Saturday, August 31, 2019

Allosaurus fragilis


Death comes to us all. But in 150 million years will anyone remember any living human on earth today? Yesterday was my dinosaur dig via the paleontology museum in Thermopolis Wyoming. And I'll remember Allosaurus fragilis because one of his claw tips is coming home with me!

Mine was the only whole piece found, the rest were fingernail tip size bits of bone and lots of of plant matter. Our tools were an oyster knife to wiggle in the rock-like clay crevices to pull out our finger to fist sized bits, broken down to see what they contained. A worn 2" bristle paint brush, a tiny dustpan and soft whisk to keep the work area clean (yes you have to sweep up the mountain as you go) and a bucket to carry your sweepings away in. I filled six buckets of sweepings in five hours :) And I want to go back today. And tomorrow. And the next day...

Friday, August 30, 2019

Fight or Flight

Brady Tarot ~ 4 of Swords

Hamlet came to mind when I saw this, "'Whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, Or to take arms against a sea of troubles". Fight or flight. A friend mentioned this week that her husband of 50+ years had taken it upon himself to rearrange her kitchen tools. Hers because he doesn't cook.

My response was turn your chair around and work your favorite puzzle, we have to pick our battles. Other responses were much more militant and made me feel bad for their spouses. It is a once in a lifetime together action, he isn't killing her dog, selling her car, cutting up her clothes, dumping her personal creative space...there is no meanness in it or control issues, probably more a reaction to a world in which he can make no changes.

This bird isn't hit, more taking the time to observe the strengths and weakness of the opponent. Flying off the handle/flight or fight solves nothing and if revenge is required some thinking is in order. 

Thursday, August 29, 2019

White Horse Wishes

Tarot of the Crone ~ Priestess

"Carry shadow on your back, embrace light in your arms" Tao Te Ching. From childhood to well into my thirties I wished on white horses. At some point I quit believing, or got ruthless, who knows, but I forbade the whole concept.

This trip there are white horses everywhere, there were six just yesterday. Last week I wished on one, wished someone dead. Horrified by the thought, even frightened; have I not evolved at All? I've pounced, scrubbed, rinsed, repeated my brains out, and yesterday's six were peace and health. Far safer...

It's been food for reflection though. I thought I'd moved on by cutting the news dead but there is obviously a smouldering coal of hate. I don't want any part of it. Begone you vile part of me. 

Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Illusion, By The Bolt

Everyday Witch Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Illusion. If we have something new will it make us...thinner richer taller? If I purchase new fabric it will surely make my quilts prettier, more interesting, show winners, right?

All that said to say, I quit buying fabric in 2001. In the last few years I've started to run out of some colors. 18 years on the wagon and when I enter a store I'm immediately gripped by the gotta have it, the drug adrenaline, the sick feeling of want. So no judging other quilters, I understand. But I'm betting if I hadn't quit buying in 2001, in all areas of my life, I wouldn't be out here enjoying my three month holiday and beautiful little house on wheels. I'm glad I made the choice but I despair of ever not having that sick want. Because I'm sure my quilts would be better, prettier, show winners, if I just had all new fabric.
7 of Cups, incarnate. 

Tuesday, August 27, 2019

Accessory De Rigueur

Anima Mundi Tarot ~ 4 of Coins

Caring for what you have. Or...in the case of vacation, always having the fashion accessory of the day in order to do so. Pocket baggies.

Billings Montana today, on the Yellowstone River. My folks were avid rockhounds and the bounty decorated the inside and outside of their home. I'm a collector. Don't know one rock from another, I pick up bling. We've progressed from if I can get them to the truck without getting caught they're mine, to Rob bringing pocket sized rocks to me. Progress! Yesterday I introduced him to breaking big glittery rocks to expose the real beauty inside. Houston, we're going to need a bigger box. 

Monday, August 26, 2019

Lessons and Purposes

Cosmic Tarot ~ Star

"Ability to filter soul lessons from emotional waters" "Ability to maintain soul purpose in a group" (from a deck study team).

I've distanced myself from an area of my life I enjoy. The Star makes me wonder if it is drama queen attitude, impatience with silliness, a good thing to take a break, remove it, replace it, get over it. Don't know, maybe all the above. Certainly all things I should consider. I'm glad this card came up, it seldom does for me. Better to ponder the why and the value than ignore.

