Saturday, September 26, 2020

The World Is Too Much With Us

 Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Queen of Cups

Sovereignty. Seen here as fresh and youthful because the land has a king who has pledged all in its care. When that pledge isn't kept she becomes barren and withered. 

There is a moral here, and I need some time to disconnect from this world laced with fear and frosted with hate.  

Friday, September 25, 2020

Celebrate Little Miracles

 Legend The Arthurian Tarot ~ 9 of Cups

The legend of the healing of maimed King Pelles and the Wasted Lands. We've all seen or experienced miracles, they happen every day. I'm still walking around breathing. And Jumanji was saved from the Wasted Lands three times after all. To see is to believe and Dwayne Johnson is healing to the eyes. 

I wonder how often we are in a blessed 9 of Cups state and just don't recognize it. Don't accept that life is good because we are lusting after something someone told us is better. I have my Fitbit Zip on (a miracle, buried in the garden for a year, still works), I'll soon be doing my yoga practice. I have a plan for my day and I'll work my plan, and think about how 9 of Cups my life is.  Life is good. Newly finished and hung, Escher Cubed, 50"X75" a celebration of how complicated yet beautiful life can be.

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Mankind's Favorite Occupation

 Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ King of Swords

Self-obsessed, sure he was abused and faulted, he came to power by sowing discord and dissent. His story is murky, but he may have been set adrift to drown along with all the male children of his birth day because his father didn't want his incest story to come out. He was rescued, like Moses, but unlike Moses it turned him to the dark side. 

There haven't been any perfect leaders through history. Zero, just like all the rest of us. There are plenty of things I'd do again, even though others have been judgmental, that is what history does. Leaves ripples. Some drown us, some just bob us about. I'm bobbing right now, being ill-judged by the choices I made, but I'll live. It's just life after all. We all get one, and we all get judged, it is one of mankind's favorite occupations. 

Wednesday, September 23, 2020

Moving Target

 Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 10 of Cups

Gaining respect, emotional fulfillment. A moving target indeed. This is Corbenic when it is at home, also the Grail Castle which moves around helping and hindering the quest for the grail. 

Probably another metaphor for it doesn't matter where I am and what others think of me or say about me, only who and what I am. One day at a time.

Tuesday, September 22, 2020

Moving The River Eden

 Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 2 of Coins/Shields

Fluctuating fortune. Make adjustments, sacrifice, pull the belt tighter, think outside the box. Fiddle the books, cheat the taxman, move out in the night. 

We all have different ways of dealing with expectations and reality. Uther got so focused on moving the River Eden to create his moat for Castle Pendragon he lost sight of reality. All that wasted expenditure of effort for puddles.

We've been focused on weeks when we should be actively planning for years. We are all emotion when practicality should be at the front. Covid is no one's fault, the short term fallout we've seen is to be expected, but we can't live on panic or hope either one. All those moldy maxims came into being because they are the basic truth. Living on a shoestring, rock soup, make do or do without. Strength comes from within, and we have good brains...we just aren't used to planning ahead. We've let Madison Avenue and self-serving politicians convince us we can move River Eden anywhere we want, the last thing we should be doing. 2 of Coins. Personal practical common sense. 

Monday, September 21, 2020

Autumn Solstice

 White Hare Wisdom Deck ~ Mabon

Autumn Solstice. Apples and Walnuts. Cobwebs across any span you care to walk through. Autumn Joy sedum turns pink. Lawns here begin to return from their dormant straw stage. Soft fruit jams and jellies line the shelf. Night and Day equalize. 

The feral walnut tree stick Rob adopted and cultivated some 15 years ago is producing a bumper crop this year, judging by the squirrels packing them off in all directions. Good for them, someone should be worry free. 

The huge maple on the north-east corner of the garage is about to drop an ultra-bumper crop of samaras, so many I expect a big wind when they let go. And the air quality is down from 300-ish to 17, we had rain for two days. Everything in the house is covered with ash equivalent of masonry dust, but we can breathe again. And rest.

'shrooms work both ways, handy for Ayanni as he travels with Matlock the Hare, in the world of Phil and Jacqui Lovesey...

Sunday, September 20, 2020

I Got No Pomp In Me

 Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Empress

Ferguson's book says "her throne looms over her".  The trappings and symbols of power and influence. Would I expect them if I were empress? The sheer weight of history would have provided them, passed down. Would I want them? A three legged stool is more my style, closer to the ground, to people, to the action. Would I want or need a scepter? Scepter is related to a Greek verb meaning to prop oneself or lean on something, just a cane in other words. A crown? Just hell no. 

