hagerman Idaho. Will there be fish or are the rivers too low? Will we need the heater in the mornings, after the high temps here?  Will the trees there be 'sappy' like the ones here? We are covered with sticky dots! I'll be setting up my sewing room, will my view be lovely? Fresh picked local corn on the cob tonight! Life is good, and speculation is part of the fun.

The 4X8 foot-ish wagons that traveled across the Oregon Trail in the mid 1800's. 2000 miles, 6 months. Everything you  need or go without. Believe me, I recognize how wonderful my Little House On Wheels is.
Visit the Oregon Trail Interpretive
Center if you are ever in Baker City Oregon! 

Thursday, August 15, 2019

Nothing And Everything

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Patience
Jupiter in Scorpio in the 6th house

The card says Scorpio, the book refers to Virgo. Patience and dedication are involved in proofing, including our life. That is what I do here, fact checking self, real or assumption? This blog keeps me honest, who knows what my brain would get up to without it.

On the road? Yesterday we pulled into a rest stop and I swore, no it couldn't be, yes I'm sure it was...a giant rooster sitting in the doorway of a parked camper. We were only 5 hours out from home and hens but I'm missing them like mad. So I got some steps in, going roundabout the park so I'd come up behind the camper and prove my brain wrong...and there it was. A Barred Rock of immense proportions. Taking in the day, people watching tourist antics. Let me assure you I got some good rooster petting in! The gentleman who traveled with him was headed to the nearest Veterans Hospital for some tests and follow-up after heart surgery.

Petting a dog can lower blood pressure, what does petting a rooster do? Nothing and everything. 

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

Chex Check

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Vision
Sun in Pisces in the 12th House
Understanding, sympathy, sacrifice

Bad parents, rotten teachers, too poor for tattoos, wrong place wrong time...sorry, not cutting it for me. Life is way too short to blame everyone and everything else for a personal path.

So I'll go on to Vision. Oh the things we'll see!! Setting out for a few months: Enough sewing stuff to last two years? Check. Plenty of mustard and tea and cheese? Snack bags of my personal Chex Mix recipe? Check. Desktop and decks? Check. Dogs and Cats? Check. Check in with the Moon this morning with a Moon Salutation? Orange and big! Check. Life is good.

Sharyn's Chex Mix
box Wheat Chex
box extra toasty Cheese-It's
bag Snyder's Butter Snaps
can peanuts
box Stauffer's whale crackers
Pour over top: cup popcorn oil
3 tablespoons Worcestershire Sauce
2 teaspoons Johnny's seasoning
1 teaspoon chili powder, stir while pouring.
Giant metal bowl, bake 250 degrees one hour, stirring every 15 minutes. Store in snack zip locks. 

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Reserving Mercurial

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Choice
Mars in Aquarius in the 7th house
Action with a sense of beauty and injustice

Mood swings, expending far too much energy in negative thoughts and pursuits. (Astrop) My silver hair isn't easy care anymore, my foreshortened breast feels like it has been hit with a dead blow hammer sometimes, I'm sick and tired of watching my weight, why is my closet full of old lady clothes...

Actually my silver is beautiful, I'm lucky to be alive X 10; as my mother would say, come here and I'll give you something to cry about, my closet is full of the same type of clothes I wore at 30...

And my fingernails are the most beautiful, 60's mood ring thermal blue. They go from pale afternoon sky blue to deep purple blue with the temperature. How cool is that? Today my choice is happy. But I reserve the right to be mercurial. 

Monday, August 12, 2019

Scorp

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Secrets
Venus in Scorpio in the 8th House
Empathy, self control, passion, regeneration

All of the above can be painful positions to hold. We use empathy to help or understand but that doesn't give us the right to throw ourselves into other's lives, at the demerit of our own.
Learning the self control to know when to observe, when to help, when to let someone help themselves is a life lesson, once learned of exceeding value. We can't fix anyone.
Passion? Where would life's fun be without it? We have to be excited about something else why get up in the morning?
Regeneration, part of what I love about being alive. If something I do or think or experience is carpola...I can change it. The need and the want are there, and so am I. I will not be less because it is easier or comfortable. I'm a Scorp, what can I say?