We are in the world of tiny towns out here so early evening yesterday we took a drive to mail a letter rather than try to find parking for our whole hook-up today. Gorgeous cattle ranch country, lush fields...with tons of antelope and deer enjoying the bounty and dusky cool too. And they aren't worried about lessons and purposes I'm fairly certain. 

Sunday, August 25, 2019

Let The Chips Fall

Rosetta Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

A blast of color in a suit of dull gray cards. This person has actually done something rather than stay gripped in fear and lethargy. It may have ended in disaster, but they are unchained, free to move forward.

In Ennis Montana we are arguing the merits of pink belly grasshoppers vs whatever other color of grasshoppers Rob has in his box of fly fisherman treasures. Google tells us fish can recognize local hatch color so yes maybe pink bellies are the choice today. But also taken into consideration are surface vs deeper water casting and clarity of both daylight and water. Within a ten mile radius the Madison is running red fudge color, to Rock Creek, clear as glass. Pick something and go for it. There are always more rivers, more swords.






The view this morning from our campground ~ 

Saturday, August 24, 2019

Species Drive

New Era Elements Tarot ~ 7 of Swords

There are dozens of bird species who lay their eggs in another bird's nest and let that mother raise them. Imagine the surprise when a wren or finch finds its little one a cowbird or cuckoo...

Much like today's grandparents raising their grandchildren. I sure don't have an answer, just a simmering anger that the urge to procreate without personal consequences seems a burden the world can little afford. Species drive that has outlived its usefulness. 

Friday, August 23, 2019

Taking The Long View

Spirit Within Tarot ~ Page of Wands

He looks like a point man, a scout; pondering tracks, taking the long view.

Live for today, yesterday is over, tomorrow may never come. A good saying, but if you don't know where you are going, have some idea of what is there, life is stuck in the Fool card. We have complex brains, not using them is a disservice to the one life we've been given.

My point man is heading us to Ennis Montana today. Having been ill for three days that is enough planning for me. And we will be listening to Wind Through The Keyhole, enduring a Starkblast while hearing the Page of Wands story of  Tim Stoutheart's adventure in the Ironwood Forest. Life is good. 

Thursday, August 22, 2019

Know Thyself

Prairie Tarot ~ Sun

The face of our childhood, reconciling with the face in the mirror, and the face we present to the world. A moving feast, we change the world, the world changes us, the small personal life and our big life.

If we met a high school friend on the street we might think each other just the same. Spend a week together and we'd know that isn't so at all. Navel pondering is frowned on...and it shouldn't be. Know thyself. Nurture the good, Pounce scrub rinse what isn't.

Ashton Idaho today, the farm where we are staying has a view across fields of barley, contracted to the Idaho Budweiser Beer brewery, with the Tetons 30 miles in the distance. And they have 8 young chickens! I took my book and blanket and set with them, visiting and agreeing life is good. Get some while you can. 

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Unremitting Challenge

Buckland Romani Tarot ~ 7 of Wands/Koshes

Will he have to defend his position? Or just listen to threats? In movies one man can defeat six with ease, not so in real life. In the 6 of Wands we have a victory parade, in the 8 of Wands we see speed of change.

Like knowing I'm asymmetrical, I know I'm no leader. Too impataint with muleishness, goldbrickers, lazybones.

I was listening to two women this month who both had high pressure jobs, Now to end out their working life they want something like, as one said, to work in the entrance guard shack or a toll booth...of course they won't be hired, over-qualified. But I understand, 7 of Wands can eat you alive if you don't thrive on unremitting challenge. 

Monday, August 19, 2019

Big-headed Woman

Ceccoli Tarot ~ Judgement

Out of the labyrinth a rose forms and from it arises a big-headed woman. By the time of Judgement our brains should be the best thing about us. A lifetime of pulling ourselves together, getting our head straight, understanding who we are, leaving the carpola behind.

I did a reading this week for a budding entrepreneur and asked her if she knew if she was a symmetrical or asymmetrical person. I'm asymmetrical and it was helpful to know that in managing my last two businesses. Do you know which you are?

Buhl Idaho is harvesting grain and we are enjoying fresh from the field corn on the cob and cantaloupe.
 