But I have my kryptonite...gleamers. Yes, squatting on my three legged stool, wearing my simple Christopher & Banks duds, I'd be agleam with historical brooches, bracelets, and rings. Do trappings have anything to do with how an empress rules? Probably all of it, they do it differently than I would because they are mostly groomed from birth to embrace the lifestyle and pomp. I got no pomp in me. Just as well, I acknowledge I was groomed for the stool. 

Saturday, September 19, 2020

Slugs In The Garden

 Minchiate Etruria ~ Ace of Swords

This deck dates back to 1725, sounds even older if I say early 16th Century. Tarocchi being created as playing cards back then. Were our brains functioning any better then? Let's check...

Indians were being scalped for the bounty in the US. Still figuratively going on. The Black Watch is raised as a military company, as part of the pacification of the Scottish Highlands under General George Wade. Still figuratively going on, as I understand it. Mir Mahmud was mysteriously killed after going mad, Afghans started to lose control of  Persia. Still killing.  The first fossil salamander was found in Germany, first identified as human. Check, narrow vision still alive and well, my way or the highway. 

We aren't much better than a pack of slugs in the garden. And RIP RBG

Friday, September 18, 2020

I Laugh At Your Devil


Tarot of the Origins ~ Devil

The Devil made me do it. Not. A human construct to excuse us for being human. Flawed. Obstructive. Perverse. Wicked. And mostly dumber than a box of rocks. Why do we do the things we do? 

Because we are human to the core. Amazing we've made it this far this time around. We haven't risen above our basest instincts even faced with a world encompassing crisis. Ha. I laugh at your Devil. It is humans that petrify me.  

Thursday, September 17, 2020

Never Say Never

 Lover's Path Tarot ~ King of Cups

Never say never. I made an account at Twitter yesterday. To follow one person because his calm measured instant response to blatant flummery asshattery made me laugh loud and long. 

Never say never. 

Wednesday, September 16, 2020

No Whole Without The Ones

 Haindl Tarot ~ Hanged Man

Card 12. Opposite of Card 21 where the same figure is upright. My own actions and thoughts put me in this position when I lose sight of how good life is and choose to drown in the down. 

Easiest thing in the world, to become complacent, to forget priorities of life and country. To condemn the whole in pursuit of self. I'm only one person is the wrongest I can be, because there is no whole without all the ones. 

Easy to forget as we hang there. In our bubbles of self-induced pity or rage or euphoria, easy street or hard times. Surrounded by nothing but self and mirrors of ourselves we don't realize the record is cracked, the message is bent, the story has been rewritten to suit; shackles on the eyes and mind are still chains. 

Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Stepping Up To The Plate

 Rosetta Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

Ruin. Devastation. Buzzard pickins comes to mind. And that it took me three tries to get the image uploaded, terrible internet connectivity. So where does that leave many of our community children and on-line learning? Mexico has the better plan, teaching via TV, also via radio. 94% of the population there has access to a television, probably higher here. What Kalama has done is the library has a dozen wi-fi hotspots that can be checked out for two weeks. Eeh? The last time I had one a library card here was $85.00 because we aren't within the city limits, which is true of most of the school population. On-line learning? They don't have a clue. At 7 or 10 or 15, left to my own devices, I'd have been not learning. Parents, those who do and can care are in a 10 of Swords situation. 

It will be another reflection of the have and have nots, who gets left behind and the real why. The hexagram for this card is number 10, the Abysmal. Flow like pure water through difficult situations. Children don't have the reasoning power to see the goal. Will adults step up to the plate?

Monday, September 14, 2020

Recognition Of The Crux

 Game Of Thrones Tarot ~ Queen of Coins

I didn't see the show, but I'd recognize Diana Rigg anywhere, RIP. There are millions of ways to connect with this Queen in the course of a life on any scale; respect for duty, moral and practical leadership, adherence to the rule of law, courage in the face of all life presents. With that power also comes the ability to interfere, destroy, make back channel deals, and every one of us is this Queen. 

Me, on the home front... stay calm and carry on. Our air quality is the worst in the world, hovering about 233+ this morning, it has been as high as 400. Normal is 25. We are about 40 miles from the nearest wildfire at the moment, not imminent danger other than our lungs. Please spare a thought for all those who are in harms way. Being the Queen of Coins isn't just about a castle full of stuff. She is holding her coin with confidence, not a death grip, she recognizes material things can be replaced, people can't. 

Edited to add photos from May and September 2020

Sunday, September 13, 2020


 10 of Wands ~ Zillich Tarot

She actually has a butterfly on her back, the bulk of the burden seems attached to her head which is where oppression lives. Wands being the suit of action, with this card we have to do the work to relieve the weight, thinking and wishing won't do the job. 

We can change jobs, move across the country or revert back to the home cocoon, get counseling, join or leave groups, but it all comes back down to, what is the burden we carry with us? Most 10 of Wands commonly show a figure carrying a huge burden up a steep hill, or toward a far distant goal. A mental burden is no less heavy, or less difficult to carry. We are the only ones who can dislodge it with Wands action. A change within ourselves is the first step. 