Sunday, August 11, 2019

Sex Sells

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Publicity
Jupiter in Leo in the 5th House
Gain, Creative Self-expression, Big Ego

I'm doing a reading for an entrepreneur on ideas to grow her business. Plain old publicity is always at the top of the list, a one person band has to think around corners differently than a corporation with money to burn.

And one person can now easily sell worldwide. And market to the world sitting at their home desk. Amazing. The side issue being we might have ten competitors at home base, we might have ten thousand worldwide.

Our friend here has found a flamboyant costume, wings for the bible folk, shoulder and leg because sex sells, a logo, and flashing stars for the kids. I think she'll make it, if not she'll always know she had a lot of fun trying. 

Saturday, August 10, 2019

Hello

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Power

Moon in Scorpio in the 8th house
Security, self control, regeneration
Susceptible to brooding and outbursts

Umm, hello Sharyn 

Friday, August 9, 2019

Arise and Celebrate

Cathar Tarot ~ 3 of Cups/Love

Had to look up 12th century bedrooms...yes, entirely possible there were headboards, sheets, pillows. OK. Flummoxed by the T-stick. The Cathars were about restraint and moderation, so one cup on the three of cups, OK. What drew her from her cozy bed to run outside?

Setting aside the approaching Crusaders and a terrible death, Catharism was also embracing naturally occuring joy. The full moon? The first hooty hoot of a spring mourning dove? Breaking dawn leap to start the day? A horse approaching signaling a homecoming? Setting up for something they might celebrate like the holiday of Saint Mary Magdalene, July 15th? Who knows. I hope it was a wonderful day with love, peace, and laughter. 

Thursday, August 8, 2019

One Asteroid Please, To Go

Cathar Tarot ~ 5 of Wands/Shields

The Cathars believed in the idea of shared goods and wealth. So did our NW Native Peoples with their potlatches. The Cathars were exterminated by the Crusaders, our natives were gifted smallpox followed by missionaries who stripped those remaining of their culture, took the children from their families and sent them away to be brainwashed the white way. With plenty of abuse of all kinds thrown in for good measure.

If there were a world prayer it should be save us from the religious, an asteroid hit would be kinder.


Wednesday, August 7, 2019

Idea Of Self

Cathar Tarot~ 3 of Swords

When losing or leaving something central to our idea of self, one of the first reactions is to replace it with something similar. Wells Fargo to Bank of America, Methodist to Adventist, Ford person to a Dodge person. A sense of loss, a hole which we rush to fill up with new personal links and team ra-ra-rah. Being part of something bigger is probably survival instinct at base. Now it's marketing and we buy in without asking why we need it in the first place.

But that dissatisfaction that caused us to move along in the first place? My personal experience is that it is better to not fill that hole, to explore the why of pulling away. Working with the Cathers this week, I'm speaking of religion, but it is true of all our relationships. Whose sheeple agenda did we buy into and why?

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Bullied Knight

Cathar Tarot ~ Knight of Coins/Wisdom

Here is a knight not fully invested in the idea of general thuggery and dealing death for some lord or duke currying favor for some king. He has no sword and his shield is tied around his neck, a cumbersome awkward probably dangerous thing to do. In order to carry a book.

I like this boy. And I'll bet he got bullied in school.

Monday, August 5, 2019

Bloody Fodder

Cathar Tarot ~ 10 of Wands/Shields

The Crusades. Pope Innocent II started by proclaiming his god's salvation to those white men who went to hot lands and killed brown men. By Pope Innocent III the Crusades included France, Italy, and the Mediterranean, killing every Jew and Cathar they could lay their hands on. Cathars because they were moderate believers, and rejected Catholicism. Fools that they were.

I'm reminded by this card, dogma kills. A 10 of Wands burden we all carry because as frail short lived humans we seek out a structure that will tell us what to think and what to do. Because we are afraid to step out of the herd and say isn't love enough? It never is of course because there has to be a you and a me to make the fight to keep our tiny little minds busy while the powers at the top kill and kill and kill. 