Sunday, August 18, 2019

Disneyland Drive By

Tarot of the Cat People ~ 2 of Wands
Partnership, Balance, Division, Desire

We haven't had many vacations. The first, maybe three years after we married was a week. Nevada/Arizona/California. Traveling with a truck driver...point a to point b. Shudder. One of the reasons there were so few. We were out of money by California, did a Disneyland Drive By. About seven years in we got our first dog, Goldy. Things improved because we had to stop to run Goldy.

Our first retired trip was the day after mother was accepted into the memory care home. We were exhausted in every way. We drove straight to Mississippi to see a terminal friend, but we did stop to run the dogs, still the traveling lifesavers.

This is our fourth long retirement trip and we've got it dialed! Just two real destinations, short driving days, several days each stop to explore, and our little house on wheels, no motels! A happy partnership, a balance of who does what, all interests are being met.

Ash, in her favorite spot while I sew. Our first accident? I collect rocks. I would prefer to pile them up behind my seat. Rob dropped it in the pickup bed...on his fiberglass fishing pole. His first pole. Now a broken pole. Oops. 

Saturday, August 17, 2019

Daylight Savings

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Detachment
Venus in Aquarius in the 11the House
Originality, Humanity, Rebelliousness

Daylight savings time. Originally thought to be a helpful idea for humanity..not. In a 24/7 world it works for no one, benefits no one. Pain in the arse for everyone.

Look here, type in your state, write your legislator. Detach from this idiot rule. Good job you states that already have or never did fall for the whole idea.

added later: check check check. Done.
added 8/19/19, from Representative Ed Orcutt:

Orcutt, Rep. Ed
Aug 18, 2019, 8:25 PM

Sharyn,
I agree we need to stop the changing of the clocks twice a year. I supported a bill to allow us to opt out of Daylight Savings Time (stay on PDT permanently). As we neared the deadline for bills to advance and the bill had not moved, I signed on to a letter to the Speaker to move the bill – and, fortunately, he moved the bill! I supported it, but that change doesn’t happen automatically – it is just a request for Congress to authorize us to do it. But, we now have made the critical first move to accomplish this objective.
Ed

Friday, August 16, 2019

Repeat Master Plan

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Speculation
Cancer in Jupiter in the 4th House
Gain, Nurturing, Attachment

The book reading of this card relates directly to my earlier Pounce Scrub Rinse Repeat master plan. If I'd drawn this card 2 or 3 weeks ago I'd probably be crying. Not today. Pounce Scrub Rinse Repeat.

I'll go to Speculation. Moving house today to Hagerman Idaho. Will there be fish or are the rivers too low? Will we need the heater in the mornings, after the high temps here?  Will the trees there be 'sappy' like the ones here? We are covered with sticky dots! I'll be setting up my sewing room, will my view be lovely? Fresh picked local corn on the cob tonight! Life is good, and speculation is part of the fun.

The 4X8 foot-ish wagons that traveled across the Oregon Trail in the mid 1800's. 2000 miles, 6 months. Everything you  need or go without. Believe me, I recognize how wonderful my Little House On Wheels is.
Visit the Oregon Trail Interpretive
Center if you are ever in Baker City Oregon! 

Thursday, August 15, 2019

Nothing And Everything

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Patience
Jupiter in Scorpio in the 6th house

The card says Scorpio, the book refers to Virgo. Patience and dedication are involved in proofing, including our life. That is what I do here, fact checking self, real or assumption? This blog keeps me honest, who knows what my brain would get up to without it.

On the road? Yesterday we pulled into a rest stop and I swore, no it couldn't be, yes I'm sure it was...a giant rooster sitting in the doorway of a parked camper. We were only 5 hours out from home and hens but I'm missing them like mad. So I got some steps in, going roundabout the park so I'd come up behind the camper and prove my brain wrong...and there it was. A Barred Rock of immense proportions. Taking in the day, people watching tourist antics. Let me assure you I got some good rooster petting in! The gentleman who traveled with him was headed to the nearest Veterans Hospital for some tests and follow-up after heart surgery.

Petting a dog can lower blood pressure, what does petting a rooster do? Nothing and everything. 

