Quirky - Upclouded

Thursday, January 17, 2019

Stop Judging Me

Brady Tarot ~ Judgement

Rising up. Lifting off. Bats are leaving the cave in an organized explosion. Is the eagle observing? Herding? Bat snacking? Getting out of the way? Being harried? And what's the snake thinking?

Earliest tarot decks with majors based on christian iconography offer folk rising from coffins to greet an angel. I roll my eyes and move on taking a more literal stance. A little snarky judging.

A deck based on the animal kingdom tells me the eagle is the highest flying bird. Ehh? Hardly. The companion book by Pollack would have us believe it. Sometimes I just get tired and think I should be using playing card decks. Nah...where is the thought provoking fun in that? But lots of birds fly higher than eagles and lazy fact checking gets on my last nerve. 

Wednesday, January 16, 2019

Slow Process, Death

Brady Tarot ~ 3 of Swords/Arrows

Scrub Jays again. Who are called and gather to peep and  screech at the body of a companion. (UC Davis study) This surprises me as they hold a wide territory as a pair. Maybe not as wide as I've been led to believe by other sources.

Grief, mourning, acknowledgement, acceptance. Mother has been gone four years next month. I am only now truly getting past the horror that was her gripped in dementia. Maybe because just this month we are tearing out the resulting damage from her time here. Carpet has been replaced, her bathroom is gutted.

Mother going. My mom coming back. That woman I can grieve. A slow process, death. 

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Pretty Sure

Brady Tarot ~ 4 of Swords/Arrows

Withdrawal. Truce in Thothyspeak. Not the same thing. Withdrawal can be full scale retreat, or gathering up force to spring. I am marginally cross with one of my quilt groups. My nature is to be ruthless and leave. Otherwise known as flouncing from the room. But I'm also thinking about my moon phase reading of vulnerability vs disguise.

I think my 2019 path is clear, find the equilibrium in the situation. It is only a personal truce after all. I can live with that. Pretty sure.

Monday, January 14, 2019

Vulnerability vs. Disguise

Brady Tarot ~ Ace of Cups/Horns

I feel in flux.
My drawing for first quarter moon today called for more vulnerability, less disguise. Ace of Cups...

I told Rob about my four Thursday nightmares, my little sister and me, her always dying, my finally choosing the lava over the pain.

Never let it be said . Something. I don't know what

Sunday, January 13, 2019


Daily Draw: Brady Tarot ~ 8 of Swords/Arrows

We have bird feeders year around. We find the Stellar Jays are communal birds and spend a lot of time squawking. We enjoy the Scrub Jays, usually a pair to about ten acres and they are quiet.

The stellars and even the finches harry our red tail hawks and crows. Strength in numbers I suppose. The hawk that does the most damage to the little birds reminds me of FogHorn LegHorn nemesis Henery the little brown chickenhawk. He lurks in the same big rhody as my finches and favorites, the juncos. Then bam, nothing but feathers.

If we eliminated the unimportant and immaterial it would be fairly simple to identify where our oppression comes from...it isn't everything, it is something. Ignoring it or busying it won't make it stop. 

Saturday, January 12, 2019

A Nation. Eroded

Illuminated Oracle ~ Erosion

Erosion: Mind. Heart. Faith. Trust. Spirit. Heroes.
Courtesy. Honesty. Thoughtfulness. Nation.
Bones. Belly. Skin. Hair. Lungs.

The whole illusion of fair. It is all going. Life in a nutshell.
But our nation? In a speeding handcart on eroded rails? With really expensive tires?

Friday, January 11, 2019


Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Fire

Last night I died in a black suffocating boiling lava flow.
Just laid down and took it.
Sometime insomnia is the better of its twin, nightmares.
And lava would be a better alternative to losing someone again. 

Thursday, January 10, 2019

Ragbag Love

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Relationship

Most shirts these days don't need pressed if pulled from the dryer promptly. Rob likes a crisp shirt. So about 20 years ago I quietly gave him the gift of spending a whole 10 minutes a week crisping up the sleeves and collars. On all of them.

This is one of the extreme results. A shirt that has sentimental meaning, he  wears it when he puts up hay in Eastern Oregon every year. I still press it for him. A relationship thing. 

Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Honcho and Jacob

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Abundance

My ginger tabby Honcho is in the hall playing with the same piece of heavy wrapping paper he has been working on for two days. His favorite toy is a pink pipe cleaner that is grey and worn now. If he understands abundance he knows he has it in spades. Two hots and a cot as they say.

