
The 5 of Wands speaks of practice conflict, training, games that teach us how to protect, not maim...But this hand swipe makes me wonder how many piles of unintentional (or was it) hurt I've left behind me as I've moved through life with my smartass mouth.
I worked hard to leave behind crippling eggshell sensitivity, turned myself into a tough old crow with impenetrable heart. Yet time has had the last laugh and here I am again, back where I started, not sleeping because some animal may be hungry, some child might have a too tight sock cutting off circulation.
In the daytime I'm still the crow with a big stick, but at night I'm the abandoned kit with no tools at all.
On those nights I feel powerless, tonglen helps keep me sane.
ReplyDeleteGraeme does have to remind me at times that i am not required to save the entire world on my own!
ReplyDeleteIt is a point worth remembering