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

Chex Check

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Vision
Sun in Pisces in the 12th House
Understanding, sympathy, sacrifice

Bad parents, rotten teachers, too poor for tattoos, wrong place wrong time...sorry, not cutting it for me. Life is way too short to blame everyone and everything else for a personal path.

So I'll go on to Vision. Oh the things we'll see!! Setting out for a few months: Enough sewing stuff to last two years? Check. Plenty of mustard and tea and cheese? Snack bags of my personal Chex Mix recipe? Check. Desktop and decks? Check. Dogs and Cats? Check. Check in with the Moon this morning with a Moon Salutation? Orange and big! Check. Life is good.

Sharyn's Chex Mix
box Wheat Chex
box extra toasty Cheese-It's
bag Snyder's Butter Snaps
can peanuts
box Stauffer's whale crackers
Pour over top: cup popcorn oil
3 tablespoons Worcestershire Sauce
2 teaspoons Johnny's seasoning
1 teaspoon chili powder, stir while pouring.
Giant metal bowl, bake 250 degrees one hour, stirring every 15 minutes. Store in snack zip locks. 

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Reserving Mercurial

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Choice
Mars in Aquarius in the 7th house
Action with a sense of beauty and injustice

Mood swings, expending far too much energy in negative thoughts and pursuits. (Astrop) My silver hair isn't easy care anymore, my foreshortened breast feels like it has been hit with a dead blow hammer sometimes, I'm sick and tired of watching my weight, why is my closet full of old lady clothes...

Actually my silver is beautiful, I'm lucky to be alive X 10; as my mother would say, come here and I'll give you something to cry about, my closet is full of the same type of clothes I wore at 30...

And my fingernails are the most beautiful, 60's mood ring thermal blue. They go from pale afternoon sky blue to deep purple blue with the temperature. How cool is that? Today my choice is happy. But I reserve the right to be mercurial. 

Monday, August 12, 2019

Scorp

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Secrets
Venus in Scorpio in the 8th House
Empathy, self control, passion, regeneration

All of the above can be painful positions to hold. We use empathy to help or understand but that doesn't give us the right to throw ourselves into other's lives, at the demerit of our own.
Learning the self control to know when to observe, when to help, when to let someone help themselves is a life lesson, once learned of exceeding value. We can't fix anyone.
Passion? Where would life's fun be without it? We have to be excited about something else why get up in the morning?
Regeneration, part of what I love about being alive. If something I do or think or experience is carpola...I can change it. The need and the want are there, and so am I. I will not be less because it is easier or comfortable. I'm a Scorp, what can I say?

Sunday, August 11, 2019

Sex Sells

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Publicity
Jupiter in Leo in the 5th House
Gain, Creative Self-expression, Big Ego

I'm doing a reading for an entrepreneur on ideas to grow her business. Plain old publicity is always at the top of the list, a one person band has to think around corners differently than a corporation with money to burn.

And one person can now easily sell worldwide. And market to the world sitting at their home desk. Amazing. The side issue being we might have ten competitors at home base, we might have ten thousand worldwide.

Our friend here has found a flamboyant costume, wings for the bible folk, shoulder and leg because sex sells, a logo, and flashing stars for the kids. I think she'll make it, if not she'll always know she had a lot of fun trying. 

Saturday, August 10, 2019

Hello

Oracle of the Radiant Sun ~ Power

Moon in Scorpio in the 8th house
Security, self control, regeneration
Susceptible to brooding and outbursts

Umm, hello Sharyn 

Friday, August 9, 2019

Arise and Celebrate

Cathar Tarot ~ 3 of Cups/Love

Had to look up 12th century bedrooms...yes, entirely possible there were headboards, sheets, pillows. OK. Flummoxed by the T-stick. The Cathars were about restraint and moderation, so one cup on the three of cups, OK. What drew her from her cozy bed to run outside?

Setting aside the approaching Crusaders and a terrible death, Catharism was also embracing naturally occuring joy. The full moon? The first hooty hoot of a spring mourning dove? Breaking dawn leap to start the day? A horse approaching signaling a homecoming? Setting up for something they might celebrate like the holiday of Saint Mary Magdalene, July 15th? Who knows. I hope it was a wonderful day with love, peace, and laughter. 