Saturday, September 12, 2020

Where Compassion Begins

 Telluric Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

The stone of compassion. Wards off fear and nightmares. Wisteria, a symbol of sensitivity. 

I'm trying to keep politics out of my journal. That sort of leaves me wordless... In ten years when I do a search for "Ace of Cups" I don't want to see a post spewing anger. I want to know what those days and cards did to inspire me to be a better person. Some days thinking about trying is as far as I can get. 

To quote myself from an Ace of Cups post a few years ago "If my cup seems empty I will curl up in the base and work on refilling the well".

Friday, September 11, 2020

Where Strength Begins

 Telluric Tarot ~ Strength

 Opal, colors derived from water, will crack under sudden temperature change.  Diphylleia, turns transparent when wet. Where is the Strength? We are packed for evacuation. No fire near, but the area could be ash tomorrow, towns have burned overnight, homes and businesses of people we know, places we've been. If we need to we can be out of here in 45 minutes or less, chickens dogs cats people, toothbrush. Racing down the road to... where? There is no safe direction to travel, the air is choked with ash. And Americans who believe Covid-19 a hoax. 

"the instinct to bolt has nowhere to go". Emma Harris, The Atlantic September 10, 2020.

What this card speaks of instead is accountability. Almost written as a Step 9. Maybe that is where strength begins. 

Thursday, September 10, 2020


 Telluric Tarot ~ Star

Aquamarinus by it's original Latin name, often completely flawless. Can you imagine? Could I even make it through a morning flawless? While I was sitting here watching the cursor blink I've already failed. A stone sits there, unchanging and unchanged, we can't do that. Just as well. Being flawless would be pretty boring. 

The Star offers us that suggestion though, to filter and sieve, let the dross flow away. The history books will judge the big stuff, the small stuff is just that. Borage offers healing properties, but I can say from personal experience, it also self seeds perhaps a warning against navel gazing. Too much of a good thing and all that. 

Wednesday, September 9, 2020

Wouldn't Turn It Down

 Telluric Tarot ~ Empress

My perception of Lapis lazuli has seeped in reading so many books on ancient Egypt. Dark blue, sometimes with tiny flecks of pyrite, they considered it the night sky jewel. This morning's research tells me it is Mohs scale 6.5 and mined in Afghanistan since 7000 BC. Never owned any, even with all my years of beadwork. 

Never used saffron either, never eaten it to my knowledge, or maybe once, Kathryn's saffron chicken in Wales? Yes. Working out the maths to make five portions of dessert, good laughs that night. 

Never was a mother in the general Empress sense, maybe that's why I have an ambivalence about this card. Along with the Emperor, High Priestess, Hierophant, Devil, Lovers, Justice... by this stage of life I've accepted I'm a minors sort of girl. But I wouldn't turn down a Lapis wrist gleamer, never think it, I'd lavish it with Empress Love. 

Tuesday, September 8, 2020

Perception vs Truth

 Telluric Tarot ~ Knight of Coins

Zircons are old as time itself and popular as gemstone jewels across all colors, blue being the current favorite. But the secret is the blue comes from heat being applied to brown zircons. So are they real? Of course they are. Are we real at 13 or 40 or 80? Absolutely but we aren't the same across that time, the fire and ice of life bring us from Fool to Knight and beyond. 

Our air is the dirty brown of forest fire smoke today, acrid to breathe. Doesn't mean the sky isn't blue, only our perception of it. Perception, a good think for today. Are mine based on internalization or critical thinking? Analysis and unbiased fact checking or believing what I want to believe because it is convenient or comfortable? 

Monday, September 7, 2020

Blue. Eee-uuuu.

 Telluric Tarot ~ World

Tourmaline. Mohs 7. Found all over the world, in so many colors until the mid-1800s they were often misidentified as other gems. Sort of like people. Passing. Posing. Posturing. Pretending. Preening. What can I say, we're human. 

Which brings us to the orchids of the world. I learned when we grew cut flowers as a sideline, there weren't any blue flowers although I always thought delphiniums came close. Probably why we got $5.00 a stem for them. What I know about orchids comes from Nero Wolf...but when I see those horrible blue orchids in the grocery store, oh eeuuu. Why dye a plant, why do that to something so naturally beautiful. But there we go, tourmaline and orchids, hardening into something that can't change and changing into something that shouldn't even be contemplated. Humans. The World. Too busy to polish our own colors because we are so busy judging someone else's choice of blue. (tourmaline image courtesy of Gem Select)

Sunday, September 6, 2020

Malachite And Sweet Peas

 Telluric Tarot ~ Page of Coins

Two favorites. I grow sweet peas each year along our entrance fence, raspberry colored ones in a vase in my kitchen as we speak. My father made stunning cabochon jewelry with malachite, I'm going to get mine out, I feel the need of a healing stone today. 