Sunday, August 4, 2019

Life Long Class

Cathar Tarot ~ 7 of Cups/Love

Matthews: Moonlit paths, cloud dreams, castles of sand.
One reason most readers don't just fold up their tables and run from the room is we do remember the angst of those preteen and teenage years when we'd brain and heart anchor on some kid and they would consume our thoughts.

Then we get a little older and actually have a relationship where hands are held and long phone calls ensue. Moving on to holding in dark corners and back seats. All good, all life. But also the time we start seeing what we want to see. Ignoring what we don't. Laying the foundations of understanding how much work is involved with Love. 100% worth it if both parties are on board.

Love. A life long class in reality and dreams. 

Saturday, August 3, 2019

Orange

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Potential

I'm loaded with the red potential of trigger temper and impatience with my concept of fools. I know this and modify that destructive tendency by adding yellow and creating orange. Joy, determination, and channeled enthusiasm.

Less harmful and a lot more fun. 

Friday, August 2, 2019

Ware Watch Ward

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Vulnerability

I have it in me to be a total bedlam bitch. A harridan, a bully, a pusher. A I don't give a crap, I couldn't possibly care less, don't give a damn about anyone or anything. Ruthless. That hard side saved my life, but it could just as easily take it.

I recognize it and it frightens me how easily that side comes out. So I get up in the morning, pull my card, and look for the reminder, the pointer, to a better way. Expose my vulnerabilities. I don't think we could be human without both sides, the first gives us the strength we need to be the second. But that yellow, that defcon three, ware it watch it ward it. 

Thursday, August 1, 2019

Ain't Doin' No Anguish

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Anguish

Extreme distress, despair. No game playing with this deck again today. I'm not in that place, but I have been, will do just about anything to not go back.

In fact even though I just got on, I'm turning off the computer, taking my coffee out on the deck and listen to my new little rooster Rusty Boy. Maybe crow back to him. Rock in the swing. I ain't doin' no anguish.


Wednesday, July 31, 2019

Pounce Scrub Replace Repeat

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Water

It would be nice to take a hose to our brain, and add a spin rinse for good  measure. Leave it all shiny, the shady and salty bits exposed and we could accept that all we hold onto is not gold but cobbled conclusions that serve no purpose but to cloud and deflect a good life. We deserve better than what we allow ourselves.

I have several pockets of stale energy that need scrubbed. If I can exorcise the rage that once consumed me, I can do the same here surely. I know it will take months, that I will need to be vigilant; pounce, scrub, replace, repeat. Until gone. Today, I pick one. And made some reminder sticky notes.

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Make A Memory

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Memory

Haunted? Bent? Lifeline? Having walked with Rob's dad and my mother down the path of dementia leading to their deaths; losing their skill sets, personalities, piculariarities, and in the end their memory of self, I can attest, memory is who we are.

The deck creator warns against living in the past, good advice but I wonder if she has ever observed living without a past? I wonder what memory I'll carry away with me today? I can hardly wait to make some. 

Monday, July 29, 2019

Stick And String

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Fire

We are nestled up against the Naches River in a narrow canyon where native peoples have fished hunted camped for thousands of years. Rob caught four fish last night using his little Tenkara pole, the next thing to a stick and string. Just another day in paradise.


Just around the corner up the draw another ancient action is occurring. Forest fire. At full daylight the two Hueys will begin their rounds again, crossing back and forth over camp with their payloads of water scooped up just below us, dropped just forward of us. (click image to enlarge) About a ten minute round each. Stage Two, be prepared is the advice. Unless the smoke turns I'm staying...paradise is paradise.

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Action and Consequence

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Influence

Not sure I could name the planets but I know people who follow astrology and always know where their houses conjunct and why that is an influence.
Couldn't name every person who has influenced the direction my life has taken, probably don't even know some of them. There are hundreds though, perhaps thousands.

Actions and events? Huge influencers. My sister's death, two cancers, caring for my mother and Rob's father color this century in ways that still surprise me today.
There is no recycling here anymore, it all goes to the regional dumps. All the trillions these gray men are pouring into moon flights...can't any of them design a factory that actually reuses/remakes good recycle? Influence...action and consequence.