Since the 30th of December I've been flinging books to ebay. Five shelves gone, many pounds, and I've gotten over feeling abused about my eyes. Last night I put my entire hardback collection of Stephen King on Craigslist. They were gone in two hours and the young man is SO excited. It was fun to talk to a fellow King follower, so many many years of pleasure. I included a signed letter in one of the books for a treat later. I have abundance, I recognise that every day, and now Jacob has some abundance also. Life is good. 

Tuesday, January 8, 2019

On A Scale

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Wisdom

Wisdom. Book Smart. Wise.
Hidden Knowledge. Found Knowledge.
Fund of Knowledge.

On a scale, would the above or below have the greater weight?
Common Sense. Street Smart.

The greater value?

Monday, January 7, 2019

Shelter And Food

Daily Draw: Illuminated Universe Oracle ~ Multiverse

Is there life on other planets? How could there not be? Our planet is a pin head on a pin head on a pin head in the endless universe.

But...we live in a multiverse. Do the boys in the hood live on the same planet as the men in the swamp? Hardly.
On our wired 24/7 lalaland what connects us with the backwoods islands where electricity hasn't landed? Shelter and food. Not much else. 

Sunday, January 6, 2019

Big White Bagel

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Upheaval

Malstrom! A whirlpool of extraordinary size.
Pretty much found in Pirates of the Caribbean
Tornado! Violently rotating column of air.
Typhoon! A tropical cyclone.

Big white bagel. Big white comma. Big fat upheaval.
Changing lives forever. It is a wonder we can get up in the morning.

Saturday, January 5, 2019

If Only

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Tarot ~ Deluge

I see this ever so often, driving down a highway or looking across the valley. Dry here, deluging somewhere else. Of course when I'm in the deluge I can't see anything but.

Which pretty much describes the analogy to life. If I'm happy the only grim I know is someone else's. When I'm grim that is all I can see. Lots of words to say, that's life. When it rains it pours. When you smile the world smiles with you... If Only. 

Friday, January 4, 2019

Palmer Pletsch

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Combustion

It is why I have my three week rule, but I love combustion! I woke up in the night last week thinking "it would be fun to go back to clothing construction". I made most of my clothes up to the 1980's when patterns got more expensive than buying the finished product at Penney's or Target.

And I'm retired. I have the time to do these things I could never do when I was working. So google and I joined hands and went for a walk. And was reminded of Palmer Pletsch, only a stone's throw away.

Now to let it simmer and see if it takes flame.

Thursday, January 3, 2019


Daily Draw: Illuminated World Oracle ~ Structure

Hey. We all need it. Not sure we all want it. This is yesterday's Transient post, upclouded. I'm thinking about a Quirkeries annex. Maybe a tab. Or leave it be, what is just enough once can be cramping on a daily diet.

I am, in my standard new year mode, wired for sound. I'll think about forming more structure, just as soon as my 2019 jetpack of legos arrive.

A new project is afoot.  I thought it would be a good way to see if I'm leashing my brain in a healthy manner or careening off the rails.  Structure. A good thing.

Wednesday, January 2, 2019

Gotta Boogie

Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Transient

Short-timer. Just temporary. Hang for a minute. Just passing by. Gotta Boogie. I'll be right there. Can't stay gotta run. Homeless. Broke. Busted. Bent.

As a retiree with all the time in the world, I work hard at not wasting it. As a former depressie I am aware of how much fun I'm having now, belting out Mustang Sally to the beat of my keyboard or sewing machine.

All of our days are transient. I'm trying to make mine count. That mountain of books behind me? I've been moaning over for two years? I have slung many to ebay and will have even more today. Nothing takes much of our precious time if we just get on the stick and boogie. Procrastination will eat us and our days alive.
And hanging on to books won't help my eyes, they are busted.

Tuesday, January 1, 2019


Daily Draw: Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Attachment

Is it an attachment or an addiction? This image reminds me of the Hanged Man and 8 of Swords, bound by choice.

On this first day of 2019 many of us will be sloughing off both. Perhaps just for the day, maybe for life. Those habits started innocently enough, an interest, an experiment, a bite. I wish us all well in our efforts. She said with a resigned shrug.

A friend who has difficulty letting go of things said she wished she was like me. I had to caution her, not being sentimental has its own pain. What's wrong with me? Am I even human?

Info-junkie insert: In looking at images to identify what the hands are holding I think it is a dried lotus pod or head. Which lead to trypophobia. Who knew?