Education and practice move our Page of Coins along. I've been thinking about wake up calls and how they sometimes cause people to turn their life around. I've had five. the first at age 13, what does a kid know, didn't even have enough life experience to call for a do-over. Yet it has affected every day of my life since. 

Three cancers but blahblahblah. One in 1994 probably had the most generalized effect, I was literally 2 seconds and 4 feet from being crushed by a falling fir tree, the grill and hood of my Jeep proof every time I walked by it. The point of all this, and my pondering over the past few days is I think I live my life like someone who has had a wake up call. I make a point of spending my mornings in a productive or learning manner, and my afternoons enjoying the heck out of life. Simply. I have have no desire to climb the highest mountain, or swim the deepest sea. I appreciate Life as I'm living it. 

Saturday, September 5, 2020

Kickstarting Effort

 Telluric Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Wishful thinking vs. concrete actions. Buying fabric paint beads vs. completing projects. Lumber in shed, house falling down. Expensive fishing pole golf clubs fishing golfing biking. Tools at hand, auto dead,  too busy facescreen. We humans are funny, we embrace something because the idea of it seems so right. The effort...seems like too much effort. 

Stibnite is used in batteries. Khat leaves create a state of comfortable euphoria. Which to choose, which to choose. Tick Tick Tick. 

Friday, September 4, 2020

Life As A Sucker Tree

 Telluric Tarot ~ Hierophant

Believe it or not, I read this whole article on Slaurolite. Am I any smarter? No, more informed perhaps. Am I a happy girl knowing there are big Hierophant brains who study things like this? Yes, although I doubt that fact will impact my life on any level whatsoever. What I was looking for was information on Staurolite a whole different thing, but my eyes confuse t and l and I was off on my journey. Staurolite is interesting too :) Excellent article here. Mhos 7 by the way. Seldom used as a gemstone, but often displayed as an amulet because of it's natural cross bar shape. I want one to add to my tabletop naturescape or porch-side rock garden. Also called fairy stone, supposedly derived from fairy tears hardening. I'm not buying it, but happy others do. I of course have a Real fairy stone, a grey rock with holes all the way through it :). 

My hierophant starved mini-brain is like a tree that also makes sucker trees. But while we seek the light, and information, me and the sucker trees are having fun. And I'll put world hierophants in my gratitude journal tonight. Long may they learn and teach. 

Thursday, September 3, 2020

Cataclysmic Shifts

 Telluric Tarot ~ 10 of Cups

Agate is composed of layers and bands, flax is central to domesticity, the most ancient cultivated crop. Like family, gang, herd, flock, core group. We jockey for position, are compressed and woven, expand and extrude. 

I spend a lot of time thinking about family, very little time doing something about it, except further removing myself. Twelve years ago I wouldn't have conceived of the place I'm at now but there have been cataclysmic shifts since then. 

Today I miss my brother in law Les. His laughter. His world encompassing line "it is what it is". Pulled into the 144,000 sect, convinced to shun. I hope someone there appreciates his colors and bands while they cash his checks. 

Wednesday, September 2, 2020

Knowing When To Release

Telluric Tarot ~ 0 Of Cups ~ Release

In the 1700's sheets of this mica were being used as building glass in Russia. Today it is found in tools and as glitter in paint and makeup and the reflectiveness in street signs. The key to this card, and Muscovite and milkweed is the ability to release. 

It is no secret my temper is something I struggle with. I know it is acid to my well being. Recognizing the signs and releasing it somehow is the milkweed. But the slabs of Muscovite remain...and sometimes, just sometimes they are my strength. 

Tuesday, September 1, 2020

Quick Links

 Telluric Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

September 1, 5 AM. Fresh starts. Stunning cheese yellow moon. The earth is our oyster. I turn on the water boiler, clean the litter box, brush my teeth, wash my hands, make my beverage, shuffle my cards, fan and draw. Beauty. Diamond, mohs 10 hardness. Barley, basic grain. Last year we camped next to a beautiful field of barley  

September 1, 6:13 AM I turn to my bookmarked Quick links. On the 1st I add a contest I enter each morning, something to look forward to. Between yesterday and the 1st of August I added six links. To my post Grief, so I can update the sheer volume of asshat jiggery. To the CNN link. An amazing story on the history blog about a 400 year old wish/goal, kept alive and finally achieved. And following my love of the ancient... a globe of the world  where you can input a city and see where it was 120 million years ago. I was much nearer Canada, underwater. Cool. 

I'll delete those links now, they will live on here, add my link to the quilt store contest, and at the end of the month be surprised by what surprised me this September. Always something to look forward to.