Thursday, August 8, 2019

One Asteroid Please, To Go

Cathar Tarot ~ 5 of Wands/Shields

The Cathars believed in the idea of shared goods and wealth. So did our NW Native Peoples with their potlatches. The Cathars were exterminated by the Crusaders, our natives were gifted smallpox followed by missionaries who stripped those remaining of their culture, took the children from their families and sent them away to be brainwashed the white way. With plenty of abuse of all kinds thrown in for good measure.

If there were a world prayer it should be save us from the religious, an asteroid hit would be kinder.


Wednesday, August 7, 2019

Idea Of Self

Cathar Tarot~ 3 of Swords

When losing or leaving something central to our idea of self, one of the first reactions is to replace it with something similar. Wells Fargo to Bank of America, Methodist to Adventist, Ford person to a Dodge person. A sense of loss, a hole which we rush to fill up with new personal links and team ra-ra-rah. Being part of something bigger is probably survival instinct at base. Now it's marketing and we buy in without asking why we need it in the first place.

But that dissatisfaction that caused us to move along in the first place? My personal experience is that it is better to not fill that hole, to explore the why of pulling away. Working with the Cathers this week, I'm speaking of religion, but it is true of all our relationships. Whose sheeple agenda did we buy into and why?

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Bullied Knight

Cathar Tarot ~ Knight of Coins/Wisdom

Here is a knight not fully invested in the idea of general thuggery and dealing death for some lord or duke currying favor for some king. He has no sword and his shield is tied around his neck, a cumbersome awkward probably dangerous thing to do. In order to carry a book.

I like this boy. And I'll bet he got bullied in school.

Monday, August 5, 2019

Bloody Fodder

Cathar Tarot ~ 10 of Wands/Shields

The Crusades. Pope Innocent II started by proclaiming his god's salvation to those white men who went to hot lands and killed brown men. By Pope Innocent III the Crusades included France, Italy, and the Mediterranean, killing every Jew and Cathar they could lay their hands on. Cathars because they were moderate believers, and rejected Catholicism. Fools that they were.

I'm reminded by this card, dogma kills. A 10 of Wands burden we all carry because as frail short lived humans we seek out a structure that will tell us what to think and what to do. Because we are afraid to step out of the herd and say isn't love enough? It never is of course because there has to be a you and a me to make the fight to keep our tiny little minds busy while the powers at the top kill and kill and kill. 

Sunday, August 4, 2019

Life Long Class

Cathar Tarot ~ 7 of Cups/Love

Matthews: Moonlit paths, cloud dreams, castles of sand.
One reason most readers don't just fold up their tables and run from the room is we do remember the angst of those preteen and teenage years when we'd brain and heart anchor on some kid and they would consume our thoughts.

Then we get a little older and actually have a relationship where hands are held and long phone calls ensue. Moving on to holding in dark corners and back seats. All good, all life. But also the time we start seeing what we want to see. Ignoring what we don't. Laying the foundations of understanding how much work is involved with Love. 100% worth it if both parties are on board.

Love. A life long class in reality and dreams. 

Saturday, August 3, 2019

Orange

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Potential

I'm loaded with the red potential of trigger temper and impatience with my concept of fools. I know this and modify that destructive tendency by adding yellow and creating orange. Joy, determination, and channeled enthusiasm.

Less harmful and a lot more fun. 

Friday, August 2, 2019

Ware Watch Ward

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Vulnerability

I have it in me to be a total bedlam bitch. A harridan, a bully, a pusher. A I don't give a crap, I couldn't possibly care less, don't give a damn about anyone or anything. Ruthless. That hard side saved my life, but it could just as easily take it.

I recognize it and it frightens me how easily that side comes out. So I get up in the morning, pull my card, and look for the reminder, the pointer, to a better way. Expose my vulnerabilities. I don't think we could be human without both sides, the first gives us the strength we need to be the second. But that yellow, that defcon three, ware it watch it ward it. 

Thursday, August 1, 2019

Ain't Doin' No Anguish

Illuminated Earth Oracle ~ Anguish

Extreme distress, despair. No game playing with this deck again today. I'm not in that place, but I have been, will do just about anything to not go back.

In fact even though I just got on, I'm turning off the computer, taking my coffee out on the deck and listen to my new little rooster Rusty Boy. Maybe crow back to him. Rock in the swing. I ain't doin' no anguish.