Saturday, July 27, 2019

Excessively Rudimentary

University Books RWS Tarot ~ Ace of Swords

"Excessive degree in everything, triumph of force" A.E. Waite

It has been an interesting week with Mr. Waite and his 1910 deck thoughts, designed as a project for the Golden Dawn and to go with his book Pictorial Key to the Tarot. On reflection of his words I wonder what he'd think of how the deck is used today by me. Watered down I expect. Uninformed I'm sure. Rudimentarily no doubt.

One thing we'd be in full agreement on, tarot is endlessly engaging, fun, and historically fascinating. Everything a good hobby should be. 

Friday, July 26, 2019

Stockholm Syndrome

University Books RWS Tarot ~ Hermit

"Treason, roguery, corruption" A.E. Waite
Someone who hasn't read Waite's book probably doesn't know these were three of his Hermit concepts, and not in the reversed position. Someone who looks for or creates conspiracy theories often works in the dark, using their own idea of light, looking to the underground for like minded cohorts yet still essentially a loner.

Food for thought for me today. I spend a lot of time thinking my own thoughts, which can consequently take dark turns and no one to say nay. I'm listening to the Gunslinger series this month, for the nth time. Roland's quest was fueled by rumor and guesses and instincts and adrenaline and for the most part no one to share it with. When he draws companions the sheer weight of his belief reels them in, but it is basically the Stockholm Syndrome. Food for thought, Mr. Waite. 

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Info-Junkie Rampant

University Books RWS Tarot ~ Tower

In the Rider-Waite deck, the top of The Tower is a crown, which symbolizes materialistic thought being bought cheap. Poking around I find ambition that is constructed on faulty premises, structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth, rending of a House of Doctrine, the fall into the material and animal state.

Shudder. And all before I've finished my first cuppa. The card goes back to the 1400's and the first gaming tarock decks. It has been some years since I've had a Tower moment, I'm fine with never having one again. But then my eyes go back to the definitions, and I think how good it would be to have the scales on my eyes drop away, once again, giving a new clarity to the truths of my mind set. A mental Tower moment, I could live with that, my info-junkie rampant.

Wednesday, July 24, 2019

More Reasons

University Books RWS Tarot ~ 4 of Coins

Do I need it? Absolutely not.
Does it cost much? About the same as a butterfly tattoo.
Do I want it? Yes.
Have I given it my three week rule? Yes.
Will I get it? Maybe. Probably.
It is a rather unusual find these days.
Tries to think of more reasons. 

Tuesday, July 23, 2019

Too Little Too Late

University Books RWS Tarot ~ Hanged Man

Circumspect. Or party pooper if you prefer. If you abide by the rules it probably always feels like the world has gone mad. Compared to ancient Rome's excesses? Compared to the don't even blink or the church will kill you 1400's?

I keep coming back to the thought we don't live long enough to ever learn our lessons well enough to get the act of civilization right. 

Monday, July 22, 2019

DNA Filled Shoes

University Books RWS Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

"A plan that may go wrong" A.E. Waite
Swords weigh from 2.5 to 4.5 pounds, here our boyo carries five in his hands, by the shafts. I'm guessing he left his drivers license and DNA filled shoes at the scene.

I've been possessed of many plans, which on a few minutes reflection are consigned to the what was I thinking heap. Quite a large heap it is, but I imagine and hope everyone has one, building on our thoughts is how the wheel was invented, the creek and rock became the washing machine.


Sunday, July 21, 2019

Sand and Silence

Waite Tarot ~ Page of Wands

The get it done suit. Here the Page waits to see if the sprout will grow or wither. Always, just standing about. It gets on my last nerve. "They" would say, if someone bothers you it is because you see yourself in them.

Yesterday I ran away. To the desert. Sand, sun, sky, silence. Rob didn't ask why, he just took me. I spent most of the day mute, just thinking, and not thinking. Looking, seeing the past, the broken sad past. I think he is standing because he is the only one left to do so. Everyone else has moved on. 

Saturday, July 20, 2019

Dark Side

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ Moon

I think.
I know.

