Monday, June 14, 2021

Bringing It To The Top

 Elements of Recovery Deck ~ Choices

I've been struggling with part of my personality for years, moreso in the last five. Which beast do I feed? The one that says screw 'em all, who needs the grief?", or the one that says "keep reaching out, accepting defeat is madness"?

I was actually looking at two book choices this morning on Amazon, advocating each outlook. Being whipsawed at this stage of life is uncomfortable, unproductive, and upsetting. But as King says in the accompanying booklet, everything we do and think has strands that attach to other parts of our life. 

I can make physical decisions, but mind decisions...making something go away mentally that has been part of my life from day one...not so easy. Perhaps making the choice of bringing it to the top of my mind rather than stuffing it under yammer yammer yammer will eventually bring a choice and action that will provide peace.

6 comments:

  1. Being aware of our thoughts is hard to practice, but turning them in another direction more so. But with enough practice, it can be done (though not to perfection). :)

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    1. sometimes I think it would be easier to be oblivious. But I just walked our yard, mindfully, and I know oblivious isn't one of my choices.

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  2. I picked up the Book, CASTE, The Origins of Our Discount, from the library Friday. Is proving to be a bit of a challenging read but interesting. About the Caste systems in play, namely in the US. Though early in the read about ruling classes and slavery, it also points out the mindsest we are raised with. I realize I am still working on old programming of being the poor white kids in neighborhood, taking that stigmatism on through life of not having enough because possibly I am not good enough. It is a white noise in my hippocampus.

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    1. for all that I am thankful we don't have the unfathomable upper/lower class system of some european nations...

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    2. I read that book (heart-wrenching), and it points out that all nations have castes. We are just more careful about not labeling them as such.

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