Easy to confuse the two, easier to deliberately confuse the two.
There are four things I think, I don't know yet they color my life. The dark side of the Moon.

Friday, July 19, 2019

No Speak

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ Temperance/Art

In alchemical-speak, green lion devours the sun. In Sharyn-speak, I got nothing.

Edited later: I have a NW Coastal Indian print of Raven Swallows The Sun I admire each day. The raven's raucous caw is because as Trickster he still holds it in his throat.

How does that apply to me, today? What am I holding in my throat that needs harked up or owned? I don't seem to be man enough to do either. 

Thursday, July 18, 2019

Plus Shipping

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ 3 of Cups

Cool Hand Luke, 1967. Paul Newman, Strother Martin
There are lots of things to remember about this classic movie, today it is the 'ran out of road work before they ran out of day'. Abundance.

I just ordered a new DVD remote off Amazon, $9.99. Plus $5.99 shipping. I know, eyebrows clear over the back of the head...but I looked at my cart, nothing there I need, looked around the house, nothing there I need. So I paid shipping. Good financial stewardship says that shipping is a better choice than a cart load of stuff I don't need, and knowing what abundance is has value beyond gold. 

Wednesday, July 17, 2019

Suck The Hive Dry

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ Emperor

The compass and square again, chaos to order.

Except when it is the other way around. Which from my distance shows the lack of need for an emperor at all. He can suck from the hive all day long, he will never understand bees, never create anything with meaning or value. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Shotgun Syndrome

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ 4 of Wands

I completed a huge project yesterday, on a double deadline, usually when I do my best work. That shotgun to the back syndrome. Now it is 4 AM and I'm up, feeling all loose ends-ish. Wishing I had it in me to go back to sleep, but a lifetime of pre-cockcrow says that will never happen. But what about that next project?

Even in my semi-catatonic state I feel the tingle. And the call of the next potential completion. It is why we get up at all, isn't it?

Monday, July 15, 2019

It Is What It Is

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ Justice/Adjustment

The  measure by which we are judged, the law by which we are ruled. Maat is often invoked, the feather by which a pure heart is weighed.

As always, I wrote and wrote and wrote. Much of it angry or snarky, as usual. My way of clarifying what I think. And I erased it, as I do most mornings. My conclusion? The only thing I retain from my days of structured faith is to abide by the ten commandments. I think I can do this. No need for complicated excuses and caveats, wriggling and do overs, it is what it is. 

Sunday, July 14, 2019

Cracked Heart

Tabula Mundi Tarot ~ 3 of Swords

Has the heat created the crack or it is high above the heat so the urn is preserved and still useable? In an email this morning I mentioned that my close memories of my mother are ugly, and that I make the effort to only remember the mother than raised me. It isn't a successful effort at all, although I no longer lie awake in the night to the echoes of her dementia fueled endless shouted rants.

How to hold that cracked heart? Close or at length? Go for the boil or live with lukewarm? I haven't a clue because both are so painful. 

Saturday, July 13, 2019

Picture Small Child, Throwing Fit

Game of Thrones ~ 7 of Coins

Growth and expansion through effort.
The good  news, I grew and expanded my deck collection by one this morning, had an ebay offer accepted for a 1950-60's era deck I've been thinking about for a couple of years, very cool!

The bad news? I was introduced to a deck this week that might become my holy grail, the "Broken Mirror Tarot", first edition. A faint possibility if I had a chinese linguist to run interference for me, who was willing to root and dig and watch... sometimes a dream is a dream and I'll just work at not becoming an old twisted embittered crone, dreaming of what she wants and not enjoying the fruit of what she has. I want it! Really want it! Wails and gnashes teeth...

Friday, July 12, 2019

Missing The Point?

Game of Thrones ~ 6 of Swords

Is this one of the things we do because it has always been done that way? Have our back to the destination we are headed for? Does it mean in honesty we don't have a clue? How bizarre is that? Rowboats surely weren't designed for taking a girl for a little romantic ride. Probably in order: fishing, exploration, trade, transportation to beating up the neighboring tribes. Is it simple engineering combined with human physique?

Maybe facing forward is why kayaks are lined up by the dozens in front of every sporting goods store now. If you are on the water for fun why not see where you are going?  Is the 6 of Swords about the rowor or the rowee? Doing it or having it done?

I feel my temper rising just thinking about someone else being in charge of my boat, but I think I'm missing the entire point here. 

Thursday, July 11, 2019

Survival 101

Game of Thrones Tarot ~ Empress

My children can do no wrong.
Maybe this blind eye is the only thing that gets children out of childhood alive, else they'd drowned us all in the kiddie pool.

Children can be 'little angels'. Usually said while observing them asleep...but mostly childhood seems to be the practice field for pushing buttons. Fractious, unreasonable, untruthful, sly, mean spirited, rude; spend thirty minutes on any playground and we see all these things.

Somehow, usually, the guiding spirit of our Empress infiltrates the cracks in our developing brain and we also learn affection, sharing, honesty, consequences. And finesse. That inner dragon, survival 101 stays with us, the child's ability to invoke a scorched earth policy. Quietly. Smiling while we do it. So our moms don't notice and continue to think we can do no wrong. 

Wednesday, July 10, 2019

Red Herrings Blue Herrings

Game of Thrones Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Mystery. Love a good mystery. Nancy Drew. Cherry Ames. Trixie Belden. Wonder if I read one today I'd still see them as strong female leads. I wonder if I'd had access to the entire Cherry Ames series, I'd have been influenced enough to go into nursing. The older I get the bigger the regret there.

We watched a two part Death In Paradise episode last night, yes, there were lots of ends to tie up or start, lead characters to set up and weed out. But. The main clue was a tulip cuff link. On and on about the tulip cuff link. Discovered the source, told the perps to bring them in, never heard about it again. The clue. Would have solved the mystery right there. Jerked around the audience.

How many clues I've missed in my life? Ignored. Glossed over. Recognized and changed the course? Lots of all I'm sure. 

Tuesday, July 9, 2019

A Better Way

Game of Thrones Tarot ~ World

Dragon Stag  Lion Direwolf.
Baratheon Lannister Stark Targaryen
Matthew Mark Luke John
Lion Bull Eagle Man

On good days I see the world as the most beautiful place in the universe, desert to jungle, seabottom to mountain top.
On bad days I see endless old grey men, wreaking unending devastation on thousands of generations of families.

Go ahead, throw me in jail, hell no I will not go.
There has to be a better way. 

Monday, July 8, 2019

Credo

Game of Thrones Tarot ~ 2 of Swords

Procrastination, overthinking, thinking something to death.
Here we say: Cut bait or fish. Poot or get off the pot.

My personal credo? I don't want to be dead saying I wish I had of. 

Sunday, July 7, 2019

Sour Grapes

Game of Thrones Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

Food and beverages. Land of plenty. Wonder what that pipe signifies in relation to the Game of Thrones?

I bought my most expensive bottle of wine recently. $18.95 on markdown at Safeway. This is the woman who actually bought a $3.00 bottle from Winco which was drinkable by the way. The expensive one? I spit it out in the sink. Worst beverage I've ever tasted. Took it back it was so bad. I still wonder what a $50.00 or $100.00 bottle of wine would taste like, but my personal quest to know is cured. Considering that is about my annual wine budget.

Until the last few years I've always had grapes in the house, now they taste bland or sour. It's been at least three years since I've eaten a grape that tasted like a grape. Is it the hurry up bigger and faster hybridization? I miss grapes. No 10 of Coins here. 

Saturday, July 6, 2019

Wild Ones

Green Wheel Oracle ~ Horse

Liberty. As I've let go of common mental structures and their strictures the freedom I've found has been remarkable. I'd wish it for everyone.

The down side? We have a shetland pony that lives next door to us. His owners say he was found on BLM land running with horses who'd been abandoned by their owners. Was it a kindness to capture and landlock him on his own? I don't think so. No one rides him or plays with him or grooms him. He hangs at the bottom of the field looking across at the only other horse up here. Horses are social creatures. Even Wild Ones.

I understand there is comfort in commonly held belief systems. But I'll take my singularity to the mind control offered as the alternative.